Did the curses start when you moved to a new home? Maybe your home is cursed.

>>8911
this could very much be a plausible explanation. Recently my family moved to a new house c. 2021. My mum believes in spiritual cleansing and saged the entire property before we moved in to get rid of 'bad energies'. in spite of this, moving into this property heightened a lot of the tension between each of us and corresponded with a string of major difficulties in each of our lives, including my dad having a heart attack.
>>8909
Have you ever tried getting a birth chart reading, or gone to a clairvoyant of sorts to seek conformation about this? Perhaps you could try to figure out if there is any astrological or other adjacent phenomena which is related to these incidents and events?

What kind of things are fucking your family over?

Are we talking about 'act of god' events? The type of shit that is absolutely unavoidable? (eg: getting struck by lightning)

Are we talking about things that are totally within your control to prevent? (eg: you can't pay rent because you made a dumb purchase and went overboard with the spending).

Or are we talking about things that are technically mitigatable, but it's easy to take an "it could never happen to me" stance, so you don't really put in the effort to keep yourself safe? (eg: leaving your house unlocked, not having an alarm system, and then calling it 'bad luck' when someone robs you).

Asking because I always considered myself a lucky person.
Then I had a string of really awful, truly unlucky things happen to me.
Then I fell in a rut of blaming everything on bad luck, when something went wrong, and it stopped me from taking accountability for my own actions (eg: staying with a boyfriend who raped me and then acting surprised when he continued to be abusive, because I am an insecure clown).

Not saying you're to blame for your family's shit lol. Not saying your family is 'deserving' of your bad luck at all. I'm really sorry to hear that you guys are dealing with a lot of crap.
The reason I bring up accountability is because in my experience, when things are going bad, it is far more empowering to do what you CAN to mitigate future issues and protect yourself, than to worry about curses and shit. You feel me?
And if you can pinpoint the exact type of bad events in your life to 'acts of god', 'mitigable', and 'within your control', it might help you to gain a sense of power over your situation.
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>>8956

Most recently a car accident that left my mom unable to walk. It happened right after my sister got out of the hospital after being in and out of a coma for 6+ months. My brother had dental surgery at the same time of the accident so now I'm stuck nursing both of them. And this is all just in this month.

For some more realistic ideas, since you mentioned moving into a new house, it could be lead poisoning, carbon monoxide poisoning, or any other kind of chemical that fucks up your health (including your natural immunity) and concentration (hence the accident, bad mood etc.)

>>8843
Okay. My obsession is kind of lessening anyway. It's no longer obsession, more fascination. What do I do with the letter?

>>8849
Burn it, hide it away somewhere. I wrote a moids name on a paper once, folded it and stuffed it between stuffed animals and forgot about it. Not exactly a perfect method, but its kind of like a "set it and forget it" kind of thing. When you dont obsess over things they always come in much easier.

>>8873
Thanks, I already hid it away a week ago

>>8750
>>8750

seconding this

i want to make a moid obsessed with me. i’m already practicing manifestation/LoA but I want something stronger like a spell. i am completely aware of the consequences, i just want someone who is more familiar with witchcraft to guide me as i am having no success so far with finding a spell or ritual that can provide me what i want right now. nonas of /x/ please help me.

Whenever I dream about my dead mom, she's always still alive she just doesn't want to be with me or my family anymore. She lives somewhere else and never visits or answers calls. Sometimes she has a new family entirely. In last night's dream, instead of dying, she somehow faked her death just to get away from having to raise me.

>>8913
Everytime I dream of my family I'm always alone in the old house I grew up in, nobody is there but me catching geckos at night in the backyard. Hardly any lights on in the house. I always go looking for my family but I can't find them.

I sure as hell would not have kids. I really don't blame my mother because she was trapped in it when she had three kids. She was NOT prepared for 3 all at once. Having kids is god awful.

Had a nightmare about a former teacher. Scares he’s going to get me. I’m so convinced he is part of so dark, shadow underbelly side of the world but I have no proof. There is no way his teaching job (actually doesn’t pay that much!) bought him his house. I am 100% convinced he’s an assassin on the dark web.

I fell asleep to someone playing façade & dreamed about it. This person I was watching was flirting with Grace a lot so I also flirted with Grace in my dream, but Trip got too furious & punched my face. I can't remember my dream much after that other than I also contaminated a city's water with my period blood, so there was a huge stream of red period water.

All I know is that if I dreamt it before then I probably dreamt it again. - -

Yeah there's some guy at work who gives me evil vibes, like maybe he's a narc. I don't like it when he looks at me, I think he was looking at me from across the building, from the shadows kek. What a weirdo.

>>8950
have you interacted with him directly?

>>8951
No, also kek I forgot to mention the first time I saw him he was cursing under his breath because an old lady was in his way. He sounded scary.

Not a 'dark energy' per se. But I've definitely met a handful of people who just skeeve me out really bad, and nobody else seems to see it. Like - I don't think these people are any real threat, but they come across as so absurdly dishonest and fake that it raises my hackles nonetheless.

> A little too agreeable
> Compliments you a little too earnestly or too frequently , despite not knowing you well enough to make those comments in the first place
> Uses use a lot of 'nothing-talk' to fill the gap and pretend they're conversing with you. So you're the only one actually saying anything of note. It's like they're trying to collect information on you, without actually wanting to build any equal rapport. It's not an equivalent exchange.
> Uses a lot of unnecessary disclaimers (eg: 'most people' or 'sometimes' or 'so I've been led to believe') when it's not necessary. It comes across like they're trying to always think of their exit strategy in case you don't like what they said.
> Every natural gesture seems oddly choreographed

Honourable mention:
> People who tell you all about the evil people in their lives who hurt them, and try to pretend like they were an angel even though it's obvious from context clues that they're hiding a lot of information. This is especially bad if they're obviously trying to connect with you and be 'on your level' over something genuinely traumatic that you've experienced for yourself.

In short, people who try too hard to make you like them, but are obviously thoroughly dishonest about their approach.

It's likely just a self-preservation technique for people who feel anxious in social situations, but by god, it skeeves me out. It's normal to be self-conscious at times, and it's normal to adjust ourselves a little bit to blend in with a group. But when taken too far, you don't come across like a person - you come across like a fucking skinwalker lmao.

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>>8955
Inauthenticity is a huge indicator of malicious energy honestly. I always knew something was off about this girl I knew in high school, idk if I would qualify for as dark energy per se.
She definitely did the “choreographed response” thing you mentioned. I’d often hear her having the exact same conversation with someone else that she had with me and it was almost word-for-word the same.
I guess she had this desire to impress everyone and signal that she’s intelligent, when in actuality, she isn’t.
This highschool was well-known for its academics, because everyone was extremely competent and she wasn’t (it was obvious she was just there because her grandparents are rich) she would make a lot of effort into trying to make herself more relatable?
She would always LARP as poor and it was really irritating and she would often tell fake stories about her childhood to evoke sympathy from others.
a couple of times, she faked panic attacks to get out of exams. This entailed her staring blankly at the table for 10 minutes until she could squeeze out a single tear (she didn’t want to take responsibility for being unprepared)
she started going around telling everyone that she has BPD (which was an obvious lie because no ethnical psychiatrist would diagnose her with that at 16) during the final year of highschool.
Currently, she’s dating this younger guy who she claims is “emotionally manipulating” her (it’s most likely the other way around)

>>8971
I think it’s because there is a dream journal thread already at >>3081

>>8883
had to what?

>>7995
wow, i didn't expect to actually recognize the url. but my only relation to her was reading her already years-old callout found while stalking my mutuals' blogs.

>>8884
had to make my Instagram private and change my usernames on all my social medias because I was afraid he would find my real name and continue to stalk me

>>2191
Orsted

>>2178
Woman around my age who was very into reincarnation (partly typical New Age simplified mix, party her own “experiences”). We met through some shared interest (not esoteric-related). She began to reveal more about her past lives and how she was some famous people or involved with others like that. She also claimed I’m her lost sister from some other dimension and we have some time powers and shit. She wanted to know who I was in my past life. Sometimes she would share videos on her socials how she or her foreign friend contact spirits (aka doing silly faces and talking with weirdly changed voice).

I don't know what kind of sentence she should have gotten but I do think she has some culpability. Looks like she got involuntary manslaughter and 15 months, I think that's quite fair. That's the minimum any bully should get when one of their victims kills themselves and that's exactly what she was.

>>5490
I wouldn’t classify her as a bully honestly, she was a disturbed teenager— they both were and i don’t think she thought far ahead about the consequences probably having a fried low empathy young brain she did. Sometimes people who are at their lowest are joined at the wrong time and place and shit like this happens

>>2042
Absolutely guilty.
I've been suicidal enough to know that you aren't 'you' anymore when you're like that. You're on the backburner, while your depression drives the meat mecha.
In that state, you are incredibly susceptible to bullshit.

The idea that a person might not be guilty of a crime after convincing a mentally-unwell and vulnerable person to end their life is insane.

I get that some of you whores have rough lives and you wanna take it out on the people who hurt you (honestly, fair enough. There are people I'd like to strangle, myself). But let's not pretend it's ok to do shit like this to someone who never did you harm.

Nah not guilty, both were retarded teenagers and wasn't he suicide baiting constantly and she told him to just get it over with? Shit like that happens everyday, it's just that this time the person actually did it.

>>8961
I agree

>Blue eyes (hazel seems equally common)
Yes

>Occipital Bun (aka math bump on the the back of the skull = Neanderthal trait)
No

>Birth Complications (like weeks early or not breathing)
No

>Near Death Experiences (especially drowning)
Yes, I had a girl try to drown me when I was 8, it didn't stop until my mom finally pulled her off of me

>lack of memory of TAG (we all did many many hours there, and it's very vague)
What is TAG?

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>>3230
At my school a kid had an IQ of 109 and was in the gifted program.

>>3387
I know it means nothing, it's just fun to see the similarities

>>1578
How did you manage to get into a gifted class in school with this kind of crap?
>Blue eyes
>Dunno about the bun
>Nope
>Yup. Nearly drowned as a kid. But was already in those classes at the time, IIRC.
>Yeah, but that's not unusual. My whole childhood is like that.
>Nope
>Nope. Been creeped on, because pretty. But not followed.
>Dunno. Never tested it. Not dumb enough to try.
>Dunno
>Yup
>Nope. Did drugs in my 20s. Most 20yos do.
> Nope
>nope
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For some forsaken reason, sex?
I feel like, if my innocence was just defiled, all that I was would be lost.
Even depictions of physicality in media such as kissing is too much.

Being cheated on for this specific reason.

I judge women who are cheated on. No, not for “not doing enough for their man” or comparing them to the other woman. I judge them for dating men who are outwardly misogynistic and who I can clearly see (intuition?) are cheaters. To me, it’s so obvious that I wonder how they can not see it. Because of all of this judgement I’ve passed, I’m afraid that I will one day be cheated on for taking a chance on one of these guys I think cheat. I would say 95% of the guys I see fall into this category but I don’t believe 95% or men cheat. But I also believe that’s because they don’t have the opportunity or means to.

Going outside. No, really… I used to think that if I went outside people would attack/harrass/kill me. I don't think that people will kill me anymore but I still have severe anxiety.

>>8937
I hate driving I live in Auckland in New Zealand (basically Australia for you Americans) drive a couple of lines about the limit and get pulled over.
Sleezy late 30s early 40s indian police man licks his lips looks at my chest and crotch area says "Im gonna have to ticket you" seriously creepy, think he wanted me to suck him off or something so gross. Indians and police here a scummy and misoginistic.

Megalophobia. The fear of large objects.
Specifically, anything that feels 'alive' and 'looming' really triggers the phobia. Ships are particularly frightening.
I think pareidolia and personification of an object plays a big part in whether a thing is frightening. Ships seem to have a 'face', so they come across like giant predators in my mind. However, if I walked into my dining room and saw a cartoonishly huge chair sitting at the table, I'd probably be sick. Because the "how the fuck did you get here?" would kind of 'personify' the thing in my mind. Like it's some kind of ambush predator.
Idk, it's so stupid. I know it's a well-known phobia, but I'd like to know if anyone else can relate to my reasoning behind it?

>>8030
What kind of meat would you want to be made into? Sausage links, hamburger, etc?

edgy shit:
I used to be very careless with my health. I would stand up just to immediately faint, and sob… It was a terrible feeling to be so incapable, but I could see myself as an external observer and how attractive it was from the outside.
There's someone I love, and he's already very weak, but I want to see him become weaker. I want to swap sides, I want him on the edge of death, where I was.
I'll never speak to him, I embarrass myself so badly whenever I speak. I wish I had him alone, just watching him slowly fade.

>>8054
I got strangled once and passed out and it was lowkey fun, it wasn't sexual at all

i have an intense fear of losing my teeth and i some how represed it into something sexual and have fantasies of having my teeth being pulled out by a guy, its certainly intensified over time to different fantasies of being chopped up or killed during sex

It seems like every day there’s another mass shooting or mass killing in the US. I keep thinking that I wish it would happen to me. I want to die so bad but I don’t think I could ever kill myself. If while I was at work or walking around outside and someone shot and killed me out of nowhere I’d be thankful.