How to make a deal with the devil? Anonymous 11281[Reply]
>inb4 therapy and take ur meds/kys
I know some people may be against it, but on my case I'm desperate and I've thought about it since I'm a kid.
The only 2 things that I want is, diligence and stop being in a frozen state due to mental health issues/trauma. Unfortunately tho, diligence is a virtue and not a sin, but since I'm an illustrator and I draw for people indulgence, doesn't that make it a sin at the same time?
The internet is an easy way to get some following, so in that sense if I can attract people to the things, in a way is a form of paying my debt a bit along with my soul but i feel/think that my soul has no value, since I have no family, I live alone, I was CSA and did CSAM from 5's to 9's, suffered isolation at kinder till high school, parents and brother were physically and emotionally abusive with me for like 2 decades and had no friends until recently in real life whom are like 2 fellas, I'm single and of course mentally ill, so I wonder if the devil would be interested in someone that suffered so much and has no love/people around but got the talent enough to attract thousands with art, which if I do I can earn lots of money if I do it constantly so that's kind of a sin too in some sort of sense.
I don't want romantic love, I want to stop being a schizoid bitch and do my job, get fame and bucks but seeing how my life was before I don't think the devil wants something to do with me, I don't know if tortured people are something attractive for demons or the devil to make pacts with.
I always wonder what did I do in the other life to go through so much shit, and I wonder if I'll ever get paid back the good things I deserve since I went through this.
Does the devil like people that haven't sin themselves but went through the sins others did on them? How comes life let the abusers live at peace but the children that suffered won't be able to live without having the sins of others over their shoulders?
Am I worth it for the devil? Or I just got nothing to offer at all?
Anonymous 11284
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>>11281unironically, abandon the devil, join the Catholic Church instead.
Anonymous 11285
Before you get into devil worshipping …I would suggest normie witch craft with all your heart and a money bowl