>>6593
I love you miner-sister

I’m planning on jumping off a bridge soon and it all seems quite anticlimactic. My mental health has deteriorated a lot and I am turning into a worse person everyday. I’m physically deteriorating too and I find it more taxing and harder to think and perform certain tasks every day. I feel the window of fulfilment has passed me and I’m becoming a bitter pathological liar and degenerate and honestly I’d rather be dead than continue and facing up would be far too painful for no reward. I don’t know what is to blame, whether it’s myself or something out of my control. I tend to blame myself. I haven’t set an exact date I guess because I’m buying time and I want to have some sort of profound experience before I die but I’m just prolonging all the hurt. I still have a wish for miracles and love and beauty but I don’t think that stuff is for the likes of me, I’m quite soulless and horrible and underserving. I worry about how my suicide will affect my family, my younger sister most of all. She’s only 13 and I know it will scar her for life. Every day I stay I just get deeper in lies and self hatred and being a burden and unable to show up for people or myself. It is quite understated but it runs deep, I wouldn’t wish the desire for death on my worst enemy.

>>6598

>My mental health has deteriorated a lot and I am turning into a worse person everyday.

I've been feeling exactly like this for awhile. I broke off a friendship with a horrible person only to make me start feeling like I'm turning into someone just as horrible. My mental health has been getting increasingly poor, as my thoughts feel like they get increasingly erratic. I came the closest to killing myself than I ever have before, several years ago, but life has been getting only worse since then so I live with regret that I didn't. I hate my friend for talking me out of it and I hate myself for just not doing it then. There's only one single thing I'm looking forward to in life at this point but it's still so far away and I don't how I'll endure. Either way, I know why I will anyway. Since if I failed to kill myself even back then there's no way I could at this point. Not doing it is something I can't turn back from anymore.

>I want to have some sort of profound experience before I die but I’m just prolonging all the hurt.

I'm waiting for my profound experience as well. It's the only reason I'm dragging myself on the floor of life. Not because of friends (Don't really have much of any anymore) or family (They wouldn't care that much and would even unconsciously welcome their release of the burden that is me). I need to accomplish a certain thing I've told myself I would, regardless of anyone or anything else. My stubborness, for better or worse, is the only thing that keeps me alive. I'm like fucking Poppins from It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia - the dog that doesn't die no matter what happens. But I don't care how raggedy I come out as long as I accomplish this goal. It's my meaning to life. If you're still here OP, hopefully you can find and accomplish yours as well. In the end, that is meaning of life. Something that only -you- can truly say was well-lived.


>I’m quite soulless and horrible and underserving.

I am as well. At the very least it's a consolation that there will always be people worse, like pedos, murderers, and rapists. A kind of horrible that it would take actual effort for most people to reach. If you continue practicing cordiality and sympathy you are already far ahead of most people. I hope this helps and thPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

It's funny, every time i have seriously committed to suicide mentally, i get flooded with a warm feeling that makes me not want to do it anymore, like endorphins or something, i'm not sure what it is. Anyway, that is why i think i am not capable of actually doing it. Plus, hearing experiences of people who tried and survived, like jumping off a bridge, they said they instantly regretted it. The thought of hanging and struggling in vain to save to yourself and no one is around to help you, not wanting to die but knowing you are going to and it is final, that's grim. Life is short anyway, why not stick around.

>>7022
Its bringing you comfort and temporary relief from whatever issue lies deeper. Thats whats happening here. Hope this helped

If you have sex with men, you're not using them

>>7027
This.

>>7011
>I don't really feel bad for any of it

Good. Moids are fundamentally scum and you shouldn't feel bad no matter what you do them.

>>6984
Don't be naive.

>>6680
How do you judge whether they are incels?

this has been a topic in radfem discourse for decades but yeah. I'd give u sources but I am going to bed soon so wait until tommorow.

Yeah, moids pretty much enslaved women for all of history, so all major religions had to fit with their agenda. This only applies to the major and organized religions though. You can still be spiritual without subscribing to one of these moid centric cults.

Last night I saw a dream about playing some kind of indie horror game.
It was about a lost princess in the woods in the middle of the night. She had to choose which animal nest to sleep in, or else she’d die from exhaustion. If she slept in the open, the cold wind killed her.
And when she picked one, she had to face a danger particular to that nest after getting her survival level raised a few points, and then escape.
Bear’s nest had an angry mama bear tearing her apart for getting too near her cubs.
Bird’s nest had man-eating chicks.
Beehive had a flesh-rotting fungus.
Anthill had soldier ants.
It was really dark and gruesome game, and now I want to play it. Does a game anything like that exist btw?

I have had the same recurring nightmare ever since I was a child.
I wake up in a foggy old-growth forest and wander around for a while. It is dead silent. Eventually I stumble across an old abandoned mansion and I enter. The Entrance hall looks like Hogwarts', though obviously not taken care of. It smells.
There is a figure standing in at the bottom of the staircase, it looks like a Balrog, or True Ogre from Tekken, something like that.
I'm scared and try to run away or scream, but I'm stuck in place and can't do anything. I'm frozen.
He tells me I deserve to be punished. Then people that I care about -family, friends, etc.- appear in a neat line in front of him. They can't move or talk either. They get brutally killed, torn apart, tortured right there on the spot.
I am still frozen; I can't scream and I can't cry. I'm scared.

Eventually I wake up.

Not the full dream.
I was outside in the same spot everyday, and this girl would pass by and insult me. So every time she passed by, she said "you're so ____." One time, while it was raining, I started to beat her, I pushed her skull into the asphalt until it cracked and stomped on her. Her friends were there forming a circle around us and watching.

Several people tried to break into my house, some entered through the bedroom window, some through the door, I opened the door to leave the bedroom and they were there.
I woke up tired lmao

Weird high school dream.

I was in class, we had to present an essay and a poem written by us. No problem, I did my homework. Teacher asked me to read my essay. I looked at the paper and couldn't read. The letters were blurry.

>>3534
Good example. They spend a life in luxury to disguise their emptiness and secrets.

>>3534
I know a lot of people say this and it's commonly the case in stories but I always felt like this opinion was just a cope from poor people. I know being rich isn't exactly all its cracked up to be, but to say poor people have it better couldn't be further from the truth.
Maybe rich people have their own troubles but they still don't have to worry about how they'll possibly afford bills for the month and that by itself is a much more comfortable life.

Former Buddhist here (family’s religion) and I’ve always doubted the whole karmic retribution thing until I’ve seen what happened to people who wronged me (in this life, current timeline). Mom was extremely abusive and violent towards me and my brother, dies in a car crash. Ex gf who was abusive, triggered my panic attacks, and mocked the people with mental illnesses now has developed anxiety and has panic attacks from time to time. Do you think these are legit examples of karma irl?

I don't rely on karma. If it's worth it I'll try to have my revenge, if it's something petty I'd rather forget it, why waste your energy on dumb shit

>>3447
Yeah. Every carnist is a monster (i.e. like 98% of humans), yet they don't suffer proportionally to the suffering they cause factory farmed animals. I always think of that whenever the absurdity of poverty or unpunished moid behaviour is particularly striking and painful for me - I shouldn't be that surprised, there are greater injustices and their victims are calves.

Psychosis isn’t fun, you little edgelord. >>2426
Yes, i went through a paranoid fit for 3 years when i was 16. Triggered out of no where because of stress and isolation in my developing years i presume. Not a fun time. Still got identity issues because it happened when i was so young.
I have one or two crazy people in my family, but i still haven’t figured out if they’re in narcissistic rage because theyre losing their supply or genuinely going through psychosis

>>2378
Fucking idiot

>>6981
>narcissistic rage
>losing their supply
i can't believe instagram and tiktok self help videos have convinced a generation of people that they have every mental illness in the DSM because they had one or two mildly inconvenient emotions
>>2378
have you bought into the cult of carnism? do you eat animals and their secretions? if so you're already in an insane cult

>>6988
Anon… it’s not “inconvenient” they threaten to kill me and other members, both destroyed our home, both resort to physical violence very quickly and have beaten the shit out of me as a kid. One of them almost killed me. And one is out there abroad looking for putin because she thinks she’s russian and has been stolen from her real family. All this happened while they were in their 30s. I know you wanted this to be a gotcha moment but please shut the fuck up.

OP is this you?

>>5001
This they want to milk this until all the wealth is in the hands of a few and all the poor people are priced out of the traditionally held life styles. They want you enslaved enough to be completely comfortable but also subservient. I recommend a book "Standing at Armageddon" it goes over this. "Brave New World" is another example. Huxley knew Rockefellers and their ilk. Brave New World is what he came up with after many long conversations with them.

>>5460
We have a first world fertility crisis and women are turning to only fans in droves because of this. Moids aren't benefiting from porn at all. They are so starved of any affection to the point they would rather stay home and jerk off to loli cat girls or something stupid that fits a fantasy that is never going to happen like getting a woman pregnant.

>>6993
>>5792
I think it's both. Some people really don't show compassion (moids) and it just goes over their heads that a deranged doofas with about 3000 dollars wanted to kill himself and make an indeterminate number of people just as fucked up. People with children are and easy target to make demented. After Columbine it created this social outcast group that everyone else expects to go postal and the social outcasts venerate. Notice how no shooter kids showed up until health class.

>>6998
wait why would women turn to OF because of the first world fertility crisis? are you suggesting that the crisis is driven by economic issues and so they need OF to make up for their joblessness?

>>6998
your post makes zero sense lmao

>the only month, I didn't get it was the month I was staying in another city
It must be something in the water or the pipes at your house.

>>6896
Plus im not a witch or practicing, so i might fuck it up

>>6894
how do i become a witch?

>>6912
Do LOTS of research, stay off tik tok for the most part and plan for as much as possible before casting any spells.
These youtube channels are pretty good for more 'real' advice, no BS:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCr2zg8t8ZiHEpRVcTd8qnMg
https://www.youtube.com/c/TheWitches%E2%80%99Cauldron/featured
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCefxQCIsaBE5-Of8LF_J-PA
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSt4zlEOgdV0sHlBjrvm1Jg
https://www.youtube.com/c/Witchf%C3%B6%C3%B6t

>>6913
thank you anon. i know it's kind of goofy and everyone warns against it but i'm interested in casting a love spell. has anyone successfully casted one and how would i go about it?

>>6915
A spell to generally attract love? Or a spell to force a particular person to love you?

I strongly advise against the latter.

>>6868
he is probably using the famous MENSA intellectuals forum Crystal.Cafe as we speak.

>>6870
Yeah even if he was born in 1995 he wouldn't remember any of the 90s

>>6869
I can only list two boards where you can trashtalk dubious trannies exclusively with women… so excuuuuuuuuse me!