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Vent Thread Anonymous 125413
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>>>/feels/120288Anonymous 125481
i am so fucking pissed i have 2 new roommates in a place with ONE BATHROOM
every morning the one male (homosexual) takes an hour long shower, same time, at 7:30am-8:30am
which would be FINE except thats when i wake up and have to take my morning shit
so ive been having to shit in a bag in a bucket and toss it outside
its so fucking annoying
Anonymous 125507
It’s so lonely here. I hate that I was given the cards I’m dealt with. I can’t connect or relate to a single human. I feel like I’m there’s a glass wall between me and the rest of humanity. I want out.
Anonymous 125508
>>125481ask him to cut down his shower time so you can take your morning shit
Anonymous 125510
>>125507Moved to greenland? Those are the glacier sheets
Anonymous 125511
>>125510I don’t know why this reply is triggering me so badly right now, but it is. You could have just said nothing.
Anonymous 125514
Recently learned I have fatty liver. I'm genuinely scared I'm gonna get diabetes and die from it, I don't know much about having a fatty liver but it might be too late to reverse the damage
Anonymous 125517
>>125511Oops, was that cold of me (プッフ)
Sorry, though, I felt getting no replies would be lonelier, but I am actually curious: do you live in Alaska or somewhere big and empty like that?
Anonymous 125534
I’m becoming a bitter hag and I don’t know how to stop
Anonymous 125566
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I got a part time job and I'm leaving NEEThood and I don't quite know how to feel about it. I've been a shut in hermit for over the past 5 years,(never went to college or got a job) and it just feels so weird to know that I'm going to be participating in society soon, and doing something that for most people is mundane and second nature, but to me seemed so inaccessible.
I had the grim realization that living in isolation during my most formative and important years has made it so that I probably wont ever be able to bridge the gap between me and normal people. Even if I do somehow manage to become a functioning member of society, people will be able to see right through me and realize I'm not normal. I've been like this for so long that I grew accustomed to it and almost find it comforting, because it's made me avoid other people and all of my problems by allowing me to pretend the outside world doesn't exist. And now I'm terrified and have intrusive thoughts about ruining this for myself by getting myself fired or not showing up. Because in a very sick way I want to continue staying like this. I don't think I'll ever not feel alienated and physically out of place. I really thought I'd be more happier since I've been job searching for so long and wanted to do something with my life, but I just feel numb and dreadful.
Anonymous 125568
>>125566I've been in a similar situation a couple of years ago, and still feel like you wrote every now and then. There are some things I try to remember.
Being weird, or abnormal, doesn't mean you won't ever get along with people. Look at how many men are autistic and they get along just fine. Yes, it feels awkward and lonely but trust me, as long as you're dressed "normal" and talk politely you will be able to deal with people, even if not in social situations like parties.
As to wanting to go back to neethood and the silence and serenity, I really get it and felt it too (still feel it but less frequently). But we all know it's not good or healthy to live like this and just damages you in the long run. Plus, being out introduces some new simple pleasures that you haven't even discovered yet. And now you'll be able to enjoy time alone and inside much more - since it's not the default all of the time - and without any guilt or "rotting" feeling.
It came out all messy and weird but what you wrote deeply resonated with my fear in that time and just remember it won't always feel like this. Things will get better
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>>125566The life of an inbetweener is definitely harder than that of full a normie or a neet but it's definitely worth it. Thankfully there are others like us but the hard part is finding them.
I personally went to uni and spent the first two year socializing at every opportunity i got. It was a horrible life (alcohol helped a little) but after that i had managed to find i group of friends who could understand me.
Anonymous 125572
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>>125568This is puzzling to me. I have been a neet for this year. Always got out and socialized before, always performed pretty decent in school, graduated, has jobs since I was 16 but lately there are aspects of society I find completely intolerable. It is only getting worse. It didn't used to be this bad but lately people make me sick. Every year there is something new I have to unlearn. I wish to god I didn't. But it's like every day I have new realizations see much more broad clarity. This seems impossible to manage realistically. Every year I get older I hate people more. Everything they do makes me want to leave. Everything related to patriarchal society and the idiots that share one single brain cell, running it into the ground… I've tried I've tried it used to be easy. How is it you have this opinion at all? I'm genuinely curious how people operate that way. I've learned the complete opposite. I started off normal enough now I want to get off permanently.
Anonymous 125574
>>125572What makes you hate people? Like based on what information/interactions and where are you encountering them
Anonymous 125576
>>125574How people treat women victims and child victims in general. Most people are sheer and utter basement rot TRASH
The signs were there in the beginning too though. I flat out denied it and refused to pay attention.
Anonymous 125577
>>125576What I'm getting at is like, is this from stuff you're reading online or witnessing irl? Going out and having normal interactions might be a good way to counteract it. Just realized we're in the vent thread though so sorry if you're not looking for advice
Anonymous 125580
>>125577Unfortunately both. I thought that too, until I got stalked. Now I shun human interaction.
It's okay you don't have to try and solve my problem, it's something only I can figure out I think.
Just genuinely curious how lifelong neets don't come to the same conclusion as me, after being socially displaced since child hood I reckon ?
You're right there are some people out there who don't suck. But my god it feels like a human chopping mill most of the time.
Irl people are fickle, non-committal, easily goaded to psychosocial phenomenon. It's a real world size human blender.
I'm like you I used to socialize a ton. I agree with your sentiment it was a horrible experience. I did not find a tribe though, I found a million roles to play
Anonymous 125581
>>125572Well you're right in general. People are horrible, both the ones running the world and the great masses supporting them, as well as most of the men and women I meet daily.
It hurts more because the first group right now is ruining my country and causing endless war and death in the name of religion and vengeance. I'm not positive about the future or about the average person.
On the other hand, I'm smart and sensible enough to choose my environment and interactions. I do whatever I can to fix this horrible world but also minimize interaction with awful people and maximize the beauty and peace in my life.
I sit in cafés and go to the library and get great books and bake cakes and sit by the sea and try to find like-minded people to send memes to.
You're not supposed to be blind to the world in the rational sense, but suffering endlessly is just pointless, in my opinion.
Anonymous 125594
>>125514How did you get fatty liver and how did you know you got it? Listen to your doctors advice and don’t take too many pharmaceutical drugs that are filtered through the liver. Hold off on alcohol.
Anonymous 125598
>>125581I think it's a matter of luck to feel like you belong anywhere. But idk I think people are all pretending to get ahead, they also have no point of reference but the devolve into being tedious. Like at all costs making tedious their personality. I've never felt a break from that in most places, no matter where I blended in save with a handful of people. Mostly because I hate patriarchal society and shun 89% of things on this earth. I'm really good at blending in but I don't know why I do if it's like metric fucktons of work and I just feel like I'm lying to myself anyway. It's like I guess I always felt like you initially though, that I would find a tribe.
I know what you mean but I garden, make art and write in solitude and that is the source of true happiness
Anonymous 125617
I had a friend stay with me last night and it was fun to see her but she ended up being super messy and breaking some of my stuff without telling me or my bf. She burned her breakfast to the stove and left it for us to clean up, and fully fucking broke our thermostat. she set the cooling to 80 degrees and the heating to 62 and somehow managed to break multiple buttons and switches, leaving them on the floor. There's also now a mystery screw on the floor that I don't recognize or even know where tf it came from. How the fuck does someone even have time to do all of that? she was here for one night!! I literally never want to have anyone stay the night, ever again. Respect my shit or leave.
Anonymous 125620
>>125617your friend has retard strength
Anonymous 125629
I’m so fucking drained, so exhausted. Physically I’m suffering because I don’t get any rest and emotionally my soul is damaged to the core. This whole situation with my ex boyfriend is draining me. I love him so much but he’s hurting me constantly. I’m hurting myself too by still seeing him. I wish I had the courage to tell him to fuck off and blocking him everywhere. But I know I will repent later. I don’t know if he’s being genuine or manipulating me. I’m sick of this life and my sleep and mental problems
Anonymous 125641
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I seriously can't be half arsed about anything. I'm going to die useless and lonely and I won't do anything about it
Anonymous 125646
I hate people knowing me. It makes me feel incredibly on edge. I like to be a mystery. I don’t want people to know about me or my home life. I have issues. I know.
It’s all gone to shit though. I’m getting kicked out of my home that I’ve lived in for 7 years. After I found out I went into work and ended up sobbing. My managers asked me about what happened. After I spilled my guts they helped me find a renal. Now they keep asking me about it and offering to help me get things for my rental. It makes me so uncomfortable. I hate taking things from people and asking for help. My own parents don’t even care that much. Like my mom has barely talked to me after the whole thing. My dad and step mom didn’t check on me. The moment both my managers saw me they asked me what happened.
Anonymous 125653
My parents are always so optimistic on my social chances when I am a loser with no friends. Meanwhile, they don’t focus on trying to hone in on my brother when he actually has friends and romantic prospects. If they focused more on him and his social potential we could have a shot at furthering the bloodline, but they’ve stuck their heads so deep in the sand.
So, it’s going to end up with me as not only a friendless loser but a burnt out one at that, and my brother, who’s going to end up some film industry faggot who runs away from his inherent responsibilities as a human being.
Anonymous 125654
>>125653>inherent responsibilitiesLol what
Anonymous 125655
>>125654leave nona alone she’s cooking
Anonymous 125678
my vagina hurts when i feel sad like actually
Anonymous 125681
>>125654Passing down the bloodline obviously. I don’t care if people think it’s bad to say but it has to be said. You really are a nihilistic ghoul if you’d disagree with that.
And it’s kind of an unspoken truth but on both sides of the family me and my brother are the last hopes to pass down the bloodline. Our maternal cousin is a bastard buffoon and our paternal cousin is an affair baby.
But no… my brother doesn’t see that. He just wants to live in LA LA land bossing around coke-snorting meat puppets making propaganda in a job that will eventually be forcefully replaced by AI pushed by the corporate deep state.
Meanwhile I actually want to make something of my miserable self so I can have something to show for my life even as I die alone. I’m studying for the SCIENCES so I can at least have a sliver of a chance of not ending up a junkie on the street!
Anonymous 125683
I have a cold and I'm on my period but I have things I still have to do.
Anonymous 125686
>>125681I watched a documentary the other day about homelessness in the US and there was a fentanyl addict who was was injecting the stuff into his gangrenous leg, there were flies buzzing around his decomposing legs and they even showed him injecting it into the decaying flesh, it was horrifying, afterwards he'd lift his leg to let the fentanyl enter his bloodstream, he said he knew that he was dying but he was fine with it as long as he could get his next fix
I think if you force yourself to fulfil some so called inherent responsibility you're just setting yourself up for disappointment. You might end up settling for someone you wouldn't normally settle for and then your bloodline will be screwed either way, like your weird family members lol
Anonymous 125725
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>>125481Go in and shit just before he shower. Don't flush. Problem solved.
Anonymous 125754
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There's no way humans have evolved to live together in tiny 1-room spaces for long periods of time and retain their sanity. It's a travesty that most new apartments in big cities are tiny as shit.
I mean we didn't evolve for overpopulated megacities either but still.
Anonymous 125755
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Every week I go to the mall to sit by the carousel and draw. Now there’s this other person doing it too. THIS IS MYYY SPOT TO LOOK MYSTERIOUS AND COOL NOT YOURS!!! I hope they haven’t noticed the Kubrick stare I’ve been giving to the back of their head the past few times. I kind of want to talk to them, but I’m nervous I’ll creep them out, and I can’t tell if they are a girl or a boy and I don’t want to talk to a man and have them misconstrue my interest in a shared hobby as lustful. But how dare this nonbinary twink steal my shtick. If I ask to see their art and it’s better than mine I will actually just throw myself off the bridge right in front of them.
Anonymous 125756
>>125755why not take this opportunity for a new friend nona, seems like theyd do you good considering how jaded you sound
Anonymous 125757
>>125756no one wants to be friends with a nb twink u have to be jaded as fuck for that
Anonymous 125759
>>125757I bet the enby twink was like
>haha maybe if i sit in this spot where ppl hang out someone will strike a conversation with me and be my friend :) Anonymous 125763
>>125759Tbh being friends with those things is kind of a low bar. I was forced to have some in my social circle when I was younger so I wouldn’t look suspicious to my other gay friends. They are kind of miserable to be around. They barely cultivate a personality or hobbies and they always use some personality disorder or chronic illness as an excuse. It starts to get kind of suspicious because I have literally never heard of a nonbinary (or whatever “other gender” they have) without some mental or physical illness. Makes you wonder why exactly they’d never be fully healthy.
Anonymous 125765
>>125757 Yeah if it ends up being some malnutritioned man with nails painted black I’m steering clear. I already knew one and they called themselves the reincarnation of satan, and hatted me cause I said the word faggot once. I made them give me a tarot reading just to watch them squirm cause I knew they would hate it but that’s the extent of interaction I’m willing to have with those things
Anonymous 125771
>>125763wow sounds like you really hate them nona
Anonymous 125777
My mom just died and I don’t even know how to feel. I can’t even cry
Anonymous 125778
>>125763Why do you openly admit to using your "friends"
Anonymous 125792
My eyes get super swollen whenever I cry
Anonymous 125793
sometimes you gotta call it a day and realise you’re crying over a loser who jerks off to animated characters
Anonymous 125794
>>125778Not like I
really chose to be friends with them. It’s just another one of those silly unspoken social expectations I need to follow or else I look like a “walking red flag”
Even worse is that neither men nor women ever really like me back, so I might have to settle for one of these people. I shudder in fear at the thought.
Anonymous 125802
Feeling physically and mentally tired this evening. And hungry. I want a hug.
Anonymous 125805
Woke up early to dreams of unrealized school relationship prospects, always a good start to the day
Anonymous 125806
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was making progress towards getting healthier and then got hit with a random wave of depression this week. all i could do is sleep and binge eat and cry. what's wrong with me
Anonymous 125808
i think im just beyond help because i dont actually "want" to change (as in, i'm not motivated to do anything so therapy wouldn't work), im just an animal who wants to avoid pain. nothing will get better for me on its own but the worse it gets the less likely i am to ever be able to find that motivation. if you dont get mental health intervention the second you feel a little bad are you just screwed? i think i spent too long looking on r/therapists (my mistake for going on reddit at all for sure) and i saw myself as a client so vividly in the things they were complaining about- and it was absolutely unanimous, with hundreds of comments, that "those people" will never get better if they don't want it. but i can't want it even if i want to want it. i know the internet isn't an accurate reflection of reality but last time i went to therapy i was "fired" as a client because i would panic and cry and be physical incapable of speaking when they'd ask me questions so i doubt trying again would work.
Anonymous 125810
>>125808To steal and paraphrase someone elses comment… The thing depressed people want is company, and when shit is bad they want someone to help them. Psychiatrists, therapists and (to some extent) counsellers do not offer company and they definately do not offer help.
Therapists on reddit are just angry their ineffectual help is, inevitably ineffectual and get angry at the patient for being failed by themselves. They go around wokescolding people for saying "cheer up" to depressed people when they simultaneously expect all their patients to pull themselves up by the mental health bootstraps and magically cheer themselves up because they told their life story to the eighth therapist in a row.
Anonymous 125812
>>125810i just dont know what else to do though… i dont have many friends to help me and the friends i do have i dont want to bother with this because thatd probably be exhausting for them to deal with and i dont want to lose them. cant seek therapy either. i live a very isolated life and i just cant find it in myself to fix it because of aforementioned mental problems
Anonymous 125814
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This poem makes me a bit sad and annoyed. I guess it made me think "Why starve for whole when I could feed on half? I don't want to lose it all searching for more."
It's the kind of mindset a person has when they've burned every bridge searching for something they may never find. Self-soothing and lonely.
Anonymous 125816
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Being loved makes me feel evil and guilty, like I've committed some horrible impropriety on the other person.
I don't know why I feel that way, but I always have. I think I feel the need to make sense of why some people pass me by, while others see something in me. If the latter are right, I'm a narcissist for thinking so. It feels more noble to hate myself, but accepting that I can be loved in earnest (and love myself) puts me on a pedestal I can fall off of anytime. Believing that whoever loves me isn't just deluded also means trusting them not to abandon me when I fall off the pedestal, and it's too scary. I want to overcome this thought pattern, but I don't know where to start. I'm worried I'm not making sense.
Anonymous 125818
>>125816good person destined for greatness
>>125817a ghoul under the bridge
Anonymous 125822
>>125814Honestly I get what you´re saying, but I´m pretty sure that is not the poems intentions. Going on your example the poems author would rather you fill yourself rather than giving up and starving half. Look at the positive side kind of thing. It´s not about the find for more, it´s about getting most out of everything. Not sure if this even made sense just tried explaining it, because I find the poem beautiful but misunderstood.
Anonymous 125823
>>125814>>125816God fuck love. You guys are so delulu and desperate for garbage. Love is such a con designed by moids for consistent access to sex. And that's it. Moids have always treated love so cheaply compared to women. It's obvious from how they aggressively rape everything else in the world, and yet designate themselves moral… how little they actually xare about anything real, lasting or meaningful for you
You are all such desperate stupid cucks it is pathetic to come to this board and see these posts. How are you addicts still this delusional?
Anonymous 125825
>>125824P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C
at least try to justify or explain your derangement
Telling me to STFU just confirms my suspicion even more
Anonymous 125827
>>125823>"fuck love">talks about nothing but moids (it's another "women's lives revolve around men and women can only discuss love when it's about a romantic relationship with men, also all women are straight and pursue straight relationships") Stop projecting for one day.
Anonymous 125830
>>125826>>125827So go dig in the trash for a moid I guess samefag? What do you want me to do? tell you yes it will be okay for the 600th time?? How long will we do this song and dance before that braincell kicks in ?
Anonymous 125832
>>125831Reeeeeee the best man I ever knew was neck deep in porn, ai smut of my best friend, voted for orange turd and pissed in my shower reeeeeeeeeeeeee I don't understand why I feel worthless without a scrote sucking faggot blood
Anonymous 125833
>>125832get a therapist then or something
Anonymous 125835
>>125833You know you all fall for the worst kind and date on fucking 4CHAN like deranged twats
Anonymous 125837
>>125822Yeah, you're probably right, anon. There is also the option of enjoying what one has in full. Thanks.
Anonymous 125838
>>125835You might just be trolling to try and make women who think like this look crazy. But all of what you’re saying is unironically true lol
Anonymous 125839
>>125714
Go bang to 4chan hentai once again we know you're a moid
Anonymous 125840
>>125839Fuck you. I’m not. Why are people always so surprised by that? I’m just somebody that’s been driven to resentment after years of isolation and being treated like some uncanny monster. Maybe if more people here were real femcels people would understand.
Anonymous 125841
>>125840I don't think most people are surprised by this. Usually only retarded schizos are vocal about how anything you do or say is bad and there's no point in trying to talk to them, which is why I just tell them to shut the fuck up tbh.
Anonymous 125844
>>125714
I don't know if you're being sarcastic or not.
>The only respite is the continuation of the bloodline, so you at least have the comfort that some sliver of you is still out there.
Not really. Your offspring can still commit suicide, or be killed by someone (or something) else. In fact, in wartime situations, the state often mandates that. There are things more permanent than human flesh, but you know that. I think you're just lonely (which is a valid feeling) and trying to rationalize it with all this other stuff.
Having children doesn't prevent death. Reproduction is no way to cheat death or attain immortality, it's just a cope. "If I mix DNA with someone else, a new person will be created that has traces of our DNA. That's basically the same thing as still being alive, right??" No. That's a whole different person who might have a nose like yours, or be schizophrenic like your dad. They also have no obligation or innate desire to carry you (or what you think your legacy is) anywhere, they just exist.
>And besides, it is completely evolutionarily mandated that you reproduce! That is the purpose of every organism, SCIENCE says so! Come on! This wasn’t even a disputed matter fifty years ago!
Not every organism on earth needs to, or should be reproducing.
Anonymous 125845
>>125714
A person whose youtube channel I'm subscribed to committed suicide, his wife died a year ago and he's been I guess depressed since it happened, they didn't have any children, I think having children is important so that you don't grow old all by yourself which is just sad
Anonymous 125846
>>125845Most young people nowadays send their elderly parents to care homes or move away from them by the time they've started their own families, though.
Anonymous 125847
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>>125846Well, you will have like a quarter of a decade of growing old with someone. And if you make your kid an incapable loser then you're set for life. Is that not enough for you nona?
Anonymous 125852
>>125841Well I’m not going anywhere, so you can go fuck yourself you little pissant.
Anonymous 125853
>>125844I’m not being sarcastic, I’m dead serious.
What makes you think I don’t know my kids can die? I’m not stupid. Which is why I’m planning (or well, hoping at this point) to have the standard 2.5 kids, so that there’s a chance that at least one of them reproduces. And if not, oh well, that’s their fault because I did everything I could.
And you should know that every organism out there has some form of reproduction, even if some of them are sterile or reproduce asexually. And don’t bring the dreaded s word into this. That little word has turned more people into nihilistic ghouls than one could ever count.
Anonymous 125854
>>125838Ppl booing her as if she isn’t right lol. When was the last time you heard a moid talk about “I wanna find true loveee <33”, “omgg I wanna sweep her off her feet”. It’s common sense that only girls project their romantic fantasies onto relationships when guys don’t gaf and just want to get laid. Literally name one instance where a man yearned for a wholesome sweet romance like you guys do. Exactly.
Anonymous 125856
>>125853The fact that nature doesn't kill or sicken you as punishment for not reproducing is an important clue. Also, I think "should" is important. I don't think people with horrible defects should produce more people with horrible defects, for example. That just makes society worse.
Anonymous 125866
>>125839>>125714>>125856>>125853>>125847Stop plastering our board with shitty moid takes
This isn't pol where we whine about broodmares
Anonymous 125873
>>125866I'm
>>125866 and I'm literally saying we don't need to have kids and it's a meme to claim otherwise
Anonymous 125879
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my mom is trying to get me to sign a POA to "help with taxes" because i moved away and don't speak to her anymore
Anonymous 125881
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My parents don’t act like real parents and I hate them for it.
Anonymous 125893
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I can’t sleep, but I gotta work in the morning. I know I should just turn the lights off and try but I can tell I’ll just be tossing and turning for hours. A joint might fix it but I feel shitty for using it as a crutch. It’s too late for me to make tea cause I might wake someone up. Insomnia kicking my ass the past few days, what gives? Hashtag lame
Anonymous 125895
Someone I know IRL is making fun of me on reddit. Sigh.
Anonymous 125896
>>125893Keep Trazedone for nights like this, but do not take it every night or you'll build a tolerance
Anonymous 125897
>>125893foods high in fat make me extremely sleepy (like smetana), literally sedative tier, maybe it's just me idk
Anonymous 125913
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Call it learned helplessness, or a defeatist mindset, but I'm genuinely unable to be motivated enough to not give up. Maybe I'm too fixated on it but it just feels like my existence has been a series of unfortunate circumstances since I was born
Anonymous 125915
>>125913Please don't give up, noona… Not on existence…
I've been there, it can all hurt so much that you just want to end it to make it stop… But I promise, it can get so much better, please don't give up hope… I believe in you, noona, please stay…
Anonymous 125916
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I used to add random people/servers off of 4chan and talk with them for fun, I actually still have some friends from that period I talk with regularly. I wanted to start doing it again but 4chan is actually unusable now, where do I go now? I want a semi-serious semi-anonymous conversation, something that feels like hitting it off with a random person at a train station/coffee shop. I am not touching r*ddit but I genuinely know no other alternative.
Anonymous 125919
>Why you like cooking so much? You must be some sort of tradthot
No i just like cooking for myself. Wanting every single woman to be a liberal gendie because that's the shit now it's so tiring. Let women have opinions and let them be free to not be a blob with the same mindset
Anonymous 125920
>>125919Trying to gender cooking in that restrictive way is so ridiculous anyway.
You like cooking as a man? Gay simp malewife.
Like cooking as a man, but only do it on special occasions to make something elaborate while your wife does the boring everyday cooking? You're basically an artist.
Doing it with special equipment to make things from scratch? True connoisseur (I know a guy like this, he's single, never got a demeaning comment about his hobby).
Cooking as a man but professionally? Gordon Ramsey right there.
Like cooking as a woman? Tradwife.
Only cooking occasionally as a woman? What are you eaing normally, can't you take care of yourself? (having a man who cooks regularly is never the assumption)
Cooking professionally as a woman? Still tradwife, real pros are men.
Cannot cook for your life? Cute manfailure, he needs a wife servant. Wait, it's a woman? Cute girlfailure, she needs a male caretaker to decide what she eats.
No matter how you slice it, the man is dominant and the woman is fucked in any case, at least image-wise.
Everyone should know how to cook, that's basic self-care. And if you enjoy it, that's a good thing, there shouldn't be anything political about it. Anyone who tries to fit you into some tradwife role over it is an idiot.
Anonymous 125921
>>125920>cute manfailureDepending on where you are, a man not being able to cook isn't necessarily seen as a bad thing, just normal.
Or he's just helpless in the kitchen, too manly or something.
I grew up watching old anime and the amount of times a man is just never expected to cook while any women in the vicinity is, no matter if she's his daughter or neighbour or, much younger or has a job… "Hurr durr, I'm a grown ass man, I can't cook and my wife is gone, but hey, I have a daughter, she can cook and clean for me!" like, that cannot be normal, what are people doing…
Anonymous 125922
>>125916Altchans are basically discord servers, you could try various things on imageboards.net and give them each like a week before moving on
Anonymous 125923
>>125921did you watch many romcom anime? I mean those are usually the worst when it comes to tropes because they are based on romance.
In One piece for example neither Nami nor Robin were expected to cook once.Thou One piece is pretty old.
Anonymous 125925
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I'll be 30 in 3 years and have nothing to show for it. All I've been doing since graduating highschool is leeching off my family while hopping from one major to another, saying I'm studying to graduate university. Even my current boyfriend thinks I've actually been getting work done and passing my classes.
I know I'm a terrible person who's a waste of space and should die. There are a ton of people who would be more deserving of the comfortable life I live. Every night I have a warm bed to sleep on, while others struggle.
When everything falls apart and I can't afford the life I have now, I'll probably just kill myself. There's no point in enduring suffering, I didn't even want to be alive in the first place.
Anonymous 125926
>>125925Same here tbh. I hate how everyone is pressured into getting some higher degree to be able to afford basic costs of living. I'd really loved to just have a normal job and do art on the side, but no, I have to take exams and write a 100 page thesis for some shitty degree nobody will really look into anyway. Why does this affect my earnings if it does nothing for my actual skills? I hate this system.
You're definitely not alone noona, I know several people in this situation. Just keep going, karma isn't real anyway. If you feel undeserving, calm down, it's not like you're a nepobaby who's sitting on 1% of wealth and making cruel lobbying decisions to destroy the lives of millions, just help others normally if you can, starting with yourself. Whatever helps with your mental health. I do volunteer work for free these days, it makes me feel a bit better at least.
Anonymous 125931
>>125922Thank you for your suggestion nona, I browsed through some of the chans, however, they are all too shitpost-heavy for my taste…I don't know, guess I will try disboard or telegram or something
Anonymous 125939
I'm going to do an 8hr shift at my job today.
It wouldn't be so bad if
1) they wouldn't give a 30 min break after only 2/3 hours
2) I had more then 8hrs of sleep
Anonymous 125946
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I never get seen for who I am. Even when most normal people try to communicate with me, it feels like they're trying to talk to a caricature of myself. Don't know why that is. It's ironic - some "nice" people will feel cruel to me no matter how nice they will try to be, because they constructed and romanticized a fantasy in their head and I'm just a prop for them.
Even if someone tries to understand me in earnest they will usually just say they don't get what I'm talking about.
I guess I just want to be understood. I know it's not impossible but people who are capable of that are rare. It makes me lonely, a bit.
Anonymous 125950
It’s 11pm and I have to be up in like 3 hours for my stupid job. I’m scared that my coworker got me sick since she’s sick and I’ve been forced to work with her fucking ass the past 2 days. My throat is starting to feel funny and I can’t tell if it’s just all in my head or if I’m actually getting sick. I just started this job and can’t just call off
Anonymous 125954
I just want someone to tell me I did a good job today. That all my efforts aren't in vain. That they see me trying to improve. That I'm appreciated.
Anonymous 125965
Oh god this bitch is about to inundate me with calls. Cripes, I just want to be left alone.
Anonymous 125994
Realized after explaining how I felt about things that I sounded like a sociopathic asshole. Great!
Anonymous 125999
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I’m so damn lonely. I have friends I guess, but none of them are willing to form anything more than surface level connections with me. It’s like my presence is only allowed in group settings, no one ever wants to interact with me one on one. The only ones who do are men, who of course are just in it for sex/ relationships so I just shoot them down automatically at this point. All the women in my friend group seem to be more than willing to hang out one on one with each other, and have private conversations with each other, just not with me. No matter how hard I try, or what I do to try and have things in common with them no one wants to be an actual friend of mine. I’m jealous of that special connection between true friends, who can talk to each other at any time. I only interact with people like once a month and the rest of the time I’m just wasting away at home. I really want to know what makes me so off-putting to other women.
I found out one friend was at another friends apartment watching movies together because of a photo they sent to our group chat. When I saw it I kind of pressured them into inviting myself over cause I am so starved for connection. I brought a joint and some vinyls to listen to as a peace offering and we watched a movie together, and I think we all had a good time despite my butting in. I was kind of trying to prove: “hey look! I can be fun! Please hang out with me!” But still I never get invited out. After that I kind of feel like I was punishing them with having to endure my presence. What’s worse is that new girls get brought into our social circle, and meld in perfectly and form connections quickly, while I can’t even dm the people in the group who I’ve known for 7+ years without feeling super awkward about it.
It’s gotten to the point where I hate going out with friends at all, and just straight up hate the people in my social circle. I’m constantly reminded of how I’m different and that I’m being held at arms length. I’ve definitely gotten a lot colder and meaner, and have started doing things that only further push people away, only to regret it later. This only makes the situation worse, but being so isolated for so long has made me pretty bitter. Feeling pretty hopeless, guess I just needed to vent about it. Making new friends feels impossible so just gonna word vomit about it instead teehee
Anonymous 126015
IF THEY FIRE ME TODAY IM GOING TO KMS I SWEAR TO GOD
Anonymous 126025
I'm completely lost. I have a dead end job that pays a minimum wage, I'm a college dropout and I have zero friends. I was a neet for about four years of my early 20s completely wasted time. Now I don’t have anything. My mom probably wants to kill me since I still live with her. I don’t even have the will to make a social media account to interact with people. The only person I used to talk to was an older nona, but now she’s pregnant and understandably doesn’t give me any attention anymore since I’m a dead-end person with nothing decent going on. I’m only getting older, fatter, and dumber with time. Sincerely, I'm now 27 years old and I don’t know what to do anymore.
Anonymous 126027
>>126025I "wasted" my 20s too just consooming media.
How draining is the shit job? Do you have energy to eat well, at least? If you eat well, you can carry that into exercise, which should give you focus to study something.
Anonymous 126029
>>126027Not much really, it’s an office job, so I only get mentally tired by the end of the day, drinking a lot of coffee doesn’t help either. I always feel sluggish after eating anything, so I’m not eating properly either. The problem is that I don’t have any interest in anything and I can’t seem to force myself to do anything, really the only thing I actively do is organize my Pinterest.
Anonymous 126032
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My BMI floats around 18 and I have trouble pushing food down my throat as stupid as it sounds. The other day I couldn't finish like a 600 cal bowl of rice and salmon in a day and had some bites left over for tomorrow.
I'm gonna have to make myself drink olive oil or protein powder or something I don't know.
Anonymous 126033
>>126032Have you tried nuts? Macadamias are ridiculously high in calories. Cashews less so but taste so much better. Sorry if I’m repeating advice you’ve heard before.
Anonymous 126036
>>126033Oh no I haven't heard of it before. I should try this. Thanks.
Anonymous 126043
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Just kinda realized at least 2 out of 3 (probably all of them) of my mutual male romantic interests in my life have been molested. I don't know how I keep pulling these.
Anonymous 126044
I had fight with my mom and I slapped her, she said she is dead to me and I should just kill her. I feel like shit, she is very abusive with me, but I should just keep to myself and never lash out on her.
Anonymous 126045
>>126044>should just keep to myself and never lash out on her.Fuck no. Tolerating abuse is much worse.
This is a scary situation if you're dependent on her, but even then, she'll probably get over it and learn that if she talks shit she will get hit.
Anonymous 126050
Every time any woman, usually but not always an elderly neighbor, walks by and talks or laughs, my older xy sibling and mom obsess over it for days. They rant to me about it even when I say I cant stand hearing about it anymore. They say they want revenge on the neighbor for deliberately "harassing" them by making noise on purpose, saying the neighbor is an enemy, and go "UGGHH" sometimes making a fist. If I dont pretend to be outraged too, they get weird as if Im an enemy too, to them. Even in unrelated topics of convo, they exchange glances for a moment after I answer their questions, despite me being not rude. Im def a 3rd wheel/odd one out.
Just today, the xy sibling stood hiding near a deck to listen to what these women were saying. Based woman neighbor said about speeding cars being a problem, and asked if loud trucks are to make men feel masculine (after telling me this, my mom called her a bitch, watching for my facial reaction to make sure I agreed enough).
They installed cameras and listen in for hours replaying it, and get annoyed if you make noise doing regular things nearby because then they cant hear the neighbors convos. So I basically cant do anything til theyre done, or its very tense and awkward.
This same xy sibling openly asked where this neighbors bedroom window is, no one but me was disturbed. He admitted years ago to turning off his rooms light, sitting in the dark with the blind open, watching with binoculars. He prev wished blindness and a home invasion on her.
Right before Im finally going to sleep, mom asks me to transfer the camera file. Her slow xy spawn is too dumb to figure it out, even tho she claims he "does everything" LOL.
They say they wish they had all male neighbors, openly hate on women. My mom is so brainwashed to the point she wont eat, shower, or sleep until her xy moidlet spawn is done doing his useless hobby crap, THEN prepares his food for him. Only then, she does whatever she was going to do.
Part of it is that both or 1 of them is always ready to walk in the same room as me no matter which room, or outside, and cant avoid them to get any peace. Outside theres a camera overlooking most of the yard, so they can watch me there too. They freak out if I walk in the narrow part behind it, and they hear my footsteps, if I dont tell them ahead of time that Ill be out there. They assume a stranger is there, so the xy might panic and run out with some blunt object ready to strike. Or if I tell them ahead of time Ill be outside, they either try to talk me out of it, or 1 of them watches in the windows/joins me outside for my "safety" (there are dangerous scrotes around, to be fair). The xy sibling doesnt like it when Im outside anyway, lets his crappy vehicle idle to get the exhaust stinking it up with carcinogen fumes. Once, mom was hinting that I should stay inside while hes out there (all day everyday), so that he can enjoy it. My guess is its because he gets angrily embarrassed to be seen with his family members, incl our parents, like he was at his own hs graduation. He has this obsession with "what will others think of us? theyll think were crazy", esp when he tries to talk mom and I out of doing yardwork. Talk about projection.
Anonymous 126055
>>126050same nona, forgot to add they also randomly accuse me of hating either the xy sibling or both of them. This happens esp if I somehow manage to keep avoiding them, or if I dont mask my discomfort/dont act social and bubbly enough. If I leave the room everytime the xy sibling enters, I get told by mom to not leave the room if hes there, as it hurts his feelings. I do it anyways, but everytime I think twice and brace myself for being put on the spot about doing so in the future.
Anonymous 126061
Was watching an interview style of podcast with women hosts, whom I never watched before, interviewing another woman about a male ex (she bred with her ex, ofc it was a son, so he'll prob grow up to be just as bad as her ex).
Just when it starts getting interesting, the main host starts with, "well, women can do bad things too! Your ex is lucky you werent like that, he couldve been in danger". Meanwhile the ex in question is a moid with major red flags like his other ex gf went missing, and he openly hates women. I clicked off the video so fast, have no patience for that BS.
Why are pickmes still a thing in almost 2026? I thought women were catching on to mens true nature more and more, but sometimes it doesnt feel like it.
Anonymous 126063
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I wish women's health problems wouldn't be handwaved as being all in their head as much. That is my only request.
Anonymous 126067
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every time i fantasize about this guy i have to remind myself that he would not make a suitable partner or husband. he would not know how to clean up after himself. he has a lot of half naked emo girls all over his fyp and in his likes. he self harms. but he is 6’2. and he is quite cute. but he did ask me to send risqué photos of myself from when i was in high school and then asked if i had any younger than high school.. meaning he would probably be a creep if we got married and had a daughter. meaning he would not make a good husband.
Anonymous 126069
>>126067wow he hits all the moid red flags
Anonymous 126071
>>126067Don't grab at the nearest thing available
Anonymous 126072
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>>126050Your mom and brother are having sex together
Anonymous 126078
>>126067thinking about him right now. he understands me so well. i’m jealous of this girl he’s seeing but apparently she’s into “little play” or whatever that is and he tells me how it’s apparently humiliating and a turn off. she just took his virginity.
i guess i should be happy for him but i just want to do some black magic shit and pray on their downfall but i don’t even believe in that stuff really and don’t want to be karmically punished if it happens to be real.
this is their 2nd time meeting in person and they’re traveling around the uk by train. i’m so jealous. i wish i could do this. i live such a boring life. i’m never going to have an exciting love. fuck it.
yes he’s a cheater as well whoop yeah i know red flag yes disgusting man but i’m like fucking obsessed with him it’s all stupid.
a few months ago he said that he’d be meeting her just to fuck and then delete all his info and everything she “has over him” off her phone and then dip. but i guess they hit it off that first time they met up. enough to travel for like a week straight. apparently she has rich parents so that helps with airbnb’s and shit.
he was a kissless touchless virgin before this age regressing chick bounced on it in an airbnb.
Anonymous 126079
>>126078why do you want to be understood by this hobosexual loser? level up and get better.
its weird he has pedophilia tendencies and doesn't like her age regression however. he sounds like hes a push over dealing with her and interested only in the money and getting to jizz in her.
if you want him to take your soul and youth, i bet it would be easy. just dont be a submissive push over yourself, but it sounds like you are both subs
Anonymous 126080
>>126067I never understood the height meme. I couldn't imagine justifying dating a blatantly garbage moid because "he tall lol". I don't see preferences like eyes or hair come up in these situations, why would height make you more lenient?
It annoys me when awful men think the only reason they can't get a date is because they're too short, but it also annoys me when men being tall is listed as an inherent positive or selling point. That tells you nothing about his character. There was another thread about how to check whether a man is a fuckboy and someone replied asking how tall he is. Wtf? How does that tell you anything? Maybe I'm ignorant and I'm missing the bigger picture since I've not had a boyfriend yet and barely interact with men irl. Just annoys me. Imagine if someone said "Yeah he's an immature manchild pervert who creeps on me and probably would molest our daughter, but he has a birth mark." Makes absolutely no sense to me.
Anonymous 126082
>>126080Sounds like they're only talking online so she probably didn't get to know him beyond his height and his pedophilia. Probably enjoys feminine attention, crafts his online image for that specifucally and just knows how to prey on vulnerable girls.(he's a pedophile) Nona is over here fantasizing about him being a husband while he only thinks how alpha he is for wrapping another one around his finger… So sad…
Anonymous 126085
Parents are trying to make me feel bad about using poison to catch a mouse like they haven't ignored the little shit pissing and shitting all over the house for the past six months while saying I clearly haven't been putting enough peanut butter in the traps
Maybe one of you should have helped me months ago fuck off
Anonymous 126087
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I have had the worst month
1.got kicked out of my home
2.got told my dog is dying
3. Looming possibility of working during an audit
Everything turned out fine. I found a nicer place. Took my dog to a more expensive vet and she’s fine. My managers made sure to schedule me so I wouldn’t have to worry about the audit at all.
Now I can focus all my attention on the deep longing and loneliness I feel. Ha ha ha
Anonymous 126088
I miss him. I want to hug and kiss him. But he’s not the boy I met 2 years ago. He’s a man now and he had hurt me so much something was broken inside me. His actions still hurt me. I have to stop looking at old photos. I gotta keep mentalize myself he will be gone soon and I have to block him when the time comes. I have to let him go
Anonymous 126090
>>126089Well he lost the innocence and glow from when I met him. But at the same time he used to be kinder and considerate with others. He had more patience too. Now he acts like a manchild. His emotional immaturity destroyed me. Good thing is he doesn’t feel like a proper man so he wants to improve but he does it very slow and I can’t help but think his words don’t translate into actions. Like most men nowadays he believes that putting himself under extreme circumstances will make him grow up instead of putting the effort day by day and having discipline.
Anonymous 126092
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Why do I feel such a visceral disgust over age gap relationships, or really whenever an old man is attracted or lusts after younger women?
One could think it's because old men are unattractive, but I don't feel this way towards any other category of people or relationships. Not ugly men with attractive girlfriends, not fat men, not short men, none at all, at most I'm annoyed by the hypocrisy and that's it, but with old men and younger women? I feel like puking before I could even form a coherent thought about it.
Hell I don't even care most of the time when it's a gay, lesbian, older woman younger man age gap.
I'm just lost as to why I am specifically like this, what's the psychology behind this?
I try to reason with it because it actually makes sense because people are naturally attracted to youth and beauty, I tried age gap fiction to ease my mind into it and "disentetize" myself and still, nothing, the same reaction
I know it's not because I'm jealous since I'm young myself and always felt this way, and the last thing I want is attracting them
Anonymous 126093
>>126092>I'm just lost as to why I am specifically like this, what's the psychology behind this?Your psyche subconsciously recognizing the danger these types of relationships harbor or cause.
These types of reactions like the seemingly irrational hatred of something always serve some kind of purpose. The person just doesn't know what it is yet.
Anonymous 126095
I hate having someone so emotionally dependent on me. It doesn't feel like I imagined it did when I was the dependent one, it's just a burdensome moral responsibility.
Anonymous 126096
>>126095don't worry, soon you'll be able to have a relationship with an emotionless AI robot.
Anonymous 126097
>>126096A relationship with a calm, mentally stable human might be a nice middle ground, I think.
Anonymous 126098
>>126095don't worry, soon you'll be able to have a relationship with an emotionless AI robot.
Anonymous 126107
>>126092Then you have brain damage because ugly men with attractive girlfriends are viscerally disgusting and opportunistic con artists. If you live for scraps for an ugly ass scrote your brain is in the sewer
Anonymous 126109
>>126093Honestly ugly scrotes are even worse. If the guy is hot and has good personality and is older ? I can look past it, but this is incredibly rare and honestly something you should dispense with anyway. It only happens in books and movies. But if they're ugly it's about 50 times worse it's offensive to the cells in my brain and my body. It's one of the worst kinds of nasty.
Ugly men have been praying on and oppressing women for millenia. We only pretend to be attracted to ugly men because we are pressured and bullied into pretending we like nad tolerate their shitty hypocrisy and parasitism.
Anonymous 126110
If your phd can't get you a job I don't know what you expect me to do with my nothing. Stop giving me boomer tier advice that isn't working for you either.
Anonymous 126112
>>126107Yeah that's why I said "other than the hypocrisy", I hate the double standard in that case but my revulsion to the other dynamic is paramount
I guess one of them feels more objectifying than other, stuck in time, going after the same young women who most likely view them innocently regardless of the wide difference in biological time zones
Women's bodies being inherently degraded, doesn't help but it gets worse as they age and are unable to relate to them at any level
Anonymous 126118
My mother's cousin came to visit this week and beforehand both my parents independently gave me this description of her as being some kind of out-there one of a kind wacky eccentric. I was looking forward to seeing what all that was about, because they couldn't manage to articulate what the hell they actually meant by that, and now that I've met her I'm just as confused. She's literally just a normie woman. She doesn't come across as autistic or schizo or emotionally stunted or anything. The closest thing I can see it is that she has a rural accent and some completely conventional interests like animation and skywatching. Is the bar really that low?
Anonymous 126119
>>126109I concur w/ the brainwashing.
So much media pushes "giving the nice guy a chance", "douchey hot guy vs. nice nerd guy", [insert slice of life/isekai where dumbfuck loser MC gets a harem of pretty girls]. It's like as a woman it's a moral failing to not give the ugly, """nice""" guy a chance but for men it's just assumed that they're allowed to only care about looks. I mean look at the prevalence of attractive girl/ugly guy relationships vs. ugly girl/attractive guy relationships.
Also irl you see that most of these "nice guys" are just a different type of cheating piece of shit scumbags.
Anonymous 126129
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spent a few hours before sleep realizing how much of an immature sperg I am and can't help but say stupid shit sometimes
it's a weird feel desu
Anonymous 126151
>>126025You’re basically me in the future and I’m you but a few years younger
Anonymous 126154
>>125481The ultimate solution is to train yourself to shit at 7:20am with a strong coffee and a couple cigarettes, then let him take all the time he wants in the stank.
>>125514Some diseases sound terminal but the lower quality of life is more often just due to boomers being stuck in they ways and slowly killing themselves not listening to their doctors and taking TikTok frog pills. I hope for you the best possible outcome.
Anonymous 126155
>>126044That’s a BPD mom alright
Don’t feel bad
Anonymous 126213
>>126071>>126079thanks nonas. he didn't seem like such a creep irl. but over the past month or so i realized i would never want to date a guy like him. i think it's just the chasing game i was into.
>>126082i got to hangout with him multiple times during my summer courses abroad last year. but only as friends. it's funny he would use me for pics but somehow irl was too much (i found out he had a gf because she kept trying to ft him). although he did insist on paying for my drinks every time we went out, which was kind of gentleman-like. but next time he messages me i'm just going to ignore it. no point anymore
Anonymous 126215
>>126213>he didn't seem like such a creep irl. that's the scary part, they often don't seem creepy on the surface
Anonymous 126222
>Get a video about "clear pee bad" recommended
>I now have clear pee and it makes me wonder what's wrong
Great, not only does it pry into my life and privacy it now pries into my future
Anonymous 126245
>>126222Clear pee is just when you drink too much water, it's not really much of a problem.
Unless you have some other symptoms, it's probably not kidney problems or diabetes or whatever other condition the internet may try to diagnose you with. If your piss is always consistently clear, get checked out at a doctor's ig.
I'm no healthcare professional, so take that with a grain of salt. Just speaking of the perspective of someone who was worried about that too once and it turned out that it was caused by me drinking a lot and going to the bathroom often because I was trying to get rid of my bladder infection. I'll have to go to the doctor for that one again soon though, the meds I got for it didn't really work which really sucks.
Anonymous 126259
Anons if I liked someone's photo on instagram but deleted that like 2 seconds later do they still get the notification showing them my account?? I don't want someone to know I stalk them kek
Anonymous 126261
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Idk if it's projection or what but I tend to catastrophize people's emotional cues/discontent.
Like if I hear someone being upset about something or seem angry or sad I feel like they are suicidal or seriously messed up. I cannot tell at all. It messes me up too because I start feeling distressed and I'm usually on edge like that. Noises, screaming, anything are just ten times worse than they used to be. Is it the world that has gone insane or just me?
Anonymous 126264
>>125413THE FACT THAT YOU FUCKING THINK YOU’RE SOMEHOW JUSTIFIED ENOUGH IN SPAMMING YOUR GARBAGE TO BOAST ABOUT IT, EVEN IGNORING THE COMPLAINTS LEVERAGED BY THOSE WHO DON’T WANT TO INVOLVE THEMSELVES WITH YOU REALLY SHOWS HOW MUCH OF AN INSIPID BEING YOU ARE OBSESSED WITH TRYING TO CONVERT THE WHOLE WORLD TO YOUR GARBAGE FANBASE. YOU THINK THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD SHOULD BE SATURATED IN NOTHING BUT MLP. TO YOU, IT ISN'T EVEN ENOUGH THAT PEOPLE CAN'T JUST NOT LIKE IT, APPARENTLY YOU THINK THOSE WHO DON'T LIKE IT NEED TO HAVE IT FORCED UPON THEM AND THAT THOSE WHO FURTHER DISSENT WILL HAVE DEFAMOUS PHOTOSHOPS PROLIFERATED OF THEM FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES. THIS IS ALL YOU EVER THINK ABOUT, THIS IS ALL YOU EVER WANT ANYTHING TO BE, TO YOU EVERYTHING SHOULD REVOLVE AROUND MLP AND LITERALLY NOTHING ELSE. YOU THINK IT'S THE ONLY THING ANYONE SHOULD EVER WATCH. YOU THINK THE WORST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD ARE THOSE WHO DON'T LIKE THE SHOW. THE ONLY ACCOMPLISHMENTS YOU CAN EVER BOAST ABOUT ARE SPREADING THIS GARBAGE TO THE POINT WHERE OTHER PEOPLE REPOST THEM, AND YOU'RE PROMOTING THIS AS A WAY OF LIFE THAT NORMAL PEOPLE SHOULD BE LIVING. YOUR EXISTENCE REVOLVES ONLY AROUND BEING A MALICIOUS SCUMBAG, AND IF YOU DIED IN A HORRIBLE ACCIDENT TOMORROW, WHICH I REALLY HOPE HAPPENS, I WON'T SHED A FUCKING TEAR
Anonymous 126275
>>126264this could be some pretty fitting lyrics for a metal song or something like that where the singer shouts their head off
Anonymous 126278
I spend most of the time looking at myself in the mirror and hating myself to the point where it's all I can think about, it's exhausting and I want it to stop
Anonymous 126282
I want to die. If I had the means to kill myself it would be my last night.
Anonymous 126283
>>126282Any sharp object, two-story building or taller, or bottle of pills will do it.
You have access, you just don't actually want to do it and are just saying you do for attention.
Anonymous 126284
>>126283>attentionPeople say it to vent but also to ask for help or comfort. If you're in pain and can't express it because it gets shut down or you get ridiculed for it, there's something wrong with your society. Have some empathy.
>>126282I'm sorry to hear that noona, I hope you have someone you trust in your life whom you can talk to. Please reach out…
Anonymous 126297
I dated only 2 men in my life and both were jealous stalkers monitorning my presence on social media, accusin me of "talking to someone" else every time I didn't reply to their text while being shown as "online" on facebook or instagram, couldn't even post on lolcow and vent about my relationship because the guy would stalk lolcow for my posts, recognize the situation I described and my style of writing and they guiltripping me because I "talked to strangers on the internet about our problems" etc. I'm so fucking exhausted
Anonymous 126315
>>126284>People say it to vent but also to ask for help or comfortSo in other words they're begging for attention, just like I said.
Anonymous 126326
>>126315>>126315Positive. That's the main reason why anyone types anything on the internet
Anonymous 126373
>>126283Unless she just ends up injuring herself which is how every single one of those methods can go. If she wanted attention she’d say something under her real name to a person who could give her attention. Not anonymously.
Anonymous 126378
>>126326isn’t even speaking to anyone considered a bid for attention?
Anonymous 126401
>>126373I'm neutral on the overall argument and this particular case has zero information to have any opinion anyway, but this is not a good point. It's just not true. A- if someone
was hamming up their suicidal urges to receive sympathy, there are much more serious repercussions to doing this in real life under your own name. B- many people on this board have nobody in their real life who cares about them and rely on the internet to experience something passable as human connection.
Anonymous 126418
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I may have, slightly, just a little bit, ruined my life. As such I think the only thing I can do to fix it is to become one of those 30+ degree getters, because the alternative, in terms of employment, is so bad I think I'm going to actually kill myself. Despite the drawing of Jar Jar Binks I've attached to this post, I really do mean it. It's either care work or retail hell. I can't even claim to have wasted my twenties in a worthy way. It was just ceaseless NEETism/breadline employment. There was a bit at the start where I almost started a degree, but it didn't pan out.
If it's a degree in something boring it will be less embarassing that I'm so old.
Anonymous 126419
>>126418Don't believe the lie that money doesn't grow on trees
Anonymous 126420
>>126418bite the bullet and go back to uni or get a certificate. become an dental hygienist or some sort of hospital tech role, or go an admin route. ive met so many old people in uni, its pretty normal enough. a bunch of teenagers/young twenties aint gonna be thinking about you at all, why would they think about you compared to some other twenty year old? id say go the community college route for a certificate that sounds interesting to you, unless you got a death wish
Anonymous 126457
>>126418Same tbh, nothing else but to suck it up and commit
>>126419The black walnut route? The w33d route?
Anonymous 126473
>>126457>The black walnut route? The w33d route?Wtf no, start gardening or plant something and experience a bit of freedom
Dough that might work too I guess
Anonymous 126498
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Sometimes I feel like I want my husband to be mean and controlling to me, and I feel disgusted with myself for it. He is so sweet and kind to me and I love our relationship, so I've never told him about it since it sounds so stupid and pathetic. I have no idea how to fix it, because it seems like the only trick in the bag is to figure out the "why", which is probably popular media constantly showing abuse and my dad abusing my mom growing up. I've avoided acting on it, and I push it out of my mind. But it still is a subconscious wish that comes and goes, and it has since I was a child. Wish it would just go away.
Anonymous 126499
>>126498why is this website full of pathetic cocksuckers
Anonymous 126500
>>126498Try role-playing if you dont have much trauma maybe?
Anonymous 126501
>>126498>sometimesSo it's not an all the time thing for you?
Either way, you could roleplay it, and you don't have to put yourself in the submissive role. I'm sadomasochistic and most masochists I've met have buried their sadism under their masochism. Most I know end up being both in some way, even if one side is usually greater than the other. I think most people are masochists though, something about wanting to be taken care of or not feeling the pressure of responsibility or something, I don't know. Trauma is often a result of loss of control though, so roleplaying a situation where you have full control could feel nice, especially if a submissive role doesn't feel right to you. You can try out both of course. Or not, if you're actually put off by it and don't really wanna do it, just don't. Arousal can hit weird, I've been aroused by things I wouldn't ever want to do, it happens.
And if it's an arousal thing that's actively messing with your sex-life, you could check out this
https://www.therapyinbarcelona.com/couples-compass-a-self-help-guide-to-sex-therapy/>whyPersonal trauma, generational trauma, genetics, who knows, what you described just might be it. For me, it all applies so I have no idea, could be any or all of it. I thought I was doomed to only get off on BDSM but I've since found that I can get aroused by just the right kind of physical stimulation but also sensuality as well, like, just enjoying my partner's body, how it looks and feels and everything, the sound he makes when my touch arouses him… Well, I still have a need to feel in control and on top of things because I get anxious otherwise, but I feel like it's been getting better these days. Anyway, you're not alone and it's nothing you'd need to feel ashamed of, your kinks don't reflect who you are as a person, trauma affects people differently and so on.
>>126499Sucking cock is unironically fun to some people. If you don't like it, don't do it. It's only a problem if one party is pressured to perform acts they don't even enjoy while getting nothing in return.
>B-but my boyfriend said I HAVE to enjoy blowjobs and I did it even though it was so disgustingThat's how I feel about penis in vagina sex, but you don't see me shitting on people who actually enjoy it.
>I was really just using cocksucker as an insultWhy is that even an insult
Anonymous 126502
>>126498I don't have desires like this specifically but I tend to have fantasies centered around my core wounds when I'm in a bad place. Maybe you're the same nona
Anonymous 126503
>>126501Because it's a humiliating inherently submissive act that services moids. When humans suck dicks they visually resemble literal pigs. And behave as such and psychologically become a retarded male serving pig. I hate sexual sadomasochism like this.
Anonymous 126505
> Why is that even an insult
It's an insult for a reason. It's degrading and filthy and obscene as fuck. No wonder why most vile porn contains blowjobs and most sadomasochism in sex involves blowjobs and facials and swallowing and anything to do with blowjobs and doggystyle.(YOU CAN'T SIT WITH US)
Anonymous 126514
>>126501No, this isn't an all time thing. I'm very attracted and happy with the dynamic that I currently have, similar to what you described with just focusing on time together. Sometimes though, what comes to mind is that I wish I could just be hit.
> I've been aroused by things I wouldn't ever want to doIt might be more like this, since I do find these thoughts off-putting after thinking about them. Do you think that there's any way to stop these sorts of thoughts? Maybe even through roleplaying if that would help (though part of my fear is that it'd ingrain it further)
>>126502That might be it. I've been having these thoughts more frequently lately, but I'm also currently missing pay and have lay off threats, which has been causing stress. That's good to keep in mind.
Anonymous 126526
Found out yesterday I'm not 165 cm tall but only 160. The school nurse that measured my height at the last year of school was wrong somehow. It's OVER…
Anonymous 126527
>>126514>Maybe even through roleplaying if that would help (though part of my fear is that it'd ingrain it further)Maybe the fantasies are an odd way of processing psychological stress or trauma because there's no other "exit" for them. I don't think roleplaying will necessarily ingrain it further(it may just make you feel like shit), but an even better way of dealing would be talking about it with a close person. These emotions seem like they need an out, preferably a healthy one ofc.
Anonymous 126528
>>126526I relate to this. They added some centimetres to my pass and I was devastated to find that I'm actually shorter. Well, as a teenager. Idc nowadays, being short isn't so bad, you live longer and healthier, spaces are often comfier for you (I feel bad for long leggers in public transit) and you don't need to eat the same amount as people with larger bodies (saves money). Also, 160 isn't the shortest, I know people including some men who are shorter.
There are pros and cons to any height, just focus on the pros.
Anonymous 126530
>>126514> I've been aroused by things I wouldn't ever want to do>It might be more like thisThen definitely don't do it, trust your gut feelings and rationale over something physical like an arousal response. You could try it out, but if you already know you don't want to do that stuff irl, there's no reason to do it. Some fantasies are just meant to remain fantasies anyway (Some stuff is impossible, like macro vore; it seems more like a metaphorical expression of a physical desire for absolute proximity than something people want irl). Either way, you know best what you're comfortable with, no one can decide that for you.
>I want to stop thinking about itI wish I could help. Is it like an intrusive thought in an OCD way or something you ponder by yourself?
If it's the latter, maybe you feel compelled by the thought because you think there's something in there that tells you something (maybe you haven't entirely processed your past trauma or something like that?).
But if it's an intrusive OCD thing, then it's a completely different matter, you could read up on OCD and intrusive thoughts if you haven't already.
Anonymous 126531
I don't want to be with my bf anymore and I dread him touching me in any way I feel like I'm dying inside, but on the other hand I'm so afraid of being alone, I'm chronically ill and I feel helpless, and he helps me with many stuff like completing formalities, helping me with my insurance, taxes and making phone calls etc. Stuff that I just have a hard time doing myself. We don't live together so housing is not a problem, I have a job and he doesn't help me financially. But I'm helpless with all kind of formalities and I would've been screwed over many times if it wasn't for his help. Also if something happens to me and I need to go to a doctor he can help me with getting there fast etc. I can't drive a car, I don't have any friends or family here so there is no one else I could ask for help. After my surgery they literally wouldn't let me go home on my own unless there was someone to pick me up from the clinic and he was the only person I could ask to pick me up. What would I do without him? I feel so stuck…
Anonymous 126532
>>126531>I don't have any friends or familyIf you need someone and he's the only person there, that's dire. Find some friends.
Is your boyfriend a non-rapist? Does he respect you as a person? Then tell him that you don't want to be touched and he shouldn't touch you. One of my friends is married and she doesn't like sex or being touched intimately, so she and her husband don't do that. You don't have to unless you're being forced or coerced in some way. If you are, you definitely need to get out of that relationship.
>How to find friendsEver tried something like meetup? Or other local online communities in your city? I've joined the discord of a very local community (a certain bookshop in my town that hosts community events) and made some friends this way.
Anonymous 126549
>>126531LEAVE. ew! if your skin crawls when he touches you you are DISGUSTED. it’s one thing to be nervous or not ready to do something. you shouldn’t feel grossed out by your partner. you deserve better than this.
Anonymous 126561
>poop
>wipe, stand up, pull up pants and flush.
>have to poop again.
This happens almost daily. Why??
Anonymous 126562
>>126561Muscles still relaxed is I guess
Anonymous 126566
I thought I could belong on lolcow farm but simply talking about even my bad experiences with men had me labeled as a nigelfag. If dating one bad person makes me a BPD autopedophile whore why can’t I just die?
Anonymous 126585
>>126566why would you want to belong on lol cow? one of the most prolific posters claimed she was some sort of feminist and that’s why she hated trans people. behind the scenes she was harassing rape victims and begging for her ex to take her back. sending death threats and driving past her house while pretending she was some sort of based online girl. she just hated trans people cos she was mistaken for one. she was just a weird homophobe obsessed with men the entire time. terfs are already obnoxious as fuck but realizing they’re just mad they’re ugly and it has nothing to do with protecting women or feminism is wild.
Anonymous 126588
>>126585Loneliness I guess. Currently blocked from any normie social media and despite going to hobby clubs normie socialization has failed. I see a therapist once a month and take SSRIs and just feel numb.
Anonymous 126589
>>126588you didn’t fail. there are just very few people worth knowing at this point. i’m not even sure what a therapist has to offer anyone in this point once you learn basic cbt. you probably don’t even need sris. how can medication change reality. which is why you are upset. i would genuinely wean yourself off because those meds cause more harm than good. they’re just trying to chemically lobotomize you because people freaking out over essentially being forced into a meat grinder is harder than them numbly allowing it. trauma therapy might help but your psychologist is not your friend. he is your insurance companies. don’t fuck up your brain going cold turkey. but being numb is just going to allow whatever circumstances put you here to win against you while you are too weak to fight. you have to figure out what is destroying you and destroy it.
Anonymous 126597
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Took a painkiller and then had a bit too much cold medicine by mistake, and I'm pretty sure both freed me from my anxiety. I'm upset now because I'm starting to feel like this is how all "normal" people feel.
I could actually talk to other people without feeling fear or worry about saying the wrong thing. I wasn't neurotic or awkward, and it didn't feel like I was putting on a show. I could make phone calls with no problem, something years of practice didn't do much to help me with. I just cared less, and it was wonderful. The only problem is that it made me very sleepy.
I've had so many teas and supplements that are supposed to calm people down, and none of them brought me that kind of peace. I'm not going to start abusing them. I know my physical health is important, and I don't want to sleep all the time. It's just upsetting to have had a taste of normalcy and peace, then have it go away. It all just sucks.
Anonymous 126599
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>>126598
BJ-chan, pigs are cute animals and you're doing them dirty by comparing them to ugly porn images that are living rent-free in your head.
Also, can you not be misogynist, for like, one post?
Anonymous 126601
>>126526I found out at my doctor's office that I'm actually 166 and not 163. I'm just hunching so fucking bad…
Anonymous 126602
BJ chan I want you to know that you are fucking based (I don't like to call you like this, I just use that nick name so it's clear I'm talking about you)
Anonymous 126605
i saw the femcel phenotype meme a year ago but i cant stop thinking about it.
im the fucking blueprint: i have brown hair, i have glasses, and look mid.
it doesnt help that im socially inept and autistic.
people just always look at me weird when i try to talk to them and the only people i can even get along with people r older than me. i think its both because of my personality and appearance. i wish i had a neurotypical brain.
i just wish i could have a loving nerd bf but when they talk about their fantasies, its some retarded shit about wanting a busty goth femdom mommy. or they decide to troon out. ive been trying to have a fictional bf to cope with the loneliness but honestly the depression keeps on growing stronger. i want an actual connection. i wish i could snuggle in someone's arms every night. i wish someone would see me as special. im fucking worthless and my parents have never cared about me since birth. i have nothing to look forward to.
Anonymous 126606
>>126605The "busty goth mummy" shtick men do is so weird. Like that's not even their type. They're literally just copying a lame meme and acting like it's their authentic opinion. They have literally never fucking fallen in love with a goth in their life, they don't even KNOW any goths. It's like watching someone quote standup from someone like david chapelle and act like it's their anecdote.
Anonymous 126607
>>126606Based.
What's even better is that the scrote who told me about having this fetish would actively get mad at me whenever I gave him a single instruction in a video game.
Even flexed to me how he punched a desk and got his knuckles bloody cause I always won against him in a shooter game.
He would never do this around men btw.
But yes!!! He's such a feminist king for wanting to fuck a "busty goth mommy"!!! (aka e-girl wearing all-black).
To top it all off, the guy would whine about how no girl loved him, but would also send me pics of random women and call them ugly. Oh, and he would randomly derail conversations into about how he wanted to fuck his anime waifu. He would NEVER shut about her.
Why did I tolerate him?
Well, I was in a really bad point in life and was honestly desperate for any attention. He also had like 20 diagnosed mental illnesses so I pitied him and had a stupid mindset of "I could fix him".
I would try to call out his bad behaviour, but in the end he never learnt, so I just cut him off.
Turned out to be a massive poser too and never liked the video games he claimed to be a fan of.
Anonymous 126608
>>126605No games or books you're looking forward to?
Anonymous 126609
>>126608I've been playing a lot of MMORPGs like ff14 and getting into elder scrolls online recently. Action games too.
But the loneliness keeps seeping back in.
I just wanna feel happy in someone's company.
Video games aren't gonna be enough for me my entire life. I need an actual connection with someone.
Anonymous 126625
>>126609No guildies or anything? Well, I understand if not, I was the type to run away and log out if I got interacted with in an MMO
Anonymous 126627
I am never dating an avoidant ever again.
Fuck feeling this way over someone who runs away from you any time you're not acting like the perfect version they created of you in their head.
The worst part is as if they can feel when you try to detach yourselffrom them and they pull you back in.
Fuck avoidants, fuck their breadcrumbs, fuck hoping they will change. Fuck them for promising they'll always love you (they won't).
Maybe you loved me at some point. But now I'm just feeding your ego by keeping in contact with you.
I'm blocking you tomorrow and deleting your number. I value my peace. And I hope you'll never get to hurt someone like you hurt me again.
Anonymous 126633
>>126627Avoidants act like this? That sounds like a clustee B issue. I always thought I had Avoidant PD but I guees not, I just figured they are all like me where they will talk for a little, feel like you don't actually care and that my mere presence is an annoyance to you but never bring it to you because that in itself sounds needy and manipulative, then ghost you forever. Or ghost you, come back, then fall back into isolation again.
I mean I am getting better but I've never truly felt close to anyone, but I plan on trying to become close to people- mainly when it comes to getting a girlfriend, I hope I never act how you described, it's my biggest fear that I'll never feel that type of connection and that my existence causes others harm.
>>126589Fuck trannies, idc why someone would hate a tranny, but also what you said about TERFs is so true- theyre homophobic prudes who think women should be obese and ugly like they are, and they think lesbians should be caretakers for self-uglified femcels who arent even attracted to them. I hate radfems. Its laughable how radfems will excuse trannies though. "kill all men.. except the ones who wanna wear me like a skinsuit, actually I am privileged for being born a woman and my experiences are worthless compared to a man".
Anonymous 126634
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>>126632
>on all fours
Nah I think they used to do it in the trees
Anonymous 126641
>>126627>>126633I mean, you can be cluster B AND avoidant. He said he was diagnosed with bipolar but after being with him it feels like he's borderline more than anything.
Anonymous 126680
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>>126151Try your best not to end up like me really, try your hardest. The older you get the harder everything becomes, especially if you don’t have a base to support yourself.
Get a degree, bf, gf, a presence whatever. Just don’t spend your 20s rubbing your pussy and browsing the web without learning any skills like I did.
Anonymous 126685
>>126680Resonant post, but can still claw your way out of the muck at 27, right? Right?
Anonymous 126696
Nobody gives a shit if you have autism stop using it as a crutch every time you feel slightly bad about something
Anonymous 126701
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A couple of days ago my mum had a long phone call with her brother. This is good. We're a distant, borderline anti-social, family of weirdos who only see one another at tragic occasions, so I'm in favour of anything that shifts the dial on that.
Last night my mum speaks to me and says I should get in touch with my cousin (uncle's daughter). She's right, I should. I've only seen her once in over a decade, which was earlier this year, and I really need to stop being lazy and insecure about keeping in touch. However, my mother then procedes to tell me that I should do this because of a whole mountain of very sad, very personal information that was told to my uncle in confidence, by my cousin. So not only has he blabbed, my mum then tells me, meaning if I do spend time with my cousin, I'm now going to have to lie by omission and pretend I don't know anything. And then my mum is confused when I tell her she shouldn't have told me! This is personal information that I don't feel comfortable disclosing on a niche imageboard it's so specific and grievous. I'm still baffled by how casually it was volunteered.
You know, for most of my life I've felt insecure. Sometimes alienated to the point of feeling almost like an actual alien amongst another species. But not now. Now I've developed and in doing so I've realised that everyone else is a lunatic. I hear stories about people cutting contact with their adult children for minor disagreements, I get advice about using generative AI to write a speech for a wedding, and now this? No, no, no. I should be running classes called "Being Normal 101". Compared to where most people are at I'm practically a full PhD in normal behavior.
Anonymous 126711
>>126685Perhaps, but I can’t see what to do in the coming years. I’ll probably try to go back to college and start a social media account to talk to people again.
Anonymous 126747
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chris chan or people lost in a loop of replicating the same patterns over and over again with no sign of improvement fills me with so much comfort
I can relate to him to a degree, not his indecent or criminal behavior but the stagnation and spiral, though he's less passive, more genuine and definitely has more life to him, I lose on that front.
I'm at rock bottom already if I need to look into someone like chris chan to feel better about myself
Anonymous 126751
>>126747Chris Chan really made me permanently aware of the fact that most retarded behavior people engage in is often not a character flaw per se, but a result of shitty circumstances. People don't like this idea usually because they think it implies we need to be accepting of anything they do - I disagree. I think it's a very accurate way to look at not just lolcows but most people really. Doesn't mean they can't use an ass whooping sometimes tho.
Anonymous 126752
>>126747I've been feeling this way about myself and my "gang", but I want to pull them out of it
Anonymous 126779
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I would like to exist as a woman without being reduced to an object of affection/ lust. Went to my friend’s party and a dude I don’t even know started hitting on my friend and I, being weird and touchy and calling us cute and shit. He did this in front of her husband too. Igaf that he was drunk, I had to tell him twice that I don’t like people touching me, and even when a friend warned him that I was ace he kept coming on to me. Party pretty much had to get shut down because of it which fucking sucks. Just leave us the fuck alone this shit happens way too often
Anonymous 126780
>>126779meanwhile the moid thinks he probably wasn't tall enough or something
Anonymous 126781
>>126780Pretty much likely he saw someone better looking doing it and pull so he thinks he must do the same
Anonymous 126792
>>126780>>126786Of course he wasn’t, he was a greasy little rat. Even worse, he claimed to be “”pan”” the whole night and talked about attraction to men but only pulled that creep shit on the only two women at the function (my friend and I) I hate when bi/pans think they get a pass to lay their hands on me just cause they think I’m stupid enough to believe they don’t have typical foul male brained intentions. Like look bud, we both know the only reason you claim to be a fudgepacker is cause you can’t get a woman to hit, take your stupid ass black chipped nail polish and stick it up your aids hole rather than put them anywhere near me.
Anonymous 126797
>>126792are you like okay? do you need to vent about something? that’s really creepy that man touched you and i’m sorry, i don’t like being touched either. but i don’t think we need to talk like that about an entire group of people. i know you’re probably just frustrated but i think we can all hate on men without it turning weird and homophobic. i hate when liberal men use their politics or identity to gain false trust too. but there are a lot of genuinely good guys that identify in those ways and wouldn’t do that kind of thing, and who in some rooms i would actually trust to tell off a creep before some groups of women if a man was bothering me. i understand you’re coming from a place where someone put your hands on you and you are rightfully upset. i think it’s disgusting when men try to gain your trust and then betray it, like genuinely men are the most evil things on earth. but please don’t talk like that nona i know that’s not your true heart.
Anonymous 126801
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My bf asked me if I wanted to break up today, like out of nowhere and I’m pretty sure it’s because I shared a post about Jacob Elordi. He acts like a clinging gf sometimes and sometimes it’s so fucking annoying. Like I have never had to deal with something so retarded from a man before
Anonymous 126803
>>126802If you’re insecure to the point you get that jealous of celebrities you should not date anyone until you work on your insecurities. Celebrities are blank slates of humans that literally are meant to be attractive to a mainstream audience.
