Me and my current bf of 2 years fight a lot. Mostly I get hurt by something he said and then I cry for hours and act real passive-aggressively or openly disrespectfully or bitchy because I don't know how to communicate better.
He says he'd never leave me and that I'm his reason to live. He's very autistic and adorable, but doesn't have many friends because he's afraid of emotional intimacy. We've talked about this and I promised him I'll fix it, because it makes me feel pretty shitty too.
In our first year of being in love, we resolved everything constructively and peacefully, but ever since march of 2020, my mental state has been detiriorating and him being recruited for mandatory military service isn't doing any of us a favour. I know it doesn't seem that bad but I feel like shit about it. Nothing worse than hurting a person you love so much.
I've been trying to fix it but today I really dun hurt both him and me. :c