/feels/ - Advice & Venting

i am so fucking pissed i have 2 new roommates in a place with ONE BATHROOM
every morning the one male (homosexual) takes an hour long shower, same time, at 7:30am-8:30am
which would be FINE except thats when i wake up and have to take my morning shit
so ive been having to shit in a bag in a bucket and toss it outside
its so fucking annoying

It’s so lonely here. I hate that I was given the cards I’m dealt with. I can’t connect or relate to a single human. I feel like I’m there’s a glass wall between me and the rest of humanity. I want out.

>>125481
ask him to cut down his shower time so you can take your morning shit

>>125507
Moved to greenland? Those are the glacier sheets

>>125510
I don’t know why this reply is triggering me so badly right now, but it is. You could have just said nothing.

Recently learned I have fatty liver. I'm genuinely scared I'm gonna get diabetes and die from it, I don't know much about having a fatty liver but it might be too late to reverse the damage

>>125511
Oops, was that cold of me (プッフ)
Sorry, though, I felt getting no replies would be lonelier, but I am actually curious: do you live in Alaska or somewhere big and empty like that?

I’m becoming a bitter hag and I don’t know how to stop

I got a part time job and I'm leaving NEEThood and I don't quite know how to feel about it. I've been a shut in hermit for over the past 5 years,(never went to college or got a job) and it just feels so weird to know that I'm going to be participating in society soon, and doing something that for most people is mundane and second nature, but to me seemed so inaccessible.

I had the grim realization that living in isolation during my most formative and important years has made it so that I probably wont ever be able to bridge the gap between me and normal people. Even if I do somehow manage to become a functioning member of society, people will be able to see right through me and realize I'm not normal. I've been like this for so long that I grew accustomed to it and almost find it comforting, because it's made me avoid other people and all of my problems by allowing me to pretend the outside world doesn't exist. And now I'm terrified and have intrusive thoughts about ruining this for myself by getting myself fired or not showing up. Because in a very sick way I want to continue staying like this. I don't think I'll ever not feel alienated and physically out of place. I really thought I'd be more happier since I've been job searching for so long and wanted to do something with my life, but I just feel numb and dreadful.

>>125566
I've been in a similar situation a couple of years ago, and still feel like you wrote every now and then. There are some things I try to remember.
Being weird, or abnormal, doesn't mean you won't ever get along with people. Look at how many men are autistic and they get along just fine. Yes, it feels awkward and lonely but trust me, as long as you're dressed "normal" and talk politely you will be able to deal with people, even if not in social situations like parties.
As to wanting to go back to neethood and the silence and serenity, I really get it and felt it too (still feel it but less frequently). But we all know it's not good or healthy to live like this and just damages you in the long run. Plus, being out introduces some new simple pleasures that you haven't even discovered yet. And now you'll be able to enjoy time alone and inside much more - since it's not the default all of the time - and without any guilt or "rotting" feeling.
It came out all messy and weird but what you wrote deeply resonated with my fear in that time and just remember it won't always feel like this. Things will get better

>>125566
The life of an inbetweener is definitely harder than that of full a normie or a neet but it's definitely worth it. Thankfully there are others like us but the hard part is finding them.
I personally went to uni and spent the first two year socializing at every opportunity i got. It was a horrible life (alcohol helped a little) but after that i had managed to find i group of friends who could understand me.

>>125568
This is puzzling to me. I have been a neet for this year. Always got out and socialized before, always performed pretty decent in school, graduated, has jobs since I was 16 but lately there are aspects of society I find completely intolerable. It is only getting worse. It didn't used to be this bad but lately people make me sick. Every year there is something new I have to unlearn. I wish to god I didn't. But it's like every day I have new realizations see much more broad clarity. This seems impossible to manage realistically. Every year I get older I hate people more. Everything they do makes me want to leave. Everything related to patriarchal society and the idiots that share one single brain cell, running it into the ground… I've tried I've tried it used to be easy. How is it you have this opinion at all? I'm genuinely curious how people operate that way. I've learned the complete opposite. I started off normal enough now I want to get off permanently.

>>125572
What makes you hate people? Like based on what information/interactions and where are you encountering them

>>125574
How people treat women victims and child victims in general. Most people are sheer and utter basement rot TRASH

The signs were there in the beginning too though. I flat out denied it and refused to pay attention.

>>125576
What I'm getting at is like, is this from stuff you're reading online or witnessing irl? Going out and having normal interactions might be a good way to counteract it. Just realized we're in the vent thread though so sorry if you're not looking for advice

>>125577
Unfortunately both. I thought that too, until I got stalked. Now I shun human interaction.

It's okay you don't have to try and solve my problem, it's something only I can figure out I think.

Just genuinely curious how lifelong neets don't come to the same conclusion as me, after being socially displaced since child hood I reckon ?

You're right there are some people out there who don't suck. But my god it feels like a human chopping mill most of the time.

Irl people are fickle, non-committal, easily goaded to psychosocial phenomenon. It's a real world size human blender.

I'm like you I used to socialize a ton. I agree with your sentiment it was a horrible experience. I did not find a tribe though, I found a million roles to play

>>125572
Well you're right in general. People are horrible, both the ones running the world and the great masses supporting them, as well as most of the men and women I meet daily.
It hurts more because the first group right now is ruining my country and causing endless war and death in the name of religion and vengeance. I'm not positive about the future or about the average person.
On the other hand, I'm smart and sensible enough to choose my environment and interactions. I do whatever I can to fix this horrible world but also minimize interaction with awful people and maximize the beauty and peace in my life.
I sit in cafés and go to the library and get great books and bake cakes and sit by the sea and try to find like-minded people to send memes to.
You're not supposed to be blind to the world in the rational sense, but suffering endlessly is just pointless, in my opinion.

>>125514
How did you get fatty liver and how did you know you got it? Listen to your doctors advice and don’t take too many pharmaceutical drugs that are filtered through the liver. Hold off on alcohol.

>>125581
I think it's a matter of luck to feel like you belong anywhere. But idk I think people are all pretending to get ahead, they also have no point of reference but the devolve into being tedious. Like at all costs making tedious their personality. I've never felt a break from that in most places, no matter where I blended in save with a handful of people. Mostly because I hate patriarchal society and shun 89% of things on this earth. I'm really good at blending in but I don't know why I do if it's like metric fucktons of work and I just feel like I'm lying to myself anyway. It's like I guess I always felt like you initially though, that I would find a tribe.

I know what you mean but I garden, make art and write in solitude and that is the source of true happiness

I had a friend stay with me last night and it was fun to see her but she ended up being super messy and breaking some of my stuff without telling me or my bf. She burned her breakfast to the stove and left it for us to clean up, and fully fucking broke our thermostat. she set the cooling to 80 degrees and the heating to 62 and somehow managed to break multiple buttons and switches, leaving them on the floor. There's also now a mystery screw on the floor that I don't recognize or even know where tf it came from. How the fuck does someone even have time to do all of that? she was here for one night!! I literally never want to have anyone stay the night, ever again. Respect my shit or leave.

>>125617
your friend has retard strength

I’m so fucking drained, so exhausted. Physically I’m suffering because I don’t get any rest and emotionally my soul is damaged to the core. This whole situation with my ex boyfriend is draining me. I love him so much but he’s hurting me constantly. I’m hurting myself too by still seeing him. I wish I had the courage to tell him to fuck off and blocking him everywhere. But I know I will repent later. I don’t know if he’s being genuine or manipulating me. I’m sick of this life and my sleep and mental problems

I seriously can't be half arsed about anything. I'm going to die useless and lonely and I won't do anything about it

I hate people knowing me. It makes me feel incredibly on edge. I like to be a mystery. I don’t want people to know about me or my home life. I have issues. I know.
It’s all gone to shit though. I’m getting kicked out of my home that I’ve lived in for 7 years. After I found out I went into work and ended up sobbing. My managers asked me about what happened. After I spilled my guts they helped me find a renal. Now they keep asking me about it and offering to help me get things for my rental. It makes me so uncomfortable. I hate taking things from people and asking for help. My own parents don’t even care that much. Like my mom has barely talked to me after the whole thing. My dad and step mom didn’t check on me. The moment both my managers saw me they asked me what happened.

My parents are always so optimistic on my social chances when I am a loser with no friends. Meanwhile, they don’t focus on trying to hone in on my brother when he actually has friends and romantic prospects. If they focused more on him and his social potential we could have a shot at furthering the bloodline, but they’ve stuck their heads so deep in the sand.

So, it’s going to end up with me as not only a friendless loser but a burnt out one at that, and my brother, who’s going to end up some film industry faggot who runs away from his inherent responsibilities as a human being.

>>125653
>inherent responsibilities
Lol what

>>125654
leave nona alone she’s cooking

my vagina hurts when i feel sad like actually

>>125654

Passing down the bloodline obviously. I don’t care if people think it’s bad to say but it has to be said. You really are a nihilistic ghoul if you’d disagree with that.

And it’s kind of an unspoken truth but on both sides of the family me and my brother are the last hopes to pass down the bloodline. Our maternal cousin is a bastard buffoon and our paternal cousin is an affair baby.

But no… my brother doesn’t see that. He just wants to live in LA LA land bossing around coke-snorting meat puppets making propaganda in a job that will eventually be forcefully replaced by AI pushed by the corporate deep state.

Meanwhile I actually want to make something of my miserable self so I can have something to show for my life even as I die alone. I’m studying for the SCIENCES so I can at least have a sliver of a chance of not ending up a junkie on the street!

I have a cold and I'm on my period but I have things I still have to do.

>>125681
I watched a documentary the other day about homelessness in the US and there was a fentanyl addict who was was injecting the stuff into his gangrenous leg, there were flies buzzing around his decomposing legs and they even showed him injecting it into the decaying flesh, it was horrifying, afterwards he'd lift his leg to let the fentanyl enter his bloodstream, he said he knew that he was dying but he was fine with it as long as he could get his next fix

I think if you force yourself to fulfil some so called inherent responsibility you're just setting yourself up for disappointment. You might end up settling for someone you wouldn't normally settle for and then your bloodline will be screwed either way, like your weird family members lol

>>125481
Go in and shit just before he shower. Don't flush. Problem solved.

There's no way humans have evolved to live together in tiny 1-room spaces for long periods of time and retain their sanity. It's a travesty that most new apartments in big cities are tiny as shit.
I mean we didn't evolve for overpopulated megacities either but still.

Every week I go to the mall to sit by the carousel and draw. Now there’s this other person doing it too. THIS IS MYYY SPOT TO LOOK MYSTERIOUS AND COOL NOT YOURS!!! I hope they haven’t noticed the Kubrick stare I’ve been giving to the back of their head the past few times. I kind of want to talk to them, but I’m nervous I’ll creep them out, and I can’t tell if they are a girl or a boy and I don’t want to talk to a man and have them misconstrue my interest in a shared hobby as lustful. But how dare this nonbinary twink steal my shtick. If I ask to see their art and it’s better than mine I will actually just throw myself off the bridge right in front of them.

>>125755
why not take this opportunity for a new friend nona, seems like theyd do you good considering how jaded you sound

>>125756
no one wants to be friends with a nb twink u have to be jaded as fuck for that

>>125757
I bet the enby twink was like
>haha maybe if i sit in this spot where ppl hang out someone will strike a conversation with me and be my friend :)

>>125759

Tbh being friends with those things is kind of a low bar. I was forced to have some in my social circle when I was younger so I wouldn’t look suspicious to my other gay friends. They are kind of miserable to be around. They barely cultivate a personality or hobbies and they always use some personality disorder or chronic illness as an excuse. It starts to get kind of suspicious because I have literally never heard of a nonbinary (or whatever “other gender” they have) without some mental or physical illness. Makes you wonder why exactly they’d never be fully healthy.

>>125757
Yeah if it ends up being some malnutritioned man with nails painted black I’m steering clear. I already knew one and they called themselves the reincarnation of satan, and hatted me cause I said the word faggot once. I made them give me a tarot reading just to watch them squirm cause I knew they would hate it but that’s the extent of interaction I’m willing to have with those things

>>125763
wow sounds like you really hate them nona

My mom just died and I don’t even know how to feel. I can’t even cry

>>125763
Why do you openly admit to using your "friends"

>>125777
I'm sorry.

My eyes get super swollen whenever I cry

sometimes you gotta call it a day and realise you’re crying over a loser who jerks off to animated characters

>>125778

Not like I really chose to be friends with them. It’s just another one of those silly unspoken social expectations I need to follow or else I look like a “walking red flag”

Even worse is that neither men nor women ever really like me back, so I might have to settle for one of these people. I shudder in fear at the thought.

Feeling physically and mentally tired this evening. And hungry. I want a hug.

>>125802
Virtua-hugger

Woke up early to dreams of unrealized school relationship prospects, always a good start to the day

was making progress towards getting healthier and then got hit with a random wave of depression this week. all i could do is sleep and binge eat and cry. what's wrong with me

i think im just beyond help because i dont actually "want" to change (as in, i'm not motivated to do anything so therapy wouldn't work), im just an animal who wants to avoid pain. nothing will get better for me on its own but the worse it gets the less likely i am to ever be able to find that motivation. if you dont get mental health intervention the second you feel a little bad are you just screwed? i think i spent too long looking on r/therapists (my mistake for going on reddit at all for sure) and i saw myself as a client so vividly in the things they were complaining about- and it was absolutely unanimous, with hundreds of comments, that "those people" will never get better if they don't want it. but i can't want it even if i want to want it. i know the internet isn't an accurate reflection of reality but last time i went to therapy i was "fired" as a client because i would panic and cry and be physical incapable of speaking when they'd ask me questions so i doubt trying again would work.

>>125808
To steal and paraphrase someone elses comment… The thing depressed people want is company, and when shit is bad they want someone to help them. Psychiatrists, therapists and (to some extent) counsellers do not offer company and they definately do not offer help.

Therapists on reddit are just angry their ineffectual help is, inevitably ineffectual and get angry at the patient for being failed by themselves. They go around wokescolding people for saying "cheer up" to depressed people when they simultaneously expect all their patients to pull themselves up by the mental health bootstraps and magically cheer themselves up because they told their life story to the eighth therapist in a row.

>>125810
i just dont know what else to do though… i dont have many friends to help me and the friends i do have i dont want to bother with this because thatd probably be exhausting for them to deal with and i dont want to lose them. cant seek therapy either. i live a very isolated life and i just cant find it in myself to fix it because of aforementioned mental problems

This poem makes me a bit sad and annoyed. I guess it made me think "Why starve for whole when I could feed on half? I don't want to lose it all searching for more."
It's the kind of mindset a person has when they've burned every bridge searching for something they may never find. Self-soothing and lonely.

Being loved makes me feel evil and guilty, like I've committed some horrible impropriety on the other person.
I don't know why I feel that way, but I always have. I think I feel the need to make sense of why some people pass me by, while others see something in me. If the latter are right, I'm a narcissist for thinking so. It feels more noble to hate myself, but accepting that I can be loved in earnest (and love myself) puts me on a pedestal I can fall off of anytime. Believing that whoever loves me isn't just deluded also means trusting them not to abandon me when I fall off the pedestal, and it's too scary. I want to overcome this thought pattern, but I don't know where to start. I'm worried I'm not making sense.

>>125816
You should sui

>>125816
good person destined for greatness
>>125817
a ghoul under the bridge

>>125814
Honestly I get what you´re saying, but I´m pretty sure that is not the poems intentions. Going on your example the poems author would rather you fill yourself rather than giving up and starving half. Look at the positive side kind of thing. It´s not about the find for more, it´s about getting most out of everything. Not sure if this even made sense just tried explaining it, because I find the poem beautiful but misunderstood.

>>125814
>>125816
God fuck love. You guys are so delulu and desperate for garbage. Love is such a con designed by moids for consistent access to sex. And that's it. Moids have always treated love so cheaply compared to women. It's obvious from how they aggressively rape everything else in the world, and yet designate themselves moral… how little they actually xare about anything real, lasting or meaningful for you

You are all such desperate stupid cucks it is pathetic to come to this board and see these posts. How are you addicts still this delusional?

>>125823
shut the fuck up retard

>>125824
P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C

at least try to justify or explain your derangement

Telling me to STFU just confirms my suspicion even more

>>125825
shut the fuck up retard

>>125823
>"fuck love"
>talks about nothing but moids (it's another "women's lives revolve around men and women can only discuss love when it's about a romantic relationship with men, also all women are straight and pursue straight relationships")
Stop projecting for one day.

>>125826
>>125827
So go dig in the trash for a moid I guess samefag? What do you want me to do? tell you yes it will be okay for the 600th time?? How long will we do this song and dance before that braincell kicks in ?

>>125830
shut the fuck up retard

>>125831
Reeeeeee the best man I ever knew was neck deep in porn, ai smut of my best friend, voted for orange turd and pissed in my shower reeeeeeeeeeeeee I don't understand why I feel worthless without a scrote sucking faggot blood

>>125832
get a therapist then or something

>>125833
You know you all fall for the worst kind and date on fucking 4CHAN like deranged twats

>>125822
Yeah, you're probably right, anon. There is also the option of enjoying what one has in full. Thanks.

>>125835
You might just be trolling to try and make women who think like this look crazy. But all of what you’re saying is unironically true lol

>>125714
Go bang to 4chan hentai once again we know you're a moid

>>125839

Fuck you. I’m not. Why are people always so surprised by that? I’m just somebody that’s been driven to resentment after years of isolation and being treated like some uncanny monster. Maybe if more people here were real femcels people would understand.

>>125840
I don't think most people are surprised by this. Usually only retarded schizos are vocal about how anything you do or say is bad and there's no point in trying to talk to them, which is why I just tell them to shut the fuck up tbh.

>>125714
I don't know if you're being sarcastic or not.
>The only respite is the continuation of the bloodline, so you at least have the comfort that some sliver of you is still out there.
Not really. Your offspring can still commit suicide, or be killed by someone (or something) else. In fact, in wartime situations, the state often mandates that. There are things more permanent than human flesh, but you know that. I think you're just lonely (which is a valid feeling) and trying to rationalize it with all this other stuff.
Having children doesn't prevent death. Reproduction is no way to cheat death or attain immortality, it's just a cope. "If I mix DNA with someone else, a new person will be created that has traces of our DNA. That's basically the same thing as still being alive, right??" No. That's a whole different person who might have a nose like yours, or be schizophrenic like your dad. They also have no obligation or innate desire to carry you (or what you think your legacy is) anywhere, they just exist.
>And besides, it is completely evolutionarily mandated that you reproduce! That is the purpose of every organism, SCIENCE says so! Come on! This wasn’t even a disputed matter fifty years ago!
Not every organism on earth needs to, or should be reproducing.

>>125714
A person whose youtube channel I'm subscribed to committed suicide, his wife died a year ago and he's been I guess depressed since it happened, they didn't have any children, I think having children is important so that you don't grow old all by yourself which is just sad

>>125845
Most young people nowadays send their elderly parents to care homes or move away from them by the time they've started their own families, though.

>>125846
Well, you will have like a quarter of a decade of growing old with someone. And if you make your kid an incapable loser then you're set for life. Is that not enough for you nona?

>>125841

Well I’m not going anywhere, so you can go fuck yourself you little pissant.

>>125844

I’m not being sarcastic, I’m dead serious.

What makes you think I don’t know my kids can die? I’m not stupid. Which is why I’m planning (or well, hoping at this point) to have the standard 2.5 kids, so that there’s a chance that at least one of them reproduces. And if not, oh well, that’s their fault because I did everything I could.

And you should know that every organism out there has some form of reproduction, even if some of them are sterile or reproduce asexually. And don’t bring the dreaded s word into this. That little word has turned more people into nihilistic ghouls than one could ever count.

>>125838

Ppl booing her as if she isn’t right lol. When was the last time you heard a moid talk about “I wanna find true loveee <33”, “omgg I wanna sweep her off her feet”. It’s common sense that only girls project their romantic fantasies onto relationships when guys don’t gaf and just want to get laid. Literally name one instance where a man yearned for a wholesome sweet romance like you guys do. Exactly.

>>125853
The fact that nature doesn't kill or sicken you as punishment for not reproducing is an important clue. Also, I think "should" is important. I don't think people with horrible defects should produce more people with horrible defects, for example. That just makes society worse.

>>125839
>>125714
>>125856
>>125853
>>125847
Stop plastering our board with shitty moid takes

This isn't pol where we whine about broodmares

>>125866
I'm >>125866 and I'm literally saying we don't need to have kids and it's a meme to claim otherwise

my mom is trying to get me to sign a POA to "help with taxes" because i moved away and don't speak to her anymore

My parents don’t act like real parents and I hate them for it.

I can’t sleep, but I gotta work in the morning. I know I should just turn the lights off and try but I can tell I’ll just be tossing and turning for hours. A joint might fix it but I feel shitty for using it as a crutch. It’s too late for me to make tea cause I might wake someone up. Insomnia kicking my ass the past few days, what gives? Hashtag lame

Someone I know IRL is making fun of me on reddit. Sigh.

>>125893
Keep Trazedone for nights like this, but do not take it every night or you'll build a tolerance

>>125893
foods high in fat make me extremely sleepy (like smetana), literally sedative tier, maybe it's just me idk

Call it learned helplessness, or a defeatist mindset, but I'm genuinely unable to be motivated enough to not give up. Maybe I'm too fixated on it but it just feels like my existence has been a series of unfortunate circumstances since I was born

>>125913
Please don't give up, noona… Not on existence…
I've been there, it can all hurt so much that you just want to end it to make it stop… But I promise, it can get so much better, please don't give up hope… I believe in you, noona, please stay…

I used to add random people/servers off of 4chan and talk with them for fun, I actually still have some friends from that period I talk with regularly. I wanted to start doing it again but 4chan is actually unusable now, where do I go now? I want a semi-serious semi-anonymous conversation, something that feels like hitting it off with a random person at a train station/coffee shop. I am not touching r*ddit but I genuinely know no other alternative.

>Why you like cooking so much? You must be some sort of tradthot

No i just like cooking for myself. Wanting every single woman to be a liberal gendie because that's the shit now it's so tiring. Let women have opinions and let them be free to not be a blob with the same mindset

>>125919
Trying to gender cooking in that restrictive way is so ridiculous anyway.
You like cooking as a man? Gay simp malewife.
Like cooking as a man, but only do it on special occasions to make something elaborate while your wife does the boring everyday cooking? You're basically an artist.
Doing it with special equipment to make things from scratch? True connoisseur (I know a guy like this, he's single, never got a demeaning comment about his hobby).
Cooking as a man but professionally? Gordon Ramsey right there.
Like cooking as a woman? Tradwife.
Only cooking occasionally as a woman? What are you eaing normally, can't you take care of yourself? (having a man who cooks regularly is never the assumption)
Cooking professionally as a woman? Still tradwife, real pros are men.
Cannot cook for your life? Cute manfailure, he needs a wife servant. Wait, it's a woman? Cute girlfailure, she needs a male caretaker to decide what she eats.
No matter how you slice it, the man is dominant and the woman is fucked in any case, at least image-wise.
Everyone should know how to cook, that's basic self-care. And if you enjoy it, that's a good thing, there shouldn't be anything political about it. Anyone who tries to fit you into some tradwife role over it is an idiot.

>>125920
>cute manfailure
Depending on where you are, a man not being able to cook isn't necessarily seen as a bad thing, just normal.
Or he's just helpless in the kitchen, too manly or something.
I grew up watching old anime and the amount of times a man is just never expected to cook while any women in the vicinity is, no matter if she's his daughter or neighbour or, much younger or has a job… "Hurr durr, I'm a grown ass man, I can't cook and my wife is gone, but hey, I have a daughter, she can cook and clean for me!" like, that cannot be normal, what are people doing…

>>125916
Altchans are basically discord servers, you could try various things on imageboards.net and give them each like a week before moving on

>>125921
did you watch many romcom anime? I mean those are usually the worst when it comes to tropes because they are based on romance.
In One piece for example neither Nami nor Robin were expected to cook once.Thou One piece is pretty old.

I'll be 30 in 3 years and have nothing to show for it. All I've been doing since graduating highschool is leeching off my family while hopping from one major to another, saying I'm studying to graduate university. Even my current boyfriend thinks I've actually been getting work done and passing my classes.
I know I'm a terrible person who's a waste of space and should die. There are a ton of people who would be more deserving of the comfortable life I live. Every night I have a warm bed to sleep on, while others struggle.
When everything falls apart and I can't afford the life I have now, I'll probably just kill myself. There's no point in enduring suffering, I didn't even want to be alive in the first place.

>>125925
Same here tbh. I hate how everyone is pressured into getting some higher degree to be able to afford basic costs of living. I'd really loved to just have a normal job and do art on the side, but no, I have to take exams and write a 100 page thesis for some shitty degree nobody will really look into anyway. Why does this affect my earnings if it does nothing for my actual skills? I hate this system.
You're definitely not alone noona, I know several people in this situation. Just keep going, karma isn't real anyway. If you feel undeserving, calm down, it's not like you're a nepobaby who's sitting on 1% of wealth and making cruel lobbying decisions to destroy the lives of millions, just help others normally if you can, starting with yourself. Whatever helps with your mental health. I do volunteer work for free these days, it makes me feel a bit better at least.

>>125925
UBI will fix it

>>125922
Thank you for your suggestion nona, I browsed through some of the chans, however, they are all too shitpost-heavy for my taste…I don't know, guess I will try disboard or telegram or something

I'm going to do an 8hr shift at my job today.

It wouldn't be so bad if
1) they wouldn't give a 30 min break after only 2/3 hours

2) I had more then 8hrs of sleep

I never get seen for who I am. Even when most normal people try to communicate with me, it feels like they're trying to talk to a caricature of myself. Don't know why that is. It's ironic - some "nice" people will feel cruel to me no matter how nice they will try to be, because they constructed and romanticized a fantasy in their head and I'm just a prop for them.

Even if someone tries to understand me in earnest they will usually just say they don't get what I'm talking about.

I guess I just want to be understood. I know it's not impossible but people who are capable of that are rare. It makes me lonely, a bit.

It’s 11pm and I have to be up in like 3 hours for my stupid job. I’m scared that my coworker got me sick since she’s sick and I’ve been forced to work with her fucking ass the past 2 days. My throat is starting to feel funny and I can’t tell if it’s just all in my head or if I’m actually getting sick. I just started this job and can’t just call off

I just want someone to tell me I did a good job today. That all my efforts aren't in vain. That they see me trying to improve. That I'm appreciated.

Oh god this bitch is about to inundate me with calls. Cripes, I just want to be left alone.

Realized after explaining how I felt about things that I sounded like a sociopathic asshole. Great!

I’m so damn lonely. I have friends I guess, but none of them are willing to form anything more than surface level connections with me. It’s like my presence is only allowed in group settings, no one ever wants to interact with me one on one. The only ones who do are men, who of course are just in it for sex/ relationships so I just shoot them down automatically at this point. All the women in my friend group seem to be more than willing to hang out one on one with each other, and have private conversations with each other, just not with me. No matter how hard I try, or what I do to try and have things in common with them no one wants to be an actual friend of mine. I’m jealous of that special connection between true friends, who can talk to each other at any time. I only interact with people like once a month and the rest of the time I’m just wasting away at home. I really want to know what makes me so off-putting to other women.
I found out one friend was at another friends apartment watching movies together because of a photo they sent to our group chat. When I saw it I kind of pressured them into inviting myself over cause I am so starved for connection. I brought a joint and some vinyls to listen to as a peace offering and we watched a movie together, and I think we all had a good time despite my butting in. I was kind of trying to prove: “hey look! I can be fun! Please hang out with me!” But still I never get invited out. After that I kind of feel like I was punishing them with having to endure my presence. What’s worse is that new girls get brought into our social circle, and meld in perfectly and form connections quickly, while I can’t even dm the people in the group who I’ve known for 7+ years without feeling super awkward about it.
It’s gotten to the point where I hate going out with friends at all, and just straight up hate the people in my social circle. I’m constantly reminded of how I’m different and that I’m being held at arms length. I’ve definitely gotten a lot colder and meaner, and have started doing things that only further push people away, only to regret it later. This only makes the situation worse, but being so isolated for so long has made me pretty bitter. Feeling pretty hopeless, guess I just needed to vent about it. Making new friends feels impossible so just gonna word vomit about it instead teehee

IF THEY FIRE ME TODAY IM GOING TO KMS I SWEAR TO GOD

>>126015
screw these bitches sis

I'm completely lost. I have a dead end job that pays a minimum wage, I'm a college dropout and I have zero friends. I was a neet for about four years of my early 20s completely wasted time. Now I don’t have anything. My mom probably wants to kill me since I still live with her. I don’t even have the will to make a social media account to interact with people. The only person I used to talk to was an older nona, but now she’s pregnant and understandably doesn’t give me any attention anymore since I’m a dead-end person with nothing decent going on. I’m only getting older, fatter, and dumber with time. Sincerely, I'm now 27 years old and I don’t know what to do anymore.

>>126025
I "wasted" my 20s too just consooming media.
How draining is the shit job? Do you have energy to eat well, at least? If you eat well, you can carry that into exercise, which should give you focus to study something.

>>126027
Not much really, it’s an office job, so I only get mentally tired by the end of the day, drinking a lot of coffee doesn’t help either. I always feel sluggish after eating anything, so I’m not eating properly either. The problem is that I don’t have any interest in anything and I can’t seem to force myself to do anything, really the only thing I actively do is organize my Pinterest.

My BMI floats around 18 and I have trouble pushing food down my throat as stupid as it sounds. The other day I couldn't finish like a 600 cal bowl of rice and salmon in a day and had some bites left over for tomorrow.
I'm gonna have to make myself drink olive oil or protein powder or something I don't know.

>>126032
Have you tried nuts? Macadamias are ridiculously high in calories. Cashews less so but taste so much better. Sorry if I’m repeating advice you’ve heard before.

>>126033
Oh no I haven't heard of it before. I should try this. Thanks.

Just kinda realized at least 2 out of 3 (probably all of them) of my mutual male romantic interests in my life have been molested. I don't know how I keep pulling these.

I had fight with my mom and I slapped her, she said she is dead to me and I should just kill her. I feel like shit, she is very abusive with me, but I should just keep to myself and never lash out on her.

>>126044
>should just keep to myself and never lash out on her.
Fuck no. Tolerating abuse is much worse.
This is a scary situation if you're dependent on her, but even then, she'll probably get over it and learn that if she talks shit she will get hit.

Every time any woman, usually but not always an elderly neighbor, walks by and talks or laughs, my older xy sibling and mom obsess over it for days. They rant to me about it even when I say I cant stand hearing about it anymore. They say they want revenge on the neighbor for deliberately "harassing" them by making noise on purpose, saying the neighbor is an enemy, and go "UGGHH" sometimes making a fist. If I dont pretend to be outraged too, they get weird as if Im an enemy too, to them. Even in unrelated topics of convo, they exchange glances for a moment after I answer their questions, despite me being not rude. Im def a 3rd wheel/odd one out.

Just today, the xy sibling stood hiding near a deck to listen to what these women were saying. Based woman neighbor said about speeding cars being a problem, and asked if loud trucks are to make men feel masculine (after telling me this, my mom called her a bitch, watching for my facial reaction to make sure I agreed enough).

They installed cameras and listen in for hours replaying it, and get annoyed if you make noise doing regular things nearby because then they cant hear the neighbors convos. So I basically cant do anything til theyre done, or its very tense and awkward.

This same xy sibling openly asked where this neighbors bedroom window is, no one but me was disturbed. He admitted years ago to turning off his rooms light, sitting in the dark with the blind open, watching with binoculars. He prev wished blindness and a home invasion on her.

Right before Im finally going to sleep, mom asks me to transfer the camera file. Her slow xy spawn is too dumb to figure it out, even tho she claims he "does everything" LOL.

They say they wish they had all male neighbors, openly hate on women. My mom is so brainwashed to the point she wont eat, shower, or sleep until her xy moidlet spawn is done doing his useless hobby crap, THEN prepares his food for him. Only then, she does whatever she was going to do.

Part of it is that both or 1 of them is always ready to walk in the same room as me no matter which room, or outside, and cant avoid them to get any peace. Outside theres a camera overlooking most of the yard, so they can watch me there too. They freak out if I walk in the narrow part behind it, and they hear my footsteps, if I dont tell them ahead of time that Ill be out there. They assume a stranger is there, so the xy might panic and run out with some blunt object ready to strike. Or if I tell them ahead of time Ill be outside, they either try to talk me out of it, or 1 of them watches in the windows/joins me outside for my "safety" (there are dangerous scrotes around, to be fair). The xy sibling doesnt like it when Im outside anyway, lets his crappy vehicle idle to get the exhaust stinking it up with carcinogen fumes. Once, mom was hinting that I should stay inside while hes out there (all day everyday), so that he can enjoy it. My guess is its because he gets angrily embarrassed to be seen with his family members, incl our parents, like he was at his own hs graduation. He has this obsession with "what will others think of us? theyll think were crazy", esp when he tries to talk mom and I out of doing yardwork. Talk about projection.

>>126050
same nona, forgot to add they also randomly accuse me of hating either the xy sibling or both of them. This happens esp if I somehow manage to keep avoiding them, or if I dont mask my discomfort/dont act social and bubbly enough. If I leave the room everytime the xy sibling enters, I get told by mom to not leave the room if hes there, as it hurts his feelings. I do it anyways, but everytime I think twice and brace myself for being put on the spot about doing so in the future.

Was watching an interview style of podcast with women hosts, whom I never watched before, interviewing another woman about a male ex (she bred with her ex, ofc it was a son, so he'll prob grow up to be just as bad as her ex).

Just when it starts getting interesting, the main host starts with, "well, women can do bad things too! Your ex is lucky you werent like that, he couldve been in danger". Meanwhile the ex in question is a moid with major red flags like his other ex gf went missing, and he openly hates women. I clicked off the video so fast, have no patience for that BS.

Why are pickmes still a thing in almost 2026? I thought women were catching on to mens true nature more and more, but sometimes it doesnt feel like it.

I wish women's health problems wouldn't be handwaved as being all in their head as much. That is my only request.

>>126050
What in the living hell..

every time i fantasize about this guy i have to remind myself that he would not make a suitable partner or husband. he would not know how to clean up after himself. he has a lot of half naked emo girls all over his fyp and in his likes. he self harms. but he is 6’2. and he is quite cute. but he did ask me to send risqué photos of myself from when i was in high school and then asked if i had any younger than high school.. meaning he would probably be a creep if we got married and had a daughter. meaning he would not make a good husband.

>>126067
wow he hits all the moid red flags

>>126067
Don't even get close to him.

>>126067
Don't grab at the nearest thing available

>>126050
Your mom and brother are having sex together

>>126067
thinking about him right now. he understands me so well. i’m jealous of this girl he’s seeing but apparently she’s into “little play” or whatever that is and he tells me how it’s apparently humiliating and a turn off. she just took his virginity.
i guess i should be happy for him but i just want to do some black magic shit and pray on their downfall but i don’t even believe in that stuff really and don’t want to be karmically punished if it happens to be real.
this is their 2nd time meeting in person and they’re traveling around the uk by train. i’m so jealous. i wish i could do this. i live such a boring life. i’m never going to have an exciting love. fuck it.
yes he’s a cheater as well whoop yeah i know red flag yes disgusting man but i’m like fucking obsessed with him it’s all stupid.
a few months ago he said that he’d be meeting her just to fuck and then delete all his info and everything she “has over him” off her phone and then dip. but i guess they hit it off that first time they met up. enough to travel for like a week straight. apparently she has rich parents so that helps with airbnb’s and shit.
he was a kissless touchless virgin before this age regressing chick bounced on it in an airbnb.

>>126078
why do you want to be understood by this hobosexual loser? level up and get better.

its weird he has pedophilia tendencies and doesn't like her age regression however. he sounds like hes a push over dealing with her and interested only in the money and getting to jizz in her.

if you want him to take your soul and youth, i bet it would be easy. just dont be a submissive push over yourself, but it sounds like you are both subs

>>126067
I never understood the height meme. I couldn't imagine justifying dating a blatantly garbage moid because "he tall lol". I don't see preferences like eyes or hair come up in these situations, why would height make you more lenient?

It annoys me when awful men think the only reason they can't get a date is because they're too short, but it also annoys me when men being tall is listed as an inherent positive or selling point. That tells you nothing about his character. There was another thread about how to check whether a man is a fuckboy and someone replied asking how tall he is. Wtf? How does that tell you anything? Maybe I'm ignorant and I'm missing the bigger picture since I've not had a boyfriend yet and barely interact with men irl. Just annoys me. Imagine if someone said "Yeah he's an immature manchild pervert who creeps on me and probably would molest our daughter, but he has a birth mark." Makes absolutely no sense to me.

>>126080
Sounds like they're only talking online so she probably didn't get to know him beyond his height and his pedophilia. Probably enjoys feminine attention, crafts his online image for that specifucally and just knows how to prey on vulnerable girls.(he's a pedophile) Nona is over here fantasizing about him being a husband while he only thinks how alpha he is for wrapping another one around his finger… So sad…

Parents are trying to make me feel bad about using poison to catch a mouse like they haven't ignored the little shit pissing and shitting all over the house for the past six months while saying I clearly haven't been putting enough peanut butter in the traps
Maybe one of you should have helped me months ago fuck off

I have had the worst month
1.got kicked out of my home
2.got told my dog is dying
3. Looming possibility of working during an audit
Everything turned out fine. I found a nicer place. Took my dog to a more expensive vet and she’s fine. My managers made sure to schedule me so I wouldn’t have to worry about the audit at all.
Now I can focus all my attention on the deep longing and loneliness I feel. Ha ha ha

I miss him. I want to hug and kiss him. But he’s not the boy I met 2 years ago. He’s a man now and he had hurt me so much something was broken inside me. His actions still hurt me. I have to stop looking at old photos. I gotta keep mentalize myself he will be gone soon and I have to block him when the time comes. I have to let him go

>>126089
Well he lost the innocence and glow from when I met him. But at the same time he used to be kinder and considerate with others. He had more patience too. Now he acts like a manchild. His emotional immaturity destroyed me. Good thing is he doesn’t feel like a proper man so he wants to improve but he does it very slow and I can’t help but think his words don’t translate into actions. Like most men nowadays he believes that putting himself under extreme circumstances will make him grow up instead of putting the effort day by day and having discipline.

Why do I feel such a visceral disgust over age gap relationships, or really whenever an old man is attracted or lusts after younger women?
One could think it's because old men are unattractive, but I don't feel this way towards any other category of people or relationships. Not ugly men with attractive girlfriends, not fat men, not short men, none at all, at most I'm annoyed by the hypocrisy and that's it, but with old men and younger women? I feel like puking before I could even form a coherent thought about it.
Hell I don't even care most of the time when it's a gay, lesbian, older woman younger man age gap.
I'm just lost as to why I am specifically like this, what's the psychology behind this?
I try to reason with it because it actually makes sense because people are naturally attracted to youth and beauty, I tried age gap fiction to ease my mind into it and "disentetize" myself and still, nothing, the same reaction
I know it's not because I'm jealous since I'm young myself and always felt this way, and the last thing I want is attracting them

>>126092
>I'm just lost as to why I am specifically like this, what's the psychology behind this?
Your psyche subconsciously recognizing the danger these types of relationships harbor or cause.

These types of reactions like the seemingly irrational hatred of something always serve some kind of purpose. The person just doesn't know what it is yet.

I hate having someone so emotionally dependent on me. It doesn't feel like I imagined it did when I was the dependent one, it's just a burdensome moral responsibility.

>>126095
don't worry, soon you'll be able to have a relationship with an emotionless AI robot.

>>126096
A relationship with a calm, mentally stable human might be a nice middle ground, I think.

>>126095
don't worry, soon you'll be able to have a relationship with an emotionless AI robot.

>>126092
Then you have brain damage because ugly men with attractive girlfriends are viscerally disgusting and opportunistic con artists. If you live for scraps for an ugly ass scrote your brain is in the sewer

>>126093
Honestly ugly scrotes are even worse. If the guy is hot and has good personality and is older ? I can look past it, but this is incredibly rare and honestly something you should dispense with anyway. It only happens in books and movies. But if they're ugly it's about 50 times worse it's offensive to the cells in my brain and my body. It's one of the worst kinds of nasty.

Ugly men have been praying on and oppressing women for millenia. We only pretend to be attracted to ugly men because we are pressured and bullied into pretending we like nad tolerate their shitty hypocrisy and parasitism.

If your phd can't get you a job I don't know what you expect me to do with my nothing. Stop giving me boomer tier advice that isn't working for you either.

>>126107
Yeah that's why I said "other than the hypocrisy", I hate the double standard in that case but my revulsion to the other dynamic is paramount
I guess one of them feels more objectifying than other, stuck in time, going after the same young women who most likely view them innocently regardless of the wide difference in biological time zones
Women's bodies being inherently degraded, doesn't help but it gets worse as they age and are unable to relate to them at any level

My mother's cousin came to visit this week and beforehand both my parents independently gave me this description of her as being some kind of out-there one of a kind wacky eccentric. I was looking forward to seeing what all that was about, because they couldn't manage to articulate what the hell they actually meant by that, and now that I've met her I'm just as confused. She's literally just a normie woman. She doesn't come across as autistic or schizo or emotionally stunted or anything. The closest thing I can see it is that she has a rural accent and some completely conventional interests like animation and skywatching. Is the bar really that low?

>>126109
I concur w/ the brainwashing.
So much media pushes "giving the nice guy a chance", "douchey hot guy vs. nice nerd guy", [insert slice of life/isekai where dumbfuck loser MC gets a harem of pretty girls]. It's like as a woman it's a moral failing to not give the ugly, """nice""" guy a chance but for men it's just assumed that they're allowed to only care about looks. I mean look at the prevalence of attractive girl/ugly guy relationships vs. ugly girl/attractive guy relationships.

Also irl you see that most of these "nice guys" are just a different type of cheating piece of shit scumbags.

spent a few hours before sleep realizing how much of an immature sperg I am and can't help but say stupid shit sometimes
it's a weird feel desu

>>126025
You’re basically me in the future and I’m you but a few years younger

>>125481
The ultimate solution is to train yourself to shit at 7:20am with a strong coffee and a couple cigarettes, then let him take all the time he wants in the stank.

>>125514
Some diseases sound terminal but the lower quality of life is more often just due to boomers being stuck in they ways and slowly killing themselves not listening to their doctors and taking TikTok frog pills. I hope for you the best possible outcome.

>>126044
That’s a BPD mom alright
Don’t feel bad