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Yeah me too. Life can be a bitch and folks like us can’t really do anything to get back at people. I wish there was a way to just inconvenience them or just scare them a little. To get back at society as a whole, you know?

>>10599
Relatable. I get why there are vigilante wannabe spergs out there. It would be nice to live out some power fantasy God-Of-The-New-World type shit. Alas, best we can do is type kys, lmao.

>>10599
i cannot express the hate i feel for this image and the mommy goth moids who like it

I have a sixth sense that's not always right, but when it's accurate, it's painfully accurate. There are times within my personal life and within the world where tragedies and major events have occurred and I can feel the spiritual buildup in my entire body that something bad is going to happen. Usually the image is not clear as to what will happen, but the premonition is very much there.

I was about to suggest exploding head syndrome, but then you said your cat heard it too.

I saw a meteor too recetly, it was awesome! I was just watching a movie at night and looked out of the window for a second and there it was. Really bright light flew by my window into the forested hills behind my village. I have never seen anything like that before it was so cool because it was VERY close and big.

>>10665
Imo it could have been fireworks or maybe it was a car. I’ve heard what sounds like an explosion and it turns out the person in front of me on the road just has a broken muffler

>>10569
That kinda sounds like anxiety. Have you ever been tested for it and any other disorder? Not trying to be disrespectful or anything but I’m just trying to see if there’s any other explanations here

I have a few, all based around my brother's best friend, J. Not sure if supernatural, but just strange.

>J riding with me to school
>neighbour has an aggressive pitbull that's killed other pets before
>it's loose out on the road
>it charges me
>J just lunges at it and claps his hands
>the dog squeals, does a partial backflip in terror, cashes its tail for a moment and lays down
>we ride past and it tries to keep up
>J stops and turns, raising his hand and yells something at it
>it stops
>have a half-day and he rides home with me
>the dog is laying dead in the exact same position it was when he yelled at it to stop
>he just tells me not to look at it and stresses I shouldn't go back to it when he leaves

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>>10806
Your post makes me want to try lucid dreaming again, I've been almost lucid a lot recently. I'd like to try AP someday. What benefits have you gotten from lucid dreaming and AP, I'm curious. And in the astral, can you see small details like words in a book?
>>10809
Benedryl sucks

I've never spoken of this before and I'm sure I'll get made fun of but whatever. A couple of years ago I was in bed asleep and thought maybe I'd kind of halfway woken up but not fully to open my eyes or anything when I suddenly felt myself leaving, rising quickly into the sky. I shot straight up, I could feel the sensation of movement, the speed, at which I was rising. I hadn't had any substances to influence my sleep and I hadn't been drinking or anything. I felt myself shooting up through the clouds and leaving the atmosphere, then I stopped and was just…there…floating I guess, at the edge of space. I wasn't exactly scared, more startled than anything, like what the hell, how did I shoot up out of bed, how did I feel the sense of movement and speed. Idk what it was, but I've never experienced anything like it before or since. I knew my body wasn't "with" me during this time, that I'd left it but could still feel things. I felt myself rush back down to earth and then I woke up and kind of had to take a moment to adjust to my surroundings and see I was indeed in bed.

It's real and there is a technique with the success rate of 90% in 15 days in this book "the phase" and you can find it online, it's free, anyone can do it. Most people do it the first days, me and my friend did it first try and a lot of people experience it and talk about it! And they're not all lying and insane.. I think it's insane to think that.

Weird near death experience I read. Apparently this person almost died as a baby, their personality completely changed after and they went from upbeat to completely quiet, and now they have weird “psychic powers” like basically mind reading and going to “the other world” where people will warn them of things going wrong. I don’t know how much I believe this is real or if it’s just made up but it sounds like going to this “other world” is similiar to astral projection
https://www.reddit.com/r/NDE/comments/kwnfpq/nde_as_a_toddler_and_now_i_sense_feel_and_see/

No offense but I’m really yet to have any reason to believe Astral Projection is anything other than the brain being overly imaginative in a lucid dream. Why does nobody ask their dead Grandma “Hey where’d you leave the jewelry?” When they AP and always just come back with vague and esoteric philosophy instead of anything verifiable?

Also have any of you heard of Robert Monroe? He was one of the most famous APers and he even worked with the CIA on some docs that have become the subject of many conspiracies. Have any of you tried his methods and what did you think? Apparently he also said Earth was a farm of emotional energy called loosh which was one of the kickstarters for the prison planet theory

Garden your soul garden.
Every focus is infinite multiverses.

Keep watering the ideas/plants that make you feel the loveliest love

try to do some kind of curse breaking or cleansing spell

>>10782
Do you think it could’ve been like…chloroform or some memory erasion thing?

Anyways do you think there’s any possibility this is connected to other CIA conspiracies besides MKUltra? I’ve read up on “The Gateway Process Tapes”, astral projection and other out of body / remote viewing research being done by the CIA. It may have just been psyops and such but I do think it’s very odd still. Also American Dad did an episode about astral projection and some other new age stuff and I gotta say it is one of AD’s most relevant knowing how big the new age stuff is nowadays lol

well i just bingeread most of these links including the /pol/ threads (barf) and im heavily disappointed, it really is just schizo drivel. i feel like project monarch/mkultra conspiracy theories are funny as hell to read but this is just a repaint of that for white incel failmales.
picrel the “high IQ” takes you can expect to see in those threads
the funny thing is for women, burned out gifted kids just turn into tumblrinas, there's a whole genre of post about how gifted classes were ridiculous, mixed with self-pitying “why can’t i live up to my potential” kek i prefer that to this weird aryan mkultra subplot. men are out of touch.
the conspiracy nut in me thinks the few posts mentioning “they drugged GATE kids,” “we astral projected constantly,” “aliens and the CIA are constantly keeping tabs on us” is interesting. can i dream for a moment here? i wish former gifted kid tumblr would post like this i think it’d be funny.
ontopic as well, i meet most of these qualifications and was in GATE from 1st-5th grade. i think all the synchronicities are confirmation bias along with mostly autist NEET traits or overidentification with ESP features due to autist NEETism…

>>10790
GATE is a conspiracy variation of the lazy smart myth some people keep going for themselves to cope that they are mediocre

>>10790
All conspiracy theories tend to attract the type that wants to feel smarter than other people. However, I don't think MKULTRA is over just because we aren't hearing about it anymore. Highly intelligent and influential people are connected to MKULTRA. Think of how insane partaking in those experiments must have been. I don't think it's far-fetched to think GATE could be a continuation of those projects. What if "gate" is a codeword like "Naomi" and "Artichoke"? Has anyone ever tried reaching out to teachers at schools with these programs and asking about them?

>>10790
Honestly I get suckered into this a lot by fear. Just all the unknowns makes stuff like this seem so possible. The astral projection shit is probably a lie. They usually bring back no verifiable information beyond some vague philosophy from the “astral realm” (aka their own imagination). Maybe the out of body experience / remote viewing part of it has something to it but I’m yet to see it be properly tested and people just assume it as real because it’s in some CIA docs. They may very well have been drugged but some people are willing to do whatever they can to make kids stop complaining, plus if this was so infamous on 4Chan and if now that we got a bunch of lolcow users here I think there’s likely many trolls, then again maybe you’re just a psyop who got mind blocked and mind controlled to deny their own experiences because all people who criticize conspiracies are
>>10791
Yeah exactly, it brings in a bunch of people who wanna believe that they discovered some dark secret when really it’s clear they’re trying to make themself feel special for writing fanfics. The Tila Tequilas of the modern world
>>10793
>Highly intelligent and influential people are connected to MKULTRA
Like who? Or is it just an Illuminati/reptilian/NWO thing where every slightly famous person ever is a member?
>Has anyone ever tried reaching out to teachers at schools with these programs and asking about them?
It’s unlikely they’d confirm it, if it was true they’d probably just lie and say no. Even if they’re honest when they say no people will just say they’re lying to save their own asses and keep their seats at the CIA. I wasn’t a gifted kid but I do remember I used to do physical therapy in dimly lit rooms and such where they would my head, I was around elementary-middle school age when this happened so maybe this was similiar?

>>3402
Same, I think it's normal and healthy to not obsess over "who you are" when you're not around other people, as well as to have different "egos" that you present to different groups of people.

i just feel really fucking bland, nothing redeeming of me and i just feel like bore the shit out of people, and sometimes i’m just sitting there like i’m a blank slate who just listens to other people’s conversations

I feel like I have no personality, but I'm self-aware. I can feel my personality starting to shift the longer I spend with others, even if I don't want it to. I feel like a sponge that can't help but soak up other people's selves, and the only way to avoid it is to isolate myself.

>>3228
I deal with psychosis / derealization / depersonalization / disassociation a lot. I don’t have anything mental diagnosed (I have ADHD, autism, and am suspected to have anxiety and depression) but I overall don’t know if I’d describe it as the same experience. It mostly comes about when pondering on existential questions or seeing people who say stuff like that we live in a simulation or thinking about how I have quite a few relatives getting up there in years, it’s more existential anxiety though. I’d say my experience is more of “I exist, but why do I exist? I feel like I’m being crushed and suffocated” and having this sense of tightness in my chest and impending doom. When it comes to if “NPCs” exist I’d say I’m unsure. That comes down to questions about consciousness and such that we haven’t answered, at least not yet. I read somewhere that only a minority of people have a voice in their head (around 20-30%) and I’d say I’m one of them, I have some pretty intense and lengthy internal dialogues. In the advent that something like panpsychism is true that would kinda disprove the whole idea though, at that point even the most simple minded person who barely uses their brain is conscious to some extent

>>10668
I'd need to reformat them to be image board adaptable and they have a lot of pictures. Maybe. It's extremely image heavy and not short.

I was gonna try other sites and try reposting on reddit again on a different IP but mainstream social media seems to be a bad idea.

Trying to post about him on TikTok just with a general "he's a bad person" vague video also led to removal and this was months ago, my vid was up less than 10 mins.

This phenom is ridiculous bc I know big ego jim doesn't have "stans" to be reporting negative content about him like he's chris evans 24/7, he's not conventionally attractive, his fandom was never "cuckoo for cocopuffs crazy", and nobody likes him that much

Not sure if this belongs here but does anyone have any thoughts on the Erin Valenti case? I recently found out about it and BlameItOnJorge did an interesting vid on it.
>She was a tech designer, big into transhumanism and stuff like brain implants
>worked at many tech companies
>was also spreading awareness about human trafficking
>called her parents talking about “being in the matrix” and in a thought experiment game
>went missing, cops didn’t care
>Later found dead
There was a thread on the r/UnResolvedMysteries subreddit which had some explanations. Mainly
>it’s pretty common to be talking like that when you have your first accute manic episode, it’s common for the first to happen in your Early 30s (she was 33), lots of people have seen their loved ones with mania talk like that before getting help
>drugs are apparently common at conferences like the ones she was going to
>No drugs were found in her system but to be fair the police were very half assed with her case, didn’t investigate until long after and deemed it “natural causes”
>it’s likely she did some drug that doesn’t linger in your system and can’t be found or took a small amount
>cops probably half assed the autopsy.
There’s rumors her dog was dead with her too but I’m not sure of that. It’s an interesting case, but I personally think she probably OD’d on some drugs though. Apparently she also had chronic thyroid but I’m not sure if that can be fatal. There are similiar cases like Ray Rivera who said similiar stuff about being in a matrix and a movie called The Game (though his death was similar to the one a character in the movie apparently has so he may have just been trying to recreate it, he was known to be a bit off his rocker so to speak). Erin also apparently was super high energy and if you’ve seen people get high on drugs you would know they’re not exactly in the right state of mind. Apparently she was doing some stuff with brainwaves and went to a conference prior to her death (it’s rumored they talk about simulation theory and related stuff at these conferences). Also if this was a coverup from the govPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Bump because there’s porn below, don’t scroll I hope and pray it’s not CP

>>10635
This was amazing thank you

This site might help you start researching what's available and safe usage: https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/Main_Page

I have a copy of the Spells of Going Forth by Day and it has the hieroglyphs, transliteration and translation out together for each line.

So I read the translation out loud one year and was granted the opportunity to stare at the sun and chant for several hours a day for a month or so. Last year, I read the transliteration out loud. I wonder if something similar is going to happen soon.

So if you're into Egypt, and especially if you're into sun worship, I heartily recommend this:
https://www.amazon.com/Egyptian-Book-Dead-Complete-Papyrus/dp/1945186658/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?crid=2X1KSUB5O78N&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.digEZ7cMhn1FdPOr1MpvnfPhvMuMYiKJnNvFG3buO0mggmR7GwLXPQ9M_oAY0whpbnJFVgfZbYXDHkIYd1gVFuXc_mUWKanY1VfKlKUC1QZX90dnqcHb0yw7TjMaEVPIGooEVaNa52m4kT0miX5Hekk_OkxHJXW2mWcms6VTYqipvLFAncJf5C6__PbjHzwctuuXVomAl-BIXCnEM8V7iA.sQnh9T3n7n_D4DKByxxIrNQ3hxGXdJKNfYNPdHCfBWw&dib_tag=se&keywords=e+a+wallis+budge&qid=1723895915&sprefix=e+a+wall%2Caps%2C239&sr=8-1
This one has no transliteration but pictures of some of the original papyri are there: https://www.amazon.com/Egyptian-Book-Dead-Integrated-Full-Color/dp/1452144389/ref=mp_s_a_1_5?crid=2EGON4C1C8YNE&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.e6k4X6X1CUMAHQEHNp7KulabRzwAB3IFExXkCZ5xE7BXPsHGl0eMSVUbAaUERUhQCEmq2qQSTR2pWL2FwIOouTWUItl7aSZqXHYKuwaxaG-H_UpVSCWO07Kc5Xsd7mO0fVhFBTTMRpsZKumIMwVv2zBAB5zmPCPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

thank you so much nona! I'll bookmark these and look into reading them. Religiously I am celtic pagan but I am interested/use ancient near eastern pagan magick. What were your intentions with the readings?

>>10714
Just scrolling by but man I'd kill for a friend that is a fellow Celtic pagan + browses CC. Wishing you well, Nona.

>>10697
Thanks for the links anon!

>>10732
>eating salt and then being assalted
what do you mean

>>10733
Eating salt and being assalted affects reality anon.