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>>11070
>he tried to shock/exposure therapy by putting it in my bed which was a surpressed memory from 5-20
sorry nona but this sounds funny as fuck

>>10203
Yeah I’m with you, that great unknown of whatever is after we die is enough to scare me away from ever killing myself at least. When I see big numbers it also causes me to spiral into that existential fear and any idea of the afterlife or lack thereof is scary to me and makes me want to meltdown honestly

spiders

had one crawl into my hair as an 11 year old. it crawled off my head and onto my bedroom floor and i just cried and cried and cried. now i dont even play minecraft on anything but peaceful. sometimes i get over it, but then i get “emotionally taxed” and it comes back full swing.

fucking hate that shit.

Walking on sandy beaches barefoot.

Ever since I was little I had this fear that there are knives or needles hidden under the sand's surface… I just can't get over that thought. I hate sand anyway, touching it makes me cry.

Big things. Even just pictures of big things, especially when they are next to something smaller like a picture of a person.

probably a pedo image website disguised as another instagram. it was like the pedo pinterest. reading the comments made me gag. the amount of creepshots made me never want to go outside again. and the amount of kids being posted by the men they were supposed to trust in their life made me distrust every male family member. some of them were just children being posted on social media and it made me hate any parent who acknowledges that people like this exist and they just don’t care and continue to post their kids on social media

>>10414
>Self mutilation
Can't you just see that normally on the open web by going on twitter under the #shtwt tag, like some of those posters there are quite the eyesore, I once saw a women who had raw red meat as breasts, they straight up look like they were cut with the chainsaw I would feel terrible if they didn't suport the modern internet culture so much and most of them participating in witch-hunts as well

fucked in the sense of creepy schizo rabbit holes? Or criminal kind?

IMHO facebook.
Facebook is a shithole, I've seen everything there and sometimes their AI sucks when it comes to reporting shit. I've reported so many things but somehow "this doesn't infringe our community standards", even if its CP with a few red lines drawn on it.

Worse part is that people are usually stupid, so they end up sharing shit screaming "PLEASE TAKE THIS DOWN HELP US TO REPORT" instead of, reporting and not sharing it directly into your feed.

Picosita posting is an example, they just share random links, so they rarely take them down, usually the links are porn or grotesque shit, like people dying, suicides, more porn, bestiality, etc.

>>11067
The only thing weird I stubble on there was that one of 30000 "friends" shared a picture of what seemed to be softcore vaporeon x human

Coolhole.org

A close friend of mine had a huge breakup that ended with a sex video of her being released in college. I supported her through it but secretly I kept the video for months to masturbate to. I finally erased it all in a moment of clarity but I regret doing that so much

I used to swear a lot when I was young

Damn you are fucked up I have never done anything bad

>>4763
I physically abused my sister growing up

used to lie excessively and spread rumors as teenager

I’ve done it before and it succeeded. I wasn’t as precise as picking a specific person just a guy with certain traits I needed (loyalty, loving, dedication etc).
The major barrier to manifestation is your own perception of barriers in life, what I wanted to manifest I knew was logically achievable. The less barriers you have the easier to manifest. Examples:
- you feel too ugly for him, so unconsciously while you try to manifest him wanting you, you got that thread running thru your manifestation. Then it never comes out. You need to debate with yourself how that Asian guy can all of a sudden realise you’re really hot and just his type after spending time with you, coz tbh men can find things you personally find unappealing, super appealing (see every kind of porn imaginable)
- you think you’re too dumb to get PhD acceptance, then you win a chess game and think about getting the PhD again immediately and voila, you got your acceptance letter.

I’m probably never gonna manifest 1 billion dollars because my limitation barrier is too thick, but I’ve manifested $10k in a scholarship (I didn’t even specify it was a scholarship, just earlier that year I needed an extra $10k and then this scholarship popped up months Later, applied for it, and got scored for the $10k one rather than the $15k one). I’m gonna do it again coz for everything with no limitation barrier, it’s worked 3/3 times.

>>11141
I love these stories. I discovered Neville just before the pandemic and I was so sceptic but I tried the ladder experiment and that week I had to climb a ladder, something that I had never done ever! So I kinda believe more, but I guess I'm very limited yet… Any tips?

>>11039
Your reading: Futility, Love, The High Priestess, Knight of Wands, Wealth, Ruin.

Futility is pretty self explanatory. The card depicts a large sword identified with the sun, beset by three swords on both sides. The swords are identified with the planets, and both sets of three are equal to the center is every measure. You need a miracle to overcome the odds. Love is love in its simplest and purest form. Not just love between two people, but the divine masculine and feminine in perfect harmony. The High Priestess is a guardian of sorts, or a keeper on knowledge. She is one of the most feminine cards of the majors, and this leads to her naturally intuitive nature. You could say she represents nuit, or an intuitive experiential knowledge that is the object of all occult practice. She sits on the threshold of the abyss. The Knight of Wands is the fiery aspect of fire. He IS action. Both the impulse and the process, very masculine as well. Wealth is the most auspicious card, and considered the last card of the tarot. It represents an abundant wealth of something. It could either represent the full completion of the work (whatever it may be you have working towards) and all that results from it, or it could just be a wealth of something in general. Such wealth is great, and must be spent wisely or else it will cease to be. Ruin is not as bad as it seems. It represents pure reason with no emotions. Eventually, the mind unchained will consume itself, but in this not all is lost. The body remains, and the two can still be reconnected.

So I didn't even read 'with' when I read and asked you questions but thankfully the cards got it for me. So TL;DR, the pairing of futility and love are obvious, I won't spell it out for you. The next three cards are not so simple. I drew a clarifier for the High Priestess, and I'm afraid there is going to have to be another sexual analogy. So basically, the Knight of Wands is impregnating the High Priestess and the result is Wealth. The clarifier is virtue, which is the Three of Wands. The number three is the number of understanding. So I would say act on your intuitions, but be careful not to act too rashly. One of the pitfalls of the Knight is that he is incapable of deviating from his path, and it may lead him to ruin. The Knight of Wands could also be representative of a person, and since the Knight is surrounded by opposPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>11040
Your reading: King of Swords, The Empress, Page of Cups, Knight of Pentacles, Knight of Cups, The Devil.

The King of Swords is the most intellectual card of the court. He has little on his mind, and what is there he as conscious control over. He is wise, capable, but manipulative. He walks the razors edge between power for power's sake and for the sake of his kingdom. The Empress is the card of the divine mother. She is the feminine counterpart to the Emperor, she represents abundance and creation, and all of the aspects of feminine energy. The Page of Cups, like most of the other pages, is transfixed by his cup, and the fish within. The fish inside the cup is looking back into the eyes of the page. He is captured by his emotions, and he observed and studies them closely. A procession of knights follows him, one of earth and one of water. These knights represent a fulfillment of your desire, they bring the material and emotional aspects of your relationship. The Devil in this case represents your fear. I pulled a clarifier for this one (Five of Pentacles) and to me the devil is chaining you to the fear of rejection or perhaps a fear that what you seek lies elsewhere.

TL;DR, I think you should just go for it. The King of Swords and the Empress bid you to consider both your mind and your intuition. The Page of Cups is you, I think the fish in the cup is your nigel. The knights represent what you want and stand to gain from the relationship. The Devil holds a torch, the flame of love that you seek. You must take it from him if you want you dream to be realized. I have someone I'm obsessed with too nona, so I'm rooting for you.

Dunno if you're still taking requests: Should i step away from this friend group, or am i being hasty based on minor discomfort? Deck 1 please! And thank you.

will i ever move to my desired country? will my career plans work out there? deck 2 plz

2 readings for 2 separate questions (if you are still doing readings):

1 (deck 1): Will I be happy in my career path? Or should I fall back on the other one?

2. (Deck 2) Will my husband cheat/die/have a mental breakdown in the future and ruin our marriage?

>>11032
Yes I used AI to help write this. My grammar and writing skills aren't the best. I read my post and totally agree with it

>>11033
What a weakling, you should embrace your typing autism like who cares at the end of the day

>>8859
A lot of women are allergic to caffeine and never know it since it doesn't kill you, it turns you into a neurotic mess that gets diagnosed as something else.

I've bough several microdosing packs of magic truffles and I've decided that I will start tomorrow. I wish I had the money to invest on micology as a serious hobby but I'm grateful to have the possibility to dip my toes on it before spending larger amounts of money. I've never taken meds or bc because I'm a little bit skeptical of the whole thing (irl friends and anons bad experiences have shaped my opinion on that matter) so I'm willing to take the mico route to boost a bit my productivity. I wish I'll have some time during late december to trip on a larger dose of truffles because I miss acid.

bought a "polkadot" chocolate bar from a headshop. it advertises itself as a shroom edible but it actually has 4-aco-dmt in it lol. it was kinda cool but then i gotta crazy nauseous towards the end of the trip. i doubt it was the dmt entirely that made me sick, probably whatever other filler shit they put in those bars. if i had to guess amanita and delta 8 thc or something.

i think i will stick with acid, i just hate how long it lasts.

went to the beach alone it was so foggy i sat alone took so many hits i can hardly remember.
>stared at the ocean thought of my love and i started to cry as i ate my berries while slowdive came on

>>10901
How does one recognize it and how exactly is it different for women? I do believe that's possible since most studies are restricted to using moid groups only but I don't exactly get how caffeine acts differently in the female body.

>>8984
Haro evurinyan, hou aru you?
Fai, sankyu!

Ai wish ai waa a bardo.

If you can see a spirit, it's someone who hasn't fully moved on from their worldly attachments!
If you fully move on and rejoin the All, you lose your individuality for a bit .. to be one with Everything.
A spirit with a full body is held back by something.

>>10403
>lose your individuality
on my way

Spirits are formless. They don't "look" like anything because they are beyond the field of vision. If you are to imagine a spirit, imagine a thin layer of silk spread evenly over the entirety of space time. Spirits exist everywhere at all times. They're neither here nor there. Spirits are immaterial; they aren't tied to the physical realm. Your mother was right in that spirits appear like bodies of water; meaning, like liquids, they take the shape of the containers that hold them. When there is no containers, they overflow across the material realm. Spirits can appropriate the forms that they have seen in life, but those are like crass impersonations and don't hold weight. In your mind, imagine a great big ocean, but the ocean has no borders nor landmasses, it's just endless water. Now imagine all that has existed and all that will exist is held within the confines of that ocean. That is what the spirit is.

I always imagined them as just light orbs that can take on any shape or form they desire. Unless there is some kind of metaphysical gender for them but I doubt it

>>8999
Karlyn Borysenko in picrel vibes, new age/new thought is so weird. And kinda nihilistic when you really get into it.

>>9018
Mormons and new agers/thoughters believe you do because pre-birth/post-death you’re infinitely smarter and do it for a higher spiritual purpose. It walks a line between “ok that kinda makes sense” and spiritual bypassing, idk if I believe it cuz there’s so many NDEs that say its true and technically any finite suffering doesn’t mean anything for an eternal existence, I hope it’s not true though, it’s so nihilistic.

>>10528
You can just say you think they’re omnipresent, sounds a lot like Nirvana is what you’re describing imo