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No I get that just from being alive.

>>10107
Same. Well mine turned into full blown split personality.

I experienced despersonalization for an entire day once but with flu medication. It was so thrilling I wish I could have it again. I was able to feel like a completely different person, seeing mundane things and situations like it was the first time I experienced them

The closes thing I had was that all my life until the last years or so I had this strange feeling of only living in first person and never thinking of myself as a thing that exist or is perceived, the only thing close to that was continuous deep fear in my bones of accidentally making a mistake and upsetting somebody, like what if my voice slipped and accidentally talked louder than I am supposed to, what if I don't help my parents properly with a thing and I accidentally ruin it, what if I brake something, what if I accidentally say something stupid and I earn a slap to the face so hard my whole cheek feels numb and I don't feel my skin and flesh in that region of the face only bone, looking back at it, I was a bit of a overly melodramatic oversensitive kid

>>10106
Don't be a junkie.

>>10106
I've gotten that, but not from weed. Just from severe trauma and flashbacks.
I spent almost my entire childhood in a dissociative state and then I had a really hard time getting to terms with learning that I wouldn't actually disappear into thin air somehow and had to live in the real world as an actual person who'd have to be an adult and everything…
Maybe I'm too used to dissociating, but I don't think it's all bad, it's only scary if I feel like I can't snap out of it, but that's never really happened to me before, if I couldn't snap out of it it was always because a big part of me just really didn't want to… Or when you're terrified and go completely mute and stuff, it's not that I want to talk, I just want to be left alone so that I can hide under my blanket, hug my plushies and feel safe again.
I got that dissociative empty feeling when I took laughing gas at the dentist, but I wasn't really worried about it, I was just glad that I didn't have to worry about the procedure as much and I felt normal again after the laughing gas effect dissipated. I wouldn't use it recreationally though, because I know that if I really need to dissociate, my body will do that on its own. I just kinda trust in it and hopefully I won't really need to do it and can just be myself and happy as a full person, even if it's hard sometimes.
I think hyperarousal is the worst though… I looked up some things to snap out of it because unlike with a dissociative state, I really can't stand this stress for more than a minute, it just drives me nuts and I really really don't want to wait for it to go away on its own, it sucks so damn much, I'd rather scratch my skin open or hopefully have mints or chilli to eat on hand because that kind of stuff really helps with it