/hb/ - Health & Beauty

I'm around 47kg at 160cm. I'm honestly pretty happy with how I look but I want to put on muscle. I know I need to stop losing weight and eat more if I want to do body recomp. First order of business is eating a substantial lunch instead of a few crackers and coffee.

HELP PLEASE I feel like I’ve been trapped in this endless cycle for so long. I’m 19, 163–165 cm tall, 55 kilos—and for over a year I’ve been eating less than 1000 calories, doing long fasts, exercising non-stop. For a while I even went to the gym for eight months, until my body completely shut down. I hit starvation mode, felt every possible symptom of stress, and honestly… I was just empty, like a shell of myself.

Not long ago, I was in a place where I ate a bit more “normally,” but not knowing exactly how many calories I was having made me spiral. The stress came back worse than ever. And now? Now I’m stuck fighting binge eating. I don’t feel full, I just know I could keep eating and eating without stopping. It’s exhausting.

I don’t know if I should keep trying to recover, or if I’ll just keep cutting calories until I completely lose myself—until I can’t enjoy anything anymore. And that thought terrifies me. I just want to feel normal again, to not be at war with food or with my own body. But right now… it feels so damn hard.

>>22096
Get back on your diet you big fat liar. You were not eating only 1000 calories a day or you wouldn't be so big. Fatso.

>>22096
That's like 20 BMI assuming 165 cm. I think you're doing more harm to yourself stressing over this.

>>22096
If you actually ate 1000 calories a day your weight would be way different. Starvation mode isn't real btw

>>22096
Have you considered going all-in? I was in a really bad place and the huge mental change going all-in takes heled me immensely.

>>22097
>>22099

Men aren't welcome here.

>>22101
yhi ek phait mahila kahegi

>>22101
I'm a woman who doesn't like little lying bitches

>>22103
First you said she was big and fat, now you're saying she's little. Who's really the liar here?

>>22104
O that wasn't me, I posted the losertown stats. And she's a munchkin (short+rotund)

>>22105
proana is leaking i see

>>22106
Is that a website or you mean like myproana

Look if you're going to post a fake caloric intake don't be surprised when you get called out. We're all anonymous no reason to lie.

>>22099
If I was eating around 800 calories, strength training somehow raised my cortisol levels and I started to GAIN fat. It's annoying that after so much effort I've actually lost so little weight. I think my body doesn't respond well to punishment. And it was less than a thousand, between 500 and 800 per day, no carbohydrates.

>>22112
Were you only eating packaged foods or using a scale? This doesn't sound believable. FYI if you use calories burned estimates on gym equipment they assume you weigh like 70kg by default so they'd be overestimating your output

>>22099
> Starvation mode isn't real.
Yes, it's real. It's just your body releasing a lot of cortisol because it's in extreme deficit and forcing it to exist.
That's why there's this thing called Ana insomnia. I developed ovarian cysts btw.

>>22113
Yes I was using a FUCKING scale to measurement every fucking gram I ate

To the point my body was cold and heavy

>>22114
It's not a medical term
>>22115
Sus

>>22112
>I think my body doesn't respond well to punishment.
why are you trying to "punish" your body bruh

>>22116
No but it exists
I said it’s just a lot of cortisol on your body

>>22117
Uuuhhh eating disorder?

>>22118
It doesn't prevent further weight loss from happening, people forget the max effect on metabolism is still modest, like 15%. Most people who preach about starvation mode are obese so apologies if you're just talking about a cortisol surge

>>22119
i hate to say it but to me it sounds more like a hypochondriac or somatic or histrionic disorder

>>22120
I didn't say I stopped losing weight. I'm still losing weight, but much more slowly because I'm still eating less than a thousand calories.
>>22121
Pain and insomnia probably was for a somatic reason idk
When stopped going to gym and no worrying about protein and carbs I lost 3 kg

>>22121
Agreed. This whole narrative is a symptom of something twisted.

>>22123
>When stopped going to gym and no worrying about protein and carbs I lost 3 kg
you should keep that up. you do sound like you have a problem with stress and cortisol, nona.
psychosomatic issues are a bitch.

>>22125
Thanks nona I've looked back on my problem and I think I've been doing well, and relatively well avoiding all types of sugar, so I'll try to just relax

Since I started eating more I've been so much hungrier. Last night I just reached my calorie goal with dinner. Woke up in the middle of the night super hungry. I'm oroud of myself for eating instead of suffering until morning. And I'm not going to restrict today to make up for it. Hopefully it will help me go harder in training.

>>22106
Munchkin cats are cute wdym

Getting into weight training has been helping me eat more. I need the calories and protein to progress so I don't feel as bad going over my calorie goal.

I've been bloated and gassy for the past few days. I hope my digestive system adjusts soon.

>>22160
normal to be bloated after disordered eating recovery, for me i am still dealing with bloating and gas at night 5 years later. also start smoking weed to assist with food and sleep and stress

>>22160
Same its like I got lactose intolerant decades into being alive somehow

>>22161
Thanks. Alcohol is my poison of choice haha.

I've gained a kilogram and I feel conflicted about it. Trying to trust the process. It's hard to say how much my body is changing because of the bloating. But I don't dislike it. And mentally I feel a lot better.

I got an unsolicited compliment on my body today which made me feel good! I didn't realize how much I craved validation but I feel more secure in gaining weight now.

I ate (half of) the rice that came with my lunch even though I knew it wasn't calculated into the calorie count I looked up earlier. It was great!

I've been feeling weak and super hungry this week and I realized it's probably because I've been under my calorie goal for the past few days. I'm going to try to honor my hunger and eat when I need to.

I think I need to up my calories more. Lately in the afternoon I'm completely exhausted and coffee only mildly helps.

First Halloween season in years where I've eaten the treats I've been given. It feels nice to enjoy holidays normally.

Even though I'm tracking my calories and macros I didn't add it all up to see my overall monthly "balance" because I don't care any more!

Is chatgpt fearmongering me about being underweight? I was a little worried and gave it some of my stats (BMI under 16.5 but not too low, fatigue, muscle weakness, fogginess) and It's telling me I have a chance of dying when I'm about thirty or running through severe health issues but I just find it hard to believe.
I've always been under a 18 BMI, it only got worse in the past few years because of some personal issues and even though I am a little too skinny, it's nowhere near as bad as how it is with people like Eugenia Cooney, which is still well alive despite people always speculating she's done for

>>22435
AI is a hypochondriac lol

>>22435
Not to encourage you if you are underweight to an unhealthy degree, but anorexics don't actually die as soon as you'd think. Malnutrition isn't good, but vitamins are buffers for the reactions in your body so the reactions will happen regardless, just far less efficient. Minerals are needed, but if you live in the first world and eat any amount of meat you should be fine enough that your body shouldn't be more than vaguely malnutritioned, but not enough to turn your bones to Swiss cheese from metabolizing and using the minerals stored there. But again, so long as you're not severely undereating of underweight. For some skeletons the BMI isn't totally accurate right at the outskirts of "ok".
You kind of have to look objectively at your body and decide if you are more skin and bone than healthy but if you look healthy skinny then probably the only thing you might have issues with is micronutrients as it's harder to get enough when your calorie requirements are less like in shorter women and those with smaller skeletons overall. I would highly, HIGHLY recommend a multivitamin to be safe, or a green juice powder if you have issues with pills (multivitamins can be a little harsh on sensitive stomachs due to the minerals), especially for iron due to obvious female reasons. Also if you bleed a lot, start taking an iron supplement a day or two before your period starts and during it (every other day if you have a sensitive stomach or eat high iron foods instead). If you're American go for the Walmart brand or other store brand stuff as it's sadly the safest supplements in America (most likely to contain what it claims without extra expensive filler), in Canada you can chose any of them but the cheapest the better, Jamieson and Equate are great quality. More expensive stuff tends to be proprietary blends and molecules with less research behind them but created so they can sell something "unique", sometimes the molecular structure can change everything for the worst and dangerous so trust the basic molecules until at least 10 years of research is out for "alternative" molecular structures.
If you're smaller honestly all your tiredness could literally just be from iron as women need lots and if you don't eat as much it's harder to get. Especially in a world where we don't eat as much organ meats as we once did. If you can stomach them I highly recommend eating organ meats once a week, especially if multivitamins or iron supplements don't take well to your stomach. Chicken hearts taste a lot like red meat, I find it's a good introduction to organ meats if you struggle with the strong taste of liver. Liver pate can be a great way to consume it as the stuff you'll find in stores tends to not have any strong liver taste or aftertaste. Also exercise actually helps a lot too, you may not have much of an appetite cause you're not moving enough to require it and again, eating less means it's harder to get your micronutrients so eating more can have an overall boost.
Hopefully some of this info is helpful!

>>22435
16.5 BMI? You’re pretty underweight, I’d be surprised if you had a period at all. Definitely at risk of an earlier death but more importantly, poor health and low quality of life