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>>2779
Get a qt racoon moid. An anona already explained how to do it, you want intimacy it's normal but trust me rushing sex isn't worth it all the romance of a complete relationship is worth it x100 more.

>>2781
>racoon
wtf does this mean, is this some meme I'm not getting?

>>2779
Yes. I'm a cuckquean and I like watching/listening to my bf having sex with other women when I can (i.e. when the other woman is comfortable with it). I'm a strongly compersive type so it's not a humiliation thing for me, I just really like watching my bf fuck and the other woman having a good time with him. I've never indulged the voyeurism part separate from the cuckqueaning part so I don't know if they're separate.

>like I'm a part of something I've never been a part of before
Watching and listening for me is exciting and comfy at the same time. It's its own feeling, like you say.

>Is this normal? Sometimes I feel so gross and weird about it and get panic attacks at the thought of getting caught, and then other times I feel like its fine, like I'm a part of something I've never been a part of before, and the thought of getting caught turns me on. I don't know how to feel about it, anyone here experienced anything like this?
You have a voyeurism fetish. The things you describe are usual for people with the fetish who have to illicitly spy/eavesdrop on people who haven't consented to being spied/eavesdropped on.

>>2781
>raccon
wat

I feel genuinely awful about it. My best friend and housemate brought his girlfriends home regularly. He doesn't know it but the vents in his room make anything said near his bed very audible in my room. I can't help but listen in and masturbate to the sound of them, but occasionally I'd get lucky and they'd fuck in the kitchen or lounge so I could sit out the back in the dark and watch them. I've been caught before, which is part of the thrill, but I just pretended to have fallen asleep reading a book on the deck. I guess it all stems from the fact I've been in love with him since we were 16, he gave me my first kiss and sexual experience, plus his girlfriends all look like me, so it's easy to insert myself as part of the fantasy.

Every so often I'd hear his gfs ask probing questions about me and it makes me feel so humiliated when he assures them there's no way there could be something between us…but he's been asked during sex a few times and it just drives me crazy to hear him tease them with the implication.

Recently he had a baby with his girlfriend and she's living with us now. I just can't stop myself from spending so much time with the baby, fawning over it and having these fantasies about swapping lives with his gf. I feel so gross and weird about it, but at the same time it's the only thing I get off to anymore

t. 28yr virgin

>>3502
Do you only get off to the fantasy of swapping lives with her, or only get off to them having sex? Either way you've got quite the situation simmering away there, humiliation-type sis.

>>3504
Both

>>3494
OP here, thank you for this. I feel a bit better. It doesn't happen anymore thanks to COVID so I've turned to porn, but I don't know where to find the genuine article of people or individuals who don't know they're being watched or listened to. I guess I just have to deal with it. Still, actually having someone to hold and to make love with would be better…

>>3502
This is really sweet and also really hot, but I understand the humiliation aspect too. Your situation sounds so interesting. Good luck!

>>3517
No problem, Anon. It can be pretty confusing to have unconventional fetishes. They don't come with owners manuals.

>I've turned to porn, but I don't know where to find the genuine article of people or individuals who don't know they're being watched or listened to.
It's pretty tricky to negotiate any consent or make arrangements under those circumstances, but I guess you'd have to find some exhibitionists and arrange to peep without them knowing exactly when or how you'll be peeping. No idea how you'd do that.

Careful with the porn tho. That shit'll rot your brain if you let it.

>>3502
>I guess it all stems from the fact I've been in love with him since we were 16, he gave me my first kiss and sexual experience, plus his girlfriends all look like me, so it's easy to insert myself as part of the fantasy.
>Recently he had a baby with his girlfriend and she's living with us now. I just can't stop myself from spending so much time with the baby, fawning over it and having these fantasies about swapping lives with his gf. I feel so gross and weird about it, but at the same time it's the only thing I get off to anymore
Your situation kinda reminds me of the anon in this thread https://anon.cafe/cuckquean/res/559.html#564 who got a sperm donation from her beloved for a virgin conception, with the permission of her beloved's wife. Strange situation but… well, maybe you'll find it useful as raw material.

>>2779
I lived with my best friend since high school in an apartment for several years during college. She was in a sorority and would bring boys home frequently.The walls were really thin so I used to listen in when she brought someone over.
She knew I was a virgin so I thought it was really mean of her to bring boys over like that. I asked her one day to keep it down and she said if I hated it so much I could join in next time. I was absolutely stunned. We talked about it for a bit and she ended up bringing home a cute guy for us to share. I was nervous at first but I really enjoyed it. It was so hot finally being there instead of listening. We ended up going different places after college and I live alone now. I still have fantasies about those days though. I don't think that situation will ever happen again.