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Garden your soul garden.
Every focus is infinite multiverses.

Keep watering the ideas/plants that make you feel the loveliest love

try to do some kind of curse breaking or cleansing spell

>>10782
Do you think it could’ve been like…chloroform or some memory erasion thing?

Anyways do you think there’s any possibility this is connected to other CIA conspiracies besides MKUltra? I’ve read up on “The Gateway Process Tapes”, astral projection and other out of body / remote viewing research being done by the CIA. It may have just been psyops and such but I do think it’s very odd still. Also American Dad did an episode about astral projection and some other new age stuff and I gotta say it is one of AD’s most relevant knowing how big the new age stuff is nowadays lol

well i just bingeread most of these links including the /pol/ threads (barf) and im heavily disappointed, it really is just schizo drivel. i feel like project monarch/mkultra conspiracy theories are funny as hell to read but this is just a repaint of that for white incel failmales.
picrel the “high IQ” takes you can expect to see in those threads
the funny thing is for women, burned out gifted kids just turn into tumblrinas, there's a whole genre of post about how gifted classes were ridiculous, mixed with self-pitying “why can’t i live up to my potential” kek i prefer that to this weird aryan mkultra subplot. men are out of touch.
the conspiracy nut in me thinks the few posts mentioning “they drugged GATE kids,” “we astral projected constantly,” “aliens and the CIA are constantly keeping tabs on us” is interesting. can i dream for a moment here? i wish former gifted kid tumblr would post like this i think it’d be funny.
ontopic as well, i meet most of these qualifications and was in GATE from 1st-5th grade. i think all the synchronicities are confirmation bias along with mostly autist NEET traits or overidentification with ESP features due to autist NEETism…

>>10790
GATE is a conspiracy variation of the lazy smart myth some people keep going for themselves to cope that they are mediocre

>>10790
All conspiracy theories tend to attract the type that wants to feel smarter than other people. However, I don't think MKULTRA is over just because we aren't hearing about it anymore. Highly intelligent and influential people are connected to MKULTRA. Think of how insane partaking in those experiments must have been. I don't think it's far-fetched to think GATE could be a continuation of those projects. What if "gate" is a codeword like "Naomi" and "Artichoke"? Has anyone ever tried reaching out to teachers at schools with these programs and asking about them?

>>10790
Honestly I get suckered into this a lot by fear. Just all the unknowns makes stuff like this seem so possible. The astral projection shit is probably a lie. They usually bring back no verifiable information beyond some vague philosophy from the “astral realm” (aka their own imagination). Maybe the out of body experience / remote viewing part of it has something to it but I’m yet to see it be properly tested and people just assume it as real because it’s in some CIA docs. They may very well have been drugged but some people are willing to do whatever they can to make kids stop complaining, plus if this was so infamous on 4Chan and if now that we got a bunch of lolcow users here I think there’s likely many trolls, then again maybe you’re just a psyop who got mind blocked and mind controlled to deny their own experiences because all people who criticize conspiracies are
>>10791
Yeah exactly, it brings in a bunch of people who wanna believe that they discovered some dark secret when really it’s clear they’re trying to make themself feel special for writing fanfics. The Tila Tequilas of the modern world
>>10793
>Highly intelligent and influential people are connected to MKULTRA
Like who? Or is it just an Illuminati/reptilian/NWO thing where every slightly famous person ever is a member?
>Has anyone ever tried reaching out to teachers at schools with these programs and asking about them?
It’s unlikely they’d confirm it, if it was true they’d probably just lie and say no. Even if they’re honest when they say no people will just say they’re lying to save their own asses and keep their seats at the CIA. I wasn’t a gifted kid but I do remember I used to do physical therapy in dimly lit rooms and such where they would my head, I was around elementary-middle school age when this happened so maybe this was similiar?

>>3402
Same, I think it's normal and healthy to not obsess over "who you are" when you're not around other people, as well as to have different "egos" that you present to different groups of people.

i just feel really fucking bland, nothing redeeming of me and i just feel like bore the shit out of people, and sometimes i’m just sitting there like i’m a blank slate who just listens to other people’s conversations

I feel like I have no personality, but I'm self-aware. I can feel my personality starting to shift the longer I spend with others, even if I don't want it to. I feel like a sponge that can't help but soak up other people's selves, and the only way to avoid it is to isolate myself.

>>3228
I deal with psychosis / derealization / depersonalization / disassociation a lot. I don’t have anything mental diagnosed (I have ADHD, autism, and am suspected to have anxiety and depression) but I overall don’t know if I’d describe it as the same experience. It mostly comes about when pondering on existential questions or seeing people who say stuff like that we live in a simulation or thinking about how I have quite a few relatives getting up there in years, it’s more existential anxiety though. I’d say my experience is more of “I exist, but why do I exist? I feel like I’m being crushed and suffocated” and having this sense of tightness in my chest and impending doom. When it comes to if “NPCs” exist I’d say I’m unsure. That comes down to questions about consciousness and such that we haven’t answered, at least not yet. I read somewhere that only a minority of people have a voice in their head (around 20-30%) and I’d say I’m one of them, I have some pretty intense and lengthy internal dialogues. In the advent that something like panpsychism is true that would kinda disprove the whole idea though, at that point even the most simple minded person who barely uses their brain is conscious to some extent

>>10755
Shamanic Journeying. If you care about books, you should check out "The Phase" by Michael Raduga. It's very straightforward and provides clear and scientific methods for astral projecting.

What are your thoughts on that r/escapingprisonplanet subreddit? Apparently the conspiracy is based heavily on Gnosticism and trying to find a way out. Personally for me it’s kinda ruined because the people there kinda just accuse everyone they disagree with of being brainwashed or an NPC and they keep giving doomsday/great reset/5D ascension prophecies which really kills any ability to take it seriously. Plus many of them take regressive hypnosis seriously which is an extremely questionable practice. Also the David Icke butt kissing from them gets frustrating at a certain point

>>10761
I don't find it very compelling on a surface level just because it reminds me of heaven's gate and the like, and from what I know it's not based on any real evidence other than things like past life regression. It seems like bastardized gnosticism reworked for the current age. They also claim that the earth is purposefully built for suffering (correct me if I'm wrong) rather than interpreting suffering as a side affect of an imperfect world. But it is interesting that near death experiences are all very similar. In general, do you think it's possible to know if any conjectured structure of reality is real or not? I think about Pascal's wager a lot.

>>10763
Yeah, they talk about hypnosis and how “this UFO investigator found out this” but they don’t realize just how unreliable some of these methods are, maybe they just don’t care but the main reason I don’t really believe in a lot of it is how many of them are just not verifiable or how so many claim to have been a famous person in the past life or something. Or making out of left field claims like that the Earth is going into a 5 dimensional state and the “low vibrational” can’t stay according to the words of aliens or guides or whatever. This is more about regressive hypnosis than PPT though. A lot of regressions tend to contradict each other depending on the technique too, like that being too low vibe means you have to reincarnate but also there’s “healing” zones where you’re brought back to your original vibrations? Sounds like imagination more than anything

I think the model for the world you described was more Buddhist, the idea that you’re not suffering all throughout it but it’s the fault of your desires which emerge because of it. The theory has gotten pretty big cuz the subreddit was made September 2021 so it hasn’t even been 3 years but it has 64k members already. It’s also getting pretty big cuz new age ideas are getting popular again but some of them are just so awful that people would rather believe in the conspiracy.

>But it is interesting that near death experiences are all very similar.
Half true tbh, the ones that are similar are interesting but it depends on the ones we’re talking about. Ones from the East greatly vary from those in the West for example. The fact the majority of the western ones are new agey is weird though, Rick and Morty had an episode that opened with referencing death experiences and I wonder if they were right in how they portrayed it. The PPT crowd say their theory explains all the inconsistencies and while it admittedly does I feel like there’s other possible explanations

>do you think it's possible to know if any conjectured structure of reality is real or not?
Yes, difficult but not impossible. We already have many people studying near death experiences and we’re in the process of a lot of advancement with tech at the moment. Assuming the PPT people who are talking about the aliens invading in 2040 and saying the government has a plaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

I’ve read recently that apparently Hinduism and Buddhism added stuff like reincarnation and Karma to their beliefs later on into their existence so now I’m curious. Are there any religions older than Gnosticism that speak on reincarnation or was Gnosticism the first? Hinduism and Buddhism seem to expand more on what Gnosticism speaks of which is why I’m asking so now I’m wondering was Gnosticisms origins are lowkey

>>10668
I'd need to reformat them to be image board adaptable and they have a lot of pictures. Maybe. It's extremely image heavy and not short.

I was gonna try other sites and try reposting on reddit again on a different IP but mainstream social media seems to be a bad idea.

Trying to post about him on TikTok just with a general "he's a bad person" vague video also led to removal and this was months ago, my vid was up less than 10 mins.

This phenom is ridiculous bc I know big ego jim doesn't have "stans" to be reporting negative content about him like he's chris evans 24/7, he's not conventionally attractive, his fandom was never "cuckoo for cocopuffs crazy", and nobody likes him that much

Not sure if this belongs here but does anyone have any thoughts on the Erin Valenti case? I recently found out about it and BlameItOnJorge did an interesting vid on it.
>She was a tech designer, big into transhumanism and stuff like brain implants
>worked at many tech companies
>was also spreading awareness about human trafficking
>called her parents talking about “being in the matrix” and in a thought experiment game
>went missing, cops didn’t care
>Later found dead
There was a thread on the r/UnResolvedMysteries subreddit which had some explanations. Mainly
>it’s pretty common to be talking like that when you have your first accute manic episode, it’s common for the first to happen in your Early 30s (she was 33), lots of people have seen their loved ones with mania talk like that before getting help
>drugs are apparently common at conferences like the ones she was going to
>No drugs were found in her system but to be fair the police were very half assed with her case, didn’t investigate until long after and deemed it “natural causes”
>it’s likely she did some drug that doesn’t linger in your system and can’t be found or took a small amount
>cops probably half assed the autopsy.
There’s rumors her dog was dead with her too but I’m not sure of that. It’s an interesting case, but I personally think she probably OD’d on some drugs though. Apparently she also had chronic thyroid but I’m not sure if that can be fatal. There are similiar cases like Ray Rivera who said similiar stuff about being in a matrix and a movie called The Game (though his death was similar to the one a character in the movie apparently has so he may have just been trying to recreate it, he was known to be a bit off his rocker so to speak). Erin also apparently was super high energy and if you’ve seen people get high on drugs you would know they’re not exactly in the right state of mind. Apparently she was doing some stuff with brainwaves and went to a conference prior to her death (it’s rumored they talk about simulation theory and related stuff at these conferences). Also if this was a coverup from the govPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Bump because there’s porn below, don’t scroll I hope and pray it’s not CP

>>10635
This was amazing thank you

This site might help you start researching what's available and safe usage: https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/Main_Page

I have a copy of the Spells of Going Forth by Day and it has the hieroglyphs, transliteration and translation out together for each line.

So I read the translation out loud one year and was granted the opportunity to stare at the sun and chant for several hours a day for a month or so. Last year, I read the transliteration out loud. I wonder if something similar is going to happen soon.

So if you're into Egypt, and especially if you're into sun worship, I heartily recommend this:
https://www.amazon.com/Egyptian-Book-Dead-Complete-Papyrus/dp/1945186658/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?crid=2X1KSUB5O78N&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.digEZ7cMhn1FdPOr1MpvnfPhvMuMYiKJnNvFG3buO0mggmR7GwLXPQ9M_oAY0whpbnJFVgfZbYXDHkIYd1gVFuXc_mUWKanY1VfKlKUC1QZX90dnqcHb0yw7TjMaEVPIGooEVaNa52m4kT0miX5Hekk_OkxHJXW2mWcms6VTYqipvLFAncJf5C6__PbjHzwctuuXVomAl-BIXCnEM8V7iA.sQnh9T3n7n_D4DKByxxIrNQ3hxGXdJKNfYNPdHCfBWw&dib_tag=se&keywords=e+a+wallis+budge&qid=1723895915&sprefix=e+a+wall%2Caps%2C239&sr=8-1
This one has no transliteration but pictures of some of the original papyri are there: https://www.amazon.com/Egyptian-Book-Dead-Integrated-Full-Color/dp/1452144389/ref=mp_s_a_1_5?crid=2EGON4C1C8YNE&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.e6k4X6X1CUMAHQEHNp7KulabRzwAB3IFExXkCZ5xE7BXPsHGl0eMSVUbAaUERUhQCEmq2qQSTR2pWL2FwIOouTWUItl7aSZqXHYKuwaxaG-H_UpVSCWO07Kc5Xsd7mO0fVhFBTTMRpsZKumIMwVv2zBAB5zmPCPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

thank you so much nona! I'll bookmark these and look into reading them. Religiously I am celtic pagan but I am interested/use ancient near eastern pagan magick. What were your intentions with the readings?

>>10714
Just scrolling by but man I'd kill for a friend that is a fellow Celtic pagan + browses CC. Wishing you well, Nona.

>>10697
Thanks for the links anon!

>>10732
>eating salt and then being assalted
what do you mean

>>10733
Eating salt and being assalted affects reality anon.

That's just the guy from lsd dream emulator, i saw him on my dreams before

>>10540
what the fuck I've absolutely had nightmares about this guy when I was like 4-5 years old. Never again after that.

would

my older brother saw him on the preschool playground when he was 4. He never saw him again. He is a careerman now, he still swears to have seen him.

I often saw him in the hallway in the dark when I was a kid. I wonder if he is on the autism spectrum like me and that is why he stands around awkwardly. I would fuck him.