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>>12540
I don't have sex.
My sex life is great.

>>12540
I have a high sex drive 24/7 but I will never have sex a woman cause there's no point. Only thing I would change is society or other people cause sex positivity is grooming and it affects me personally what people as a collective do

>>12542

I also have a high sex drive 24/7-

why is sex positivity grooming?

>Sex life
It's pretty good but could be better. I'm a switch and my bf cannot handle being any form of submissive because he is so insecure and afraid of any form of submission. He cries every time I bring it up and blames it on trauma (of being chased by someone in a truck and of being chased by a truck while on a motorcycle). He is perpetually worried of being attacked and forced into submission.

I beat him while wrestling once and he started hyperventilating and crying and said, "If you can beat me, how am I gonna be able to defend myself out there?"

I just want to make him my pet and play with his asshole. He has let me finger him twice but I so badly want more.

I find it so degrading always being "his" sub. I'm not just a sub. But I let him think that just so I can use the sex we have as an escape from my life. I like letting go of control and forgetting I exist, but I don't want to be doing that every time anymore.

I brought up that I won't cede my switch side a few months ago and nothing changed after his crying fit because I coddled him, said it was ok and ignored how I feel. I'll try again when I see him next… hopefully he doesn't blame his trauma on this again.

>>12544
What the hell.

>>107711
..? Is this that unbelievable? I'm just being honest. I hate having to coddle my own boyfriend because he's so fucking insecure. It'd be nice if he could earn the title of dominant instead of me just ceding it for a quick orgasm.

>>12544
>I just want to make him my pet and play with his asshole. He has let me finger him twice but I so badly want more.
Condition him like a dog. Every time you suck dick finger him. Stop as soon he complains. Soon you can stop sucking his dick and solely focus on his asshole

I feel guilty and ashamed for my sex drive and at the same time unable to act on it. Recently I went on a couple of dates with a guy I was very attracted to but I couldn’t do anything more than make out with him because I wasn’t sure it was going anywhere and I couldn’t let myself take the risk of having sex with him if it didn’t. I think I shame myself more than anyone else and I’m not sure why. It sucks because I think I naturally have a pretty high sex drive but I need to be in love / committed to act on it without hating myself or feeling like a sl*t and I already feel so much guilt for ending things with my last (and only) boyfriend. The problem is I can’t reach that stage when I’m so unwilling to put myself out there so I remain in this loop indefinitely. I’m sure this is some kind of ingrained misogyny but I can’t shake it.
This is turning out as more of a vent but wondering if anyone else can relate

>>107751
>1 year
Are you OK, Nona?
I can understand 3 months or even 6 months but ONE YEAR?!
Do you have any idea how unrealistic this is?
The male orgasm shares similarities to a heroin shot chemically speaking. Imagine telling a heroine addict that he must wait 1 year to get his next shot (all moids are addicts).
It's like openly asking to be cheated. 99 % of moids will not wait that long even if they are not a coomer/ porn addict. Also doesn't dragging it out increase the fear from it? Not saying get in bed after 3 dates but if you can't tell after 6 months if he is a keeper maybe you should let the decision be made by your parents…
I'm glad I didn't wait this long. There would have been an unspoken weirdness/uncertainty in our relationship if something so significant would have been missing.

>>107751
Thank you that’s so sweet of you. I feel like I am lacking in female role models a bit and I don’t know how to talk to my friends about this so it can feel lonely. Genuinely appreciate your advice

>>107772
You sound like a moid trying to groom women into his schizophrenic tradwife fantasies. You don't live in the real world. No person would put up with a year of constant sexual tension unless they're asexual.
Even in the dumb archaic societies you want to parrot, men and women would not spend this much time being together and doing nothing because genders used to be much more segregated.

>>12549
It'd be hotter if he were more gay. He is really not turned on by dicks. At all. Believe me, I've tried. Doesn't work. He only likes pussy and occasionally letting me finger him.

>>107776
You can like purity and not be so bitter when a girl wants to enjoy sex and explore her sexuality. Why does others doing what they want affect YOUR purity? Do you have some idea of how all women should be?

>>12547
Very hot. I may try that. I have been trying to jerk him off every time he eats to encourage him to gain weight… Maybe I can train him for anal too.

>>12555
Have you looked into failed orgasms?

>>107772
>"To say you truly know someone, you must eat a sack of salt with them"
– that's beautiful! I'm gonna use that one

>>12556
I have not! That sounds enticing.. Tell me more!

I've heard of ruined orgasms, and I would love to ruin an orgasm for my bf while milking his prostate. I love watching ruined orgasm porn. I feel so powerful.

Thing is my bf is way too insecure in his masculinity to be comfortable exploring that with me. He gets uncomfortable discussing anything even remotely "gay" on his end. He's a 5'7" otter, I just want to fuck his ass

>>12557
The ironic thing is that back in the day, girls and boys were married to each other at their teenage years due to the wish of their parents.
Meaning: FIRST they were married (most of the times including sex on the night of their wedding) and AFTERWARDS they got to know each other. That's where the saying "You learn to love" comes from.

>>12558
It has come to my attention that otter does not mean what I think it means

He is hairless except from a treasure trail going down his navel, skin white like a blank canvas, and lean. Slim. Gymnast body

>>12558
please post a photo of your chin, sir, with timestamp to verify your female biology.

>>107803
What makes you think we're going to share trade secrets with you, moid? You're not welcome here.

>>12561
>>12562
>>12563
>>12564

I am going to post a picture of my boob so y'all know I'm no scrote.

>>107812
I can't believe it, you are a woman! But what kind abuse did you witness when you were young that made you like this? Pls tell me.

>>107812
>>12566
same nona. Now for real: you are probably the epitome of so many moids' fantasy. how come you just don't leave him for someone else. Admit it, you like it that he is not into the idea of being analy raped by you and you have to persuade him into giving in your fetishes. Slutty little nona!

>>107812
also apart from the gruesome pictures you find on 4chan of gore, I have never come across a post over there that set me off as much as yours did. CC is on more or less the same psycho level than that awful website.

>>107817
Because this is not how 99% of all of us feel. In most cases it is the moid that initiates sex. Why? Because he needs and we don't. Look at porn or social media. It all appeals to male fantasies. So when you see a women who has equivalent kinks I come to the conclusion that there is something wrong in her upbringing.

>>12566

In retrospect it wasn't that bad. It just affected me a lot because it was my first experience with sexuality. I don't really know if this counts as sexual abuse but it was my first encounter with sex

>I had my first girlfriend at 13 and was the first openly non-hetero girl at my school, so everyone called us 'the lesbians'
>This scrote thinks it's hot so he approaches me and asks how far we've gone
>I'm innocent and admit she wont let me kiss her
>he starts approaching me in school and flirting with me, makes me uncomfortable
>i break up with gf (still never been kissed)
>I start spiralling for dysfunctional family reasons, distance myself from all my friends, and teachers go on strike so there are no more extra curricular activites. I get curious about weed and lo and behold, Scrote Fuckface is the school drug dealer
>He takes me to some rando's back yard, gives me an overpriced weed brownie, grabs me and says, 'I heard you've never been kissed before' then proceeds to kiss me
>I have mixed feelings about him so i go along with it
>He starts feeling me up, putting his hands up my skirt and rubbing my clit, and i kept swatting his hands away while also trying to be the 'cool' girl that is down for anything (gag)
>Owner of property catches us and threatens to call police. We run away, and Scrote says 'Don't tell anyone we talk. People like to start drama'

>He played with my feelings and would pull me out of class to make out sometimes, then pretend i didn't exist at others. He would text me on snapchat doing classic fuckboy shit, trying to convince me to suck his dick and it made me scared. sometimes i'd stay in the guidance office just to avoid him
>once he was showing me a david bowie album, then he took me into an alley, grabbed my neck and pressed me against a wall, fingered me and said "it's gonna be your turn to please me soon". I begged him to let me leave and said "I need to go home" and he was like "you're lying! no you don't!" and thankfully i pleaded enough and he let me go

>The worst was I bought acid from him and had a little gettogether at my house with new friends. We got extremely high, dropped the acid and raided the liquor cabinet. I was super fucked up. Then I find out someone invited Scrote to my house.
>Scrote shows up, immediately gets touchy with me (rubbing my clit over my pants in front of everyone) and everyone, myself included, gets extremely uncomfortable but doesnt say anything
>Eventually we are all hanging out in my room, and I jokingly say, "let's have an orgy!" and Scrote takes this seriously and starts fondling me
>everyone gets uncomfortable and leaves
>We start making out
>we end up on the bed
>Scrote says "let me eat your pussy"
>"c'mon, don't be like that"
>I say "mm noo i dunno.." (tripping balls)
>My dog is freaking the fuck out and barking at him, so he straight up KICKS HER off of my bed, throws her out of the room, and pushes the couch in front of the door.
>"c'moon take em oofff"
>I reluctantly pull my pants down
>worst two-minute head of my life; i piss a little in his mouth by accident
>"did you just cum?"
>"uh no i dont think so"
>He shrugs, stops, pulls his dick out (doesnt even take his pants off) and grabs my face, shoves it onto his dick. i gag, and he gets frustrated
>tries to put it in
>I say no
>He says ok
>keeps kissing
>tries to sneakily do it again
>I say no
>he argues with me
>I say "do you have protection?" and he scoffs at me
>he tries cramming it in again and at this point I dont even bother trying to make him stop, i just let it happen
>He only manages to get the tip in, then finally gives up.
>Rest of the night he ignored me and ended up hooking up with my best friend

Found out later he told everyone at school that his dick was "too big for me" and that my pussy "tasted like fish". I didn't tell anyone what happened until a year later.

Also found out he's a serial groomer (idk what to call it). He's done this to at least five other girls that I know of. He got expelled from my school shortly afterwards for selling drugs, so he took his rapey energy to other schools.

I also think I am predisposed to being kinky and perverted. I have family members I hear crazy stories about (like my uncle fucking a bunch of his students, even marrying one), my great uncle was a pimp, etc…

>>12569
I had to press em together and contort myself like a retarded frog to fit them next to my sign. Couldnt use front cam or it wouldve been flipped

>>12573
I also think a big part of how I am now is because I wanted to please this Scrote so badly, but was also afraid of him. So it created this strange fear-based pleasure whenever we hooked up, and that's my earliest memory of sexuality with another person.

That could explain why I have kinks like CNC, choking play, drugged/raped roleplay, etc. Fear and sex going together is what I'm most familiar with and i've grown to enjoy it a lot

As for the dominance, I think thats a part of myself that is outgrowing the need to submit to a man to feel pleasure. Knowing he can also be degraded gets me; putting him in a vulnerable, objectified, afraid place turns me on in soo many ways

>>12575
nona, to me the dominance thing sounds like your mind is fighting against the thought of ever being in a vulnerable position because of the bad memories. Maybe (pure speculation, tell me if im wrong) part of it is also that you want to me make a man suffer in retribution for what another person of the same sex had done to you in order to even things out. Maybe this is subconcious.

>>12577
NONO PLEASE, dont encourage her even more.
Rather help me try to get to the bottom of this to help her.

>>12579
uhh..maybe "bottom" wasn't the word of choice here. But you get my drift.

>>12578
> part of it is also that you want to me make a man suffer in retribution for what another person of the same sex had done to you in order to even things out.

I think this is definitely the case to some degree. But I lean more toward submission naturally. Submission is still a big part of sex for me.

My first experience with sex during a time in my life where I needed escapes and coping strategies led me to view sex as something you do while checked out mentally. For a very long time I just went into a mindless state during sex. BDSM makes it feel a lot more real and present.

>>12581
does therapy acutally work. This is a genuine question. Do you come to any realization that you couldn't figure out yourself AND is worth hundreds of dollars?

>>12581
I've done 7 years of therapy and haven't properly explored my relationship with sex yet because i'm too embarrassed to say it aloud to a therapist.

It isn't interfering with my life though so I don't think it's necessary to bring up

>>12582
Being a little kinky and dominant in bed is nothing to be ashamed of and not wrong. I'm sure your bf secretly likes it as well.
But wanting to finger a scrotes hary disgusting ass is a little to far…

>>12584
you have been doing 7 years of therapy and you have not openly discussed the one main topic for why you chose to visit therapy sessions in the first place?

>>12587
I lots more fun things to talk about with the therapist

>>107837
You know a place appealing to women?
Im all ears…
>I've heard of plenty of women who want to finger their man's ass.
Get off tiktok! Those pickme thots only apeal to mens' fantasies.

>>12586
I don't want nor do I need to change. I love my sexuality and I wouldn't change anything about it.

>>12587
Just to clarify, I've been through a lot of therapists. I've gone over the high school scrote story with all of them. Just haven't gone over how kinky I am and how this all circles back to him. There is plenty more wrong with me that needed attention.

I was diagnosed with PTSD but parts of me feel that was an exaggerated diagnosis. I was 14 and seeing a PhD candidate. The psychologist overseeing us died suddenly of brain cancer (which fucking sucked) so I'll never get to ask him why he thought that

>>12590
Honestly you are right.
What ever way your history has affected you, you cant change who you are and simply move on from it. Therapy cant change your behavior, it can only help you in accepting what has happened.
As long as this has no big negative effect on your relationship, be yourself nona. best of luck to you.

>>12589
There's r/chickflixxx on reddit but it's not super active

>>107842
>Is wanting to finger a shaved scrotes asshole acceptable?
Yes. And it's even hotter when you get him to shave his asshole for you

>>107812
What a dick sucking pig

>>107812
PENIS OR GTFO

>>12597
what does this mean?

>>12598
It's a changed up version of the 4chan slang "TITS OR BTFO"

Often moids use it to mock women/people pretending to be women. Since "women don't exist kn the internet", in order to prove that you truly are an internet woman, you must flash your tits for everyone to verify that you are infact female

>>12558
Ruined orgasms ofc that is what I had meant but I had an ESL moment. Well, why not try to convince him that milking his prostate is part of the tantric lingam massage to cover up any homo thoughts of him and trick him with some made up moid shit like cummaxxing to lure him into your anal submission plot

>>12560
Blonde? Blonde treasure trails are one of my fetishes as they are still angelic in some sort

>>107812
>>12574
haha bold move nona ngl.you're so cool

>>12558
God please Nona tell me where can I find a boy like this I can abuse. He did the two of yu got together?

>>12544
he sounds like a closet sissyboy, like he reallym craves his little tooter being played with but doesnt want to believe that hes weak and gay