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I have have been attracted to alot of fictional female characters like Dia Kurosawa from Love Live. I also love yuri and like alot of femslash couples like picrel Usagi and Minako from Sailor Moon. However there's several problems that occasionally make me question if I'm genuinely bi:

1) I have almost never been attracted to 3d women. There's some I liked growing up, but if I find out they are also attracted to women I think it's like some of their physical attractiveness always gets lower to me than it probably would have been had I not known. I start finding them too overweight/too old looking/too tall/etc.

2) I have never liked butch lesbians very much nor do I have interest in having the butch look myself. I strongly prefer femme only. A woman that does not have the traditional lesbian look whatsoever and that someone would not even guess is attracted to women. If this has something to due with internal homophobia/biphobia like 1) might then idk.

3) There was one girl I was very obsessed with when younger but there's been a pattern where that's the only look on a 3D women I would still really ever want as a GF. Long black hair, glasses. Still feminine. Serious/Mysterious personality. Think Alex Voss from OITNB.

4) There's no part of lesbian sex I've ever really found that hot except scissoring. I don't care for foreplay and oral (Then again I don't care for them in straight sex either) or strap-ons. Just scissoring.

Yet again, I love yuri alot and have constantly fantasized about a fictional GF. I think I might just like the idea of a GF more than actually having one. Does anyone know what this might be?