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>>10107
Same. Well mine turned into full blown split personality.

I experienced despersonalization for an entire day once but with flu medication. It was so thrilling I wish I could have it again. I was able to feel like a completely different person, seeing mundane things and situations like it was the first time I experienced them

The closes thing I had was that all my life until the last years or so I had this strange feeling of only living in first person and never thinking of myself as a thing that exist or is perceived, the only thing close to that was continuous deep fear in my bones of accidentally making a mistake and upsetting somebody, like what if my voice slipped and accidentally talked louder than I am supposed to, what if I don't help my parents properly with a thing and I accidentally ruin it, what if I brake something, what if I accidentally say something stupid and I earn a slap to the face so hard my whole cheek feels numb and I don't feel my skin and flesh in that region of the face only bone, looking back at it, I was a bit of a overly melodramatic oversensitive kid

>>10106
Don't be a junkie.

>>10106
I've gotten that, but not from weed. Just from severe trauma and flashbacks.
I spent almost my entire childhood in a dissociative state and then I had a really hard time getting to terms with learning that I wouldn't actually disappear into thin air somehow and had to live in the real world as an actual person who'd have to be an adult and everything…
Maybe I'm too used to dissociating, but I don't think it's all bad, it's only scary if I feel like I can't snap out of it, but that's never really happened to me before, if I couldn't snap out of it it was always because a big part of me just really didn't want to… Or when you're terrified and go completely mute and stuff, it's not that I want to talk, I just want to be left alone so that I can hide under my blanket, hug my plushies and feel safe again.
I got that dissociative empty feeling when I took laughing gas at the dentist, but I wasn't really worried about it, I was just glad that I didn't have to worry about the procedure as much and I felt normal again after the laughing gas effect dissipated. I wouldn't use it recreationally though, because I know that if I really need to dissociate, my body will do that on its own. I just kinda trust in it and hopefully I won't really need to do it and can just be myself and happy as a full person, even if it's hard sometimes.
I think hyperarousal is the worst though… I looked up some things to snap out of it because unlike with a dissociative state, I really can't stand this stress for more than a minute, it just drives me nuts and I really really don't want to wait for it to go away on its own, it sucks so damn much, I'd rather scratch my skin open or hopefully have mints or chilli to eat on hand because that kind of stuff really helps with it

I did LSD, ketamine, 2cb, ritalin, vyvanse, mdma, zolpidem, weed, xanax, pregabalin, and quetiapine.

LSD (idk dosage, used only once) - took longer to kick in than I thought, I was laughing all the time and I had these stereotypical visuals that I always saw on the web, buildings were waving (I was outside most of the time), I saw strange colors, shapes and patterns. Sometimes I dozed off with my eyes open and thought that I was somewhere else. I felt like I had wider vision. Overall I was very happy and energetic but still didn't lost control over the situation. Pretty cool experience.

Ketamine (idk dosage - rather small - 2/3 times) - when I looked down it was like if I was a little taller than I am. I felt somewhat unreal, and like if I was walking on clouds. It also felt like I had wider vision. Cool to chill. Still, the effect was very subtle, but I wouldn't like to try larger doses.

2cb (idk dosage - was too much, used only once) - worst mistake of my life regarding drugs. I took too much and I thought that I would have a heart or an anxiety attack, had to lie down in complete darkness and count the lights on the ceiling to calm myself down and wait till it stops. I wondered if I will have to call an ambulance. Never fucking again, even if I was to try it in a small dosage, also because I'm not interested in this substance at all.

ritalin (methylphenidate) (5-20mg, used quite often) - was working good for a very long time (like a year and a half), finally I could focus, work, and finish every task I either had been given or I wanted to do but could't bring myself to do it before. Enjoyed it very much. Used mainly to do hobbies, learn, and read books. Doesn't really have recreational use to me.
I think that extended release of this drug is better than instant release.

vyvanse (lisdexamfetamine) (~25mg, used often) - same as for ritalin, just works a lot better. Extended release works longer. Preferred over ritalin, makes me a little less irritable.

mdma (idk dosage - probably a little too much, used only once) - I don't remember it that good but I know I wasn't enjoying it. I kinda didn't want to take it but tried it anyway (social setting). I took too much, I was sweating and I was uncomfortably energized. Can't really say much about it since I was negative about it from the start and didn't prepare to do it at all.

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I ate two marijuana cookies once and what I saw and heard made me vow to never touch the stuff ever again. And I know some of you are going to laugh at me and say it's all a LARP but I don't care – this is what happened:

I was watching The Andy Griffith Show when the dope started to kick in. I began to hear this faint singing that I can only liken to the songs humpback whales make, though it was much more beutiful.

The sound gets louder until I close my eyes and SEE these beautiful creatures that look as if they are composed of pure light — dazzling, kaleidoscopic, evincing all the colors of the rainbow and then some. I don't know how, but I sensed that these things were gargantuan in size. They were not even vaguely human, not in form and certainly not in mind — but they were majestic in their immensity as well as horrific in their indifference. It took me a few moments after taking all that in before I realized where I was: I was in the sky, high in the sky – like, the thermosphere at least and these great leviathans of light were there with me seemingly unaware of my presence.

They continued to sing their siren songs as I saw something rise up from the surface of the earth. As it got closer I discerned that it was a group of things – perhaps a flock of birds. By the time I realized what they really were it was too late to warn them. They were people, human souls, and the light-whale things were EATING them. They were sucking these human souls into their gullet as if they were nothing but plankton. As they were vacuumed in I could simultaneously feel the terror of the prey and the savage, ravenous satisfaction of the predators as they fed. It was then that I, too, began to feel myself succumbing to the their gravity, and with all my horror I WILLED myself to return to my body.

There was a painful sensation, almost like whiplash, and I found myself back in my trailer watching Andy Griffith. I was totally sober.

Never again.

>>11276
I believe you , some people have incredible reactions to weed that most don't. I'm glad you made it back to reality.

I love Ketamine! I hope I get my ketamine today :D

I've only done weed, shrooms and acid
Weed was really nice at first, made me feel really giggly and everything seemed funnier so I used to do it while doomscrolling but my tolerance seemed build up extremely quick where after a few months it was basically the same as being drunk which I kinda don't like so I gave it up.
Did shrooms once and didn't really enjoy it. The only thing I've been on where I just felt "drugged"
Acid was fucking incredible, best thing I've ever done and it was still a huge disappointment. I took it for the visuals cause I thought it might help my art, didn't really but the feeling of it, I've never felt as at peace and comfortable in my body as I was on acid. It made doing anything feel nice. It was during the fall and it was kinda cool and crisp outside and I could not explain to you nonas how good the wind felt against my skin. I really want to do acid again, probably do a higher dose since my lack of visuals was most likely from underdosing, a common issue for acid I hear.
Also don't listen to people who say you NEED a tripsitter, I did alone cause extremely asocial and I was fine, I know doing it with someone would've fucked me up. If you don't think you need someone you probably don't.

>>11281
unironically, abandon the devil, join the Catholic Church instead.

Before you get into devil worshipping …I would suggest normie witch craft with all your heart and a money bowl

>>1305
Remember to kiss your local fish boy today and every day until you're no longer breathing.

Reapers, skelies and ghosts! Pic is "Death and the Maiden" by Ahad.

Nona that made this thread I hope you enjoyed this movie too kekeke

I’ve done it before and it succeeded. I wasn’t as precise as picking a specific person just a guy with certain traits I needed (loyalty, loving, dedication etc).
The major barrier to manifestation is your own perception of barriers in life, what I wanted to manifest I knew was logically achievable. The less barriers you have the easier to manifest. Examples:
- you feel too ugly for him, so unconsciously while you try to manifest him wanting you, you got that thread running thru your manifestation. Then it never comes out. You need to debate with yourself how that Asian guy can all of a sudden realise you’re really hot and just his type after spending time with you, coz tbh men can find things you personally find unappealing, super appealing (see every kind of porn imaginable)
- you think you’re too dumb to get PhD acceptance, then you win a chess game and think about getting the PhD again immediately and voila, you got your acceptance letter.

I’m probably never gonna manifest 1 billion dollars because my limitation barrier is too thick, but I’ve manifested $10k in a scholarship (I didn’t even specify it was a scholarship, just earlier that year I needed an extra $10k and then this scholarship popped up months Later, applied for it, and got scored for the $10k one rather than the $15k one). I’m gonna do it again coz for everything with no limitation barrier, it’s worked 3/3 times.

>>11141
I love these stories. I discovered Neville just before the pandemic and I was so sceptic but I tried the ladder experiment and that week I had to climb a ladder, something that I had never done ever! So I kinda believe more, but I guess I'm very limited yet… Any tips?

>>11136
Nothing to beat yourself up over. There's someone for everyone. The probabilities are never 0%. (Realistically at least).
Still ironic coming from me. Despite having a bf, I feel hopeless in regards to everything else.

>>11136
Whatever you do, make sure him having a fetish for your size/race/culture/etc isn't how his attraction manifests. Since you believe these factors make it abnormal for him to be attracted to you, you don't want related subconscious garbage bubbling up into your manifestation and spoiling things.
If you want a long term relationship then factor in how his family would react to you as well.

Antifungal helps unlocking the gunk.
(Like oil of Oregano etc)
Interested in frequency / beats as well.

Yes, but not the gray/green human-like or very intelligent aliens, I believe in another living creatures (like unicellular organisms, or bacteria or ant-like creature) in space or out of the milky way even.

No.

Yes. what do you nonas think about the "underwater aliens" thing?

>>10910
I think aliens are probably real somewhere out there, whether or not they’ve been to Earth is a completely different story. There may be aliens in the water but I saw the Blaire White video about aliens where it was mentioned it could just be that humans aren’t the only evolved species on Earth and I think there’s a good chance of that being the truth. I think NHI/Non Human Intelligence is a better term than aliens

Great thread, interesting topic. The UFO community is basically a fandom anyway.

>>10910
Are you talking about this thread? Underwater alien base?
https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/34629564/
I think it was great and believable.

>>9680
Why do you want to worship the Greek gods?

>>9972
Literally no reason. It's a stupid impulse.

>>9983
Might I suggest just try sending love and appreciation towards a creator God? Or at least not the Greek/Roman gods cause they hate women and all stories are of them being assholes. No need for rituals or anything, just take a moment to send a thanks for life and your blessings and then wish for whatever you want from specific to general sending of help or easing of burdens. I find a personal connection is nicer than the rigid rituals of old and just freely asking for things has gotten them for me. Granted I haven't asked for anything too crazy but they happen from me finding a killer new phone deal the day mine broke (phone I wanted that's not even sold in my country), to consistently catching buses when normally I have shit bus luck now that I pray before leaving, and a freak situation happened which saved me from an ex I was too scared to leave making him leave for me while I kept everything after he'd done stuff to ensure I couldn't have rights to my things.
If you're looking to fill your worship hole and get things honestly I feel praying to the Creator is the best option and on the right track cause shit does happen. I got a friend to try and they're experiencing the same wave of good things and wishes granted so it's not just me being crazy from what I can tell. Meanwhile I know I ranted at Zeus and the others as a small child reading the stories and nothing happened so honestly I think they're a dead end spiritually. Plus they're all dicks

I'm sure you can get creative, seeing how these Gods are no longer a coherent religion, but romanticized relics of the past.

An idea would be to look into what other people who worship a certain god/dess do. If you'd like something handy and quick to orient yourself how to honor a god, here's a fantastic blog that has handy cheat sheet guides how to approach every Olympian god and more minor deities. It's got interesting details but is still concise.

https://screeching-0wl.tumblr.com/post/666952242338856960/hellenic-cheat-sheets

Picrel is an example sheet on Artemis from the same blog. Devotional acts are, I assume, the best way to show worship. Fortunately, this doubles as self-improvement in the name of your god or goddess, so you can't lose even if you abandon your interest in Greek deities. May you pick the most suited patron for what's best in your interest. Best of luck anon!

>>9680
Like half of the Greek gods were Marty Mcfly and he's been sealed into a sonic the hedgehog so you can't really.

You can worship anything sort of, even moon watching can be like worship. People need something to focus on, people worship cable. You should choose your output-inputs wisely if you can.

>>11009
Sarah Boone

>>11009
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Katherine_Knight
Pretty brutal

>>11041
School shooting is just a completely different crime than killing an abusive husband or revenge killing in general. There is almost no reason to do any kind of mass killing in revenge, people who were wronged and want revenge usually just target the specific people who wronged them rather than committing grandiose acts of terror on random people. People who do mass killings have a warped sense of self importance and usually crave some kind of recognition or to rectify their sense of powerlessness. They might claim it’s “revenge” but it’s a totally different mindset than typical revenge killing.

>>11172
I've chewed this over for a couple of days and I'm not sure I can swallow it. Because, on the subject of women who kill:
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC2174580/
>Resnick's review of the world psychiatric literature on maternal filicide (11) found filicidal mothers to have frequent depression, psychosis, prior mental health treatment, and suicidal thoughts. Maternal filicide perpetrators have five major motives: a) in an altruistic filicide, a mother kills her child out of love; she believes death to be in the child's best interest (for example, a suicidal mother may not wish to leave her motherless child to face an intolerable world; or a psychotic mother may believe that she is saving her child from a fate worse than death); b) in an acutely psychotic filicide, a psychotic or delirious mother kills her child without any comprehensible motive (for example, a mother may follow command hallucinations to kill); c) when fatal maltreatment filicide occurs, death is usually not the anticipated outcome; it results from cumulative child abuse, neglect, or Munchausen syndrome by proxy; d) in an unwanted child filicide, a mother thinks of her child as a hindrance; e) the most rare, spouse revenge filicide occurs when a mother kills her child specifically to emotionally harm that child's father.
So, motives for killing an innocent child by the child's mother are:
1. crazy, 2. crazy, 3. incompetent and crazy, 4. very late abortion, and 5. Revenge against someone who is not the child.

Revenge is the rarest of these motives because it occurs in individuals with ordered, organized thoughts and the possibility of well ordered and self organized lives. But it's the single big reason out of all of the intense negative emotions that motherhood, adulthood, or heterosexual relationships bring. Nowhere on this list does "jealousy" appear as a motive for mother-daughter murder even though it is an unfortunately common form of maternal resentment and is also an unfortunately common motive for woman-on-woman homicides (like Homolka getting her bf to murder her sister).

I don't believe revenge is necessarily surgically precise, not even when mothers do it.

>>7814
She just has the sterotypical english "theets"

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stereotypes_of_British_people
TeethAmericans often joke about the British having bad teeth.

That combined with her hair style makes it "creepy" or something.
I bet english moids would be sex craved for her!

>>10414
>Self mutilation
Can't you just see that normally on the open web by going on twitter under the #shtwt tag, like some of those posters there are quite the eyesore, I once saw a women who had raw red meat as breasts, they straight up look like they were cut with the chainsaw I would feel terrible if they didn't suport the modern internet culture so much and most of them participating in witch-hunts as well

fucked in the sense of creepy schizo rabbit holes? Or criminal kind?

IMHO facebook.
Facebook is a shithole, I've seen everything there and sometimes their AI sucks when it comes to reporting shit. I've reported so many things but somehow "this doesn't infringe our community standards", even if its CP with a few red lines drawn on it.

Worse part is that people are usually stupid, so they end up sharing shit screaming "PLEASE TAKE THIS DOWN HELP US TO REPORT" instead of, reporting and not sharing it directly into your feed.

Picosita posting is an example, they just share random links, so they rarely take them down, usually the links are porn or grotesque shit, like people dying, suicides, more porn, bestiality, etc.

>>11067
The only thing weird I stubble on there was that one of 30000 "friends" shared a picture of what seemed to be softcore vaporeon x human

Coolhole.org

bestgore before it shut down