I feel the same way. All the magic in this world is just so vague.
I've done some magic myself. At best I can slightly nudge reality in a general sense. Maybe talk to some beings that can't manifest themselves physically so you can't see or hear them with your own eyes and ears.
There is literally no chance of being able to cast fireballs, fly around, make things levitate, talk to an inhuman sentient creature, summon and dispel items from nothing, or anything else that's actually interesting. It doesn't matter how hard you might try, it can't be done
>It feels like walking around blindly in a world where everything is out of my reach.
Aint that the truth. Maybe some might disagree but I know magic exists. More than that, I know magic is like this elsewhere on other planets where energy can be manipulated to perform these miracles. Yet none of that is possible here.