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Most of the things I have intentionally manifested so far have been done through sigils
>make sigil
>scan it on my phone and try to make it look aesthetically pleasing
>make it my phone wallpaper so it can infiltrate my subconscious through time
>forget about it and let subconscious/universe do its thing
This method can take a while though so it's not very efficient in this regard. I'm thinking about trying spell casting, which sounds much more fun and exciting than looking at a doodle for months. I'd recommend buying a pdf guide on casting spells by @sighswoon (on ig) it's very short, useful, and to the point! or I could also send you the pdf through email if you want

> How do you cope with death?

Not too well.

> Have you lost someone close to you?

I lost both of my grandparents in the same year of 2015. My grandpa died three days before my birthday and was buried on my birthday. Months later, my grandma died. I was very close to them so them passing was hard for me.

> How do you feel about dying?

Well I have been suicidal throughout most of my teen years, but I’m now kind of just floating. If I were to be in a life threatening situation I wouldn’t mind if I died. I feel pretty awful saying that since I love my parents and I have a loving boyfriend.

> Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?

Um, I’m not sure.

How do you cop with Death?
For the first few days, I don't feel anything because I'm still in denial and that gets me through the removal, wake, funeral etc. Especially if it was someone I didn't see every often. It only hits me when I haven't seen them in a while and I remember they're not coming back. Like when I just want to visit them and I remember I can't. That's really hard. In the case of my pets who I would see every day, it hit me faster than usual. I'd come home and there would be no wagging tail to greet me or I'd see an empty food bowl in the corner of the kitchen and just break the fuck down crying. The thing that ultimately helps me get over the pain is knowing that the person was old and had a good life or if they were sick for a long time, knowing that they'd be in a lot of pain and discomfort right now so passing away peacefully was what they would have preferred.

Have you lost someone close to you?
I've lost grandparents, aunts/uncles and pets but nobody in my immediate family, thankfully.

How do you feel about dying?
I'm not really worried about dying itself because I know everyone has to go through it eventually but I do feel sad that our time on earth is finite. It makes me want to learn as many languages, travel to as many places and watch as many films as I possibly can. I wonder sometimes if I can even do all of that. I always wonder what moments I'll look back on when I'm older and if I have problems walking. Will I be satisfied with what I have achieved? I think I can die peacefully if I am.

Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
I'm not religious. I was raised Catholic so I'm used to telling people that their loved one who passed is "looking down" on them but I don't really believe in this very specific idea of heaven and eternal life and pearly gates. It's too far-fetched to me. I do like to believe that your energy exists elsewhere and some semblance of you is floating around but I'm not going to let someone else tell me what an afterlife is and just blindly believe it. That doesn't bring me comfort.

>>1432
>How do you cop with Death?
I try to learn from the stoics.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABRN0E_mI0U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBwH2iYC-8c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5E2AQKuCyU

>Have you lost someone close to you?
Not really, aunts, uncles and grandparents, but I was never close to any of them.

>How do you feel about dying?
Sometimes indifferent, sometimes I visualize the eternal nothingness and it drives me crazy and force myself to think about something else.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
No, its ridiculous.

>>1432
I nearly died after contemplating suicide. Long story I won’t get in to. The thing that stopped was a sudden conviction that Hell is a real place, and I was about to spend eternity there. I felt myself recoiling from it like one does standing too close to a cliff.
After I got out of the hospital, I was a physical and emotional wreck, and people abandoned me. In that place of absence, I starting looking for the one who showed Hell to me as a warning and saved my life.
I began researching the resurrection of Christ, and I am convinced He is who he said he is.
I’m only less sad now because I know Him a little. I know I have to do His will, even though I’m a fuck up. That’s okay though, Saint Peter was too, in his own way, and he was the one Christ used to build His church. I pray the rosary daily, and I don’t miss mass now. You may not be happy if you convert, but you’ll put the world’s vanity behind you. Peace be with you.

>How do you cope with Death?

Terribly. It's one of my more troubling anxieties.

>Have you lost someone close to you?

Four years ago I lost a dear friend in a traffic accident.

>How do you feel about dying?

Terrified, but I have a strange relationship with death. On the one hand, I love visiting cemeteries and looking at fossils, yet I'm petrified of my own mortality. The closest I've come to it was a suicide attempt last year. Funny how the mind works.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?

I'm neither.

https://yvettesbridalformal.p1r8.net/
found it through this youtuber: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rofmr7_xc7A

Does anyone know any nice monster girl manga that isn't porn or something? I love this manga T-rex na Kanojo which is about dinosaur girls but it seems to be discontinued, my favorite is Kram the autistic ankylosaurus

>>1550
Maybe you could make a thread in /media/ for people to give you recommendations.

Some of these are really good o_o

in my city someone built a cathedral of junk in their backyard, my friends think it’s creepy to look at but I think it’s rly cool, my bf and I were going to visit it before quarantine :T

>>188
this one looks so wild how much does rent cost here, SO big if true

>>1552
That's genuinely cool and I'd love to go there. It reminds me of the City Museum in Missouri, USA, an interactive 10-story museum which was built in an abandoned shoe factory.

>>1522
>You just confirmed that diabetes from pregnancy was a thing. Not sure what you were trying for there.
I never denied it being a thing. Having the causes in front of you makes you relise what kind of people are prone to it and how related is to overweight and actual diabetes.

>Again confirming.
?

Yes, what sounds good to me is that you have your baby, not that you need dtitches. Again, learn how to read. And it's really ususally not big dealbecause is not that common. For example in the UK.
[article: https://www.rcog.org.uk/en/patients/patient-leaflets/third--or-fourth-degree-tear-during-childbirth/]

>In the UK, a third- or fourth-degree tear (also known as obstetric anal sphincter injury – OASI) occurs in about 3 in 100 women having a vaginal birth. It is more common with a first vaginal birth, occurring in 6 in 100 women, compared with 2 in 100 women who have previously had a vaginal birth.

>Because what? It compares the size of a baby to something everyday?
Well, it's not an everyday thing for many people that don't usually eat pumpkins in their countries.

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>>1523
>In the UK, a third- or fourth-degree tear (also known as obstetric anal sphincter injury – OASI) occurs in about 3 in 100 women having a vaginal birth.
As written in the OP, up to 80% of women will tear to some degree (they actually used to cut ahead of tearing happening as it's that common) :
https://blogs.webmd.com/womens-health/20190930/vaginal-tearing-what-every-pregnant-woman-should-know
Any type of genital tearing is horrific and no baby is worth that.

>Well, it's not an everyday thing for many people that don't usually eat pumpkins in their countries.
Is this supposed to be some smart comeback because I said pumpkins are not commonly eaten where I am? Have you never heard of Hallowe'en or even just seeing things in photos?

>And does the size of a standard pumpkin makes you yikes?
The idea of pushing it of my vagina, yes.

>And you using it when trying to make a point about psychosis makes you a cherry-picker.
I already said it was one of the first results that came up. I doubt you're going to find a nice calm psychosis account anywhere but feel free to prove me wrong.

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I am absolutely terrified over the thought of giving birth. If I was pregnant I probably try to hurt myself. My biggest fear is getting postpartum depression.
If I ever get to the point where I want a child and can take care of it properly, with out money being a concern, I'll adopt. I'm not one those people who can't love a child simply because it's not blood related. If anything that would make me love it more.

>>1524
>Any type of genital tearing is horrific and no baby is worth that.
Yes it is.
>Have you never heard of Hallowe'en or even just seeing things in photos?
What do you think?

>The idea of pushing it of my vagina, yes.
Babies don't go out of vaginas in the shape of pumpkins, their head usually comes the fist and the the rest of the body bits by bits, which are absolutely not the size of a regular pumpkin.

>I already said it was one of the first results that came up. I doubt you're going to find a nice calm psychosis account anywhere but feel free to prove me wrong.
Not cherry-picking in the concret aspect of psychosis but in the fact that you post this to enhance your horror-based idea of what pregnancy is like.

>>Says a lot about you that you defend childbirth, either because you've already done it or want to one day, but don't care about something that might affect someone else and their feelings. Hope you don't have a child that has any learning problems.
You said:
>Btw, it isn't cool to use "retard" as an insult anymore.
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Some lovely baby horror here:

https://www.boredpanda.com/evolutionary-benefits-of-periods-suzanne-sadedin/

>>1497
Oh god if your cursor leaves the window he gets sad and starts looking for you

>>1439
I know you posted this ages ago, but if you're still here did you find out what their 'goal' I guess is? Like why are they 'typing' people? What political agenda do they have if any? It seems weird having a forum just putting people into these highly specific groups for no reason

>>1252
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R/K_selection_theory
My best guess.

>>1497
the pointerpointer website actually makes me want to cry. I love the fact these photos are so candid. It makes me feel like I'm laughing with friends at them. God I'm alone.

>>1532
I was reading the Wikipedia article and saw
>One business venture they are well known for is creating eight text adventure video games. The Secret of St. Bride's was the first game they created, but they were also responsible for titles such as Bugsy and Jack the Ripper. The latter was the first video game to receive an "18" rating. Although television was shunned, computer games were liked as they involved "concentration and commitment".

Interesting to think this matriarchal quasi-cult would be making furry PC games.

>>15
When I was a kid I used to go to Ukraine every summer and they had the same legend about needles. (once I went to a local cinema and something stung me and I freaked out, but it was just a bee). Guess it's common.
These needles are literally everywhere. We've had them strewn like a damn carpet near our kindergarten, in our yards, elevators, stairways. Also rat poison. Man, was that annoying, why would you throw this shit around the places where the children play

We've always had a legend about an abandoned hospital, something about satanic cults, members of which used to sacrifice stray dogs and were killed by a flood (or by cops, nobody's sure). It was also told that an extraordinary amount of people died building this hospital. (it also looks like an umbrella corp symbol from above). A couple of my classmates went there once, dogs and hobos chased them away

>>373
That was a cool post, Anon!
I reverse searched the image and found one article not in Russian lol
http://englishrussia.com/2016/10/13/tour-across-moscow-most-sinister-buildings-elite-house-of-the-damned-hospital-maze-and-others/9/

Casually necroing this thread since it's a topic I'm interested in and /x/ is slow

Arkansas is an otherwise uneventful state, but around an hour from where I live is the Crescent Hotel, notorious throughout our region. It opened in 1886 as an elite resort hotel, then changed to "the Crescent College and Conservatory for Young Women", then to a junior college, then again to a hotel, and then to a hospital and health resort in 1937, though the millionaire who reopened it as a hospital advertised himself as a doctor despite having no medical training. Legend has it that many of the hospital's patients were treated cruelly and medically experimented on (the hospital reported a significant number of deaths) and those who've stayed there claim that some of those patients still haunt it (some of the patients had names, like Michael, Dr. John Freemont Ellis, etc.) It was found after the hospital closed down that it had underground passages.

Here's an excerpt from the Wikipedia page:
>Norman G. Baker, a millionaire inventor and radio personality, styled himself as a doctor despite having had no medical training. He claimed to have discovered a number of "cures" for various ailments, including cancer, and launched frequent attacks on organized medicine, which he accused of being corrupt and profit-driven. Having been run out of Iowa for practicing medicine without a license, Baker moved his cancer patients to Arkansas and advertised his new health resort at the Crescent. His "cure" consisted primarily of drinking the area's natural spring water. In 1940, federal charges were filed against Baker for mail fraud and he spent four years in prison. The Crescent Hotel was left ownerless until 1946. In the spring of 1946, the Crescent Hotel was purchased by John R. Constantine, Herbert E. Shutter, Herbert Byfield, and Dwight Nichols. On March 15, 1967, the hotel was nearly burned to the ground. The only living owner at this time was Dwight Nichols.

It's currently still open as a hotel and people can take tours or book rooms to stay in overnight. Many of those who stay report odd phenomena. It was also featured in an episode of "Ghost Hunters" in 2007 and "Ghost Adventures" in 2019 (though I don't personally find those shows to be very credible.) I visited it with my mother and sister in the summer of 2013 and my sister said she experienced a strange feeling and heard odd sounds, but mPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>1500
I've been there before many years ago on vacation with my parents. One of the balconies has an iron fencing to it where some of the spikes are suspiciously missing from them, like something or someone was shoved off of it and they broke off.

When I stood by it, I could feel something tugging at me to fall. I can't remember how long ago that was, I think I was 11 or 12 so it was probably around 2006.

>>1074
Which of the stories are you replying to?

Has anyone watched the now-cancelled Channel Zero on Syfy?
It's a TV show based on creepypastas, one pasta per season.

>Candle Cove
>Nowhere House
>Butcher's Block (originally Search and Rescue Woods)
>The Dream Door (originally Hidden Door)

>>1338
That was cute. Lizzie got BTFO'd

Hwo to make Jeff the Killer as a clay sculpture: https://youtu.be/pnyb_URzbsA

>>1448
Try lucid dreaming. It'll give you control over your dreamstate and you might be able to find out how deep your rabbithole goes. I've had regular dreams predict reality in the same way you mention it, minor seemingly meaningless events. Since I've started to go after lucidity, my dreams have been a lot more intense and unreal. It might sound insane, but some of my dreams feel a lot more real than waking reality itself does. It's a great experience and I would recommend it.

I wish I saw this thread earlier. I have a habit of predicting events in my dreams. For instance, a family member's house was threatened by a fire which burned straight to their property line and we had to rescue their cats and I dreamed that a week before it occurred. I will dream of people I haven't thought of in a while and then other people will mention them out of the blue.

The problem is, I also get PTSD dreams mixed in with all this, so lots of violence, incest, rape, partner infidelity, etc. so it's hard for me to untangle what is PTSD versus what is clairvoyance.