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Know any phone numbers that do creepy or wierd things when you call them?

>inb4 therapy and take ur meds/kys

I know some people may be against it, but on my case I'm desperate and I've thought about it since I'm a kid.

The only 2 things that I want is, diligence and stop being in a frozen state due to mental health issues/trauma. Unfortunately tho, diligence is a virtue and not a sin, but since I'm an illustrator and I draw for people indulgence, doesn't that make it a sin at the same time?

The internet is an easy way to get some following, so in that sense if I can attract people to the things, in a way is a form of paying my debt a bit along with my soul but i feel/think that my soul has no value, since I have no family, I live alone, I was CSA and did CSAM from 5's to 9's, suffered isolation at kinder till high school, parents and brother were physically and emotionally abusive with me for like 2 decades and had no friends until recently in real life whom are like 2 fellas, I'm single and of course mentally ill, so I wonder if the devil would be interested in someone that suffered so much and has no love/people around but got the talent enough to attract thousands with art, which if I do I can earn lots of money if I do it constantly so that's kind of a sin too in some sort of sense.

I don't want romantic love, I want to stop being a schizoid bitch and do my job, get fame and bucks but seeing how my life was before I don't think the devil wants something to do with me, I don't know if tortured people are something attractive for demons or the devil to make pacts with.

I always wonder what did I do in the other life to go through so much shit, and I wonder if I'll ever get paid back the good things I deserve since I went through this.

Does the devil like people that haven't sin themselves but went through the sins others did on them? How comes life let the abusers live at peace but the children that suffered won't be able to live without having the sins of others over their shoulders?

Am I worth it for the devil? Or I just got nothing to offer at all?

          Y̯̥͓̫̦̒ͩ͆ͧͩ͌̈̽O̩ͫ͒͛̌Ǔ͕̞͔͚̘̙͉ͦͬ͋ ͎̰̟̰̱̖̮̓͛̔̊W̳͐͋̔̌ͧͨ̆̏I̜̰̭̣̤̖̱̲ͥS̘̭̤̹͙̤̬͑H̥̲̳̓̔̾̅ͧE̮̻͖̣͖̜̟̙ͬ̈́̓ͮ̓́D͇̓ͣ̂ ̰̰̟̬̩̓͆ͭ͒̌F̞̬̜͇͇̦ͣͨͩO͎̘̊̑ͩ̐ͤ͗͐̀R̖͓̳̮̥ͥ́̋ͥ͐͂ͩ̒ ̟̝̩͗̿ͯI̺̫͕̰̠̹̪̪̒̾ͬ̒̑ͮ̐̄T͔͖̝̱̹̣ͪ̿ͣ̂

Ever since I got rid of my ex's mementos and memories, my vision of him has slowly deteriorated until the only thing I could remember was a body of water. Similar to Chaos or that guy from Terminator. All that remained is a human being made of water. He hugs me and cuddles me, but I don't see hair, nor skin, nor a face in it.
And I wonder, my mother used to say she was very spiritual and that she could see spirits because she went to many spiritual locations, and she did say that these spirits would be like a body of water. I went to search on the internet but there seems to be no real consensus on how these spirits/souls look like.
Anyhow, how do you think spirits/souls look like?

What are your signs, miners?

I’m a Pisces…

I'm so fucking lonely and touch starved.
I ask a favor from anyone reading this and yes if possible multiple people can do this for me if you want

Please next time you go to sleep right before you fall asleep imagine a scene of me and a woman holding hands over and over again and just that until you fall asleep.

Please also separately and or together also meditate on the idea of you holding hands with me.

Pic related is obviously not me

i'm currently working on an aphrodite altar!! i will be adding candles, seashells(real ones), aquamarine, rosequartz, pink sand, apples, pretty vintage things, mirrors, myrtle, roses, lavender and of course a statue of herself.

is there anything else i should add?

Share weird, creepy, or abandoned Google Maps locations

https://www.google.com/maps/place/Duga/@51.3050689,30.0659905,716m/data=!3m1!1e3!4m5!3m4!1s0x472a89ed1d7d55c3:0x8ef8a104a33b9ccd!8m2!3d51.3055615!4d30.0669354

>no monster boys thread up
let's change that

Hey, so I don’t know if any of you are into Neville Goddard.

But I don’t think it matters much?

There’s this guy that I am into but I think he wouldn’t be physicallly attracted to me.

For instance, he’s shorter than me and Asian (et cetera) and I’m HUGE and brown with an afro.

Sometimes I fool myself into believing we have a connection but nowadays I think that maybe I’ve allowed fantasies and mysticism to take control over the reality that maybe he’s just a really nice guy, in general.

I was wondering if manifestation ever covers this topic? On how to attract someone who you think isn’t attracted to your physical features AT ALL.

Any stories, examples or advice is welcomed.