morbid attractions Anonymous 11894
i am extremely mentally ill and incapable of standart romantic "love". when i "love" or have a crush on a person all i can think about is harming them physically and/or mentally. thinking about stuff like that brings me immense pleasure. it makes me giddy and excited to imagine them crying from pain and trembling in fear because of me. ill never act upon any of my desires for obvious reasons, but i just cant stop thinking about those things aswell as ruminating over how how alien my kind of "love" is compared to whats deemed socially acceptable. i cant imagine ever giving the subject of my attractions gifts or otherwise making them happy in any way; my brain is only satiated when it envisions them miserable. i dont date or have sex irl because relationships/intimacy seem pointless to me if im not actively making my partner suffer immense psychical and psychological pain. this isn't a troll post im making this thread because im a hermit with no one to talk to and i guess im also curious if any s on here have similar experiences
