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>>1423
BPD, or borderline personality disorder, and bipolar disorder are different from one another, Anon.

I manipulated someone into sustaining my neet life and giving me money sex etc for an entire year. I didn't once feel love or even happiness.

This kinda' stuff never works out for the "manipulators" it's some Wile. E. Coyote shit where he always fucks himself over in the end. Grow up

>>1423
You don't even know the difference between Bipolar and BPD. kek.

>>1426
Is it possible to learn this power?

>>1434
Right? I mean the universe is so huge. It'll be ridiculous if we were the only ones to exist.

>>1435
I wonder if any lifeforms out there would be as intelligent as us though. More intelligent even? We seem like an anomaly though, there aren't many animals on our own planet that come close to human intelligence, nevermind alien planets.

>>1436
I like to believe so.
Although I think humans would be the invaders and not the invadee?

Yes but I have doubts about whether UFO sightings and alien abductions are extraterrestrial in nature or not. I'm pretty sure at least some of the craft that are spotted are just secret government shit. Maybe there's something to do with aliens but maybe they had a much bigger military tech boom during/after WWII than they've ever let on.

I think alien abductions are related to historical reports of faeries and that they may be the same beings, but I can't hazard a guess as to what kind of beings they are. It could also be they're a hallucination or some other neurological effect tied to a very specific kind of experience, in the same way that people commonly report seeing tunnels and bright lights on DMT/during NDEs, but also kind of like McKenna's machine elves. I don't know what experience would trigger that, but it'd have to be something that people have had for centuries. Part of me wants to say that they're being victimized by someone and that their brain makes up a story about aliens/faeries to protect them from the trauma, but some of the abduction stories are so damn weird I'm hard put to explain them away like that. Group abductions like the Coronado abduction are pretty hard to write off.

When I was a kid, I used to fantasise about what I'd tell the aliens in order to convince them that we're intelligent and not kill us lol. Maybe write a few lines in different languages, draw some star constellations, draw things you can only see under a microscope like plant cells or dust mites, write a few lines of poetry, draw a map of my country with all its mountains and rivers… I think if I was an alien, I'd have so much fun trying to figure out what all these symbols and drawings mean. It would show them that even a random child has a basic understanding of the world around them and that we've created these complex ways of speaking to each other and that we can create beautiful art. I always prayed that I'd be the first to make contact and not some shitty adult who would try to kill or exploit them.

Imagine being roasted to death within this thing surrounded by hot metal. Medieval torture methods were brutally creepy in their own way. Fuck scaphism, quartering, Judas cradle, and the heretic's fork too.

>>719
This is heart-wrenching

>>725
I've seen them in person and it's the most claustrophobic place you can be in.

>>291
Reminds me of Twistee Treat

>>1382
I don't really have a dog in this fight but I can see the argument for why being an "industry plant" would detract from the art. I'd argue that art is degraded if it's attached to a sold package or product, and the sold product that it's a part of (celebrity image, personality, a fantasy,) turns out to be false a.k.a. false product.

So, if you just dig the art (void of the image or package attached to it) then the art is not affected for you.

the entire music industry is plastic as fuck. rule of thumb is, if you find yourself reflexively calling a musician an 'artist', they are a corporate product. the music industry and media define who gets to be an 'artist' and is to be taken seriously, versus who is merely an amateur.
whether they come from humble beginnings or not is irrelevant, they aren't an 'artist' until the industry brands them.

>>754
>>764
lol

>>1398
I'm not sure if the only people who can shit out artist titles are those in the music industry. If anything, what you're saying would work best in defense of small artists that haven't been knighted.

They are artists BECAUSE no one in the music industry acknowledges them. It is exactly the moment they're swallowed up by labels and corporations and whatever else that they're nothing but a product to be sold.

>>842
That makes so much sense. They got popular between 20012-2014. MCR split up in 2013. I used to be a huge MCR fan back in middle school. Anyway, its obvious the Gerard was wanting something different than everybody else. Their Danger Days was definitely them trying to keep their shit together and get as much money as they could before the split. I think their recent get togethers is just to make money but idk.

tomorrow's the big day!! or maybe it already is for some of you guys on the other side of the world.
im glad it's getting gloomier here and im finally getting into the halloween spirit im just bummed everyone else here is not really feeling it lol.
so what are your guys halloween plans?

>>379
Have fun Anon!

>favorite things about Halloween
the atmosphere. i love the coloring and the gifts, the weird masks people wear as they run around and beg strangers for candy. idk there's just something magical about this season
>costume ideas
n/a
>party planning
n/a
>music and movies
probably going to start up welcome to nightvale & watch some ~spooky~ movies. and play a few creepy rpgmaker games ( those aren't movies, but still )
>decor inspiration
nah

>favorite things about Halloween
The weather, the Spirit Halloween store, seeing people dress up, just everything about this time!

>>114
> the 1st of November when all of the cute halloween stuff like drinks glasses with spooky ghosts on is discounted.

This too.

>costume ideas
I wanted to dress up as The Huntress aka Anna from Dead By Deadlight, but I don’t think that’ll be happening due to me being broke (lol).

>party planning
My aunt is actually having a party at her house so I’ll be going to that for Halloween. I love her because she’s really passionate about the holidays so her house is always decorated.

>music and movies
I’ve been playing Halloween music, especially the Nightmare Revisited album all month long. I’ve been watching horror movies and anime too.

>>1405
Due to an incident I've been home the whole day so no party for me. Anyway I hope everyone else is having a nice Halloween.

>>827
She's supposed to be "really dead this time". https://lolcow.farm/snow/res/602401.html#750518

>>819
I still remember when Tourettes Guy was said to be dead on his website then came back years later.

>>819
i've known someone who killed himself. And i honestly pray for this to be fake. It would be so much less burden on my heart to know if this person faked it all. I wonder if anyone is going through something similar.

I am :(
<3

>>1394
how long has this person been dead for you? for me it has been 2 years. And i still get dreams where he might have faked it all, and that one dya i just randomly meet him on the street.

Dead thread but reviving it.

I believed in a Mind-Hole that prevented me from thinking about God and my existence in reference to him. He was controlling my thoughts and plans and inserting ideas into my head about homicide and suicide. I truly believed that I was being tested by him to do harm against others or myself and that if I passed the test, I would pass the material world into a higher world and become a god myself.
I believed only myself and God were real, and that everything around me was fake and part of the test. Everything I googled did not show up online and I believed that God purposely removed them so I could not find an easy answer.
I died when I was 8 falling down the stairs and ever since then I've been living in his test.

I was hospitalized shortly after an episode and after I was released, I believed the police was following me. I saw police cars constantly and police men in multiple establishments around where I lived that would stare at me. I also thought people were taking pictures of me in public when I was smoking. People in transit that held their phones towards me were taking pictures of me as well.

I think I'm better now. I don't really have these delusions as something that I feel to be real but I still think about them some time, like I was "deactivated" for some time further. Sometimes I freak out because I hear weird sounds that aren't there but it doesn't really get in my life.

/x/ is best board on Crystal cafe

i once saw a tiny elephant in my room when i was on acid

>>1340
I believe in your mind hole too. I have a suppressed superstition that there's something I'm not allowed to think about, that both my thoughts and my speech is blocked. the thoughts are delivered through a sieve, I can touch that they were once there, but I can't express them. I wouldn't be able to say exactly what I can't think, but power over consciousness to this degree is attributable only to god or to the sum of humanity, which must be the same thing. I think we are all suppressed this way, because I really do think it is global consciousness itself, the spark that produced sentience, which is permanently unhinged and attempting to repress the disruption as not to further the fissure.


but to no avail, something's coming

>>452
I was half-asleep in my bed when suddenly I heard a voice in my mind telling me to let them in. I knew that if I did I would die. I was starting to lose control and I felt myself slipping away and I got so scared I think i woke up some kind of last second strength and I managed to fight it off.

Still no idea what the heck that was but I really think I almost died that day.

>>446
All four girls had troubled backgrounds with claims of physical or sexual abuse committed by a parent or other adult. Hope Rippey, Toni Lawrence, and Laurie Tackett had histories of self-harming behavior.[47] Tackett was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and suffering from hallucinations.[17]

Melinda Loveless, often described as the ringleader in the attack,[48] had the most extensive history of abuse and mental health issues.


man….

>>447
This shit is terrifying.

I only recently learned this about one of my mother's favorite authors.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anne_Perry#Murder_and_trial
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parker–Hulme_murder_case

>>1207
Be sure to watch the movie, it's good.

>>447
those girls were so messed up beyond all belief because of evil people in their lives. I'm not condoning their behaviour whatsoever but they were victims too.

>>408
It's from a small town on an island…I really feel like I'd be giving my identity away if I told you. Sorry, anon.

>>409
ahh noo ive been looking for it for like 2 hrs already. feel free to shove me off a turret, i think im ready
it's a great story,p. you're so lucky to have old ruins around, they have that peculiar atmosphere when you can almost physically feel how old this place is, like an imprint left by ages and people who dwelt there

>>410
aaaa I'm sorry. Okay your clue is that it's in Ireland

I really love ruins, they're incredible. They're the only thing from distant history that you can touch, really. Everything else is behind red rope or glass. I once went to the Colosseum and it blew my mind that I was standing in the same spot gladiators and spectators would have stood.

There's another ruin (this time of a house) near my bf's house and we took a hike up to see it once. The story goes that it once was used as a meeting place for occultists who got up to all kinds of fun like dressing like Satan and inviting him to join them at meal times. One night a man walked in, intending to stay the night and asked the men for a game of cards. He was exceptionally good and the other men suspected he was cheating. One man drops a card, bends down to pick it up and notices that the stranger has hooves for feet. As revenge for what the man had seen, the devil burns the house down and that's why it's a ruin (so they say). I'd say that was just a story made up by the locals who thought it was a bit queer that someone would choose to live up a mountain and away from society and felt like whoever lived there "had what was coming to them" due to superstitions, but that's just me.

People say that if you do certain rituals, you'll see the devil. Or it's possible to see ghosts. Myself and my bf messed around for a bit and although it's pretty creepy, I didn't experience anything spooky. Cool place to hang out on a nice day, though. I also think it's funny how initially the place was associated with anti-social behaviour (like drinking, occult activities, gambling, orgies…etc) and in a sense it still is because kids keep hiking up at night to have raves, get drunk and do drugs. Kind of sweet to keep up the tradition, lol.

There are other myths about giant black demon cats roaming around at night and all kinds of other wild mythological stories. I love it. Honestly, after staying at my bf's house overnight I can kind of see why people came up with all of these stories. The sounds of foxes crying and bats screeching at night always freak me out.

I came across this, and thought of this thread:
http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/canadian-government-gag-order-mk-ultra-1.4448933

A relatedly personal side is that I used to be friends with an Aboriginal girl whose mother had similar symptoms to what the testing program's victims describe in the article, and the mother had spent time in the Canadian Residential School System/Sixties Scoop as well as hospitals for anxiety. If this was happening in hospitals to white people, then based on the shit way Aboriginal people were treated for so long in Canada it wouldn't be surprising if Aboriginal "orphans" were used as test subjects as well.

Some links:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Canadian_Indian_residential_school_system

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sixties_Scoop

http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/a-history-of-residential-schools-in-canada-1.702280

>>1377
sew edgy

grow up