>>608If you're an audio person, have you tried listening to R18 drama cds on soundcloud?
They have lots of otome ones which are for girls.
Otherwise, they are CDs to listen with headphones which usually have a roleplay story where they talk to you as a role. Sometimes first love boyfriends, cheating in affairs, or whatever.
Once you noticed that the kissing sounds are made by them kissing their arm and that the slapping or sloshing sounds are generated artificially it does feel weird.
There's roughly thousands of them uploaded there and I tend to go for the ones that either have quite manly men or very feminine ones.
There was a really great one whose title I have forgotten, all I can remember is the cover art which was pretty generic. I can't explain how it flipped my switch but something about his voice made me crazy and I'd give an arm and a leg to find it again.