/hb/ - Health & Beauty

I'm around 47kg at 160cm. I'm honestly pretty happy with how I look but I want to put on muscle. I know I need to stop losing weight and eat more if I want to do body recomp. First order of business is eating a substantial lunch instead of a few crackers and coffee.

HELP PLEASE I feel like I’ve been trapped in this endless cycle for so long. I’m 19, 163–165 cm tall, 55 kilos—and for over a year I’ve been eating less than 1000 calories, doing long fasts, exercising non-stop. For a while I even went to the gym for eight months, until my body completely shut down. I hit starvation mode, felt every possible symptom of stress, and honestly… I was just empty, like a shell of myself.

Not long ago, I was in a place where I ate a bit more “normally,” but not knowing exactly how many calories I was having made me spiral. The stress came back worse than ever. And now? Now I’m stuck fighting binge eating. I don’t feel full, I just know I could keep eating and eating without stopping. It’s exhausting.

I don’t know if I should keep trying to recover, or if I’ll just keep cutting calories until I completely lose myself—until I can’t enjoy anything anymore. And that thought terrifies me. I just want to feel normal again, to not be at war with food or with my own body. But right now… it feels so damn hard.

>>22096
Get back on your diet you big fat liar. You were not eating only 1000 calories a day or you wouldn't be so big. Fatso.

>>22096
That's like 20 BMI assuming 165 cm. I think you're doing more harm to yourself stressing over this.

>>22096
If you actually ate 1000 calories a day your weight would be way different. Starvation mode isn't real btw

>>22096
Have you considered going all-in? I was in a really bad place and the huge mental change going all-in takes heled me immensely.

>>22097
>>22099

Men aren't welcome here.

>>22101
yhi ek phait mahila kahegi

>>22101
I'm a woman who doesn't like little lying bitches

>>22103
First you said she was big and fat, now you're saying she's little. Who's really the liar here?

>>22104
O that wasn't me, I posted the losertown stats. And she's a munchkin (short+rotund)

>>22105
proana is leaking i see

>>22106
Is that a website or you mean like myproana

Look if you're going to post a fake caloric intake don't be surprised when you get called out. We're all anonymous no reason to lie.

>>22099
If I was eating around 800 calories, strength training somehow raised my cortisol levels and I started to GAIN fat. It's annoying that after so much effort I've actually lost so little weight. I think my body doesn't respond well to punishment. And it was less than a thousand, between 500 and 800 per day, no carbohydrates.

>>22112
Were you only eating packaged foods or using a scale? This doesn't sound believable. FYI if you use calories burned estimates on gym equipment they assume you weigh like 70kg by default so they'd be overestimating your output

>>22099
> Starvation mode isn't real.
Yes, it's real. It's just your body releasing a lot of cortisol because it's in extreme deficit and forcing it to exist.
That's why there's this thing called Ana insomnia. I developed ovarian cysts btw.

>>22113
Yes I was using a FUCKING scale to measurement every fucking gram I ate

To the point my body was cold and heavy

>>22114
It's not a medical term
>>22115
Sus

>>22112
>I think my body doesn't respond well to punishment.
why are you trying to "punish" your body bruh

>>22116
No but it exists
I said it’s just a lot of cortisol on your body

>>22117
Uuuhhh eating disorder?

>>22118
It doesn't prevent further weight loss from happening, people forget the max effect on metabolism is still modest, like 15%. Most people who preach about starvation mode are obese so apologies if you're just talking about a cortisol surge

>>22119
i hate to say it but to me it sounds more like a hypochondriac or somatic or histrionic disorder

>>22120
I didn't say I stopped losing weight. I'm still losing weight, but much more slowly because I'm still eating less than a thousand calories.
>>22121
Pain and insomnia probably was for a somatic reason idk
When stopped going to gym and no worrying about protein and carbs I lost 3 kg

>>22121
Agreed. This whole narrative is a symptom of something twisted.

>>22123
>When stopped going to gym and no worrying about protein and carbs I lost 3 kg
you should keep that up. you do sound like you have a problem with stress and cortisol, nona.
psychosomatic issues are a bitch.

>>22125
Thanks nona I've looked back on my problem and I think I've been doing well, and relatively well avoiding all types of sugar, so I'll try to just relax

Since I started eating more I've been so much hungrier. Last night I just reached my calorie goal with dinner. Woke up in the middle of the night super hungry. I'm oroud of myself for eating instead of suffering until morning. And I'm not going to restrict today to make up for it. Hopefully it will help me go harder in training.

>>22106
Munchkin cats are cute wdym