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Me too. I keep getting killed in my dreams. Maybe we just consume too much violent media? No idea.

No I get that just from being alive.

>>10107
Same. Well mine turned into full blown split personality.

I experienced despersonalization for an entire day once but with flu medication. It was so thrilling I wish I could have it again. I was able to feel like a completely different person, seeing mundane things and situations like it was the first time I experienced them

>>3387
I know it means nothing, it's just fun to see the similarities

>>1578
How did you manage to get into a gifted class in school with this kind of crap?
>Blue eyes
>Dunno about the bun
>Nope
>Yup. Nearly drowned as a kid. But was already in those classes at the time, IIRC.
>Yeah, but that's not unusual. My whole childhood is like that.
>Nope
>Nope. Been creeped on, because pretty. But not followed.
>Dunno. Never tested it. Not dumb enough to try.
>Dunno
>Yup
>Nope. Did drugs in my 20s. Most 20yos do.
> Nope
>nope
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My friend had some creepy experience like this and some sketchy shit going on in there wtf

>>1578
I'm Indian, so a lot of the phenotypic things didn't apply, but I dated other gifted guys in this class who met so many of these stereotypes (weird premies with blue eyes and drug issues who were 4channers with alcoholic parents). I find a lot of these stereotypes never applied to the Indians/Asians in these classes but are definitely true of the white people

>>1578
>Blue eyes (hazel seems equally common)
Brown, but there's a deep blue ring around the edge of my iris
>Occipital Bun (aka math bump on the the back of the skull = Neanderthal trait)
Yes
>Birth Complications (like weeks early or not breathing)
No
>Near Death Experiences (especially drowning)
Not really, but I've gotten into some dangerous situations before (was nearly shot and stabbed on different occasions)
>lack of memory of TAG (we all did many many hours there, and it's very vague)
I just remember doing weird math and geometry exercises, hearing tests, and something vaguely reminiscent of an IQ test
>windows covered in TAG classrooms
Yes
>tendency to be followed, especially by creeps
No, but I live in a dangerous part of town so I'm always scared of getting followed
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ive always wondered if you could "group shift" like shifting with multiple people ive heard the term but ive never done any futher research on it

i wanna do it with my gf, does anyone have any resources?

me too, except i also believe in forced reincarnation (respawning). I tried multiple times for the past two years and got pretty close, except I chickened out since my heart pain was getting intense. I originally wanted to respawn via a heart attack but decided that I would just erase my existence instead. I've been taking a break from it for a while since I started school again. Unfortunatly, I'm still experiencing the heart pain … but it's alright since at least I know I'm getting somewhere.

>>8698

But I have to transfer my soul before I die! The death part comes after.

On another note, I really want to shift back in time, preferably to the precambrian era. Maybe even see dinosaurs and early hominids.

It is 2024, I still keep my hopes high for reality shifting and reincarnation. I am planning on going back in time to when I was in fourth grade so I can relive life in a perfect world. I wrote a script for how this world would be like, I wrote basic changes that would make it a better place. I wanted to know if you nonas had any ideas on what I should add to benefit woman.

>>10089
I feel the same and also wanna shift and time travel and genuinely believe in it I believe in a lot of woo woo things even physical healing and found spiritual people who do claim it's possible and happened before lol

>>10036
I believe everyone in this site knows that.

>twenty years from now, we will all be living in a pure-blood internet society.

Do you mean a society in which the internet isn't run by conglomerates?
I'd love to see that. I wonder what would come of society that way.

Would you have to go out of your way to find desired communities? There's no way an unbiased feed algorithm can exist without someone trying to take advantage of it.

What does such a society look like?

>>10055
Not her, but there's a much darker way of reading "pure-blooded internet society."
The current generation of school age children, Gen Alpha, are often called 'iPad children' due to a combination of internet access and naive/incompetent millennial parents. Zoomers are currently ages whatever through mid-20s. Millennials are 40 now.
In 20 years, all levels of society will be ruled by "digital natives." People who did not know life without the internet will be retiring from various trades and careers (mid-50s is mandatory retirement age for a lot of labor intensive jobs). Every single facet of society will be downstream of online culture. Any forces that shape, contort, control, distort, filter, adapt, shift or serve that culture will have downstream impact in absolutely everything. We can expect the final effect of this to be utterly devastating.

Consider what dating looks like. And consider the fact that if you tried to start a workplace romance today you would be putting yourself at risk, not just in the emotional or social sense involving risk of rejection but in the economic sense that your workplace would probably want to eliminate you, a sane, polite woman behaving like a well mannered adult, for inappropriate behavior. Gen X women did not face that reality. Millennial women did not know a life in which dating apps were the only reasonable means of getting a date once high school or at latest grad school ended. Nearly every facet of social life flows downstream from dating, because male socio/biology prioritizes sexual opportunity and because expenses and economic activity must account for householding etc. - there is already a thread up on the other boards that talks about the downstream impacts of this, "there are no spaces for young people." Movies require a romance subplot and not all movies can be historical, military or fantasy. There are no aspects of culture unaffected, here, today. In 20 years every child will have been conceived by parents who chanced to swipe correctly in some online loneliness misery engine - parents who see nothing wrong with that, who will not raise their children to see what is wrong with that because they know nothing else and because of their entire generational survivorship bias.

>>9880
Pedophilia is one of the last things you can blackmail someone for, now that all other taboos have been normalized. And with the amount of surplus human beings on the earth right now, there is little material consequence for using massive amounts of children to blackmail the powerful. Britain, where Freemasonry really gained a foothold, was the first to capitalize on this. Blackmail became their new means of conquest once they no longer had people to fight their wars. They simply blackmailed the living shit out of everyone powerful in America, and turned America into their puppet state.

The Scottish Rite does this too. They use them in "rituals" (just an excuse to rape children). Typically the members' daughters. I'm one of them. I'm also not the only one. A doctorate thesis by another woman who was abused in the Scottish Rite as a child: https://ogma.newcastle.edu.au/vital/access/manager/Repository/uon:749
The Scottish Rite funds research on schizophrenia and autism and other brain disorders from purely a physical perspective with no consideration given to trauma. https://srcf.ca/research/
A Scottish Rite children's hospital collected rape kits and locked them away. https://www.ajc.com/news/local/cops-never-picked-211-rape-kits-children-healthcare/eDgdbgn6nG1dfzi78hnB1H/

my friend showed me this the other day

yeah im going into the rabbit hole right now

The rabbit hole that I'm interested in is the fact that a lot of these cults and secret societies are connected. They operate in a pyramid like hierarchy with the elitist cults/secret societies like the Shriners on top and the more lowly cults at the bottom. I figured that the lowly cults do the dirty work of the higher ups. I noticed this when I found at that Charles Manson had many connections to different cults like Scientology, ordo templi orientis and others.

>>9915
As a mercenary, I can say this is true

I mean, I don't think that, but I'm interested in why you think so.

>>10013
>>10029
Jay Z has a history of allegedly sacrificing people, one of which being Kanye's Mom

>>10013
>>10031
Go on…

>>8072
i was friends with
>this ginger cunt who has some mental illness ( autism or something) who openly said to the entire friend group that she likes a 9 year old ( she was 14) also apparently she meets the 9 year old every wednesday and she thinks he loves her too because he blowed her a kiss ( he probably was joking) im scared if she's done something to him.

>A , yet again , a ginger cunt. She was always confessing to my gay best friend , her entire personality was the fact that she was Irish (yet she couldn't even speak it that well) , she embarrassingly sang a shitty irish song infront of the whole school. She faked multiple mental illnesses and she got my other good friend into trouble because she asked the ginger cunt if she had BPD and she asked what are the symptoms so she said them and the ginger cunt started to cry when she said `wanting to kill yourself` as a symptom , the ginger cunt then snitched on my friend to the teachers.

tdlr; I fucking hate gingers
(

Not your average weirdos, these are legit degenerates ngl.

>>8072
Based. Wish I had a bunch of weirdo friends like this.

>>8072
The NSA was weird top left bottom up sideways.

>>9917
ik this is an old thread, but seconding as another person who has the did diagnosis it sounds dissociative, op, like a lot.

glad ur symptoms have cleared

Go see a professional, nona, we can't diagnose you.

>>9801
without really meaning to I ended up kind of making a tulpa of my cat after she died, idk if it's a full-fledged one but it's been over a decade and I can still visualize her perfectly at random times, being actively engaged in her typical activities or demanding my attention.

Been slowly training myself to solidly give myself a sort of tulpa. I've always had imaginary friends that felt super real so I'm hoping to do that again and have a bit of a pseudo romance partner while I'm in my current situation. I can't be in a real romantic situation and I'm feeling a lot of longing for some love and happiness but doing things for myself rings hollow. Imagining a tulpa encouraging me to do things for myself or doing them with me makes it nicer to treat myself to a meal or settle in for a movie. It's also nice because I'm using it to replace the associations I had with my ex (my first real relationship) so I can start liking the things I love again and not just associating dates and romantic things with my ex monster (and him ruining nights or it being obvious empty lovebombing) but without making a mistake with rebounding while I'm still weak and wanting love to fill the void he created. I know most of that void is also just codependency beat into me so I need to safely heal it away.
It's also really helped with living with my agoraphobia. Not really with it going away or helping on its own but imagining him with me on the bus feels safer and I can focus on him instead of anyone so I have managed to leave the house a bit on my own. When intrusive thoughts of my ex or flashbacks come in he can wipe them away and come try and sooth me instantly without having to communicate obviously which is nice. Hugging myself through a situation doesn't feel as nice as imagining him surrounding me with safety and love and comforting me with judgement-free words partners say to their loved ones. It helps the pain a lot honestly. It's much more productive than any other places my imagination would otherwise go during an episode, it's like the spot is taken up by the mental power to create him so the memories aren't quite as strong when it happens. I'm hoping he can help me get my way into therapy because I'm in a spot where I haven't been strong enough to mail the damn referral. He'll probably also be better experience for what I want and don't want in a relationship too than the monster lol.
It's been comforting at least. I'm hoping to keep developing and growing it, it's been some of the nicest warm feelings along with also helping me to be used to love at all and accept things like my family's love better too.
I'm just rambling at this point but I think this tulpa thing was a great decision and I'm so happy I found this thread

>>10005
Samefag but I guess the other thread was probably more appropriate but too late