>>3891
i think a lot of what he says is bullshit but the videos are mostly enjoyable

>>3892
it could all very well be, i had no idea interrogation videos like that were obtainable like that, he's got a nice voice

>>3605
Any good psychology youtubers?

>>3929
>jordan peterson
>sapolsky
peterson is an insane quack, sapolsky shills for troonery using crap neuroendocrinological claims. neither have any integrity, both have an agenda that either intentionally or unintentionally seeks to denigrate women through "science". peterson is the bigger quack of the two, however. jbp is a complete clown.

>>3930
Why is Peterson a clown? I keep digging to find anything he says that denigrates women and I can't seem to find it. I'm told it's there, but I've yet to see it.

>>1074
Which of the stories are you replying to?

Has anyone watched the now-cancelled Channel Zero on Syfy?
It's a TV show based on creepypastas, one pasta per season.

>Candle Cove
>Nowhere House
>Butcher's Block (originally Search and Rescue Woods)
>The Dream Door (originally Hidden Door)

>>1338
That was cute. Lizzie got BTFO'd

Hwo to make Jeff the Killer as a clay sculpture: https://youtu.be/pnyb_URzbsA

>>3580
Kek like I said I don't get sleep paralysis very often so I'm not sure how this works. I've maybe experienced it 3 or 4 times in my lifetime and each time, my sleep-addled brain's first response was
>fuck this shit I'm going back to sleep
I think it might have something to do with the fact that I experimented a lot with lucid dreaming in the past. I guess all those years I spent obsessively cataloguing dream signs weren't a total waste; at least I won't panic when freaky shit happens :')

I've only ever experienced it 3 times, two fairly recently (Within the last 3 months).
The first time was when I was a kid, purely visual hallucinations, there were masks of all different sizes and colors nailed up covering the wall, smiling and making faces at me. They were super shadowy and difficult to see well.

Second time, lasted for a really short time, spent the whole time actively struggling to escape to no avail. Saw a shadowy figure in the corner of the room, and heard chainsaw noises drawing nearer and nearer to me from the back room.

Third time, I think it morphed from a dream- there was this weird alieny merman looking dude on the bed next to me. I turned around to be the little spoon, and then I was locked in place and the paralysis started. The alien guy was kissing the back of my neck and doing horrid ASMR whispering in my ear while I was paralyzed. I got out of the paralysis, and my eyes were already legit open, it was so surreal to turn back around in bed and have the bizarre creature man be gone. It felt so real, gives me the chills just writing about it.

>>3601
this makes sense. instead of panicking more and feeding into the fear of the situation you somehow let go and let your attention drift off again. by instinctively not fighting the sleep paralysis, you're able to fall back asleep and can wake up normally again

I get it pretty often, but I know it happens whenever I have a bad sleep schedule. As in, I go to sleep really late. I had one last night, I felt like some weird cat like thing was knawing on my hand. Usually tho, I feel like only my eyes can open and I simply cant move. If I try to yell, nothing comes out. What I usually do is "attempt" to twist my head. Even though I know it wont move, it's just instinctive, and eventually I wake up. Problem is, if I try to go back to sleep, it often happens again. If prevention doesnt work, after I wake up from sleep paralysis, I try to fully wake up my brain by moving around or getting up, then try to go back to sleep. Kinda like a soft reset. That or I just try to go back to real sleep while in sleep paralysis, but that's usually annoying.

I've had it four times. I'd really rather not discuss it since I'm afraid making active efforts to recall those situations will make it happen tonight, much like lucid dreams, but tbh it's sort of cool so I want to share anyway.

The way it happens I "wake up" while it's still dark. I open my eyes and look around the room idly for a bit and then something catches my eye. It's the same person each time, a woman standing just around the corner, her face directly towards me, but she's positioned in a way the wall/closet/whatever hides most of her face. I can see her eyewhite but the pupil is hidden by the object she's behind.

I have some sort of awareness that she's holding an axe. She's not trying to hide it from me or anything, she just happens to hold it a way I can't see it properly, sometimes I catch part of the handle if I can make it out in the dark. She never moves, I don't think she blinks, she just stands there with her axe.

In the moment it's happening I can't recall the previous occurrences and I don't even know I'm paralyzed, I just stay still and stare at the part of her face that's visible. I feel sick and derealized and can't seem to bring myself to even try to do anything but look at her and wait. Eventually I fall back asleep or snap awake properly.

My sleep paralysis demon is 45-50 years old, dark hair in a ponytail, wears a shabby windbreaker. I mistook it for my stepmom the first time due to the vaguely similar hairstyle and since we were at the cottage with just her, my father and me. I fell asleep instead of seeing it disappear so I was very worried in the morning. But when I saw my stepmom again I realized it couldn't have been her.

It felt 100% real and the memories are exactly as real as the memories of having seen any other person. I would've been convinced it really happened if I didn't happen to have gone through a lucid dreaming phase recently and wasn't aware of sleep paralysis. I wonder if the lucid dreaming shit is what triggered it. I sort of want to try again but those dreams started getting very scary and out of control towards the end of it, and honestly, axe lady makes me uncomfortable even if she hasn't really done anything so far

>>3559
Is it hedonistic to realize that our lives are just a passing blip in the universe and so nothing really matters? If all your desperate prayers aren't reaching anyone and you know this, why do you cling to it? Do something else.

>>3560
>Is it hedonistic to realize that our lives are just a passing blip in the universe and so nothing really matters?
No, that's nihilism, which, if after accepting this point, you jump to
>Why does life need a purpose besides doing whatever things feel enjoyable? I
Then it becomes hedonism.
>If all your desperate prayers aren't reaching anyone and you know this, why do you cling to it?
For the record I'm not OP. Seeking spiritual relief is for people who are both tired of nihilism and hedonism most of the time.

OP here, again.
>>3561
>>3560
>>3558
>>3559
Thanks a lot for your responses. Let's just say I am already a nihilist but it doesn't bring me much joy… like life in total haha. Don't get me wrong, I do cool stuff in my free time but these are all just distractions from life's daily suffering. I don't care that there's no afterlife, the trade-offs of being alive are just not viable. Work 8+ hours a day for what? Some enjoyable yet meaningless activities? Micro managing life is such a bitch, it's not worth it. The only reason not to kill myself out of philosophical conviction is that firearms are hard to come in my country and any other method is unsafe.

>>3563
Nihilism isn't supposed to bring a form of happiness, if you thought it was supposed to you're severely mistaken.

>>3564
I know, it's just a relief from the burden of """sin""" and other metaphysical burdens.

I manipulated and used someone and was gonna leech energy off them as well. It was this guy who I thought was quite pathetic and a "loser". They have a sad life as an unemployed pothead and they were fairly easy to manipulate. It fell apart in the end though, as I didn't really want to do that to someone. I simply was acting out unconsciously due to anger and hatred from having had that done to me in the past by a similar person to the guy I was doing that to(they were not a pothead though) and I was not aware of how bad the emotional damage was that had been done to me nor how angry and hurt I felt from it. Thankfully this guy I saw is okay and I did no real harm, as the other person did to me, as I stopped very soon in. I'm not really a narcissist but was acting that way due to my unresolved shadow, but this person I dated in the past does have a lot of those narcissistic traits and caused me a lot of harm. I did not know they were a narcissistic when I dated them, as they have another condition which is said to be confused for narcissism (the pothead guy also has this condition) and that the two cannot go together but in his case, they did.

>>3464
>unresolved shadow
What does it mean?

- Stole a bunch of people's keyrings from off their backpacks in 1st grade (got caught)
- Spent an unsettling number of hours torturing Norns in the 'Creatures' games
- Stalked someone for years until he told me to stop
- Wrote cringy DDLG abuse fanfic and drew furry porn
- Had an acute psychotic episode, while in ambulance started masturbating and told my mother I wanted to kill her (I have no memory of this, she told me afterwards, and the thought of doing it horrifies me)
- Cyberbullied transgender people
- Seriously considered committing a political assassination

That's about it O_____O

>>3531
>Spent an unsettling number of hours torturing Norns in the 'Creatures' games

Anon, are you anti-norn?

Anon, are you the fucking source of the norm abuse controversy a few years back?

>>3555
No, but I downloaded Norns from his website (cringe I know.) I-I'm not that evil!

>>1611
Like >>3230 says I think one of the things you realise as you get older is like, IQ 135 or IQ 140 or whatever, it's above average top 2% or 1% or something but as an advantage that rapidly deteriorates once you get into competitive streams. If you're working as a scientist or analyst or something you aren't competing with the 98% who are less intelligent than you, because they never made it here or even wanted to come in this direction in the first place. You're mostly with peers, and the truly gifted (the top 0.001% or something) are the ones who stand out.

You ARE special in primary school, in that out of a cohort of 30 or 50 kids you might be the smartest. But our whole system is built to stream that so in high school maybe you're one of the 10 smartest, and then in uni because you probably pick a smart person's course you're top 50%, and if you do well and go into the field you're just average.

I was also 'gifted' and my main lingering complaints about that are 1) I was never obligated to work hard 2) I was praised far too much for idle work or ideas without effort. These traits have created a lot of problems for me now, in adult life, when I do have to work hard and am not so easily praised. But that's also just my own laziness and inability to change. Even if I had been socialized perfectly I wouldn't have been anything special lol, I just would have been a somewhat more successful version of myself.

>Blue eyes (hazel seems equally common)
Yes

>Occipital Bun (aka math bump on the the back of the skull = Neanderthal trait)
No

>Birth Complications (like weeks early or not breathing)
No

>Near Death Experiences (especially drowning)
Yes, I had a girl try to drown me when I was 8, it didn't stop until my mom finally pulled her off of me

>lack of memory of TAG (we all did many many hours there, and it's very vague)
What is TAG?

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>>3230
At my school a kid had an IQ of 109 and was in the gifted program.

>>3387
I know it means nothing, it's just fun to see the similarities

>>3049
I once fainted and while I didn't have a full-on NDE, I did briefly feel like I was somewhere more real than reality and sort of "heavenly" for lack of a better description, and both of those are symptoms of an NDE, or so I've heard.

I had a couple. I had a bad infection from a cat scratch on my neck as a kid that had me in the hospital for a while, and I got into a roll-over accident going 105mph. The air time I got felt like an eternity and it still plays in my head when I'm doing really bad

I tried to kill myself a little over a year ago by cutting my wrists. Definitely the closest I've come to dying. Very surreal experience.

>>3185
Not an NDE, but once at PE lesson just when I was about to be hit by the ball, time has literally slowed down for me and I deflected the ball. It was maybe 2 secs at most but for me it was like 5 seconds. Now I know it was an adrenaline burst or something like that.

I had a girl try to drown me when I was 8. She was up on a floaty and I was in the water. She would pull me up by my hair, laugh at me, and then push me back into the water and hold me there. I would thrash around and try very hard to get back to the surface and my brain was just on survival mode. I had no emotions or fear, as I was solely focused on breathing as much as possible when I was let up and attempting to break away. The intervals between her pulling me up and holding me down started getting longer and longer, and it felt like it was going on forever and I couldn't escape. Finally my mom came and ripped her off of me and chewed her the fuck out. It was so strange because minutes before the girl started drowning me, we were just playing games like tag and pretending to be mermaids. I don't know if she was retarded or a psychopath, but my mom always says that the girl had dead, empty eyes and was just staring at her unblinking as she was going off on her.

I had an ectopic pregnancy two years ago. I got pregnant two months after I had my son and I was freaking out. I found out while at the hospital for gallstones and pancreatitis. I immediately knew something was abnormal, because I had been spotting continuously, and I never did that with my son (I had ignored the spotting because I thought it was a weird period, since I had had a baby so recently). After I had gotten the gallstone removed from my bile duct, they sent an OBGYN to my room to talk to me. I mentioned the bleeding, and he said it was "implantation spotting". I asked him if he was sure, since it had been going on for a couple of weeks and was more like streaking than spotting, and he said it was fine (which is bullshit, and implantation spotting takes place way earlier than 8 weeks, which was where I was). Fast forward a few days later, I'm in the shower and have a dull, achy pain in my right pelvic region. It was uncomfortable, but not unbearable, but I knew that all the spotting plus one sided pain could mean an ectopic pregnancy. I rush to a different OBGYN, who does an ultrasound and sees no baby in my uterus, but instead in my fallopian tube. I am immediately rushed into surgery, and when I wake up the doctor is in my room, telling me I almost died as I had an insane amount of blood filling my pelvis. I at first was just relieved to be alive, but as time went on, I became very scared of being pregnant again. I was later told by the OBGYN that the pancreatitis had caused foPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Mirrors in dark places. I don't mind them during the daylight, but being in a dark room with even a pocketmirror makes me want to scream. I have no idea why, I just can't stand it.

moths for some reason
i don't give a fuck about spiders etc but i scream when i see a moth

>>3261
ooo yeah they flop slowly and have erratic movements. also their wings are so dry, flaky, powdery and gross

Mold
I just throw out a tupperware if I can see mold through the plastic. I can't even open it.

>>3262
just why the fuck are they flying towards me i'm scared
>>3266
thought i was the only one doing that and i'm not even middle class

>>3222
The idea of "false memory syndrome" sounds p sus tbh, but according to the article you linked, it isn't an actual recognized, diagnosable disorder…which is a good thing i guess.
False memories defo exist, you can verify this yourself by keeping a diary or something and noticing how your memories warp slightly over time. There are also experiments you can do online where you are shown a list of words which can induce false memories of specific words.
But I totally agree that when other people are telling you your memories are false without hard evidence that you're misremembering something, it's just gaslighting, and I think psychiatry is very sus in general.
Regarding that particular case: people can develop false memories from being interrogated in very suggestive ways. The wikipedia article doesn't really say enough to tell of that was what happened though.

I think that memory is nowhere near as reliable as people assume it is and I think it should have far less input in court cases than it does, but that particular case seems suspect, I won't deny that.

>>3226
Yes. No need for a 'syndrome' when it's obvious in how memory and social influence works to begin with. Most people aren't very particular and a modification to their memory or, say, some memory mixing with an idea put in their head creating moreorless a false memory, is totally normal. And because it's 'remembered', it solidifies further. Reactionary pressure (such as having to present evidence and get things straight) makes you strengthen and 'cohere' it among your other memories, changing those too.

But I dare say any 'psychology weapon' that is used to discredit or obscure child abuse is always suspect. This is because such child abuse is not isolated but organised on a large scale. People have an interest in covering it up. Another example of this is the shoddy attempt to discredit dissociative identity disorder / multiple personality disorder. They tried to push the idea that it was just mere suggestion or false memory, the interviewer crafting it all. And this is a recurring idea in all of these cases. Except for the fact that they do have multiple personalities and lack full access to their memories which is why there is a thorough process of uncovering them and getting personalities who do not know eachother acquainted.

Regarding the McMartin article. Interviewing children who have suffered abuse is a long, careful process. Even an adult will struggle but for a kid it takes special care. I imagine the way it was handled is as described but the purpose behind it is likely to muddle truth and fiction, distort their accounts, and deny them a proper interview.

>>3226
>>3246
Yeah I think you are both right. I think memory is very fallible in terms of concrete details, but in general memories do not come from nowhere. Fake memories can be induced but in general you can't just create sexual abuse trauma out of nothing. If someone feels trauma from troubling sexual abuse memories, something definitely happened, even if the memories they have do not paint a fully accurate picture of what.

Therapists suggestively inducing memories to such a powerful/traumatic level is something I suspect is very rare if it ever actually happens at all. Especially after very public legal cases alleging this practice.

>>2586
no, i knew i'd done a horrible job at explaining myself
i'm just going to shut up before i say anything stupider
ignore my dumb shit

I dont believe in supernatural evil, but I believe psychopaths and narcs pretty much fit the bill. They are like a different, evil species walking among us.

>>2587
Thanks you for this post anon.
Do you know who that quote is from? Wondering because it rings true for me, too, and I'd like to read more from the person who wrote it.

>>2593
If you just google it on an English search engine you should get it. If not the novel is called Life & Fate.

If true evil does exist it definitely came in the form of Imperial Japan.