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The truth isn't schizophrenia.

"Satan has been an omnipresent demon since the beginning of existence.
Satan's real name is Adam.
Satan and Adam, both, of the Bible, are the same person.

I've been fighting Satan for almost a decade straight now. It's 24/7 and nonstop.
Satan started the fight, and Satan won't leave.
So I have no choice but to fight Satan.

Anyone want to help me fight Satan?
Satan is very much real.

Do you have any experience with Satan?
If so, I'd love to hear about it."
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>>11699
>>11700
lolcow probably too cowardly, and greatly fears Satan. Among other things. Like accepting what being abusive really means. Abusers are the most worthless things, in every way. Same goes for murderers and rapists.

>>11701
They don't know what legal self-defense is over there, and they also don't know the significance of it.

>>11687
I think that demons are sexy, as a concept. Hell is too, literally hot. Would heaven be boring? Wouldn't it be more fun to go between heaven and hell? If that's where Earth is, I'd love to come back again. Reincarnated as a worm maybe. Worms are cool. Or a cat. Now that'd be a life… Being an ant sounds terrible though. Sure, you'd get guidance and all, but human kids killing you for fun, that's horrible.

Have you seen the afterlife?

How do you cop with Death?
For the first few days, I don't feel anything because I'm still in denial and that gets me through the removal, wake, funeral etc. Especially if it was someone I didn't see every often. It only hits me when I haven't seen them in a while and I remember they're not coming back. Like when I just want to visit them and I remember I can't. That's really hard. In the case of my pets who I would see every day, it hit me faster than usual. I'd come home and there would be no wagging tail to greet me or I'd see an empty food bowl in the corner of the kitchen and just break the fuck down crying. The thing that ultimately helps me get over the pain is knowing that the person was old and had a good life or if they were sick for a long time, knowing that they'd be in a lot of pain and discomfort right now so passing away peacefully was what they would have preferred.

Have you lost someone close to you?
I've lost grandparents, aunts/uncles and pets but nobody in my immediate family, thankfully.

How do you feel about dying?
I'm not really worried about dying itself because I know everyone has to go through it eventually but I do feel sad that our time on earth is finite. It makes me want to learn as many languages, travel to as many places and watch as many films as I possibly can. I wonder sometimes if I can even do all of that. I always wonder what moments I'll look back on when I'm older and if I have problems walking. Will I be satisfied with what I have achieved? I think I can die peacefully if I am.

Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
I'm not religious. I was raised Catholic so I'm used to telling people that their loved one who passed is "looking down" on them but I don't really believe in this very specific idea of heaven and eternal life and pearly gates. It's too far-fetched to me. I do like to believe that your energy exists elsewhere and some semblance of you is floating around but I'm not going to let someone else tell me what an afterlife is and just blindly believe it. That doesn't bring me comfort.

>>1432
>How do you cop with Death?
I try to learn from the stoics.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABRN0E_mI0U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBwH2iYC-8c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5E2AQKuCyU

>Have you lost someone close to you?
Not really, aunts, uncles and grandparents, but I was never close to any of them.

>How do you feel about dying?
Sometimes indifferent, sometimes I visualize the eternal nothingness and it drives me crazy and force myself to think about something else.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
No, its ridiculous.

>>1432
I nearly died after contemplating suicide. Long story I won’t get in to. The thing that stopped was a sudden conviction that Hell is a real place, and I was about to spend eternity there. I felt myself recoiling from it like one does standing too close to a cliff.
After I got out of the hospital, I was a physical and emotional wreck, and people abandoned me. In that place of absence, I starting looking for the one who showed Hell to me as a warning and saved my life.
I began researching the resurrection of Christ, and I am convinced He is who he said he is.
I’m only less sad now because I know Him a little. I know I have to do His will, even though I’m a fuck up. That’s okay though, Saint Peter was too, in his own way, and he was the one Christ used to build His church. I pray the rosary daily, and I don’t miss mass now. You may not be happy if you convert, but you’ll put the world’s vanity behind you. Peace be with you.

>How do you cope with Death?

Terribly. It's one of my more troubling anxieties.

>Have you lost someone close to you?

Four years ago I lost a dear friend in a traffic accident.

>How do you feel about dying?

Terrified, but I have a strange relationship with death. On the one hand, I love visiting cemeteries and looking at fossils, yet I'm petrified of my own mortality. The closest I've come to it was a suicide attempt last year. Funny how the mind works.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?

I'm neither.

>How do you cope with Death?
Badly, I've had multiple meltdowns over it through the years. Generally I try not to think too hard about it, I'm a pretty pessimistic person too

>Have you lost someone close to you?
I've lost some pets and my grandmother. It was all very hard. I'm scared of people like my sisters or parents dying

>How do you feel about dying?
It is genuinely my greatest fear. The thought of eternity scares the fuck out of me too

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
Not religious, I'd like to believe something happens but truthfully all possibilities scare me and I don't know how to cope. I think most likely nothing happens and that scares me too

>>8710
u could start with the classics like the old testament, bible, torah, koran, kitab i aqdas etc
visit ur local library/bookstore and check out their spiritual section

What do you mean start “as a normie” this isn’t a collective idea that a niche group online possesses. No one knows

>immortal
Good news. You're not immortal. Eventually, you'll die
>start
Just read the bible

Your atoms will be recycled to make another babby, or maybe a tree. And eventually all our atoms will be recycled to make another big bang. You might die but your energy is forever.

Near death experiences and alternative theories of consciousness

Weird near death experience I read. Apparently this person almost died as a baby, their personality completely changed after and they went from upbeat to completely quiet, and now they have weird “psychic powers” like basically mind reading and going to “the other world” where people will warn them of things going wrong. I don’t know how much I believe this is real or if it’s just made up but it sounds like going to this “other world” is similiar to astral projection
https://www.reddit.com/r/NDE/comments/kwnfpq/nde_as_a_toddler_and_now_i_sense_feel_and_see/

No offense but I’m really yet to have any reason to believe Astral Projection is anything other than the brain being overly imaginative in a lucid dream. Why does nobody ask their dead Grandma “Hey where’d you leave the jewelry?” When they AP and always just come back with vague and esoteric philosophy instead of anything verifiable?

Also have any of you heard of Robert Monroe? He was one of the most famous APers and he even worked with the CIA on some docs that have become the subject of many conspiracies. Have any of you tried his methods and what did you think? Apparently he also said Earth was a farm of emotional energy called loosh which was one of the kickstarters for the prison planet theory

Never done it myself but I've read up about it a little bit. Erin Pavlina's a decent one who talks about stuff like negative entities and the more nitty gritty of it all but there are some rumors she's a scammer so I don't know about her fully. Stories I've seen from Reddit, TikTok, and elsewhere seem to go along with it. TikTok I saw a girl who AP'd and met beings who were worried she gonna be trapped where she projected forever and I've seen lots of stories of people meeting strange figures in suits on the astral. Some are good and help them do stuff with energy, others aren't and try to force them back into their bodies. I read a couple of odd experiences where people mentioned fighting with clones of themselves to a stalemate. The AstralProjection subreddit has some interesting stories about it, I recommend looking on the user Unlmtd_Output 's page for some, I also saw some theories that the government is guarding in the Astral which does seem pretty plausible. Could be a prison planet archon deal too but I think it's more likely that some are just negative beings

If astral projection is merely an unconscious variant of remote viewing… then maybe

>>11869
Most people who do AP also do remote viewing. I do think remote viewing is more reliable though but there are many scammers in that field unfortunately

Please bless me with a rhinoplasty soon. I really want one but I can't afford it right now

I would like to get a blessing for my summer work trip, so it would interesting, enjoyable and memorable (and so I would have to eat during it, it is important for as for genetically sick person)

I wish for 4plebs and archive.moe to be permanently taken offline.

Fairy faithful blessings upon all!

i wish to talk to ben again and be happy with him, no matter what it might take. if you bless me, i wish you all the blessings in return :)

i just feel really fucking bland, nothing redeeming of me and i just feel like bore the shit out of people, and sometimes i’m just sitting there like i’m a blank slate who just listens to other people’s conversations

I feel like I have no personality, but I'm self-aware. I can feel my personality starting to shift the longer I spend with others, even if I don't want it to. I feel like a sponge that can't help but soak up other people's selves, and the only way to avoid it is to isolate myself.

>>3228
I deal with psychosis / derealization / depersonalization / disassociation a lot. I don’t have anything mental diagnosed (I have ADHD, autism, and am suspected to have anxiety and depression) but I overall don’t know if I’d describe it as the same experience. It mostly comes about when pondering on existential questions or seeing people who say stuff like that we live in a simulation or thinking about how I have quite a few relatives getting up there in years, it’s more existential anxiety though. I’d say my experience is more of “I exist, but why do I exist? I feel like I’m being crushed and suffocated” and having this sense of tightness in my chest and impending doom. When it comes to if “NPCs” exist I’d say I’m unsure. That comes down to questions about consciousness and such that we haven’t answered, at least not yet. I read somewhere that only a minority of people have a voice in their head (around 20-30%) and I’d say I’m one of them, I have some pretty intense and lengthy internal dialogues. In the advent that something like panpsychism is true that would kinda disprove the whole idea though, at that point even the most simple minded person who barely uses their brain is conscious to some extent

For me it's really, really REALLY weird. Imagine you become a piece of furniture who is completely sentient (a lamp, for example). The people around you are an exaggerated version of humans. They talk too loudly, move too fast, their feelings are so sharp they end up hurting your ears and teeth. The only way to stop this, is either punching yourself or getting completely isolated.

>>3081
i fell asleep after a conversation with my bf asking whether or not he had romantic feelings for me, he said no.

in the dream everything is yellow-tinged in a nostalgic way. i'm wandering around inclined streets with buildings in a 1950s ish new jersey style, but i've never seen them before. the sun is bright. i walk down to a yellow house, but it's open, and there's a little sitting area nearby. there's people milling about, maybe checking out the house. i turn to my boyfriend and ask, if you don't have feelings for me, why are we dating?

i woke up. still don't know the answer. i know what i have to do. i just don't know what i'm waiting for.

i smoked a cigarette in front of a church structure, and 'baal' was connected to it - not the structure itself, just vaguely. i only recall anything at all because an alarm went off when it shouldn't have and woke me up. also some super sickness would spread the world, and one of the safe-havens was Chile. i don't have waking visual memory, so i can never really place everything that happened.
i'm non-spiritual, but i do browse conspiracies without mentally filtering them, so that's probably where the dream comes from in my subconscious. although i have no faith, i like to use imagery representing confidence in the trinity to feel empowered against darkness.
on a related note i'm going to try lucid dreaming again. my method last time was asking myself daily whether or not i was dreaming, so eventually i asked myself whilst in one. i quit trying because i could never stay in them and immediately woke up each time, but maybe it'll be fun a second time around

The other day I was in the bathroom and I overheard a girl talking to her friend about a reoccurring dream she has. In the dream, she is the Virgin but instead of giving birth to the Messiah, she gives birth to the antichrist. It scared me alot and made me very grateful I dont deal with spiritual warfare in my own dreams.

Had a dream Jack Spicer from xiaolin showdown was in hazbin hotel as a sinner, which is like….. Completely in character for him…. Some other spicy stuff happened but i dont wanna get taken down

Don't know if it means anything but as of late I've been having lots of dreams that get weirdly meta. Like dreams where I'm moving through different levels like it's a video game then a new dream starts but I still remember the old one. Or having dreams where I wake up from another dream

>>9626
god these guys were the absolute worst. that was probably the only internet shock video involving not animals that really disturbed me.
i swear you can see how low iq and psychopathic this guy is just by the shape of his tiny beady eyes. what a creep.

>>1937
Am I the only one that thinks one of the toolbox killers look like a reptilian?

>Any anons in the tcc?
I lurk .. to me the tcc is interesting enough as a community to be its own hyperfixation. I'd never admit to knowing about it irl though
>Any outsiders willing to voice their pinions?
I can see why people hate it but I think it's human nature to be curious
>Why is true Crime so popular, especially with the woman audience?
As a previous anon said, women aren't a hive mind. Everyone has their own reason, but if say living in a terrifying violent world can make a person curious about crime
>How do non-Americans feel about the subject
Crime happens everywhere
>Do you have a favorite killer?
I would never tell you
>Who do you think is a handsome killer?
Eh I can see why some ladies are obsessed with Ted Bundy & Richard Ramirez, they are very stereotypically handsome. Once again I will never tell you my own opinion.
>Why would you be attracted to a serial killer?
Unfortunate brain

Israel Keyes is fascinating and scary to me. He's an extremely intelligent psychopath, he hid a bunch of random kill kits all over the U.S. and killed indiscriminately. Despite that, he did seem to love or at the very least have some affection for his daughter.

I’ve been pretty interested in tcc related stuff as of late, but only specifically cases with female perps. Jodi arias, Aileen wuornos, etc.
I find it really interesting to learn about but sometimes it makes me anxious if I look into the cases too much kekw

does this qualify

>>719
As fake as the chimney and shoe pile.

>>11298
If you're still around please tell do tell us more

>>11298
I like her + Anna Greenspan and the whole CCRU thing. I hope you're still around nona