I poured myself a cup of tea half an hour ago and set it aside to cool a bit but I completely forgot about it and now it's room temperature. I can't do anything right.
woke up this morning to 0 text messages. this pretty normal. but i knew i was going to have a shit day when my phone buzzed and i got excited thinking it was a notif, but it was just my weekly screen time report
i wish i could find a gf to cutely bully me and treat me nicely and love me and we could share our cute hobbies and interests and dress up together and make music
but ive never been with a girl
My boyfriend waited until AFTER rent and bills are due to tell me that they were going to be late AGAIN. Fuck this fucking shit life bros. Yet his parents think I'm the fucking problem. He would never survive regular life without all of the help he gets. I feel like I am being dragged down and held back by him.
"But you're in charge of your life waah. It's up to you to change the trajectory and not let others affect your daily life waaahhhh" Okay fucking millionaire? Middle-class raised chicken-legged ketchup steak summer vacation parent-having piece of shit. If I fuck up I'm closer to homelessness you ignorant hocky puck. Fuck.
I mourn the person I could have been. I was a clever child and bursting with enthusiasm. Depression killed that girl. I don't even know where I came from because theres no way she grew up to be me
my family was the downfall of me. i hate have been a victim.
I even look back on when I was a teenager and how much more impressive my writing and art and creative output was back then. I'm like a hollow shell of my old self now, approaching my mid twenties, close to graduating with a two year degree but no cigar. I fucking hate this shit and what I've become
Even in 2019 pre quarantine I had a drive to do things, now I half ass everything. not to sound cliche or whiny or like I'm the only one that matters, but isolation fucking murdered my psyche and now all I want to do is manifest my demise and die
my bf nearly choked me out this morning during an argument, he grabbed my neck and pushed me until i was half-off the bed we were on. i didn't feel threatened maybe because i am stupid but he grabbed my throat really hard and bruised it. i also later dislocated my thumb bending it backwards while dissociating and immediately pushed it back into place. it was backwards all the way to my wrist and the crack was so loud if snapped me out of my stupid and now horribly bruised and weak but somehow doesnt seem to need a doctor. been hallucinating, the world always feels like an ocean, i get terrified sometimes. i'd choke me too if i could do it that effectively. i wish i could love correctly, myself or others. i only seem to love dogs and tiny kids and texmex.
i meant to say stupor not stupid but i was also stupid i dont think intelligent people break their thumbs so casually except for that one weird girl in my junior english class who had a bone disorder
first of all, you need to leave him. you need to develop some sense of self-preservation, and quickly. this is not okay but you also you don't sound like you're in good state of mind to even properly assess environmental threats, probably because you're actively undergoing abuse. second, don't do that with your thumb anymore.
Contact someone you trust and make a plan to leave now, strangulation is a known predicting factor for (attempted) murder for women, your life may be at risk.
My boyfriend doesn’t love me how I want him to. He doesn’t understand me at all even though he thinks he does, it’s infuriating. He thinks I’m the one for him but I’m going insane pretending to be his perfect girl. I would keep it up forever if only he would love me properly.
Then he’s wrong for you. So many people get stuck in miserable relationships with a person who doesn’t speak the same love language as them and it never changes. It’s not too much to ask for someone to love you in a way that makes you feel loved. It should be one of the non negotiable of a relationship. Someone else out there will love you the way you want to be loved. Start thinking seriously about finding a new bf.
>>58250>So many people get stuck in miserable relationships with a person who doesn’t speak the same love language as them and it never changes.
If you actually read the book on love languages you'd know this statement is retarded. The entire point of the book is to help guide people into realizing what their love language is so they can convey to their partner how they want to be shown love. You could argue that then the problem becomes the other person refusing to change how they express love towards you, but at that point that's not a love language problem, that's the other person being an asshole problem.
What's retarded is the idea that people should change the love language that is natural to them, when the other person should understand and accept it instead. Or break up.
People don’t change, someone who needs physical affection and words of affirmation is never going to be happy with someone whose style of showing affection is doing the dishes. Someone whose style of affection is giving someone a necklace or some soap is going to feel forced and resentful at having to change their style of affection too and in the end it will just feel fake and strange to them. You cannot ask someone to change their needs and personality to suit yours and vice versa without it feeling forced and strange to the other person. You’re just fucking incompatible. Accept it and find someone else you’re actually compatible with.
2 Fast 2 Furious.g…
Going to stop talking about m*n unless it's absolutely necessary.
You people are retarded narcissists, you can express love differently than you feel love you damn twat. You tell your bf "hey I really like it when you spend time with me, not when you spend money on gifts", not "hey, I know you like getting gifts, but I need you to now enjoy me spending time with you or this relationship is over." Unless you're a literal retard, you should be able to manage to understand the nuance.
You're both fucking stupid.
t. Married with someone who prefers spending quality time while I prefer to receive physical affection
I'm way too old to not have a driver's license yet and I'm ashamed of it. Problem is that I have a job and no time to go to lessons when the drivers schools are open.
You need to leave. Chocking is the second highest predictor of domestic violence related death, second only to owning guns. It's not a slap in the wrist, it is attempted murder, even if he didn't mean it that way. You need to leave now.
I am so so tired of being long distance and only getting to see him every so often. I know we aren't in a place to move in just yet but I feel sometimes like I am the only one Yearning(tm) to see him more often and to be closer to him/who has any interest in taking the next step in moving in together. Maybe next year.
You don’t sound like a person who would be quality time to spend with :)
Oh come on, driving schools are open on weekends.
Do you have friends or family who can help teach you?
And what if I don't want to change my love language?
My ex boyfriend is a true narcissist that emotionally and mentally abused me pretty badly. I am still trying to recover 6ish years later because of how deep it was, and because he would not stop harassing me years afterward. Now he acts like the victim and never apologized for everything. I'm almost certain that right now he is trying to find ways to paint me as the abusive one and has been set on ruining my life as much as he can from afar. He has the upper hand, too, unfortunately. He is quite well-known where I live and his family is very well off. It's all just so weird to me. I have only told very few people what he did to me (and not even all of it), so it's not as if I'm out here trying to ruin his reputation. I don't really get it tbh.
Gather screencaps and sent them to police, friends, and post online
I posted this in another thread but today during my period I got severe vertigo and lightheaded and felt like I was gonna pass out. Had to eat crackers and drink tons of water and lay down for a few hours. Does anyone here get severe dizziness or faint during their periods? I’m not anaemic btw. It scares me a lot.
I've debated this, but I feel like I would be drudging up old news for sympathy. Right now he's has relatively left me alone, and it's only effecting me so much in my head. If it mattered enough the friends I confided into would've believed me.
Stop pushing my schedule later aaaaaaaa
The bookstore owner was mean to me and I cried in public.
We got new people at my job recently,and one of the new girls is pretty standoffish
I want to talk to her to make her feel more welcome, but after a week the only thing that I know she likes is western cartoons.
I'm a huge weeb and haven't seen anything western that released within the past like 10 years other than OK KO, which she hasn't seen.
What the fuck do I talk to her about? I can only small talk for so long before I run out of subjects.
I moved to a new town a few days ago and every single time i went outside ive been catcalled, honked at, and harrassed. Literally just went for a walk the other day and a guy kept complimenting my appearance and trailed me until i had to hide out in a church. I thought fine i just wont go outside except for work or if i need to. Nope, first day of work the entire fucking male staff harrasses me like a bunch of fucking hyenas. I just want to be left alone. Not even wearing provocative clothes. Will i have to move? I dont want to be afraid to go outside. Men are fucking pigs and predators.
ps. To the hot chef lady who called me pretty and actually talked to me, you are the only person ill accept a compliment from
Employer wants me to get covid tested for a business seminar thing that starts next week. I really don't want to. I never get out of the house except to take walks alone in isolated nature. I'm not sick either.
It's especially dumb since these idiots have been talking for a months about how they're going to go bar crawling every evening of the seminar week. Like don't they realise they are 1000 times more likely to catch it there than getting it from little old me ?
I hate them so much. I hate the social pressure from complete morons, and I hate the lowkey unsaid employment blackmail.
My heart hurts and I want to die
maybe she is just shy? i've had people mistake my shyness as being stuck up before
Anxiety is really bad. I know if I don't quit my job the stress is going to kill me but I don't know what would happen after that. When I feel like this all my suicidal ideation comes back and I just want out
It's just a covid test, anon. It's not like they're asking you to take a vaccine. The covid test is just a quick nasal swab. you'll be in and out in like 15 minutes, excluding the waiting room stuff.
There is liability that comes with a huge fine if an employeer willingly lets covid spread in their business.
When they get audited, a "my employee didnt want to take the test and said she was healthy, so we don't have the paperwork to prove that she's covid free" wouldn't be a good excuse.
Don't take their request as an accusation that you have it. Doesn't matter if you don't go outside or are less likely to have it than your coworkers. it's a paper trail so your employeer's ass is covered.
Just think about how'd you feel if one of your other coworkers who barhops didnt want to take a quick test because "i'm fine bro, trust me" and then spread it to you or your loved ones.
exactly, and your "i don't go out!" thing is no replacement for a proper test. plenty of people are just complete liars. i think it's more respectable and responsible for employers to require testing regardless, even if it is a little annoying
I'm not sure if I understand correctly, but what do you mean You don't know what will happen after you quit your job? I'd imagine you would embrace the NEET life… unless you're smart about it and look for work or education before you leave. Make an exit plan, it may eliminate some of that anxiety and by extension your suicidal thoughts.
Your health comes before anything else. You can't do well at work if you're not doing well in your own life.
If you wake up every day with suicidal ideation because of your job, you should move on from there.
Covid is the perfect time to find a new job. So many positions are open at the moment, don't let this opportunity pass you.
You've already taken the first biggest step to improving your situation, which is realizing that it's shit. The next step is taking the initiative and getting out of that rut.
Good luck, anon.
Doesn’t it make more sense to tell guys you are not a virgin and then the virgin fetishists are instantly turned off? I actually am a virgin but I told my bf I wasn’t because I was embarrassed at still being a virgin in my late twenties. Then when later I told him I actually am a virgin he couldn’t really believe me. It was dumb to lie.
The way things are now I couldn't really embrace the NEET life, I just don't have the money. I guess I have to find something else but it's scary to face a change and potentially end up with something worse. I feel like I'm gonna have a hard time with anything with social interaction or responsibility/expectation.
they hide their actual retarded thoughts to fuck
I don't live in the US, and there is no such fine here. In fact, employers cannot force employees to get tested.
The thing that pisses me off isn't the test itself (though I maintain it is beyond useless if they all go barhopping for a week straight…), but the fact that they dropped this on me yesterday out of nowhere when the seminar thing had been planned for months. It's a pain to get a slot to get tested here, and I have no idea if I'll be able to get one in time. So it's just more stress and anxiety on my plate because they are being inconsiderate idiots. Again.
Ask her to recommend you something, watch it and then talk to her about it.
I'm going to lose my fucking mind if I have to keep seeing and hearing about how I should donate to save Palestinians this stand by Palestine that for much longer. Why do I have to be made to give a shit about a nation that raises men who wouldn't think two seconds about violently raping me. To be fucking honest I kind of don't care too much about the women either. They're perfectly compliant to the gross shit husbands and brothers and fathers perpetuate and they're ready to get their daughters' genitals get mutilated. I know they're oppressed as fuck but I still get furious that I'm apparently morally obliged to help shitty culture that would see fit to make me even less than a second-class citizen if they could enforce it.
it's less about palestinians specifically or muslim culture specifically and more about condemning murderous land grabs as an act, regardless of who is on the receiving end of it? hello…?
Okay, I didn't consider this was a point. Thank you anon, I mean it.
That's kind of stupid, as the Palestinians only had the land from ages old violent land grans too. This sounds like a meme pushed to keep the current world order engraved forever as opposed to let natural patterns proceed.
Ancient Jews took the land from Canaanites and other pagan tribes and declared it their own, whose modern day ancestors are the people of Palestine, Lebanon, Jordan, Syria etc. So technically yeah Muslims have more ancestral ties to that land than Jews do.
Has anyone else completely resigned themselves to being alone because they can’t be perfect? I sabotaged my relationship with an amazing man because I kept thinking who cares, he can replace me in a minute with a better girl anyway. If my face or body or personality can’t be exactly the way I want it to be, or I feel like someone doesn’t have the exact impression of me I want, I just self sabotage and isolate myself from people. And then of course, I wallow in depression and self pity. Ive ruined many otherwise good connections by doing this and I want to stop but can’t.
Glad someone else understands. It’s a form of self harm in a way. I don’t feel like I deserve love if I can’t be perfect.
My friends were acting weird -in a passive aggressive way or ignoring me- for months (almost a year now) and it made me fed up with having social connections. I hate them so much but it makes me sad to not do fun things with them. The annoying part is I don't know if I did something wrong AND now they're acting more normal out of the blue???
They most likely have a group chat without you. I would drop them. It's better to be alone than with fake company.
than be with fake company.*
I just got stoned walled in another thread (not here) I just ranted about something that really happened to me, only to have a fucking incel throw it back in my face. I always assumed it was an exaggeration but there are psychopaths on 4chan who enjoy woman suffering. Anyways, T'm done with that swamp and men in general. I know not all men share those traits, but I can't take that chance. I had my accounts hacked into, my porch vandalized, my privacy invaded and my freedoms stolen. I'm done with men … never again. But I'm open to women.
>>58450>I had my accounts hacked into, my porch vandalized, my privacy invaded and my freedoms stolen
Geez Louise anon. Storytime?
Why would such a large group of people be that cruel though? Like, what could I have possibly done to deserve that?
People are cruel. Maybe they didn't like you over a comment or a tone you used, or something super petty you don't or never will know. But just know, sometimes people are just plain bitches.
None of it is your fault. They're just shitty people. But if you feel like it'll help you then you could ask one of them in private what their deal is. That's only if you want to.
Not much to tell really. My idiot, meathead neighbor and his friends tried to hack into my sm accounts. They were bragging about it while I had my window open. (Because they're kinda dumb) This same neighbor threw a chair at my door and called me a "crazy witch." (OBV. I didn't open the door to confront him) I had to even bring his garbage bin in because it was on my driveway and I didn't want to be blamed for it by the tenants. When I did, he had this smug smirk when he thanked me. I said nothing and went inside. Another guy friend I friend zone started stalking around my house so I had legal advice about the issue. I complained on 4chan ( this was before I discovered crystal cafe) only to earn mockery and larping. Today was the last draw. I got into a confrontation with a incel and walked away. My heart was racing and I trembled from anger. There is something wrong with incels and stalkers. They're broken. I can't trust men anymore, not after all this. But I don't hate them either.
I know, I wanted to see the good in everyone. Heck, I even worked as a caregiver. But since this bastard moved in on top of my friend harassing me, I know different. Ah, so /adv/ was always bad. I just assumed it worsened with the mutilation posts. A few fananons left recently. Can't say I blame them. But thank you for your feedback and reading.
i'm sorry to hear all of that. it's not surprising. you cannot, basically ever, go to men for sympathy. that's why the /r/relationship threads are also maelstroms of nastiness, because they're so occupied by men who blame the woman for everything. i used to post threads in /adv/ when it was first opened and i used to get soooo much shit for telling them porn is damaging to women and relationships, on top of being abusive/rape on tape. they just told me i was a crazy bitch that'll be alone forever on repeat, and that "we don't self insert!!! you're just insecure!!" lmao.
it's not just incels and stalkers and 4chan though. remember that australian comedian that was raped and murdered and her family and grave was harassed and vandalized for no reason at all other than women are hated? people in real life actually went out and repeatedly vandalized this poor girl's grave. it's just sick. they're unfeeling and unhuman.
I know, I wanted to see the good in everyone. Heck, I even worked as a caregiver. But since this bastard moved in on top of my friend harassing me, I know different. Ah, so /adv/ was always bad. I just assumed it worsened with the mutilation posts. A few fananons left recently. Can't say I blame them. But thank you for your feedback and reading.
have you considered moving? you're renting? when does your lease expire?
I'm renting but I certainly have ;)(don't use emotes)
yeah def get out. you can always sublease if you want to gtfo sooner
I'm sorry you had to go through that. I picked up a few things from legal advice. Wear a hat and glasses in the daytime. Keep your doors locked and curtains drawn in the nighttime. Don't make eye contact with men and keep conversations brief. Also carry a keychain alarm and pepper spray. Always be in a hurry and have an escape plan for a bad situation.
No offense or anything, but how do you get stonewalled on an anonymous board where people aren't oblugated to answer you?
>>58461>porn is damaging to women and relationships, on top of being abusive/rape on tape
Is it bad if I enjoy porn?
I keep getting dark facial hair growing all over. I've been going to an electrolysist for a while now but it keeps seeming to come back. Maybe it will work if I keep up the treatments but it's really annoying. I have 4 dark whiskers on my chin, about 8 in between my eyebrows, and more above/below eyebrows and a few on my upper lip right now. And i have to walk around like this until the appointment. I'm calendar watching anxiously. It's driving me absolutely insane. I can get through if I think, "after this I'll never deal with this problem again," but she's worked on my face for like 6 sessions now and it keeps growing back. I can't even get started on my bodyhair because every time I think, "yes, face is finished, now the rest," the facial hair grows back. I feel like a disgusting hairy monster. I feel so gross it's difficult to even masturbate right now.
I mean everybody has looked at it but it is sketchy. Thankfully now we have hentai and source filmmaker
I think it more depends the the genre.
I own firearms and have never abused my moid. My guns are cute and so am I. (But yes, if a moid tries to choke you out, you need to pack your shit and leave after he falls asleep.)>>58396
my codependent mother is slowly whittling away my mental health but i feel guilty about considering moving away and going low contact as she's got essentially my entire family convinced im fucking bonkers. i dont want to be her best friend. i dont want to be her confidant. im tired of hearing the same lines over and over again (ex "i was a teen mother…" its been twenty three fucking years) so i can be forced to feel bad for her. i am tired of not being allowed to be sad/angry because that somehow means i hate her and i think shes a shit mother. my brain feels like scrambled eggs every time she does this stuff. im living with a permanent victim who cant comprehend me as anything other than an extension of her (she literally said "you're my external heartbeat"). i cant even talk to family because she runs the same game on them. to everyone im the ungrateful bastard daughter and she's the saintly sacrificial mother, even though she's ADMITTED to using me for emotional support. i dont want to live this way anymore. god fucking damn im exhausted beyond measure
Sounds like she needs friends or a therapist to vent to instead of you
I looked into it and it seems that owning firearms is a strong predictor for an already-abused woman to end up getting killed, but not for death by domestic abuse in general.
I have npc syndrome. I don't enjoy anything, basically. I feel like my life is a script I'm just reading through. I don't have any friends. I will likely live with my boyfriend and his extremely generic family. it's weird. he cares about living and the things he does. I can't relate at all. I feel like I'm secondary to him and it's not his fault. I do have hobbies and I create things but none of it brings me pleasure or anticipation. It's all generic, the things I create, too. It feels like I'm just executing some mindless code when I draw. Everything looks too simplistic and rigid that I create. I smoke and think, that's the only pleasure, albeit not a large one, I feel, as well as sex. But I've accepted I will never find a man who wants to have sex as much as I want.
I want to not smoke, though, and I wish I didn't get pleasure out of sex because it requires another person. I don't enjoy masturbation even though I cum. I wish I could be self-sufficiently happy, as all I do is like a larp of that.
Today I talked to my long term bf about the idea of getting married and having kids. He mentioned how he wants to get married and have kids one day. I told him I’m not getting any younger and would like to start planning a family within a year or two. He told me he won’t be ready to get married or have kids for another 10 years or so and wants to focus on his career. When I asked him if that’s his way of saying he’s not interested in having marrying me or having kids with me, he just went very quiet. I got the hint and realized he means he’s planning on marrying another woman after me. I’ve been really upset all day, crying and feel resentful at having my time wasted like this. Now I feel like there’s no future for us and I have to start looking for another boyfriend. But that means having to throw away 4 years of a relationship with a man I thought was more serious about me.
You sound exactly like me. I feel like I’m just going through the motions a lot of the time and have anhedonia towards most things. Could it just be depression?
I remember a few years ago realizing how boring and monotonous adult life is for most people and it was depressing. They just work jobs they hate, get married, have kids and cohabit together in a pretty boring passionless relationship. When I was a kid I thought it would be way more exciting.
My anxiety just keeps getting worse. My head feels like it’s going to explode. I feel like crying every second.
Just leave, dude. Her problems do not need to be your problems.
That's an awful feel. I'm sorry anon. Leave. You'll be sad for a week but then happy as hell you left.
Moids have this conception that they can fuck around until they're 40 and then suddenly find a 20 year old girl to marry and have kids with. It's really disgusting. No woman wants to marry a man that much older than her, and even if they did, the guy would be too old to enjoy having kids, and the kids would be poorly served by having an elderly father, who would then pop off and die 20 years earlier than the fathers of their friends. There's something wrong with men. I really just hate them so much sometimes.
I'm dating a guy 4 years younger than me. Older men are the worst, they just want to control you and boss you around and lecture you on things. Any man who wants a significantly younger woman is nothing but an abuser. Men are the ones who hit the fucking wall after spending 15 years doing nothing but masturbating to disgusting, violent, degenerate pornography and staying up to 2am playing video games. That's why they're all balding and fat now. Men shouldn't be left to their own devices, because they can't take care of themselves or make good decisions, they just deathgrip their cock and lurk on discord and twitch all night until they wake up at age 40 with heart disease, pre-diabetes, more hair on their pillowcase than on their head, and a microdick from growing out their beergut. Men are nothing but trash.
About a month ago a girl and I had a strong mutual interest in each other which lead to cuddling, calling each other pet names, having some of the best and most meaningful conversations ever, etc. but after talking to her friends she wanted us to quit what we were doing because she felt our age difference (18-26) was too large and introduced an unintentionally power-imbalance between us.
And while I agreed with her I then decided to bottle up my feelings to focus on a difficult period in my life and now all this heartbreak is hitting me at once and I just feel so lonely and unloveable with tons of self-esteem issues like I did before I met her.
She did say we'd stay friends but she hasn't really stayed in touch despite me reaching out to her which hurts me quite a bit even though I know she is very busy.
I'm gonna honor her wish to never lose that optimism that she loved about me though even if it's tough right now!
I hate how men think they have an unlimited time to fuck around and can out off marriage and kids until their late 40s and 50s.
Studies have shown that the DNA in male sperm starts degrading steeply after 35 and that men over 40 have a 1 in 8 chance of having a child with autism, even if the mom is young. Older fathers also put young mothers at risk for more pregnancy, fetal and labor complications, and the chances of a child with schizophrenia also rise sharply with sperm from men over 35.
Are you the 18 or the 26 y/o?
Whenever I feel anxious or upset, I get intense stomach aches. It's a huge pain in the ass
Moids trip over themselves to post photos of empty egg cartons but then pull this shit where they're shooting gimpy 50 year old swimmers and breeding up potatoes. Maybe both genders should grow the fuck up and acknowledge that they need to learn how to commit to a relationship in their late teens and early 20s so they can be settled and pumping out babies by 24 instead of 44. But historically moids have always done this kind of bullshit. 50 year old men trying to marry women young enough to be their granddaughters is just absoulutely disgusting. If I saw a man trying that I would slit his throat.
Well that’s the funny thing. The studies showed the mutations in older sperm still affect the mothers offspring, even if she is 18 years old. So all those old moids can careermaxx or whatever other cope and knock up their Slavic teen sugarbabies all they want but they’re still having schizo future mass shooter incel kids whether they like it or not.
Yep. Unfortunately moids only think with emotion, and by emotion I mean their penis, and are incapable of grasping logic and data driven science.
A thought = A soul.
Ask your old true self what to do and you’ll grow her neural network like an unstoppable brain virus that takes over you if you do it enough.
Serve the clever child and bursting with enthusiasm. You can hear her neural network still talking to you. You needed to talk to her ever to simulate her in the act of making the post.
you needed to talk to her to simulate her in the act of making the post.
Reality has layers
It is limited to what we detect
My boyfriend just made a big deal about me going out to celebrate one of my male friend's birthday this weekend 1 on 1, and anyways we can only be 2 people at a table… My boyfriend says its basically like a date. Ive known this friend for over 4 years and I barely ever hungout with him. Sometimes he acts overly nice which can lead me to thinking hes flirting and stuff, but I always ignored the comments and frankly we're just friends, he knows I have a boyfriend and I always talk to him about them. Hes also on the spectrum so when he does something weird I just shrug it off because hes awkward in that way sometimes. He's genuinely a good friend of mine that just gets lonely at times (he gets rejected by his friend group a lot because he's socially awkward) and I know he means no harm he just has difficulty with how to act with girls. I got upset at my boyfriend but went and canceled the plans with my friend. Am I really in the wrong? My boyfriend even went to say that he would've been okay with it if my friend asked them for permission to go on a night out with me… I don't know who's in the wrong.
Kinda offtopic, but my parents were in their early 40s when they had me. I'm just happy I don't have autism or some genetic condition.
Having friends is good. But your boyfriend isn’t wrong.
But don’t limit yourself. A person you’re with must stimulate the greatest growth.
I think the answer of this depends on the relationship. Don’t limit yourself but know you won’t be growing with your boyfriend if you continue this behaviour. If he doesn’t like how it feels that’s right of him not wrong.
What matters is how you feel.
Honestly if I was the guy and I felt you were going a date with someone else and that you chose this desire over me/my desires.
Then I’d rightfully consider ending the relationship. For the best of us both.
I just sent a message for my ex e-boyfriend from a random website I found his account by searching his real name because I still feel like shit.
I was only 12, so I don't think it really counts as a relationship, but still, I was such a piece of shit. I was depressed and used him for attention, and on top of all that, I kind of spread that he had a weird dick. (phimosis) Even worst, this became a inside joke in his friend circle, so I'm sure he didn't forget about that. Am I retarded?
He definitely should not reply to you lmao
>>58584>Sometimes he acts overly nice which can lead me to thinking hes flirting and stuff, but I always ignored the comments and frankly we're just friends
i can see where your boyfriend might be upset.
How did you find out he had phimosis
My sleep schedule is completely fucked up and I’m awake all night and napping throughout the day. It makes me feel dissociated from reality and like a disgusting lazy slug.
>>58565>men are nothing but trash>I have a boyfriend
Men say horrid shit about women all the time and still date them, why are you surprised at this?
Men are trash. It’s not our fault that we are still biologically attracted to them.
Have you even tried dating a woman?
Why would I if I’m heterosexual?
I mean I find it surprising with men too, but that makes a bit more sense to me since Im assuming its a purely sexual thing. That and I think most men who talk shit about women are just angry cus women dont want them, like a "i actually dont want it anyway" defense mechanism. >>58620
That sounds very weird to me, youre basically saying youre attracted to trash.
Is it just physical attraction and you only want sex? That would make sense I guess, but I dont think Id suffer through a relationship with someone I think of as trash just for sex. If its more about the emotional connection and affection… again why would you want to have that with someone you consider trash?
I assume when people say that, they are speaking generally. As in, most men are trash, but not hers.
But you can choose to not act on that biological attraction.
>>58541>He told me he won’t be ready to get married or have kids for another 10 years or so
How old is he?
I've never understood wanting to wait that long to have children. My ideal age has always been 30 so I could have a good chance of seeing my grandchildren reach adulthood, not just my children.
Also let’s not forget that infamous study about age gap relationships and divorce. Men will complain about getting divorce raped but then they marry a younger woman? Silly moids.
I'm done trying to make friends.
"Don't let a couple experiences ruin how you view it waaahhh" Ok, how about 15 years of repetitive experiences?
"Maybe you're the problem waaahhh" Oh, so I deserved it every time? Okay cool, even more reason to fuck myself off or no?
Well, you are the problem but I'm not saying this in a malicious way. Do you suffer from anxiety/depression?
I know I'm in the part of my cycle where I always get mega depressive because hormones or whatever the hell, but it's really bad this month. I feel like I suck and everyone secretly hates me even though I know that's shitty retarded hormones talking. fuck
I feel like I turn into a demon during PMS. I’m like a completely different person.
this is dumb but i recently left a d&d table i liked but wasn't too interested in, and i just found out that instead of following my wishes and either
a.) killing off my character to maybe provide development for the others
b.) placing them in the background
they're going to pretend that he just never existed. i don't know why this hurts me so much. it's like i genuinely have no desire to return but idk it sucks
If you weren't interested in them, why would they be interested in you? Get over it.
I miss having a best friend.
I feel you anon. While you might not be interested now, you did still invest time and energy into that character and the game. Wiping out your efforts like that can hurt. If it were me, I'd feel like they wanted to erase the good times you guys had together
I don’t have a diagnosis and I feel like such an attention seeker for saying this but I’m pretty sure I struggle with seasonal depression in the summer and it’s killing me. I am well the rest of the year and I have a pretty good life but I feel ready to end it over how I feel right now.
Summer definitely sucks. You don't need to feel like you're attention seeking. You are on an anonymous board after all. I vent here because I don't have anyone I am willing to talk with about this stuff with in the real world. You are probably the same way, you're actually here saying it because of how little attention you seek.
I get horribly depressed during summer. Seeing hot girls dressed in skimpy outfits giggling with their bfs makes me want to kermit.
Was just thinking about a guy I dated when I was young. He was twice my age, married, and in an authority position. Even just that is screwed up enough.
But I realized now how little effort he put into the relationship and that he basically used me for sex only. He had a very well paying job, but aside from taking me to the cheapest, greasiest, places to eat, never took me anywhere that involved spending money. Used to turn up to "dates" wearing old dirty clothes, never gifted me the smallest thing, pressured me to do sexual things I didn't want in locations I didn't want, and constantly, constantly would tell me how stupid and easy I was as a way to lower any feeble resistance I might have put up.
Like my self confidence wasn't low enough already to be dating some disgusting old man who doesn't even bother to tidy up or change his sheets for me. I was young, pretty, and miles out of his league. Yet he had to treat me like trash and make me feel like I was the one unworthy of him and too stupid to function. The few rare, vaguely kind things he did for me were more in his own interest, not mine. He was even selfish in conversation, selfish in bed, and so full of himself, telling me about all the other young women he had done the same to and how we should have a threesome with one, because I wasn't enough alone obviously. There was nothing in it for me.
It's so sad to realize how attention and touch starved I must have been to go through all that, and like it, for almost a year and only stop because I moved away. And then humor his regular harassing messages for another year on top of that.
I got the last laugh though. I had to contact him about something years later, not out of choice. We hadn't been in touch for a while and a sent a formal email requesting something. He sent back the same old, expecting to that we would just pick up where I left before.
Even though I hadn't fully processed what had happened between us, I had this overwhelming wave of revulsion. I saw red and fucking snapped. I immediately deleted that email account and opened another. I took everything, everything and sent it to his employers, about 100 documents, photos, and proof of all other people he had fucked (over). He immediately got fired and has been laying low since.
That was years ago though but I still have a complex about people thinking I'm stupid that I'm trying to work through. And having to accept that, yes, I was that desperate just for the lowest, most worthless, basic acknowledgement that I existed.
>>58716>Seeing hot girls dressed in skimpy outfits giggling with their bfs
It's hard seeing people be happy together like that. It makes me feel like something's wrong with me because I've never been able to connect with others in that way.
My bf dumped me out of the blue. It’s hard because I felt our relationship was actually going really nicely and there were no complaints or real indications. He was always really cheery and bright and put aside time for us, we had some really nice date nights over the past few weeks with lots of cuddling and I love yous and sweet moments. Then last night he called me saying he just doesn’t feel like he wants to be in a relationship anymore. Just like that. I can’t believe it. My mind thinks he must have suddenly met someone else. Crazy how fast people can just drop you like that.
i was going to see my sister tomorrow cuz we havent seen each other since christmas but she changed her mind and decided to hang out with her bf of 1 month instead
that's sad. why don't you tell her how much you miss her?
I recently started trying to talk to guys and find a bf, I’m talking to a couple right now and most of them are already ignoring me a lot or treating me like I’m disposable, or are just overly rude and obnoxious. It’s so depressing. It sounds dumb but I honestly just want a guy who is super kind and attentive towards me and treats me like a princess but I’m not pretty or Stacy enough for men to treat me that way so they just treat me like garbage.
Me in the shades.p…
I did it
I finally did it
I asked my work crush for their number, and he just gave it to me without any questions. He was like "i'm surprised I don't have yours already."
I don't know why I was so hesitant, seeing how painless it was
We're moving closer and closer to the goal of being normie adjacent!!
Now I just need to figure out what to text him
I can't just post memes can I?
Wow must be nice being Stacy. Congrats.
It’s after midnight here, it’s windy and raining here but not too cold, and so pretty and quiet and atmospheric outside. I wish I could go on a night walk around the city but it’s just too unsafe and I don’t wanna get raped or mugged ;_;
If I can do it, anyone can. I'm as socially inept as they come.
It's just a phone number, not like i've actively made any passes at him.
That's a level I won't mentally be prepared for for a long time
My dads had drinking problems for a long time and he's just been going downhill (really really downhill, full on rampage) since this year, he's become extremely agressive and I'm scared for my mom and myself sometimes. Yesterday he forcefully picked me up while he was blackout drunk from my bf's house and its just a really shitty and scary experience. Then he came home and smashed a glass really hard because he got mad. It gets worse everytime and I can't do anything about it because he thinks he's fine and that we believe he's sober. I feel so fucking alone everyone jokes about being an alcoholic and thinks it's nothing serious but it's tearing my family apart, and I have no one to talk to about this because no one understands it. My parents argue on an everyday basis since the day I was born and to this day i start shaking really hard everytime I hear them. I feel so alone I don't want to bother others with my problems but its so fuckijg hard to keep it all in sometimes. I feel like my mental health is god awful right now and theres absolutely nothing i can do because I'm stuck with me family everyday. I can't afford therapy (id love to afford it for both my mom and me) and I'm too young to move out right now… so here i am ranting to strangers :( I love life, my friend, my parents, my boyfriend.. and theres so many things i wish to see, and i know some people have it worse.. but at times like these i wish i was never born
whenever moids post that "number of partners versus divorce rate" chart a miner should post this. even in manga there's so much with a young female and a way older male. it's jsut disgusting. it's like internalized self hatred to get with a guy old enough to be your father.
Good for you, he deserves to be fired. Yet another example of why older men who only get with way younger women are nothing but perverted abusers. You don't sound stupid at all. A lot of young women fall into abusive relationships because they don't know any better.
This broke me, anon. You deserve happiness. Posts like this make me feel wretched about how good I have it, yet all I do is be depressed, cut, smoke, and seethe over my perfectly fine boyfriend. I wish I could comfort you and even though I can't say anything to help, I wish I could listen to you so you could soothe yourself with your own words.
two guys ive met recently that im friends with have offered to buy me things just cause. nothing sexual has happened, nobody has been mean or had any bad intentions and i’ve always rejected the offers and never asked for anything. they don’t ask for anything in return with the offer, either. i suppose they just like me (which is really sweet!) and i wish i could accept the gifts but id feel really bad. i just lost a lot of my money and personal items i will never get back so yeah the offer seems nice but i cant bring myself to accept it. just conflicted because itd be nice but id feel too guilty. it doesnt feel fair.
My friend has been asshole ever since I got engaged and I don't want her in my wedding anymore. She thinks that she deserves to get married first because she is prettier than me. As soon as I told her that my boyfriend proposed, she started criticizing my relationship. Then she quickly got herself a new boyfriend in Bumble. Now she keeps telling how they are totally going to get married, despite only knowing each other for a few months. She has been sending me pictures of her boyfriend so I can see how cute he is and now she is sharing posts in Facebook of wedding ideas she wants. I fucking hate her.
I’ve noticed a lot of other women get really jealous and irrationally mad when their friend is getting married. It’s weird.
I know what you mean. It is an alienating feeling just to see people interacting in a natural way, joking around, being open and friendly.
i feel like i will never have a relationship or at least a healthy one because im too insecure. if i talk to a guy i constantly think "ew hes looking at my face right now" "hes seeing my ugly face and ugly body" id be too embarassed and ashamed to have sex. i dont understand how someone could like me or be attracted to me so i dont believe anyone that says they do. if i even get a bf, hes settling for me but he secretly wishes he was with stacy and would leave me for her is he had the chance. ill never be romantically attracted to based on my looks and seeing men compliment their s/o in books and movies hurts because ill never relate. it sucks because im a hopeless romantic but ill probably never get to experience love
I hate most anime and the obsession people have with it as a medium. Hardly worth a ''vent'', but whatever.
I feel like any artistic achievement within the medium always comes to fruition in spite of it being an anime, never because of it (Evangelion, Ghibli movies, etc.); probably 95% of the medium is littered with generic garbage and same-y character tropes meant to cater to manchildren and kids that has terrible pacing and awkward nonstop exposition (show, don't tell ffs) and dialogue dumps and fanservice galore.
I get annoyed by the constant cuteness and perceived attractiveness of the characters that gets not just praised but obsessed over - this goes for fujos but especially and mainly waifushit that men (and even some women) cling to as some kind of coping mechanism.
Even just pertaining to the aesthetic, I absolutely loathe and physically cringe at stuff like Hololive and I've even started getting annoyed by Touhou and the likes after seeing those godawful fumos everywhere.
Even the East Asian media I enjoy consuming is too often riddled with tropes, cliches, and aesthetic influences inspired by anime to their own artistic detriment. Only stuff like old Japanese cinema is tame and has proper artistic merit to it imo.
couple months ago around december met a guy who had like alot of the same interests as me. we then started dating but i broke up with him because i was dumb and not ready. we eventually got back together mid jan and our relationship was pretty good. the start of feb however, i had started to overthink and i thought he liked my bestfriend more than me. i had eventually expressed these opioons to both of them. my bf at the time assured me he liked me more and my bestfriend assured me she doesnt like my bestfriend romantically. then on feb 28, my boyfriend broke up with me then about a week later he told me he was dating my bestfriend and they had been dating for a couple days. basically within a week of breaking up, he went and dated my bestfriend when not a week previous to the breakup, they both had assured me they didnt like each other romantically. they had then dated for like a month and i was stuck helping literaly both of them with their relationship. turns out my bestfriend is sexually manipulative but then my exbf is manipulative so i was stuck choosing who to believe. after they broke up me and my bestfridn had a tough time talking i guess. now a couple days ago my ex told me he wasnt over me :|. we dated then he dumped me, dated my bestfriend and then tells me he isnt over me. what the fuck.
I'm sorry, anon. Your ex is a jerk, don't get back with him. You deserve better than that. You deserve a man who loves you for you, who isn't going to go off with your best friend just because. I think it's a little dirty of your friend, too, I'd be careful around her.
I've asked this moid I'm dating to give a fucking frilly pink cat fetish collar as birthday present.
My friends would tell me to go ahead and have fun as long as it's safe, but I can't help to feel gross doing it. It's weird especially since I couldn't have sex until my early/mid 20s, because of vaginismus, and now, I'm acting like a """kittenplay""" tumblr whore ?
It's really unsettling.
And, of course the scrote buying it.
You sound like a right bundle of joy and very pleasant to be around.
Honestly I used to feel the same as you, when I was finishing my studies, and was caught in the stress of exams and internships. And as a fact, my drawings were actually worse than what I did when I was around 18. So it's not only a feeling, it's real.
However, this will change when you will finish studies and will have more time and mental energy for yourself. End of studies is very stressful, and bad stress blocks your creative abilities.
It's not you being too old, it's you being too stressed out, just like I was. My drawings I considered the best were the ones I've done after finishing studies and applying for jobs.
I'm sure things will get better for you too anon, and you will develop your hobbies even further. It's a matter of time.
I'm worried i'm gonna drive him away. i fear his rejection, but i think fantasizing about what could possibly be between us is making me manic and inhibiting my ability to act normal around him at all.
this is messed up. i'm holding back having a serious conversation with him about our relationship because i fear he doesnt care as much as me.
It's your fault for asking for it. It's disgusting you are blaming the scrote in this instance.
I agree. Not her, but a lot of anime fans lately are either otaku or people who rejected anime earlier years. And the latter people are unaware of how the former people tease and hate on otakus. So now whenever I meet someone with similar interests anime is one of the first topics that come up. Then the fun starts when I mention being interested in anime, and they project their tumblrmode obsession onto me (whilst we bag on superwholockians, ironic). Then they incessently talk about anime and anything about it because they think it's part of my personality. I voluntarily watch an anime series like, once a year. Anime is good as a pasttime with good story, like watching a Ghibli movie for the first time when you were in elementary. I despise liking any anime just because, ¡it's anime! Maybe we should gatekeep it again, or I'm going to start telling people I hate anime.
How do I stop relying on others' perceived attractiveness of me to give me self-worth?
It literally is the gas I run on. I'm obsessed with it.
The reason I'm asking is because I wanted to be a cunt to my assburgers sister the other day because she kept on claiming her waist is smaller than mine, but it legitimately isn't (mine is inches smaller, and my entire measurements are more extreme than hers). It's such a dumb thing to want to be a bitch over, who cares if she thinks her waist is smaller when it isn't. I felt triggered over her cope statements like "abs wouldn't look good on my waist bc it's so smol uwu" when I suggested working out (I have abs) and I wish I didn't feel so attacked. Like, now I'm in a complex over my waist still not being small enough even though it is physically and proportionally smaller than hers. To add insult to injury, she was like "it's a good thing all of us girls in this family loved our bodies! Uwu" and I suffered from significant, obvious anorexia everyone in my family (but her) commented on. In fact, when family members would comment on my body, she would interrupt as if they were talking to her because she is obsessed with believing she's extremely skinny (she's a healthy weight, skinny, sure, but not ana) and my family members would have to correct her that they were talking about my weight. It's like she never can accept I'm a lower weight or a smaller waist or anything and I wish this didn't affect me the way it does, it makes me feel sick and idk why I'm so obsessed with my older sister acknowledging certain facts. I just always wanted her to admit something positive about me.
my boyfriend is a huge detriment to me and my life for various reasons but because of that i am forced to depend on him
>>58950>I feel like any artistic achievement within the medium always comes to fruition in spite of it being an anime, never because of it (Evangelion, Ghibli movies, etc.)
Are you trying to imply that if the Ghibili movies weren't animated in Japan, but say, animated in the US, they would still work? Or maybe Evangelion would have been better as a live action movie? I'm trying to parse this sentence. Unless, you're just complaining that most anime sucks, in that case, yes, most anime is bollocks, that's just a fundamentally different statement.
The pacing is really the worst part. Most anime is just so slow and boring with nothing ever happening. And when the things that do happen are so cliche-ridden it really feels like you're just watching a half hour of nothing, you realize you just spent that time on empty crap you've seen a hundred times.
This. It really is like most fight scenes are the same, too.
Me and my dad take turns making dinner and I don't understand why he sometimes pretends to be a retard when it comes to food.
>he prepares frozen pizza
>pizza comes out with dough and cheese still looking white like chalk
>it clearly looks WRONG
>his excuse: "I put it in the oven for exactly 10 minutes, just like it says on the package!"
What does this even mean? Who says you can't bake it for longer? But when I bring it up, he says it totally looks okay. Sure, it's edible but if it can be better, why not make it better? When other people make it or when we go to a pizza place, he always eats the pizzas with golden crusts and properly baked cheese and never complains, so obviously it has nothing to do with him preferring half-raw pizzas. I can put my share of the pizza back in the oven, it's just his weird logic that I don't get. inb4 first world problems
He sounds like the kind of person who's bad with technology.
I think he's the type of person to cook by recipe and not intuition. He follows instructions exactly like an engineering plan when sometimes cooking requires more finesse and know how. You can say>it looks wrong he should just know
but if he has at all dealt with car engines or anything else technically detailed he is intimately familiar with the concept of "Why the fuck would you put that there?" and just having to deal with things looking stupid as hell.
I'll never be normal
IF I die alone tomorrow or die alone 40 years from now what's the difference
I meet new people that I'd love to be friends with but I immediately drop the idea of pursuing friendship with them if they're even 3 people away from knowing my abusive ex boyfriend. And yes, I have no friends and am isolating myself.
Lonely, bored, probably going to cut so something exciting happens.
Does he know a lot of people
Yup. Whole city is just a person away from knowing him. He's very extroverted and social, and gets around. Dates and fucks a lot of people. I want to leave this place bad, but I can't.
why did i screw up a good friendship now it wont be the same sigh
I was implying that themes such as existentialism or coming-of-age tales as they are presented in such stories aren't enhanced at all by them being in the format of an anime, but that they achieve such feats of resonating with the audience and telling a meaningful tale in spite of that, with the aesthetic appeal of anime only serving to make such themes more palpable to the average consumer, really.
I think cinema, certain types of TV shows, and especially literature lend themselves much better to the exploration of such themes and various others at a more visceral, direct level, and are simulataneously held to more rigorous standards if they do attempt to delve into them, and as such hold much more cultural relevancy when they do succeed.
Whereas the more juvenile - male, introverted - target demographic of most anime eats things up too readily, setting the bar as low as it is. It's outright jarring seeing them try mix in half-assed philosophical concepts and moral dilemmas, if anything.
dont want to exist. keep trying to grow and stay positive but its futile. wasted money and love and time with my ex trying to help him only to be abused and self harm myself and be the most depressed ever. moved back home was feeling happier but now i dont know how to feel that hes moved on within 3 weeks of me coming home. whats the point of my hobbies anymore? didnt get the job i really wanted. pathetic neet until fall classes. no friends. i feel like such a loser. do good and get shit on i guess
>want a bf
>decide to try talking to men
>instantly get disgusted by realizing how primitive and coomerish 99.9% of men are when talking to them and even the ones who seem intelligent and non primitive are just hiding their true nature
>don’t want a bf anymore
>few weeks go by
>want a bf
I wish this site had more traffic.
Same. It’s a shame there’s only a couple bumps a day.
>>58994>I was implying that themes such as existentialism or coming-of-age tales as they are presented in such stories aren't enhanced at all by them being in the format of an anime, but that they achieve such feats of resonating with the audience and telling a meaningful tale in spite of that, with the aesthetic appeal of anime only serving to make such themes more palpable to the average consumer, really.
Okay, I believe I see a point you're making about the medium being limiting, but again I ask, are you saying that Evangelion would have been better as a live-action drama? Ghibli movies instead being animated by Warner Bros? Themes overall sure, but for your argument to make sense then these specifically mentioned items things would have to be better in other mediums, and I would just like to know which ones.
>I think cinema, certain types of TV shows, and especially literature lend themselves much better to the exploration of such themes and various others at a more visceral, direct level, and are simulataneously held to more rigorous standards if they do attempt to delve into them, and as such hold much more cultural relevancy when they do succeed.
I'd be pretty hard-pressed to say that Ghibli films do not hold a lot of cultural relevancy in Japan in general. Evangelion much less so, but probably the most of any late night anime. I suppose the main problem I'm having is that you seem to have a survivorship bias towards novels, cinema and TV shows: there are plenty of cultural artifacts that you are only aware of because other people keep talking about them, and don't talk about the rest as time goes on. 99% of novels sell like dogshit, are hot trash, and noticed by no one. The amount of golden age cinema films you are personally aware of let alone have watched can probably be counted on two hands.
You don't seem to grasp that majority of novels are awful, the majority of films are awful, and that the majority of TV shows are also awful, then somehow think that anime is unique in this regard.
I’m cynical and blackpilled beyond belief, and it makes me depressed and grouchy to be around. I wish I could go back to being naive and thinking love and innocence exists in this world.
Being cynical or being naive both sound like trash options to me.
Is it because you spend too much time on the internet? I miss my old mentality too. Now I know why people say that ignorance is bliss.
She wasn't blaming the scrote, though. She was talking about how she feels unsettled about her preferences now.
I got offered a data analytics job at a tech startup. I'm pretty excited. The pay is okay (many times better than $13/hr, that's for sure) and I think it'll be an excellent learning experience.
Honestly, I really wish there were imageboards and forums just for women/girls that were more interest/fun focused rather than hatred/sadness focused.
gosh I wish that were me
My bf wants to talk about how we don't have as much sex as we used to. I just have no libido at all right now. How crushed will you think he'll be if I tell him he's always been a 6/10 in bed?
If he's not selfish and just genuinely not unaware of not being good, I would start with telling him what you would like. I would try different positions and try to get past the awkward feeling of communicating during sex. It can be weird at first but its worth building up. Sometimes men are so unaware of what doesn't feel good for you and you have to show them how to do something right. (Also I think most men just don't do enough foreplay.) Porn is to blame lol
You can say anime is for normies without having to type all that.
Unless your bf is super hot it’s natural to not have a high sex drive with him. Its natures way of preventing betas from impregnating us.
As an anon that is extremely horny and never has had a bf that fulfills my sex drive, please consider your bf is being very open and honest to you with this information - it's hard to say that kind of stuff. I would say you don't need to put it so bluntly like that, you could say sex could be better for you and perhaps use that as an opportunity to get a sex life that better suits you so it's a win-win on both fronts.
If he really loves you and wants more sex, he will improve (given that you are being upfront in directing him to do what you want).
I hope things work out between the two of you. Sexual incompatibility is a difficult reality to live through.
You are retarded, enough of this Joe Rogan shit.
I fell in love with a person I can never be with. It happened so fast, too. I used to think I couldn't fall in love anymore but here it is.
And I hate it. They're someone I can never be with. We'll only be seeing each other for a few more days, ans then never again for the rest of my life. I don't even think they like me in any way. Yet I've never met someone I'm more compatible with, with whom I can talk and laugh for hours and never get tired of their presence.
I hate myself for being so lovesick over this person. I feel like I'm dying over and over again with every second that passes.
>>59032>They're someone I can never be with.
I don't know what this means specifically. If they aren't in a relationship, admit your love to them anyway, you want the fucking closer more than you want the anxiety. If they are in a relationship, wish them the best and leave them to their way.
How do I stop being a sperg and look at people in the eyes.
They get offended and think I'm rude when I look at my feet.
I'm just shy.
>read news and lurk net in morning while eating breakfast and trying to wake completely up
>get ready and run out door
>spend all day at a fucking office doing soul crushing drudgery and trying not to cry
>just want to go home
>finally go home
>famished, eat a bunch of poorly prepared crap and lurk net for a few hours
>by the time i'm recovered and think about doing something for myself like a hobby i'm already getting sleepy
>go to bed
>repeat for 40 years and die
how do i stop wanting to kill myself every day?
i kind of feel for them. i mean, we all want to get married, right. and it's frustrating that it's so difficult and takes so long. you can spend 3 years dating a moid and then he decides he isn't ready for commitment and dumps you. wash and rinse until you're 35 and loading a revolver. moids have fucked us all over with their bullshit about not wanting to get married until they're 50 years old, and comparing women to a "ball and chain" when most women would do anything to help and pleasure their moid and are willing to dedicate their entire life to him. and men are like "she's probably a gold digger who will nag me and then divorce rape me. i'd better just play video games for 30 years and then marry a 14 year old in mexico." she's wrong to take it out on you but i understand how she feels and why. you can do everything right and still end up fucked. how many dozens of novels were written about men who put off marriage and act wishy washy on committing to any one woman? there are literally entire novels about mens propensity to do this in times where there are no parents or society pressuring them to stop being a manchild and get on with marriage and being an adult already. arranged marriage is awful, sure, but when men stop having society force them to do the right thing they just fuck around until they're 40 and wake up single and depressed and then go kill themselves, and they leave a corresponding woman in the same position. basically lemmings all running off a cliff.
men are pieces of shit.
Ages ago I read a blog of a girl who studied Korean in language schools in Seoul during a gap year from college. She would talk about dating, fashion, food, and had a group of similar friends who she regularly hung out with. She went on to study interpreting and really inspired me to sign up for language classes to do the same. Her blog stopped as soon as she entered her master's and I always wondered how she got on. Had she stopped the blog because she dropped out (she mentioned some personal issues)?
Anyway, I just managed to dox her. Turns out she went to fucking YALE on a scholarship and got special volunteering experience through her family connections. She's now working as a professor. I'm not jealous but it felt like her life was in touching distance for me. Like if I worked hard I could have done what she did. Gone to the places she did, enjoy the same fun things.
But now I realize there's chasms between us. These types of special achievements and recognition just never happen for me. I thought I'd found a cheat code to an amazing life. But no, I'll never have that.
What’s most annoying is they claim they need time to make sure a woman is the right one, but then you see them proposing to some 19 year old Instagram model within two weeks of dating. If a guy doesn’t propose to me within a year I will just leave him.
Chads keep asking me out but also don't seem to think I'm all that pretty.
What do I do with/make of this information?
He could be negging you if it's overt that he finds you unattractive. What makes you think he doesn't find you attractive?
unironically get an adderall prescription so you have more energy after work and on weekends
It's either some kind of bet or they are negging you. Also what kind of Chad are we talking about here?
My friend is getting abused by her long term boyfriend. I always suspected something was up with him, he was always extremely moody and overall gave me an awful gut feeling. She doesn't want to leave him despite this, though. It's clear she still loves him and has no intention of leaving him, despite her awareness of just how awful his behavior is. This has been made worse by the fact that they've been dating for 5 years.
I want to be there for her, but I'm busy nearly all the time. This is beyond cruel, she's a sweet lady. She doesn't deserve this shite. I hate men so much it's unreal.
I usually only lurk, but I need somewhere anonymous (that isn't 4chan) to vent. My ex girlfriend has been villainizing me terribly on social media even though she was the dumper and our relationship was comfy and with 0 conflict until the very first conflict at the end which was caused by communication issues over something important to me (she was conflict avoidant type, I'm bad at expressing feelings type). I found out about this 2 days ago and I feel so hurt and anxious about this. She has dehumanized me, posted a vulnerable text I had sent (to ridicule me with her followers?) and is creating this narrative like if I was a terrible and crazy person. The worst one was a post about how her therapist said "I sound like the worst", and that just broke me. I don't know what to make of this.
I considered maybe I'm actually crazy and unaware? But to be honest, she's never had anything nice to say about any of her exes and has made posts saying that she has only dated unhinged women because of her low self-esteem.
This is actually making me terrified of dating again because I feel so blindsided and never expected this of her. I keep thinking what could I have done to make her hate me this much, but I'm coming up blank. She's met my best friend and parents and they're coming up blank too.
There is no way around it. I need to kill myself. I don't have friends or success. Those whom I love don't really care about me. Nothing matters, nothing I can do and nothing to live for. I want to be brave enough to finally sleep and never wake up. But I can't do it, there is this stupid feeling of guilt. How people who never answered my texts would feel guilty. I don't want to inconvinience them, I wish I was hit by a car or died in an unfortunate accident so I didn't have to do it myself. I'm so lonely.
You aren’t the problem, it’s your terrible loved ones. You need to kill them or just go not contact and meet some new people.
Sometimes moids pretend they can't do basic things in order to get women to do their chores for them. Idk your dad so I can't say for sure that's the case for him. It could just be like what >>58980
i feel this exact same way anon. but im scared id hurt my mom. ive already hurt her by attempting in the past and by her having to see me go through trauma and an abusive ex recently. it would just destroy her. i hope i can make it look like an accident somehow.
i'm just going off of your post, but your ex-gf sounds toxic and batshit insane. in a legal sense you could get a restraining order or report her for cyberstalking or get a harassment prevention order if she keeps this up
samefag, basically don't respond to anything, she probably wants to get a rise out of you, or wants you to respond. also block her and try not to look at her social media anymore. while it's possible in some situations, how can you find a problem with every single one of your exes and think you aren't the problem
I have been feeling awful lately because I have been dating this girl who considers herself asexual for quite some time and we've had sex twice. While basically no sex is part of my problem, the last time we had sex I wanted to make her feel very good so I got a little rough and she had me stop. The bad part is that I didn't feel like stopping, I wanted to fuck her hard and make her cum against her will, to see her cry for it. Anyway, I stopped and went to the bathroom and basically masturbated to the thought of raping her. I didn't cuddle her that night, I just felt dirty and even though I really like her I feel like I'm not getting any sexual satisfaction from this relationship and that makes me angry, maybe this is why I'm having these thoughts but idk. So I'm feeling borderline rapist, disappointed in myself, sexually frustrated, angry and sad at the same time. I don't want to break up with her, I don't have anyone else to fuck anyway and maybe it's for the best we don't have sex at all.
And while she hasn't explicitly told me anything I suspect she has suffered sexual assault because she told me she feels safe to do it with me the first time and that makes me feel even more awful but also I feel jelly when I imagine that's the case. Maybe I should go to therapy.
Every time I think I’ve met the perfect guy for me they always have some kind of terrible monkeys paw flaw that cancels out everything else good about them makes them completely undateable.
Indeed, I'm not blaming him in any way, he's being kind and sweet towards me, and helps me with stuff whenever I need.
The thing is, those kind of fantasies are kind of a relapse of chidhood trauma. I'm not sure that's healthy. Also most of these "dd/lg" adjacent communities are pretty cringe and i don't want to be associated with them.>>59032>We'll only be seeing each other for a few more days, ans then never again for the rest of my life.
Why ? Will he be moving at the other end of the world ? Or just moving to another city ?>>59079
If they have been together for 5 years, I'm guessing that they live together. Do you think that you could offer her to stay at your place if she leaves him ? Even if you can't be around, that'll be of great help.
want to kms dealing with family court and lying attorneys. the court system is run by unscrupulous molepeople.
jesus christ anon go to therapy. and break up with her asap before you end up raping her geez.
Actually just tell her exactly what you wrote here so she can get tf away from you and get a restraining order against you
I wish I had the slightest amount of confidence about anything at all. I feel deformed, untalented beyond belief and utterly stupid. I know this isn't true and it's not as bad as I feel, but I can't stop feeling this way.
what the fuck? Leave her. Now. and get some serious therapy afterwards you deranged coomer. >>59080
just block her. be happy you dodged a bullet and do your best to ignore her slander, if it gets out of hand then say your own piece.
in my own experience, insecure, immature, "nonconfrontational" people tend to be like this. instead of saying anything to your face if something upsets them, they let it stew and then internally blow it out of proportion.
My boyfriend doesn't listen to a single word of advice I say, but then he talks to his mom and sounds responsible talking about all of the things I told him to do while our life actually falls apart.
I hate my sister so much. She explodes at innocuous comments and is always angry. All. The. Goddamn. Time. She’s always so intense and mean. I don’t want to be connected to her anymore but my mom keeps us together saying “bloods thicker than water” and other bullshit. I want to cut ties with her. She’s abusive and never says anything nice, highly critical of everything I do and say, and makes fun of me/gossips about me behind my back, spreads rumours, and likes to stir up drama… and she always says or does something mean when I’m doing something good for myself or have found success— she wants to constantly remind me of how much of a loser I am 24/7, bringing me back to reality. I can’t catch a break. She’s so highly competitive about everything and has to prove people that she’s the better sister, the better looking one, the more fashionable one, the smarter one, the better cook/baker, the more successful one— but who is she proving this to? I don’t care for this sibling rivalry. Why does she still do it? We’re adults now, not little children.
I don’t want to live near her. But I’m unfortunately connected to her for life.
And yes, she’s the older sister. I thought they’re supposed to look out for the younger sister, but Idk, maybe she’s resentful of how she was the guniea pig child.
I understand, but that still doesn't make it okay to take it out on your engaged/married friends. Just because you are going through a rough time, it doesn't mean you are entitled to be a dick to them.
I feel you, my older sister is an INTJ too.
my son let me put together a hello kitty doll from his hello kitty zaku II gundam set
but then when i put it together he wouldnt let me keep it
I’m so tired of the ups and downs of bipolar. It’s unbearable.
Found out my long lost uncle is the spitting image of a celebrity I lust over. Feels horrible. What the fuck.
i miss the cute boy i was speaking to a few days ago but he randomly disappeared and i dont know why or where he went. i feel like i wasnt good enough to talk to anymore or something. i dont know how people can just disappear but i hope hes ok. i hope he doesnt hate me. maybe he got tired of me? oh well. ill just have to find a new friend somehow. very sad though! i connected so well with him. i dont know where else to find friends online…
did you tell him you had hpv?
My sister's attempts at crawling under one's skin, looking for weak spots and passive aggressiveness receded quite a bit when she got married and got kids, now she mostly tortures her submissive, workaholic husband, he had a very strict mother so it works out somehow and i hope it keeps working out, because if she gets divorced, my old sister will return even more unstable than before and i don't want to take care of her kids.
Why would you be taking care of her kids?
i really don't want to shave my legs right now but they're itchy, fuck this gay earth
Because she probably wouldn't be able to and our parents are too old and someone would have to.
I hope my mean sister gets married. Even in a relationship she’s insufferable. She’s meeting my boyfriend today and might try to throw me under the bus to feel better about herself.
Hopefully your sis is a good mother to her children. Otherwise, she’s going to raise clones of her that repeat the same toxic passive aggressive behaviours.
Oh she’s actually an ENFJ/ENTJ
So far my sister seems to be doing a good job at not repeating mistakes that our parents supposedly made.>>59197>/ENTJ
So its even worse than i thought. They are my least favorite type, so bossy, never considers perspectives of others, insults you in public, expects others to adjust to their sado-masochistisc work habits, when in a conflict always escalating.
>>58950>I feel like any artistic achievement within the medium always comes to fruition in spite of it being an anime, never because of it (Evangelion, Ghibli movies, etc.)
But there is no problem with that. I agree with the rest of your post, though, most anime is cliche shit. But isn't most media cliche shit as well? Not just anime.
my dad and i were going on a long drive from my uncle’s and i forgot my phone charger overnight so my phone died. i wanted to look something up so my dad let me use his phone. i went on his browser and when i went to open a new tab, it accidentally went to the top of all my dad’s tabs. ig he didnt know you could delete tabs or something. so i went to scroll back down and i saw a couple tabs with google searches of naked women from 70s adult magazines like hustler. it made me feel so weird so i just opened a new tab and closed his phone and told him i was done.
he’s divorced and sort of a hermit so ig i had to know he had to get off somehow, but just thinking about my dad masturbating makes me feel grody. the only okay thing about it is that he probably doesnt watch real porn and just looks at naked women with natural bushes and stuff. i just dont know if i should feel bad or not about him looking at porn in general even if its (kind of) soft core.
Your father is disgusting and deserves to live alone.
What kind of mongrel doesn't know how to close a tab, anon? That's totally the porn he's not ashamed of anyone finding out.
What he keeps hidden is searches of barely legal teens and rape porn. Every male nowadays is into that crap.
Broke my top front artificial tooth yesterday by chomping down a piece of rib. It's still attached to my gum and don't ever plan on pulling it out without looking like a granny or crackhead lady even though I'm 22. I'm so devastated for that to happen and need to eat more carefully from now on. I know that the next thing I should do is to go to a dentist and fix it up plus my 3 cavities but then again we're still in a pandemic. Not only that but I'm jobless with no driver's license and low on money (living with family that's also struggling with money).
Since I'm always at home and everyone else is busy with work and errands I've been given the responsibility of taking my family's dog that has 3 tumors on her for more than 3 years to a veterinary cancer group for check up and chemotherapy that is 40 miles from where I live. I don't know the exact price for the procedures though definitely it must be pricey but I hate seeing my girl suffer for so long since most of my family aren't willing to take the step to help her since they have other responsibilities.
I just want to sleep forever and never wake up not dealing with problems and life struggles.
Think about it from another perspective. A dad would probably be shocked if he saw his daughters ddlg porn with girls getting choked and facefucked too (as many masochistic femanons watch these days, sigh) Sounds like the stuff he is into is pretty vanilla, your dad is human and masturbates just like everyone else femanon. Yeah it’s weird remembering this but bear in mind I’m sure there’s embarrassing stuff you’ve watched that you’d be ashamed of him finding too. He’s only human.>>59251
Come on now, there’s no proof of that.
>>59264>three years of doggy cancer treatments>when humans in the house can not afford simple dental care
This is such a misaligned sense of priorities it blows my mind, put the dog out of it's damn misery.
Men are not that sophisticated. The proportion of men that simultaneously care enough about others knowing they view certain porn, as opposed to porn at all, is an incredible minority.
Pretty much the only dental care I had was before turning 18. Pretty idiotic of me for not taking care of myself along the way.
For my dog, I have her around for like 7 or more years since she's was a pup and don't have the courage to put her or any dogs down. She's still walking and running fine and has a good appetite. No tumors found in organs either since her last check up. I just feel fucking awful to see her carrying those tumors on her nipples and back leg for all those years slowly growing on her. I just want a problem-free life without money struggle. Being poor sucks and me currently as a NEET just makes it worse. I want to die in my sleep.
Thank you. i know i was being irrational about being upset about it, but it just felt so weird seeing it. i can’t say i know for a fact he doesnt watch rape porn but i just cant see that happening.
You've obviously never had to endure the horrors of drinking room temperature tea.
No1curr faggit, get banned
i just got another hospital bill for my suicide attempt :( i owe like 5k and i have to set up all these payment plans! why is living so expensive? i hope i get the job i applied for.
What's the point in making friends?
I have some people I get drunk with but I always end up talking about the same "deep" shit which is just my bad upbringing and trying to relate it to my friends bad upbringing. idk why I do that when I'm drunk but it's probably making me look like a fucking baby.
These people are already annoyed with me. Should I leave? I don't wanna make friends ever again.
I'm starting to think that I'm just really not fit for friends. After the initial excitement of talking and sharing things is gone, I'm bored. I've never really had any friends since I moved around so much and I've been in multiple online spaces and deleted a lot of accounts. I wanna disappear from discord right now too but I feel bad for the one person who I share a lot of common with and is fairly easy to talk to. I hate myself for being the one that always leaves and I hate how I can see my dad in me.
I hate anhedonia and I'm so tired of it. I cut myself up so something exciting happens to me, but I wish i didn't have to resort to that. I want out.