/nsfw/ - xxx

i'm not looking for advice, just want to vent, and I felt this was too nsfw for the regular /feels/ .

ever since I got into escorting and sugaring i've come to find out just how truly depraved and insufferable moids can be. like I always knew they were disgusting and idiotic but holy fuck this was a new low. not only do I have to fight my bodies natural reaction to reject these guys during sex, but I have to feed into their egos at the same time.

you have the forty year old divorced dads with Peter Pan syndrome, the ugly bastard tech bros that are one failed arrangement away from being full fledged incels, the hopeless romantic soy boy that so desperately wants to play mr save a hoe for any freshly turned 18 year old with an ass still tight from varsity volleyball, and of course the "feminist" cool/chill guy that like totally understands the inherent power imbalances in sex work and how he wants to only practice it ethically and blah blah blah.

one time I had a sleazy type of client; some fat ass asian moid with a tacky looking Rolex and Dior savage permeating from his pores. we started off hanging out at a casino he had chosen and he did numerous things to piss me off throughout the night; trying to short my rate, not wanting to wear a condom, trying to go multiple rounds- worst of all was when he asked me if I had any girl friends who would be down to come with me next time we met and I told him no, that none of my friends did stuff like this. he then being the weasel that he is tried playing it off, saying something along the lines of "oh well you can just bring them and we'll have a fun time in the casino and see how the night goes." which to that I said, "my friends don't know I even do this stuff, they'd wonder how we met," what I actually wanted to say was "why the fuck would my friends want to hang out with an old ugly fat fuck like you?" but I held back. he responded something like "just say we met online, we'll all get together and have fun, once the drinks start flowing see where it goes," now my friends have fucked some questionable looking moids, but this moid was delusional off the ass if he thought any girl wouldnt have to be roofied and blacked out to fuck him for free. before I could respond back he added on, "I'll pay you an extra $300, you keep the money for yourself and not tell the others." his audacity truly shocked me. I replied in a very calm and slightly quizzical voice, "so you want me to pimp out my friends?" he panicked and quickly said no, trying to paint it in a different light, as if he could manage to have them sleep with him organically. he was so deluded from paying for sex for so long and being lied to for a check, that he genuinely thought hot young thangs would want to sleep with him for free…
I also remember when riding him and feeling so annoyed that I genuinely considered choking him, or grabbing the hotel pillow and suffocating him… but I had bills to pay and no time for jail so I just blocked him after I left.

the only women that actually enjoy being an escort are the ones with a fetish, sexual dysfunction, or are insanely money motivated.

these idiots are delusional out the ass if they think these hot twenty year olds actually want to sleep with them, and its even more annoying when they get on these sugar daddy websites expecting to get a baby without paying for it; saying things like "oh I don't want it to feel transactional," or "I don't want a gold digger to use me"- you're on a fucking sugaring website, are you a fucking retard?

they see one fucking story about a sugar daddy finding "true love" with a sugar baby and start fantasizing about getting that themselves- and nine times out of ten the only reason its "true love" is because the SD isnt shy about swiping his credit card for his SB. surprise surprise the gold digger is more likely to give authentic passionate sex when being spoiled, who would have thought.

god don't get me started on the ones that think they're above the other sick fucks on those websites just because they're aware of the nuances- newsflash! you're still paying for sex with a woman that's your daughters age.

I actually hate it when they have daughters, it makes me feel envious and gross; knowing that their daughters would never have to be in a position where they have to sell their bodies.

I hate the possessive types too, the kind that try to stalk your socials and want to be monogamous but don't pay you enough to be monogamous. the fuck am I gonna do with two grand a month? that doesn't even cover my full rent.

and yes I know I should probably find a more stable and society approved career, but I just want to bitch about it to complete strangers online please, I have no one else in my life to speak this candidly with about it.

they're so fucking stupid and stingy sometimes when they complain about not wanting to be used for their money, as if they have anything else going for them looks wise. its also so fucking hypocritical and ironic hearing them say it considering they're using my body to get themselves off. they never would've given me the time of day if they didn't want to use me like a cum dumpster, or get an ego boost because the women their ages aren't impressed by them. if they truly wanted chemistry and connection then they'd go on the plethora of normal/traditional dating sites, but they don't, because they know that the only sites to get young hot girls to willingly gag on their dicks are the sugaring ones.

its a full time job selling a fantasy to a moid that actively makes my skin crawl.

and I hate the women that try to defend sugar daddies and their feelings outside of the bedroom, girl we both know you just want to earn brownie points with those raggedy ass creatures incase they see it and to gaslight yourself so you don't cry after getting fucked with the wrinkly viagra cock.

worst thing ever is when they want to do missionary with eye contact, id rather be trapped in a glory wall and take a thousand back shots bonnie blue style. imagine an ugly man on top of you, sweating his ass off from viagra and lack of consistent cardio, mouth open panting straight onto your face and his cock clumsily thrusting into your spit lubed pussy; all while making the most uncanny valley intense eye contact, because he's focusing so hard on cumming before the viagra he took gives him a heart attack… nightmare fuel.
bro one time one of them coughed directly in my face during missionary and I almost lost my fucking shit.

I hate fucking anyone older than 50 specifically because of how their skin feels, their skin being that smooth and flappy from never working out reminds me of death itself, like their geriatric bodies are trying to steal my youth from me. you ever felt the back of your grandmas arms? now imagine that humping against your whole body.

also this is my first time posting so apologies if I didn't adhere to any unspoken rules or etiquette :3