I never thought of using this place when i realized that LCF was down, I miss the banter and other dumbass shit we would discuss on equally dumbass threads. I love all of you, I hope we can go back home one of these days.
Why does reality sux so much? I just want to open a cute pink bakery in a beautiful village and spend all day cooking cakes and other pasteurizes for my lovely imaginary community. The closest i can get to that irl would be to rent a an ugly shop in a strip mall, serving shitty cheap cakes to rude amerifats, and losing my business in 5 years because the rent increased. Ik this rant is random but one of my favorite small business ice cream places from childhood just shut down in my shitty gentrifying city and it opened up the wounds of my broken childhood dreams.
To the anon in the last thread who is dealing with the work crush … Months ago, I did it, I took the leap and I left my long-term relationship because I couldn't stand how intense my workplace crush was. I felt like I was emotionally cheating, and I could hardly sleep at night thinking about him. So I dumped my boyfriend. Then, I contacted my crush, and we got together. It was a pretty huge mistake.
>>293678 This sounds like a desperate ex. Have a bit more class, nona. Use proper grammar, and good spelling. We need to make a good impression, not sound like a total sleazebag
>This sounds like a desperate ex. Have a bit more class, nona. Use proper grammar, and good spelling. We need to make a good impression, not sound like a total sleazebag
>>293677 I 100% get you nona. I dream of opening a book café in a quaint little town with this sorta hobbit-esque aesthetic but that will never happen. But at least we got our imaginations?
>>293678 when the admin replied to my schizophrenic 11 hour ban for obese cat sperging in Jill's thread inadvertently revealing the /w/ farmhand is retarded but they don't reply to your simple question.
Streamers appeal to the smoothbrain much younger generation that thinks they are relatable. Remember when we got asked what we wanted to be 10+ years ago in school? Firefighter, singer, DJ, doctor/nurse, etc. Now people are answering youtuber or twitch streamer or tiktok star. This generation is doomed.
>>293665 Depends on the person, when I got my first job I went from a suicidal TiF to a radfem who joins in local fairs and fundraisers. And it wasn't even a good job, it was literally just being a shitty Walmart cashier kek.
i started journaling this year but for a whole month i lost the motivation after doign it every day. now i cannot get the motivation to start again i dont know why
>>293695 i'm the nona of the post you're replying to. it's a cashier job i was looking at, too. i just want to make some money to help out at home and stop leeching off my mother as i take a break from finishing college. i feel like it'll help me stop feeling like such a failure. or at least i hope it would
>>293699 My crush, like pretty much all crushes, was an idealization. As months went by I got to know him and a real person came into perspective, quite different from his "work" self, which I had fallen for. He was an average, porn-addled scrote, and also a functioning alcoholic – which I had no idea about from working with him. The feelings I had were so intense they warranted blowing up my 4 year relationship (which needed to end anyway, really). I should have gotten a new job, started ignoring my crush at work, or taken a cold fucking shower. Part of the appeal, also, was the fact that the crush was a secret. It was this weird, addicting feeling. Once we were publicly an item, most of the intensity immediately died.
Okay anons so here's what we got, >the scorned, scat fetishist boyfriend of a lolcow discord anon who posted revenge porn of her shittingninto a toilet >empath-chan forked out some money for a ddos >a group effort ddos from some chud 4chinners who also wiped half of 4chan Which one are you believing?
>>293706 original work crush anon from last thread here! Tysm for your perspective. I think this is what I needed to hear on top of the advice from the nona in the other thread. Like, someone who had experienced it and was other the other side. My partner and I have been together for 15 years. I know this work crush is not worth throwing that away.. and that I’m getting carried away with myself. Thanks again! I will think of you every time I’m spiraling over the other person.
>>293706 >Part of the appeal, also, was the fact that the crush was a secret. It was this weird, addicting feeling. Once we were publicly an item, most of the intensity immediately died. Ntayrt, but I wish more people understood this. Most of that appeal for coworkers, bosses, teachers, mentors, etc. fizzles out once you enter a mundane relationship with that person. You eventually realize you probably wouldn’t have given that person a chance had you met them anywhere else.
I really miss the unconventionally attractive males thread right now. There is no way I am shitting up this thread with my retardation. Is there a thread similar on cc anons? I'm honestly not sure which board to even look on.
>>293595 I am absolutely horrified than anons are so dumb or naive that they have to ask lolcorbunker if a man has red flags when they’ve seen him do… this. In real life. If a man said that shit in my presence I would walk off and feel mortified I ever even hung out with him. I don’t understand you anons is this was female brainwashing does? This is upsetting.
>>293704 When I was just getting out of NEETdom I got a shitty part time job in retail. Not every day was good but for the most part it helped me keep a normal schedule, put something in my bank account, and made me interact with other people. I liked my coworkers and enjoyed chitchatting with customers. The fact I knew I could always quit if I couldn't handle it anymore helped me a lot.
It didn't solve all of my problems but it helped me a lot. Otherwise I was stuck at home and fell into the same unproductive cycle of self-loathing. A job gives you responsibility and connection, it isn't always a bad thing.
I missed lolcor so much, nonas. I have an exceptionally milky cow i used to know irl who'd be absolutely perfect for the personal cows thread and I've finally gathered screenshots and everything. Now there's nowhere to post or talk about this horrendous troon (doesnt help that idk anyone who's peaked irl and don't wanna waste my time/be squawked at by handmaidens and the like, even though a fair share of them have been harassed by this POS).
Why is it so impossible for actors to convincingly cry? All they can ever manage to do is wipe at their dry eyes, or squeeze out a tear or two. It's really not hard to fake cry, I can do it on command just by distorting my face in that way you do when you're about to bawl your eyes out. They are so pathetic
>>293725 I’ve seen her post about the same man on lc like over a month ago, idk why she’s still asking questions, like he’s obviously not worth the second thought. Anon don’t think about him anymore, he’s worthless.
>>293704 AYRT I would definitely go for it, wanting to help fix up our house was the reason I started applying to jobs, our plumbing was fucked and we didn't have enough money to hire someone. It feels good to be able to help out.
>>293682 The last time lolcow was down for ages I was posting in the bunker threads about my work limerance situation. Turns out I was having a stress-induced manic episode. Thank GOD I rejected his advances holy shit.
>>293694 >>293671 They basically give you a friend experience and talk about stuff. Ideally, a streamer would talk about interesting things so like, if a streamer only plays farming games AND is a farmer too, then the streamer could be like >omg this is so cool, the waiting times in this game are accurate like in real life! Eggplants are from this family of category for eggplants and they do need to be planted in this specific time of the year! While the little character moves around or whatever. But it's such an "easy" way to make content because people nowadays just want background noises to listen to while doing chores or dissociating, that sometimes it's just random sounds or laughter at best, and boring jokes. And I say it's "easy" because you just have to be relatively charismatic and/or attractive to get people to listen to you ramble about random stuff all day long.
>>293717 I haaaate this feeling because it's not limited to just relationships. I'm pretty sure I only got so far in learning french because it was my little secret. I lost like 75% of my interest once someone caught me, the fact that I could hold a meager conversation in french by then is the only reason I kept learning.
I'm listening to a song I kept listening to while I fantasized about going to the gym. Except now I really got the courage to leave my house and go to the gym everyday. Been going for a few days now. I'm happy I finally did it, n0nnas.
>>293710 sadly we don't celebrate Halloween in my country, if we would, I would go as a scary potato sack, don't know what it is and how it would look, but it would be fun.
I’m so miserable I’m never gonna be in love like that again and before you say yes you will no I won’t because I’m not a normie who crushes on lots of people I’ve only liked 2 people in my entire life and I’m almost 30. And I already know there’s no one who will ever even come close. It’s been a full year now and I’m still just as depressed as I was at the start. I don’t understand why it had to end this way it’s like a cruel joke. I thought time heals or whatever but it really does not. I think my life is ruined now. I think this is just how it will be from now on. I’ve tried so hard to get it together and I can’t. And now I don’t even have lc to distract me. I have to sit at work all day thinking about this loss instead of sleeping for 20 hours a day like I do on the weekend. I hate being conscious. I hateeeeeee it. I want to be asleep always.
>>293745 I warned you that I wanted you a great mod, you troll the janitor and you fuck the janitor I warned you that I would return here to LOLCOR by my next presence We're helpless Nothing comfortable You're doing nothing You're not doing anything You're not using anything You're not using anything You hurt us you are the worst than you are the worst I want to go home, and I want everything to be normal again, and it unleashes my hellish world, I still feel like I'm back and there's nothing yet please please please please please please please PLE Correct the eyesight I'm begging for you please give me GIVE US /M/ BACK MODERATOS WHY DO YOU LEAVE US HALF DONE WHAT IS THIS JUST REMOVE THE BOARD IF YOU CARE SO LITTLE YOU RUINED MY VALENTINE'S DAY ALONE AND YOU RUIN EVERY SUBSEEUQNET DAY SINCE THEN CORRECT YOUR MISTAKES AND RETSTORE /M/ TO ITS GLORY ITS NOT RIGHT ITS JUST NOT RIGHT
>>293755 take a step back and look at what you're saying. you think your life is ruined because you aren't in love/a relationship? nona there is more to life.
>>293703 Fujochan is unnecessarily angry at yumes, I don't get it, it's basically the same stuff and everyone hates yumes and fujos equally, may as well stick together.
>>293758 Ntayrt but i’m not gonna lie nonié, my life didn’t begin until my husband joined it. God forbid any harm come his way but if i ever lost him i’m pretty sure i’d feel similarly to how tayrt is
>>293720 Same, especially because my husbando is a streamer. The answer to >>293671 is "they sit there and look handsome for me". There's >>>/nsfw/13792 but it's kind of dead because it got moved to the nsfw board for toilet crimes I think.
>>293758 I understand what you’re saying because I used to feel that way too, I thought what’s the big deal, I can be single forever, it’s not that hard, why do people complain. And then I fell in real adult love the first time and I can’t go back to living that way. My life is empty and grey before and after anyway, I have a fucked up brain. I only saw color for a flash and I can’t go back to facing my grey world. I was happy for the first time in a decade of trying. I wish it never happened so I could have continued trudging through my grey world not knowing my heart was missing anything. But at the same time I don’t because it was so incredible. I hate the way I experience life. It’s a year later and I’m literally going to cry at work.
>>293755 I'm in a similar situation. Five year relationship that just ended, only person I have ever actually loved, close to 30. I've been going through grief ever since. Not only for the end of the relationship but what I thought my future would look like that is now completely unattainable. I didn't know what to do with myself, what I was working towards, what I should prioritize now that I was on my own. Everything seemed meaningless and empty now that I was on my own.
I've chosen not to focus on relationships or finding love at this point. A good relationship can add so much to your life, but I need to learn to be comfortable on my own and build a future I am happy in without someone there. You're right there is no guarantee you will find what you lost again. But life is still worth living outside of it. It's okay to be sad and mourn what isn't but don't lose sight of what you still have.
>>293757 I can’t believe this is such a recent copypasta, I totally forgot it was about the /m/ annihilation and I’m fact I was so convinced it was older that when I was looking for the it last week. I was like “where is the original??? I can only find the edited /m/ version reeeee” but no. It really is that young. But I feel like I’ve known it forever.
i'm using an abandoned heolkek thread for bunkering, we dont have to declare it an official bunker thread and maybe sage your posts so they draw too much attention but lets go
s I am so annoyed. I recently got diagnosed with PCOS a couple weeks ago even though I've had symptoms since I was 11-12, but I digress. I had to get bloodwork done again and I had to message my former gynecologist because my current one says she doesn't respond quickly but the former one refused to give me birth control. I messaged her anyways and lo and behold, days later no response. I just want to be treated!!!
Don't know much about the mods/admins but the fact that maintenance is taking this long is starting to make me panic. Reminds me of when PULL went down.
>>293778 I will sooner eat worms than set foot on that website. I didn’t know what it was so I clicked on it and was instantly jump scared by sheet white photoshop plastic surgery kpop man ghouls. They’re seriously scary.
Did I really just get spoiled on whats probably the ending of Space Marine 2 because of the fucking recommended video sidebar. I hate this world, reinstalling unhook right now
>>293800 >>293796 Ahhh you s are right I'm sure, I know how bad and even dangerous BC can be for women. I'm not sure what else can be done other than healthy eating though…
this talk about halloween reminds me of my first halloween where instead of candy, a man opened his door with a scary mask on and screamed at me. i really think it traumatized me because every halloween after that i would stand very far from the door in fear of it happening again. i was like 3 years old, what a fucking faggot. 20+ years ago and i still feel the fear i felt, i hope he's dead!!!
>>293802 There's emerging evidence that a keto diet can be used to manage PCOS. There's plenty of woman that say that it works but the scientific evidence isn't quite there yet. It might be worth trying if you've been through every other treatment and haven't found one that works.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9974679/ >Preliminary data suggested significant improvements in body weight and composition, metabolic profile (glucose, serum insulin, triglycerides, total and low-density lipoprotein cholesterol), and insulin resistance following VLCKD. However, the evidence is still scarce and needs to be more substantiated.
Literally why not someone just make our own temporary replacement? It's not really fair to these other communities we keep shitting up, and we just look desperate and sad.
>>293802 Low carb/keto eating Exercising Some teas can help with cysts themselves, bloating and some other symptons
It's pretty cliche, but until medicine stop being male-centric, we can only work with what we have. I also take some anti-androgins, but currently they are going through a shortage in my country (probably due to TRAs…)
The Lolcow diaspora is the most persecuted minority, we have been silenced and deleted and banned for the mere act of being a farmer. When will we return to our homeland? I'm so tired nonas. I'm so cold and weak. Will we ever taste milk ever again….
>>293814 Kek, we have banished kpopfags out of our own board tbh. I understand them not wanting to host us. CC is exceptionally nice to us, i'm shocked.
>>293735 Thank you! I think I have but will have to see her first. She will for sure be getting her second name from both of her great grand mothers. I'm not from a English speaking country but where I'm from late 1800's and early 1900's are trending and there are so many beautiful names from that era. I'm sure it's about the same cycle everywhere.
>>293818 Because I'm fine with staying here personally. It works for what it is and it's not too far off from LC itself. I'm also not the ones that keeps trying to find random boards, if we wanted to do that, our best bet would be an entirely dead board
I need to know if I'm being crazy: A couple months ago I found out the man I was seeing was seeing another woman. I found out by getting a "my girlfriend will kick your ass text" randomly from him. I'm guessing it was her, though it doesn't really matter. He's a tattoo artist. A couple weeks later a friend of mine sent me a screenshot of something he had drawn and told me she wanted it tattooed. I hadn't told her what was going on yet, because I was kind of in the process of moving away from her anyway. I told her him and I were no longer talking, that I had been threatened, and asked her to not send me anything of his anymore. She didn't respond. I've barely heard from her since then. She's asked me to hangout a couple times but I haven't. Today she texts me "I miss you. I have so much to tell you. Let's catch up this week. Love you". It pushed me over the edge. She knew how tangled up in this dude I was and she hasn't reached out once to see if I'm okay. I'm not on social media so she genuinely has no way of knowing if I'm alright. I snapped. I told her I was slightly annoyed with her liking photos of the him and the other girl that the girl posted. Her response? "Are you serious? I can't be friends with him? Do I agree with what he did to you? No". I told her I'm sure she'd be stoked knowing I was friends with the dude that's been fucking with her for the last couple years and then blocked her. I swear, she only reaches out to bitch about her fuck buddy, her family, or to rub a new guy she's been hanging out with in my face. I'm so over it. But now I'm all trauma responsey and feeling bad about saying anything. She runs around telling people I'm her best friend.. but she never goes out of her way to check on me. I have on her multiple times since we stopped working together. Fuck sake.
>>293823 It's the same in the states. Supposedly name trends are on a roughly 100 year cycle. It takes about that long for an old name to come back into style.
I thought everyone was being dramatic when they would post about how LC isn't coming back but I'm starting to believe it. Who will be its pallbearers as we escort it to its funeral?
>>293837 Yup it's usually when there is no one with the name around anymore but maybe someone you want to honor with that name. Of course there are other maybe more local trends also. However it's funny how hard it is to perceive these trends in completely different language environment than your own even though they probably are very similar.
>>293802 There’s definitely a link with insulin resistance, look it up and if you think it might be your cause something like metformin can help. Med diet, walking, inositol as well can all help
>>293847 if it was truly dead then we wouldn't see the evidence of admins messing with new servers among other things. It'll come back I just think admins had no idea how much time it would realistically take to get the site back up to snuff
We are fighting the End Dragon again in 30 minutes (4:45PM EST)! If you want to partake in our End Dragon rematch (Pt. 2 Electric Boogaloo edition), feel free to stop in! Some food will be provided, but please bring your own armour and weapons. If you can't make this one, we're holding out final rematch event on the 14th at 11:30AM EST for anyone that couldn't make it for the first two, or the ones that wanted to try again!
Picrel is yesterdays End fight, everyone had a lot of fun! The End Fagon was easy to vanquish, the proana moids that wandered the land were slaughtered by brave Cowtown soldiers, and the valiant explorers wandered the wasteland to collect loot and victory spoilsafter many hours of schizophrenia-inducing bridging over nothing and a lot of gruesome death by falling. This event was very fun! Thank you to all the players that came! After the End Dragon rematch on the 14th, we're gonna do a Wither Fight as well!
>>293846 Worry about more things. But fun things. What if a little baby elephant walks in right now. What if you win the lottery. What if you see a really lovely sunset. What if you meet a cool dog tomorrow. What are you gonna do then?
why do you faggots keep trying to migrate? the mods here might be retarded but just be marginally less retarded here and you'll be able to post fine. we dont need to pick up and move every fucking day because you're too retarded to post without getting your shit deleted. just stop being an insufferable sperg and I N T E G R A T E if you want to post so badly. so pathetic
>>293846 Try to imagine how you would control that situation. For example, in my case, my country has a dictatorship that barely anyone else acknowledges because it wouldn't be practical to do so. So, I think, how could I solve this? I can just go outside and wreak havoc I guess, and then get sent to jail like the nearly 2,500 people that have been getting sent to jail and torture centers so I get released in 15 years if I'm lucky. I could try to fund a political movement on my own, but with what money? I don't even have a job, I also don't have a degree in politics. I could try convincing the military and the police to go against the government, but I, again, don't have the money to fund that. But what did I do? I voted against the government, it's all I can do. And there's nothing wrong with that, because a dictatorship of this kind only ends with the hydra getting beheaded a thousand times, not by me going to jail for trying to act like a heroine. That's basically what I do to just, at least not overthink what's going on.
been thinking long and hard about that one nonita who asked if i was a yume and now i’ve been imagining myself being held by him and it is kinda nice….
>>293862 This. I'd say we're lucky we haven't been exiled here either. Sure the automod is a bit dumb but just integrate. If you want to talk about cows so badly just go to KF at this point.
>>293846 Practice radical acceptance. There are things we cannot and are unable to control. In any given situation the only thing you can do is control your reaction to it. It's quite freeing letting go of everything else.
>>293867 Be safe nona!!!! You can always come back for the third rematch this weekend!! After that, players will be able to fight the End Dragon as many times as they'd like, so even if you miss this one or the next we can always plan something out again! Be safe for the hurricane, prepare well!
You know, someone can make an lc bunker board on junkuchan so cows can have their separate threads and /ot/fags can have their own threads. You need to make an account, but it’s not hard to make a throwaway one. And the board creator has moderation rights.
>>293863 No we're not kek, the issue is that there are lots of spergs indeed, like the antifujos, the antiyumes, the bpdchans aka the anons with unironic husbands and boyfriends, the terminal shitposters and the tranny and moid supporters. Honestly, it could all be okay as long as they allow a shitpost/dumbass thread and a relationshit thread to keep them all at bay.
>>293869 I'll never go to KF. TBH, the most fun I had on lolcow was when I went around once a week to catch up on my favorite cows. The threads didn't move extremely fast unless it was a really active cow and even then it was fun to take it in all at once. It lost its charm once I started going every day and got so bored with lack of updates. Every thread has to move so fast now because farmers don't want to wait for real milk anymore and have to post every single status update of the cow. I honestly believe that cows like Shayna and the endless cowtipping ruined the board. I came for obscure, strange, mentally deranged personalities who live in their own world and are unaware of being watched. That was peak milk. If we were to make a new forum like >>293857 suggested, I'd hope for it to have some sort of gatekeeping like having to log in to view threads (while posting remains anonymous of course) and needing a referral from another user.
>>293877 Your forgetting the needlessly aggressive posters who start infights about anything and everything. >unironic husbands and boyfriends "Unironic"? You might need to try spending a little less time online nona.
>>293891 Yeah it could be super fucked if they didn't practice good habits and have been relying on quick fixes. Think of something like furaffinity's issue with the codebase being entirely centered around usernames as an ID. So you're stuck with your username due to the coding being dependent on it being immutable. Could you rewrite the code to make it possible to change a username? Sure but it would take essentially a whole rewrite of the website. I assume LC's issue is it's something truly borked with attachments and storage space.
>>293881 There’s an audience for that? I’ve never even seen the de/g/enerates talk about that fetish and we have all kinds on that board. WTF is the history on that IB?
Can't sleep because I'm so bloody excited by how fucking far we got in the group project on the first day, I've never made this much progress this fast. Pray for me that I do not jinx it now by sharing my excitement!
>>293895 congrats anon! I know how awful group projects can be, so I pray that you didn't get stuck with awful teammates who don't pull their own weight!
>>293901 In the last two threads there was some anon who said some anon in a lolcow discord said her crazy boyfriend found posts she made about him in the relationship threads and he posted pictures of her shitting in a toilet on /ot/ and then initiated a ddos on lolcow in an act of revenge. It's kind of hard to believe, but…
>>293899 Luckily the classmate I'm doing it with and I are on the same wavelength and are good at communicating, probably also helped that I brought out my colored text markers during planning so I could mark out who would do what like a preschool teacher kek
Anons who witness the downfall of PULL, what happened? I tapped out like a year or two before it happened and never looked back. Does anyone remember that one poster with the long tongue dagan ronpa girl who would brag about her elderly scrote KEK…
>>293829 I could have swung either way for most of this post on whether you were overreacting or not but it's crazy that she thinks she's as important as to be your best friend but still wants to be friends with your cheating ex. You're not in the wrong, she sounds emotionally stunted.
>>293900 Nah, i wasn't. I didn't know the mods were deleting posts because of their moods or whatever. That sucks. They're still the best to us out of all boards just for still hosting us, but i feel like we might reach a breaking point soon, kek. >>293894 >WTF is the history on that IB? No clue. Wish to know too. I suppose if a woman is a hardcore moid-pleaser (which happen often), she might be into that… Kind of was disappointed to learn about it.
>>293907 PULL does technically still exist but it’s not the same as it used to be because after they closed down the actual forum website they integrated into some new software that just isn’t attractive enough for me to wanna re-integrate into PULL
>>293908 But I've seen it happen. I've seen posts being deleted at random, anons being banned for seemingly random reasons or the red text will show the mod completely ignored the context of the post or took it personally. And then there was when the movie thread was deleted and all the posts made by that anon were deleted too so a bunch of images from threads on /m/ and the doodle board went missing. All because of asking a question in /meta/, then anons get told she's spamming when there's no proof she spammed but there is proof of her asking the question and it being deleted. When she asked why its deleted that's when she got her permaban. The behavior of the mods has been pretty strange imo
>>293868 that was me. i've already got a man but you've got me thinkin about milo a lot more recently. more than i'd like to admit. if you go all in, i will too…
>>293916 NTA, but actually yes, you're right. Oficially they say they only delete moidposts, but there was the whole fiasco with anons noticing innocuous posts get deleted. After they brought back the Mooovie thread, a mod (or the admin?) apologised and said something about "getting too paranoid"? Something alongside those lines. You're right, it was weird.
Was supposed to graduate my undergrad uni this year, and had plans to apply for a masters program next fall, but no one is signing up for my honours thesis study so I might not be able to complete it and will have to take another course to fulfill the requirement but everything is already full so I might have to wait another year for one stupid course. I was so excited… I keep telling myself that 1 year isn't such a big deal in the grand scheme, but it still feels bad and it's making me so depressed
Would saying that I have COVID to a employment agency so I can reschedule my appointment tomorrow work? I am actually sick so God won't strike me down today but I'm not bed ridden, I also can't get transport because I am a useless eater with no licence and I live in buttfuck nowhere with zero infrastructure but I think my case worker is so sick of hearing that reason. Even though it is true. Pretend that this is stupid questions and lolcow isn't down and making me borderline manic and this unworkable perma ban is making it worse
I want to change my name, been dreaming of this for years now and ideally I want it to change before I finish my degree. I've been in love with the first name Minnie, inspired by Minnie Riperton, and looking through records of popular last names over the past few centuries. I also like Minnie because it's like an anagram of my original name. Don't jump me now, I'm not a troon, I just want to be totally divorced from the Muslim origins of my full name and my abusive parents who gave me the name. If I get in an Uber one more time and the driver asks me about Islam just because he read my first name, I will kill myself. What do you s think?
when is there going to be a lesbian ib? Or even an actual radfem website (lolcow clearly isn’t and this bunker has proven that). I just want more female-only imageboards honestly, lolcow being down has made me realise this, I need them to feel sane as a woman on the internet in these times.
>>293887 >>293886 Those anons with boyfriends and husbands are always nigelposting and defending moids, it's annoying because they always start infights.
My fellow nonnerinas wish me luck on Wednesday, as that's the day I have my IUD placed. I've been bleeding twice a month for the past four months an average of 13 days combined and I'm fucking OVER IT. Also where lolcow?? Cmon admin throw us a bone.
>>293945 I think there are lots of Nigelfags who never defend men anon. It’s only the very mentally ill super codependent NEET ones that feel the need to bark and cape for men in a desperate attempt to believe her Nigel is different and she’ll be ok without him when he inevitably screws up. Lots of nigelfags im sure are just enjoying their moid until it’s time to move on or want kids and marriage and whatever het shit but aren’t going to go out of their way to defend men or shit on other OSA paired women
>>293949 I think most anons are embarrassed to even bring up their boyfriends or don't want to deal with the inevitable "uhhh did you know he would rape a child if he could!" replies, most hetnons are just quiet about it
how the FUCK is 2024 already almost over I'm going insane. time literally has been moving at a rapid pace since the pandemic it pisses me off so much. and I'm even more pissed off that my life has barely changed since 2021
i reeally miss celebricows the most, please can someone help me with suggestions of other places i could visit online similar to that… i only followed celebrity gossip thru there in my life so far
>>293944 Because its now the parasitic twin of the real world instead of being containment for autists, teens, loser adults and researchers like it should always be. Also extended internet usage kills your grey matter, very similarly to the way being a heavy chain smoker and a long term alcoholic would, which reduces IQ and EQ and that's permanent because grey matter doesn't grow back. So everyone is literally becoming drooling retards as time goes on.
I want to hear about anons positive nigel moments just as I want to hear about anons slamming down fast food or getting stoned or drunk and enjoying life. Even if it’s not good for you I still want women to be happy unironically yolo I don’t know!!!!!!
>>293952 same here… time passes quickly now and i got so old too and feel like i have to fix everything in my life at once and i'm in a new relationship (first in 15 years) and feel like it's my last shot…
>>293948 I mean, lc and the lesbian/bi threads on there probably still have troons. If we opened our own ib like the kpopfags with our own culture you must integrate into it would still be good, and considering how troon pandering every other “lesbian” space on the internet is? Even better. Even if it were underground like fujochan and the like. >>293949 >kids and marriage Nta but that is literally their point about “unironic husbands” KEK. Doing this unironically is obviously enough for some anons to give you a side eye. And before you complain this is completely acceptable if not expected irl so it shouldn’t really bother anyone (in the kindest way possible)
>>293813 Because there's a chance it's made by some tranny and/or spiteful cow trying to farm ips (something that literally happened before), especially when it's posted on here.
>>293956 I've been on the internet a long time at this point and grew up on it. Not to sound a zoomer neocities user but I really miss the charm the mid-2000's internet had it feels like a lot of the uniqueness was lost as the internet has become more and more centralized over the years. I'm in a CS grad program and even here I feel like the odd one out for remembering an internet pre-SM. I'm pretty certain none of my colleagues know what an ib is or how to use it. I feel like an endangered species sometimes kek
>>293952 I feel this way too. I was 18 when the pandemic started and now I'm 22. I still feel exactly the same as I did when I was 18. It literally felt like the past 4 years was just one single day and I hate it so much. I feel old but mentally young at the same time.
>>293957 you're gonna get seething responses anon… but he's the most beautiful man i've ever seen, i prefer him over any models or celebrities, i think even farmers would deem him objectively beautiful. he's confident in just the right amount to make him a really patient, calm and secure partner and he tells me he wants to make things with me last forever. he makes me feel so special and beautiful and like i can live up to all my potential. he dotes on me and shows me off to his friends and family and makes all his plans with me in mind. i'm still in shock that i found a man so lovely
Why do some of the anons in these newer bunkers sound so different from the first couple ones? In a bad way >>293965 You feel like this anon, but when you interact with someone the age you were back then, you realise you have grown and changed. At least that’s how it feels to me.
>>293959 What normal, healthy person has ironic relationships and ironic babies anon? That kind of language is terminally online and can't be taken seriously. Like the anon you're replying to said, most anons with boyfriends or husbands, and there are a lot of them, just don't bother bringing them up or trying to defend them against angry nonas online. The one who's are defending their moids are likely just as mentally ill as the anons they argue with.
>>293969 I think during the first longer admin absentee period Elaine (some kiwifarms cow) tried to spam her ip farm on meta and once during the first bunkers the pedo tranny tried something similar.
>>293953 there's a temp thread on /media/ >>293942 >Or even an actual radfem website asher's garden was an attempt but no one used it plus it got raided
>>293964 AYRT I've written this sperg out before but I think the simultaneous death of the individual because of the homogenisation of the internet and the hyper self centred and sollipistic behaviour that in turn rewards has been such a detriment on society and we probably need to go back to the dark ages or something to reset this. If I had a time machine I'd beat pre college Zuckerberg to death with a tire iron.
>>293922 I made the board but unfortunately other boards on endchan were getting spammed with CP. I needed to go to bed so I deleted the board. Only three people, including myself, posted on the board, so it didn't seem worth moderating it against a CP raid.
>>293949 >It’s mentally ill NEETs nigelfagging But's it's also mentally ill NEETs anti-nigelfagging. The entire argument needs to be happening in a mental asylum and not an image board.
>>293979 Anyone willing to place money on this? I think the anon who predicted that it was going to be back on the 12th may have had insider info. >>293977 The internet would be a dream if it was all personal websites and obscure forums and ibs. I miss sites like that creepy angelfire wedding dressmaker site and springhole.net
>>293956 This, the fun of internet was to escape real world and that ended with social media and the hoards of normalfags and bots. I'm using internet since 07 so that explains why im so retarded kek
>>293981 NTA but you do have to be a mentally ill neet to spend hours or even days arguing back and forth on either the pro nigel or anti nigel posting side. It's not worth arguing with anonymous strangers online who aren't looking to have their minds changed, it's a waste of energy, shits up the board, and looks like actual insanity. It's not really about "is nigel posting bad/not bad" it's why are these anons having hyper aggressive infights about husbands being rapists and fathers being absent
just reminding everyone that someone created a thread on junku and that ib is completely dead, like no one’s on it and i doubt the mods even check the site. tbh seems ideal because there’s no retarded autoban and the cooldown is shorter.
>>293981 I don't disagree. I don't like nigel posting either but to actually waste your time arguing over it is mental illness and that goes for both sides.
>>293982 Cloudflare already provides DDoS protection. My guess would be that it was a problem with the aging site software. There's now a newer version of tinyboard available so I'm wondering if they were forced to update the entire site, including the multi-admin spaghetti code, to be compatible with more recent hardware or software.
just remembered some terrible ass movie with tina fey and amy poehler, they were partying and this guy was the love interest of amy poehler and she called him cute, (ew)i forgot what that movie was even called but this dude was also in disaster movie. i’ve never even seen disaster movie just the nostalgia critic video about it he played like 13 different characters. He is so fucking ugly and annoying, he’s in shitty movies and ruins everything he is in because his dumb tiny eyes and buck teeth. he should not be in movies, he shouldn’t even be on stage i guess he’s a comedian, i would post him on punchable faces thread.
Well miners…guess we'll be moving in for a while! Thank you for having us! (definitely going to use all the milk in the fridge and leave but one square of toilet paper on the roll) it's going to be so much fun!
I saw foxes last night. One was about a meter away from me. I scared it away because it's a wild animal and I was a little bit scared. He kept following me to my tent. I think it was just curious. I'm sad I now am returning to the city. I can't wait to fuck off in a rural town or in the forest.
>>294009 the craziest part about living in the england after living in the us was hearing all the foxes making the most insane, fucked up screaming sounds. it sounded like an all-night psychotic sadomasochist orgy amongst demons
i fucking hate cars so much. they are a sensory nightmare, i hate the sounds they make, being in them, car insurance, retarded maintenance and payments, the fact that every retard can drive one and is encouraged to do so, the ego that some people get over them god im seething i hate cars so much
>>294022 Ugh i feel the exact same way. i personally love walking everywhere and hate being in cars/having to go into garages to get into cars. walking is so much healthier and better for your body and immune system than sitting in some decrepit tinfoil ball.
>>294022 Same here, I despise driving so much it's not even funny. People drive like complete retards where I live and the roads are a completely unmaintained, unlabeled mess so it makes it even worse. I am hoping we can all move somewhere where we never need a car ever again, nona.
>>294030 i don’t think it’s because a war is coming it’s more likely because being in the military is an easy free job, and they’re trying to mimic burgerland by offering their citizens easy coverage
I fucking love meeting people's cats they make me feel so comfortable because I can read them so well and I know when I should back off and give space and when it's okay for me to get close I honestly wish people were as easy to read as cats.
>>294034 same, but i get retarded around cats and i can't give them personal space. ours are so used to my bullshit kek (i'm not an ass I just kiss their noses, too cute)
>>294025 >>294031 i love you nonas, im so happy when i hear others relate because where i live people legitimately view you as less than human if you don't drive or have a car. i love walking so much too but cars everywhere makes it difficult, plus i feel like they're all staring when im walking on the sidewalk lol
I have a hard time not rolling my eyes when one of my friends brings up having muh autism despite the fact that she always socialized well and had/made way more friends than I ever did over the years. Also, I have a friend who has tried to diagnose me with adhd just because they're taking stims and they think my brand of retarded must be adhd. WHY THE FUCK DOES IT MATTER. Just go outside and enjoy the animals outside and the breeze instead of wondering about your fucking diagnosis
>>294039 I feel this. My old friends mentioned crippling social anxiety before yet they have so many friends, constantly go out and post on their socials daily. Meanwhile I haven't left the house in months and don't talk to anyone.
>>294037 Yes, there were some teen moids I heard on the news who were actually going around and shooting at random pedestrains. It seems there are also teen moids on social media now that go around hitting people on purpose or speeding for fun. 90% of people who use the public transportation are mentally ill and/or homeless. It's completely unusable without taking you ~2 hours to get anywhere either. Not even to a hospital, post office, or grocery store. Car dependant cities are just the worst.
i was about to figure out whats wrong with my creeper farm and then a barn fucking exploded and i had to leave because of the smoke. im having minecraft withdrawals s
>>294049 They can still feel social anxiety even if they are doing better than you. Mental health issues occur in people in different ways and they can be more or less severe. It’s like having one limb amputated vs. all of them. Both are still amputees, but obviously the one with all limbs gone is in a significantly worse place. Retarded analogy but maybe you get what I mean.
Junkochan sucks. I like CC well enough, it’s the best bunker. Seeing all the nonas bicker and try and fail to conquer other boards has been a fine substitute for my lolcor
you guys are only attracting attention to lc by posting on sketchy altchans and in tranny threads. won't be surprised if there's an influx of maleposters and disgusting bait when we're back online. why couldn't you spergs just stay on cc.
>>294060 I think it's either a troll attempt to get nonas to post on a cuck board full of men, or it's rancefag continuing their manic episode. I just wish we could've stayed with fujochan.
>>294071 The thing is so many nons got banned by the automod so they kinda have to go to that weird ass cuck board, sadly it is currently more active than this thread though.
I can't let the cat inside the house because he has worms. I feel so sad and sorry for him, sitting at the door meowing. Hopefully his owners will take him to the vet soon.
>>294081 I'm so curious what the unspeakable keywords are. They should be discussing what posts they think they got autobanned for and figure them out.
>>294049 People often confuse social anxiety disorder with shyness. Shy people have a hard time with meeting people in the beginning, but then are just fine once they warm up to someone. People with social anxiety disorder will literally put every single thing they do under a microscope. Even the way they move their mouth or breath around someone. They will go to very big extremes like walking 2 miles in 90 degree weather to avoid eating around other people or avoid asking the person next to them to move so they can go to the bathroom, until they are about to damn near piss themselves. It is an actual 24/7 hell inside your mind.
I've met several people that unexpectedly claimed social anxiety while talking to them, but who by all means seemed to have a pretty normie social life. Shy people are usually just slightly more timid than average normies that would never do some of the crazy shit I mentioned.
Also note that those of us with social anxiety would normally never just tell other people IRL that easily and off the bat that we're socially anxious. That would give us….well, social anxiety. I dunno why but everyone calls feeling uncomfortable in social situations "social anxiety" now. It's never been understood by others very well or portrayed accurately. I've had it for an extremely long time, it's always ruled my whole life, and it is not as simple as just having a hard time making friends like the name implies. It gives you a state of self-consciousness so bad that it actually makes other people think you are completely retarded.
>>294087 the word p00r is one of them (an anon said when she removed the word p00rly from her post, the post was finally able to go through). another anon said she was banned for talking about the new beetle juice movie, and one was banned for talking about sandwiches
>>294049 Lots of women I would talk to would try to relate to my social anxiety (I never mentioned it) as well even if it's obvious they don't have it. I actually think it's just their way of trying to get close or befriend you. At first I thought it was annoying, but it's kind of nice, really.
I sometimes feel bad for being a NEET who shoplifts and leeches off society, but then i remember this is the same society that made the "Hauk tuah" girl rich for literally no reason and feel better.
>>294065 i am so confused as to why we are attempting to move. the people who shit up the cc bunkers can see this thread with links to the new bunkers and are likely lurking. in due time they’ll move to that totally unmoderated board where no mods can ban their retardation. we are waving a red flag in the distance to a herd of bulls. it will never be as peaceful as the first bunkers and that’s the reality. the only need for another bunker is to compile a list of the no no cc automod words to prevent anything further. this would all be solved if we were more peaceful when responding to one another when we disagree on things, and maybe just didn’t respond to some things at all? there is no need to put energy into bait, nor every little thing you disagree with. but alas.
and honestly, while there’s definitely a lot of totally random bans, i definitely think there’s also some n0nnas who were arguing in prior threads that are now crusading about the unfair bans as well. You never know what the people upset about the bans did to get banned unless they outright give a specific reason.
>>294096 I don’t even understanding what’s bothering you all so much. Literally in your worst case scenario what happens? We just go back to the slow cc thread. You are agonising over nothing.
>>294096 Anon it's not that serious. >>294102 Nta but I haven't. I don't leave the bunker. Maybe you shouldn't either, you know since containment is the whole point of a bunker.
>>294102 Are you new kek? Lc is worse with this and we had some on here too. I didn’t see what porn you’re talking about though, I’ve just been on the bunker. Again what is so bothersome, no one’s asking you to go there…? The anons who are on there are fine.
>>294098 That nona might be me as i have posted about eating my discharge there once. I can't remembered my moms birthday but i remember once telling farmers that i enjoy eating my own discharge. As if eating your discharge isn't normal. I do it all the time and it taste good.
>>293755 I feel this so much. Going through a divorce myself, we were together for almost 8 years and one day he said we needed to talk and that he couldn't do it anymore that he wanted a divorce. Sleep has been my way of coping even though I know I'm sleeping an unhealthy amount. I'm a bpdfag and without having someone to pour myself into I just feel so empty and unmotivated. It's been over a year for me too and only things keeping me going are my friends and family and my cat. It's nice to know I'm not alone in feeling this way. We will get through this .
>>294107 I remember you. I don't do it but I think you're iconic. Mine smells good, but especially my period, and sometimes I wish I had the guts to do it.
>>294096 the last few weeks before the site went down there was a huge influx of spammers and baiters (even other anons noticed it was worse than the typical summerfaggotry), if we were getting raided before i fear it's only going to get worse. lc isn't some big secret but posting our shit all over every altchan is like a big advertisement to come and "totes troll the roasties" after the site comes back up. as thought the tumblr and tiktok transplants weren't enough of a problem.
>>294109 I personality wouldn't recommend period blood. Whilst the discharge taste good, especially after masurbating, period blood tatse very strong to me. Like blood but more bitter.
>>294108 Divorce sucks, even a year later. I was the one who initiated mine after being together 7 years. I realized that staying with him forever would make him happy – but it would make me miserable and slowly kill my soul. He was completely unwilling to compromise or change his shitty attitude and habits, no matter how much I was willing to be flexible, positive, and patient for him. Anyway, I coped with a regrettable rebound and now that that is over, I'm moving toward the 24/7 depression sleep phase of coping. It's so hard to wake up in the mornings and even worse coming home at night to a strange, empty apartment. All I want to do is sleep and cry. Yes, we'll get through it. We're not going to die, and in a year from now or even sooner, we'll be doing so much better. But having to kill a dream you had with someone really sucks. Hugs and support.
>>294089 >Even the way they move their mouth or breath around someone. Oh god the breathing thing is something I focus on a lot. In a similar way I cannot eat around people because of swallowing sounds It's so dumb >avoid asking the person next to them to move so they can go to the bathroom, until they are about to damn near piss themselves This reminds me of when I was in school I would pretend I was sick to go home just so I could pee >I've had it for an extremely long time, it's always ruled my whole life It is hell, I am sorry >>294093 I guess I see the niceness in it of trying to relate. I just struggle with it a lot because I feel so alienated and that no one else I know is as bad as me. I don't meant this to come off as a woe is me, I understand that others have issues and can stil be anxious. It just sucks when I see these people can hold a job, go to the shop, answer a text or the door etc and then say we are both the same.
>>294125 what? it’s chill right now. also you infight puritans need to stop, it only gets irritating when it lasts too long or it’s racebait. >>294123 kek…
Anons I have the most bullshit luck. >buy matching earrings to complete the jewelry set for an outfit to an event in two weeks >receive all packages today on my way to the car >excitedly take out earrings from package to look at them while in car >put them down in car >drive to work function >drive back, stop at grocery store, continue home >go to collect my shit left in the car >check empty packaging >gather items, don't notice earrings but figure they are buried in armful of stuff >discard empty packaging >carry items inside house >realize earrings are not in my stack >not found anywhere in car >retrieved empty packaging, not in packaging or trash bin What the fuck… The only thing I can think may have happened is that they somehow slipped out of my car and dropped in the parking lot when I went to work. It's like they were consumed to the fucking ether!!!! Just because I wanted to look at my new shiny things fuuuuuuuuuck.
>hops on fujochan to see if it can replace the currently down imageboard >sees picture of shotas on the front page >leaves traumatized, never to return again
Anyway, how's your milk withrawal syndrome going ?
>>294121 Nta but i relate to all of this. Also whenever im around people, my body suddenly stiffens and i feel like im moving my body in a contrived way, like im controlling a puppet and not my body. Sometimes i will randomly "spasm" when i move too fast because i was so stiff all day.
>>294136 The spasms suck so much. I don't even wanna look around after I've done it cause of embarrassment, even though I know it's irrational to think anyone around me would think it was embarrassing, or even notice. And then the spasms make the stiffness worse. The circle has no end aa
idk if any nonies can relate but i cannot fucking stand group work/group projects/forced groups and those dynamics in general. there is such a primal disgust that arises in me from seeing people poorly hide passive-aggression, being two-faced, lusting after one another, kissing someone elses ass etc etc. it feels like being forced to watch chimps fuck and eat the earwax and shit off one another and act like its super important and dignified. its not even autism. i just fucking hate people acting like fucking apes towards each other irl and being expected to take any of it seriously
I knew I had a phonecall at 11 for my mental health but I forgot I had a phonecall at 10am too for my mental health paycheck It's 4am I'm not looking forward to this
>>294141 I don't understand why everything must be pathologised. The reason for a dx is to try to cure or relieve the issues that come with it, like other illness. I could say I have a cold but I don't need to go to the doctor to get treatment or the exact diagnosis unless it's killing me, and it would be silly if I started claiming that I had tuberculosis because of a mild cold. And misdiagnosis and treatments that don't work or make things actively worse happens all the time with mental illness in a clinical environment, you should really only being getting a diagnosis if you're willing to risk all that. Otherwise, why should you care if you're not seeking clinical help, there's no point to getting that dx. Also there's so many things that factor in the way you think and act that could just be stress and your upbringing, which sometimes overlaps with conditions but it doesn't mean that it is those conditions at play. Personal is me getting armchaired for autism every few months by annoying people even though I've been tested five times by different clinicians so either I'm very unlucky or am not autistic. I'd think those people are trying to call me retarded if they weren't such holier than thou preachy types. Not to be a burger hater but it's such a Americanism to be that preoccupied with labels and traumadumping people to make yourself seem like a victim or the more righteous person.
i had a nightmare that lolcow had shut down, the banner message said something about how the site wasnt fair or nice enough, and i remember trying to go to the wayback machine before they said old threads would be archived. i woke up terrified and im so glad it was only a nightmare, it was hard to tell if it was real or not
>>294112 right. the only way n0nnies can solve the infighting issue is to just not respond to infighters. if no one responds then those lifeless retards will naturally get bored and look for darker alleyways.
moid take but i hate both ramona flowers type tifs and guys who think theyre so cool, it comes from a place of feeling different and hurt but like they need to be put down
>>293908 This is a big lie. Lc is better than any other sites but let's not forget they banned people for 7 days for shitposting the "good moid thread" and actually wanted that thread to stay. They also obviously take sides in infights instead of banning everyone involved. The jannies are a joke
Is it dumb that sometimes I want to break up with my nigel and become a hermit with no friends, even though I wanted to die when I was a friendless NEET?
>>294148 Pathologizing the human condition is just fucked up. I understand people want to understand their place in the world but labeling every struggle and negative trait with a DSM label is regressive. I went through that mentality most of my life and the diagnoses really made me think I was “stuck” with a condition for the rest of my life but I wasn’t. Most people aren’t. The mental health field has done a lot of damage with applying the disease model to mental health issues aka the human condition.
So a girl I know from when I was in high-school wants so badly to reconnect with me, it's obnoxious tbh, I don't know what I was nervous about a few weeks ago, like I'm a sperg but she's nobody to me. We used to be "best friends" and I considered her a friend even when we would barely talk, even when she would steal my shit and when she would control me so I was her forever fan and imitator. Having my real best friend, who is a woman I met in university and who has become a really important part of my heart, has shown me that I don't need that girl I met from high-school and that I have to have standards in life, higher standards than what I had back in the past. And what set off this realization is that I was talking with my aunt after discussing with my mom about doing a small partnership with that girl from high-school, it's nothing that will make me break the bank but that also won't make me rich either, if anything, I consider this a hobby that may give me some money if she accepts, this was thanks to my mom's idea tbh, which I appreciate a lot because my original plan was to ignore her invi to that event that the girl will host. What my aunt said and triggered my annoyance towards that girl is that she never respected me and that she's a conwoman, she stole the whole ass manga I took to school once, like the whole series, and then when I visited her before going to another country, she pointed at my manga and laughed thinking that that was such a funnnnnyyyyy and quirky thing that she did. And you know what? I will add an asshole tax to the work I will do, she deserves this, I deserve this because she wasn't a good friend tbh, I will keep her at an arm's length like I've been doing ever since she wanted to reconnect with me, all I feel for her is contempt at best, and at first I thought it was she has a child and a husband, but it's because she didn't even try to talk with me before all of that while I was in another country, like this shit isn't the 15th century, she could've texted me back then and I would've been thrilled. I also didn't ever try to contact her first because I was always the one doing the hard work in that friendship, it wasn't a two way street. Hopefully she gets the hint that if she wants to work with me, this will be merely a business type of relationship, I will invite her to my birthday out of courtesy but otherwise I plan of keeping a distance and to show her that she just isn't my friend anymore, I have my best friend who I honestly love and want to spend my time with, I don't need some half-hearted pathetic excuse of a relationship that's all about one-sided adoration and full-time dedication.
>>294174 A real business proposal actually! it's all arts and crafts stuff for events. If she doesn't like the price then I will just sell the stuff I make somewhere else, maybe at some anime event or something like that.
Is it retarded that I'm mad at my mom? >She wants me to go to her house constantly because she's lonely, despite me being in college and having a social life, both which are very time consuming. >Ironic considering she was physically absent when I was a kid. >She always says mean spirited comments and tries to pass them off as jokes. For example, when I was an emo/edgy teen she'd call me a baby prostitute; and now that I have a good nigel she says he's "too good for me" and I don't deserve him. >She calls me a piece of shit very often, for any reason. If she gets slightly mad, she will say I'm scum and that I will never be happy. >She is unable to hear no. If I say don't touch my hair/face, she gets mad, despite well knowing I loathe it. If I have even the smallest pimple she will try to pop it without my consent. Insane. >She wanted me to move cities with her on a whim, despite me having a life and an education here. Got mad when I said no. >She's very weird about my weight and always whines about me being "too skinny" and will make mean comments about my weight. >Will call me manipulative, spoiled, etc. for no reason. >Will yell at me and corner me despite me being in my 20s. Will get enraged if I cry. I wish I could cut her off but I depend on her for money to keep studying. What can I do, sisters-in-farm?
Having one of those moments where I am convinced that everyone hates me and that I should cut them all out of my life so they don't have to put up with me anymore. I'm too old to still be having thoughts like this kek.
i wish i had a friend who would play video games with me. i have so many coop games i got from bundles but can’t play because my only friends don’t like those kind of games. they won’t even play ffxiv with me anymore so i’m super lonely playing that too. feeling a bit down tonight
a few days ago there was a pre-bunker confession thread on here that n0nnas started actively posting in. where did that go? i can’t find it on /b/. did the mods delete it?
>>294185 It's a normal imageboard >>294164 You could dump your nigel if you're not into him anymore as a romantic partner and seek female friendships instead. You don't need to be friendless. >>294107 I think I've tasted it too, I'm not sure, it was salty iirc. You're not alone. >>294148 I'm so tired of the word "neurodivergent" being used everywhere. So not being identical to your idea of a "normal" person makes you special now? Not only that, but being a little quirky, weird or nerdy is a mental illness or neurological condition? Everyone who has their own unique personality and issues is autistic/ADHD/ND now, it seems. Kinda like how everyone is "queer" now kek
>>294179 >>294180 Mourn the mother you never had and then initiate a form of structured contact. I recommend you take a trip to r/raisedbynarcissists, not saying your mom is one but you might benefit from reading a few posts there.
How do I give less fucks and be more of an authentic person? I feel like if I let go of needing to perform for validation and stop putting weight in other peoples opinions of me it will do me a lot of good. I know this but it’s hard to practice, every interaction feels like I’m doing automatic mental math on how to behave to optimize a positive opinion about me from the person I’m interacting with.
>>294205 Vulnerability is necessary for true connection but it's very hard to do when it's difficult for you to heal from or get over people who react negatively to you. It becomes easier when you accept that getting hurt by others is inevitable, but that's okay because you will stand up for yourself, protect yourself, forgive yourself, and look after yourself when you need it. I know this will sound counterproductive but I stopped feeling controlled by worrying about what other people thought of me when I practiced to stop being afraid of conflict and got better at standing up for myself. When you learn that it is truly possible for you to depend on yourself to protect you in this world, you will become stronger and more able to resist what others think of you.
>>294200 >Everyone who has their own unique personality and issues is autistic/ADHD/ND now, it seems. Kinda like how everyone is "queer" now kek
It's hard to articulate, but I think it's because identity through subculture is dead since the new subculture is identity itself. In the past, identity was formed through direct interaction with the Other and life experience, and a person's identity was largely dependent on other people ("The Other sees me as X, so then I am X"). Now, identity is self-based and formed through personal introspection. You can see this in troon rhetoric ("If I say that I am a woman because I think that I am a woman, then I am a woman!"), but it's evident in society at large. A lot of people only want to look the part, not play the part, which has given rise to the -core phenomenon we see today. I think this is an effect of the acceleration of identity politics in the past 15 years, in part due to the rise of social media mass-use. I also think it has something to do with the blurring between the real world and the virtual world - a lot of younger people that were born after 2000 can't tell the difference. >Anybody can be a nobody, but everybody can't be a somebody. This is what a lot of younger people are struggling with today.
>>294207 I’ll think on this question more since I can’t think of a full answer that feels right. I think I don’t place any value in my own judgement, especially my own judgement of myself so I rely on other peoples judgement of me to validate me. Of course this rings hollow when the person others are judging is not the most authentic me. This isn’t 100% it though so I’ll ruminate on it more. >>294208 Thanks Nona, your advice makes a lot of sense. I’ll try my best to internalize it. I don’t think I’m very good at standing up for myself or feel very self assured about myself so it’s an endless cycle for now. What kind of things did you do to practice approaching conflict without fear?
I went to bed early but it meant I woke up early, like 5am early and I haven’t been able to get back to sleep, and my brain has decided now would be a great time to have an existential crisis and remind me of my shortcomings
>>294216 Your shortcomings mean nothing and you ruminate in vain. All that you regret is naught and there is no crisis. In fact, the universe is so perfect that the very existence of a problem necessitates the existence of its solution. There is such a multitude of love upon you that the sun and the stars are dim in comparison. Realize now that you exist in the best of all possible worlds, and that all that is here is here for your pleasure.
>>294092 Lmao, whyy. I was like banned 5 times for this word, i got rid of many others, but couldn't guess the problem was this one. I got rid of the entire part of the post at the end. >>294197 You're kind of right. Would be fun if i had fujochan when i was a newbie fujo, heh.
>>294221 It's not that it tastes bitter, it's more like that most green teas taste like grass to me unless I put in some sweeteners. But since green tea is supposedly good for you I wanna learn to drink it as it is. And tbh, this one I'm trying now is one I bought at a fair this weekend and it tastes surprisingly good without having to add anything so it's a start!
>>294108 going thru it aswell noni. i was in a co-dependent relationship with an addict adhd moid from 18-24, he impulsively broke up with me last year, regretted it a week after and wanted me back, but i knew i had to take that opportunity to get out for good. he only just moved out of our shared apartment a month ago and i was stuck in an apathetic state of pushing away my feelings with weed and rebound sex for a whole year. i had a panic attack last weekend so i decided to finally stop smoking and it's all been so hard. the hardest thing i've done in my whole life. the last 10 years i've always been involved with some moid and i've always smoked weed to not feel so much so now i feel like a baby giraffe trying to stand on it's own legs. plus having to process that fucked up relationship that forever changed my brain. the fact that lc is down during this phase is so symbolic because it's one of my old coping mechanisms too, it's like a higher power protecting me from relying on them rn.
>>294239 I just completed call one, now I am waiting for call two >>294146 I have had no sleep so I will probably be chugging coffee all day and playing core keeper after this is done
>>293991 >>293994 I opened the cuck board, and I have to ask: what the fuck is wrong with these people? Why does that imageboard exist? Surely they are either troons or a handful of severely mentally ill women? I would rather lose both LC and CC than socialize there.
>>294246 It wasn't a reference to anything on this site. It was referring to a conversation I was having with a "friend" who is defending her nigel because he is her boyfriend therefore he is all perfect and wouldn't be a typical scrote. Way to assume, nona.
What's the weather like for you n0nnies? Here the temperature dropped from 30°C down to 15°C in 2 days and it's kind of messing with me. Very cozy to sit on my couch with a thick blanket though, I'm feeling very autumnal.
>>294237 Everyone else gets sick of your obsessive sperging about men and your inability to talk about anything else. YOU apply it to everyone's nigel. Just you. Seethe harder.
Gendies are sinking their teeth into new wave, no wave, art pop, basically any weird or experimental type of music. It has always been the case that this kind of stuff attracts artsy gay people, but it used to be in a rejecting social norms and being provocative way, not in a uwu trans crybaby way. It's just annoying. I hope tiktok gendies don't start liking The Residents.
>>294257 same here, might take a nap because i've slept like shit lately. >>294258 been hot as shit the past few days but it's finally gone down to below 20°C today, excited for fall.
>>294259 >>294264 That sounds amazing, enjoy. It's just kind of gray here right now, but supposed to storm later. I think I'll stock up on some fancy hot chocolate ingredients to sip while I sit and stare out of the window like a cat kek >>294263 Jesus, I hope it gets better for you soon. Sending you cool thoughts
>>294258 It's 12°C here. Last week it was hot and sunny, then it almost instantly changed to be wet and windy. It's been overcast with no hint of sunshine for over seven days. Humidity gets as high as 95% so lots of thick fog at night and in the mornings.
>>294269 >uses them like little pillows and extends his paws to my face This is very sweet! I also like when he just cuddles up for a hug and sleeps with his head on my shoulder. He just also is extremely terrible about stepping on my nipples which hurts terribly.
Nonas, as much as we shit on moids, some of us still chose to be in relationships with them. Word of advice tho, if you have ANY suspicion that your nigel is a narcissist, run. I swear, those moids will try and destroy everything that you are
>>294271 Specially if they are +4kg, dude you are crushing me
>>294273 aww is so relaxing to fall asleep hugging them, no matter the temperature. They are masters in finding our weak spots, for good or for evil haha