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>>5965
beautiful

I think I’m biased towards cynicism but I think it’s all over

I'm not sure how nonas find peace in eternal nothingness. I think only having a very shor amount of time to have a chance to experience love, pain, etc any emotion is in itself cruel and unfair. The fact that each person is unique and beautiful (except for 90% of moids) but will inevitably fade away never to be seen again and b e forgotten some day is terrible.

But at the same time i find it hard to believe we just become "nothing". We still don't fully know how sentience works and for all we know this life we have right now is not our sentience's first. Maybe we die and as universe re-births itself so does our sentience. We have a different physical body but the sentience remains. or maybe this is all incorrect…

That's why it's so terrifying, the fact that we don't know. We don't know why the unvierse exists, why the space works like it does. We don't know what it all came from, the planets, the galaxies, and where it will disappear and if it might remake itself. We are just that insignificant

>>10878
Long reply but I have many thoughts. I see both sides because every option scares me. Endless reincarnation fucks me up cuz just imagine all that could/would happen (being born in 3rd world countries in the middle of war, tortured with alien technology on a distant planet, maybe even eventually living the same life again, 1914729938029272 bad lifetimes in a row) or just generally having to live through everything ever imagined. Hell scares me cuz endless torture. Heaven scares me cuz you could be there for an astronomical amount of time and it won’t be any closer to ending and could become psychological torture (look up SCP-7179 if you wanna see more about that). You’re right that never existing again is horrifying as well and I don’t know if I believe something like enlightenment exists like in Eastern religion. I just feel constantly pessimistic, cynical, and nihilistic so maybe that’s why I’m not able to stick to any belief. If our existence is finite then nothing we do matters and will be forgotten if it’s infinite then it doesn’t matter if you were Hitler, an average person, or Junko Furuta because all your actions are finite and don’t even remotely mean anything to an existence that goes on forever though I guess that depends on if you believe in a dualistic or non dualistic religion. I agree it’s all very disorienting and religion doesn’t exactly give the deepest answer for why it is this way. I mean hey if reincarnation is real what will this lifetime matter after the universe dies and rebirths itself trillions of times over? I really don’t know how to get out of this mindset beyond just hoping more people understand it and trying to push it to the back of my head, existential dread is not fun

I’m very scared by the thought of eternity so I feel like it may be eternally torturous no matter what. Imagining going through anything for trillions to googolplexes to Graham’s Numbers of years and beyond and it just never getting a second closer to ending is deeply horrifying. The speech that starts at 1:18 in this video really speaks to me. In terms of what I think may actually happen though, I think death is likely the end because all evidence points us to consciousness being a neurological process but I wish we had evidence that it may not be. Near Death Experiences are interesting but honestly I don’t know if they’re real and they’re pretty inconsistent so even if they are real I don’t think they give any information about what comes after.

I looked through the sites and read the FAQ and stuff but I'm still kinda confused. What exactly are these things? Made up creatures with in depth literature to match?
Someone wanna elaborate?

>>52
It's basically a wiki with creatures and people like to read through them to get creeped out. Some have been the inspirations for creepypasta/ /x/ stories and that's what has made it really popular and prominent. It's basically just a fictional wiki people like to read through.

My favorite is probably 106, which is also the first one I read. The pic still creeps me the hell out, wish I could figure out where it originated from.

http://www.scp-wiki.net/scp-106

I think a lot of the newer ones are kind of silly, like really bad fan fiction. I've read some of the doctor's personnel tales and those are pretty funny though.

>>49
My personal favourite will always be SCP-835. It's a lenghty read and the "uncensored" version always gets me.
I'll leave the link over here: http://www.scp-wiki.net/scp-835 .

>>52
Think creepypasta but the common topic is that there's an organization that hunts down objects/people that have anomalous effects, then they contain them; Stories can either be sad, scary or funny.

SCPS tend to be lenghty but are really worth the read, Anon! They have a generous amount of world-building and you can find stories in a variety of languages too.

SCP-7179 really encapsulates my existential dread very well. After reading it you wonder why more people aren’t horrified of our own existence https://scp-wiki.wikidot.com/scp-7179

>>11070
>he tried to shock/exposure therapy by putting it in my bed which was a surpressed memory from 5-20
sorry nona but this sounds funny as fuck

>>10203
Yeah I’m with you, that great unknown of whatever is after we die is enough to scare me away from ever killing myself at least. When I see big numbers it also causes me to spiral into that existential fear and any idea of the afterlife or lack thereof is scary to me and makes me want to meltdown honestly

spiders

had one crawl into my hair as an 11 year old. it crawled off my head and onto my bedroom floor and i just cried and cried and cried. now i dont even play minecraft on anything but peaceful. sometimes i get over it, but then i get “emotionally taxed” and it comes back full swing.

fucking hate that shit.

Walking on sandy beaches barefoot.

Ever since I was little I had this fear that there are knives or needles hidden under the sand's surface… I just can't get over that thought. I hate sand anyway, touching it makes me cry.

Big things. Even just pictures of big things, especially when they are next to something smaller like a picture of a person.

>>11032
Yes I used AI to help write this. My grammar and writing skills aren't the best. I read my post and totally agree with it

>>11033
What a weakling, you should embrace your typing autism like who cares at the end of the day

I had a really long dream about some actor/director/manager guy in this comfy worn-down city between some mountains, the sunlight was always nice. He was a funny guy, a scumbag, a jerk, an asshole, probably a rapist and murderer, etc. He spent the whole dream walking around town, meeting friends, having meetings, arranging gigs, going to parties, etc. He went up in the air in a blimp made by a genius kid who was doing props for a set. He offered to make the kid rich, he was rly generous with people. Then I think he was going to go to a sex party or something.

At the end of the dream, before the party, NOT at the party, I was showed up. We talked. He made it clear that this dream was a view of his life, his real life somewhere else, and was not about me, there was nothing here about me. I appreciated that clarification, so as dream-controller, right before I phased out, I "snapped my fingers" and made sure he had a really great sex party and got a couple hot twink boyfriends and made some extra good business deals or whatever.

I feel like someone drew a sigil and it happened to connect to me, like I was a demon in some other reality for five minutes once. I've been watching too many silly spiritual videos on yt.

The city was really nice though, very real feel. It had that nostalgic feeling, like it was worse than before, but still somehow as good as when you were a kid. Always sunset, sunrise, the roads and buildings were old, but plants always grew in the cracks. Th mountains really hugged the town. Idk. Strangely pleasant dream for how evil some of it was.

>>10437
> I was showed up.
Godddddd I hate how I jump around when I type anything long.

I heard a voice saying "Hey, health obsessed girl." I paused and then replied "Who, me?" The voice responded "No, you're white trash girl." Then I woke up.

Super weird one from a few nights ago actually, this one had me wake up in a cold sweat

>Sitting in livingroom of my apartment, talking on my phone to I believe my sister
>"Can a loved one fall for a skinwalker's voice?" I ask her, to which she responds with, "They are almost exactly like you from far away but the closer you get to them, the more you can see that something is just not right."
>a few moments later
>I hear my own voice coming from my son's room
>It is me cooing or baby-talking my 4 year old son, the door is open but I cannot bring myself to look in,
>I can tell that something is not right
>I peek in, the skinwalker or mimic or whatever doesn't see or hear me.
>my son is asleep but it looks exactly like my mom except bald
>it is still talking to him like he is awake and playing it's very bizarre, he is just lying there.
for context, I could tell the thing in my dream was not a future me or my mom it was just some sort of malevolent entity that was horribly imitating me and looked like my mom
In real life my mother is a drug addict who horribly abused me, I thought maybe this dream was my fears of becoming like her manifested in a weird nightmare.

had a dream where me and a friend were gonna go to an event in our local big city where they were having an Ensemble Stars event at a local café. I thought it was cool… but when we stepped into the café, we didn't see a single character from enstars at the event. Instead, it was ran by a lot of realistic furries that kinda looked like picrel. I was thinking in my head "maybe they're enstars furries!" in the dream, while my friend was so disappointed at what we ended up finding. Idk shit about shit about enstars, that's more of my friend's thing, but I just thought it was really funny.

>>4152
The only time I shoplifted was around the age of 10. For a couple of weeks, my friend and I would pocket these cheap packs of candy we loved from the little gas station within walking distance. No one explicitly talked to us but one day when we walked in there there were suddenly new and very visible security cameras. We took that as a sign to stop.
I'm glad I didn't escalate further or get caught. I don't think the law would have done much to me at that age, but still.

For a while I used to fill up my bag with $100+ worth of meats, etc. and pay for a few of the cheap items so as to not arouse suspicion. The bag I use has a compartment at the bottom that I can fit small items into without changing the appearance of the bag, and I always take advantage of that.
I often buy multiples when it comes to products and clothing. If I know I'll easily get away with it, I'll take a reasonable number and only pay for one.
Many years ago I had a Nigel who supported my shoplifting habits, we often stole food together and cooked beautiful meals. When we were together I was more opportunistic and often stole small things like makeup brushes and skincare products from department stores.
I've never been caught. Only people with a shifty/antisocial vibe get caught.

When I was 11 I stole earrings and hair accessories in a mall and tried jumping the counter to get food on the same run. I got the cops called on me. Never stolen since.

I steal ewaste from work all the time because they just throw perfectly good things away whenever. If it can fit in my backpack and it’s on the disposal pile, it’s coming home with me. Not especially expensive items, but some of them have been pretty useful. I have a really ancient spinny 1TB hard drive that I’m using for file backup. I just consider it recycling. You can’t even dumpster dive this stuff because they put it through some kind of grinder, you have to get it before it goes to the grinder. We’re moving to a new building soon and if it has CCTV, I guess I’ll stop.

used to all the time from big stores. loss prevention at most of these places now is wayyyy too serious for me to want to try anymore. not worth becoming a felon for multiple instances of pety theft.

went to the grocery store recently and accidentally put something in the bagging area that i didn't scan at self check out. immediately the machine started beeping and then played a recording from above of me putting the item in the bagging area… along with exactly what item it was. scared me straight for now lol

Any thoughts on Antphrodite? He’s fairly popular and I was wondering if there’s anything worthwhile to his videos. I’ve watched some of them and from what I see he mainly does lots of celebrity stuff alongside conspiracy stuff. He apparently got big because he predicted the James Charles drama alongside some other stuff with Britney Spears and Ariana Grande. Idk if I really believe his stuff though but I’m a skeptic of most of this tarot stuff anyways so maybe that’s the reason why

>>10764
I just chanted the enn a couple of times and after a few minutes it happened. I tried doing it recently but it didn't work. I don't remember the date or what time I did it which I think may have played a role. I also meditate a lot. It's like one of those things you need to establish if you want to get on that path.
>I want to try something like that just to see if it would work but I'm not sure if there are risks involved.
There are risks but you can minimize it by protecting yourself. Also are you easily scared? I have saved a bunch of info about dealing with spirits and evocation, down to physical manifestation. I used to browse an old subforum that worked with the 6/7 Book of Moses. It is supposedly really powerful and has a lot of fiery spirits but if you dont know the basics and how to protect yourself, you might get fucked up.

>>10751
I used to hang out in this thread kek
Atm I’m really busy and tired but when I can gather mire energy I want to try spirit flight. I’m a little hesitant because in the past something like meditating made me really dizzy and I had to stop the meditation. Besides that I gathered materials from my local forest to diy a small broom and I’m very excited about that.

>>10780
Let's keep horoscope and Tarot out of the witchcraft thread, shall we?

Is there any sort of spell I can use to kill a moid or at least get them to break up with my friend? He's abusive but she's too stubborn to leave plus she has low self-esteem, so she thinks it's her fault he acts like that as well. Nothing would make me happier than to read that he just wound up dead in a ditch somewhere, but I'll settle for him just being completely out of her life if nothing else

man i'd love to read their journals

it makes make sick the size of the parents look at the moms chubby leggs ……my god

I bet the mom will have to be kept in solitary for the rest of her life, female inmates will fuck your shit up for hurting children.

One of the most horrifying cases I've heard of, things like this hurt me so bad and make me wish I had gone into child services

Many updates on the Turpin Case. After the trial some of the children ended up with abusive foster parents:
>Foster parents of several Turpin siblings sentenced on child abuse charges
https://abcnews.go.com/US/foster-parents-turpin-siblings-sentenced-child-abuse-charges/story?id=114930469
>The six youngest Turpin children were placed with the Olguin family at various times beginning in 2018, a lawyer for one of the Olguins previously told ABC News. Four were still living there at the time of the arrests, according to the attorney.

Jennifer Turpin, eldest sister of the family, just got married a few weeks ago to a dude that looks 20 years older than her. The theme of the wedding was gothic.
>Jennifer Turpin, Who Escaped 'House of Horrors,' Marries in Gothic Wedding Celebration Attended by Her Siblings
https://people.com/house-of-horrors-jennifer-turpin-marries-in-gothic-cemetery-wedding-celebration-attended-by-her-siblings-8748713
> The eldest child of the Turpin family has tied the knot.

>Jennifer Turpin married husband Aron (she has kept his last name private) on Oct. 27 at The Miller Gardens in Rancho Cucamonga, Calif., she revealed in an Instagram reel posted on Nov. 9. "10/27/2024 Wedding Day 🥰🖤💍," she captioned a video of her big day.

>The couple's Gothic outdoor ceremony was attended by her siblings. Turpin confirmed that she invited her 12 brothers and sisters in a response to an Instagram comment asking if they were in attendance. "We did. I just can’t post most out of respect/privacy ❤," she replied.

>Her video showcased the many unique elements of the wedding which took place just days before Halloween including custom glassware with skeleton versions of the bride and groom, a coffin ring box, napkins that read "Till Death Do Us Part" with another skeleton rendition of the couple, and black and red floral arrangements.

When I was little and I'd visit my grandparents in the countryside for the summer, there was this one portion of the road that I always hated to go on. I used to throw fits in the car whenever we drove on that one section. I grew out of it, of course, but years later I learned that when they were constructing that road, they built it over a graveyard and neglected to move any of the bodies, only the headstones. Now when I visit, I try to drive very very slowly over that portion of the road because I don't want to disturb anybody beneath it.

I used to faint at this particular place in the town where my grandma lives anytime I went there. It's like a little square and one one side there's a medieval gate into a pakt where's a castle and on the other side there's a mini zoo for injured wildlife. For couple of years anytime I went there I fainted or got close to fainting. Very strange because I never fainted anytime anywhere. Now that I'm an adult I can go there no problem.
I also sometimes sence when I'm outside that there's a dead animal near. Not my the smell lol it's usually more far away to smell it, but it's like something leads me to the dead animal if I don't focus on where I'm going and just wander.

I've always hated going to the cemetery where my great grandmother is buried, even as a child I hated it. I always felt I was being watched. I haven't been in years and I feel guilty for not visiting her resting place but I don't like the energy there. It feels heavy.
I worked at a school that had this oppressive feel over it. A dark cloud. I hated it there and only worked there a year. It was the worst teaching year as well as personal year of my life. Everything about the place was just off.
I had a neighbor who was an energy vampire. She was too overbearing, too much, had crazy, manic eyes. My first few interactions with her just being friendly trying to welcome her absolutely zapped me, so I stopped contact and mentally put on a suit of armor if I HAD to deal with her. She had bad energy, and as an energy vampire she would attempt to take it from anyone. Smothering, overwhelming, demanding. The frigging yard man banged on my door one morning freaked out about her.
As a child I woke up to see a tall dark figure in my doorway. It was broad, had horns, and was nearly as tall as the door. I threw the covers over my head, then peeked out. It had come closer. So like any child, I yelled for my mom.
The next incident was the worst. Again, as a child, my dad was gone somewhere so I was sleeping in their bed with Mom. In my sleep I remember something whispering in my ear, "Hit her." I resisted and didn't, and the whisper told me to again. So in my sleep or twilight sleep I hit her in the stomach. I've never felt so guilty. Ever.
I hope the shadow figure and the whisper were just weird figments of an overactive child's imagination. In my teenage years my dog stood in my doorway and stared and growled at something in my room when I was home alone and in a different room but could see him. I haven't had anymore experiences like that and as I've gotten older and I've
visited their home when they weren't there I have conducted actions and spoken things for protection although I don't feel anything dark there and never have.
I truly believe there is bad, negative energy in places and in people. When it's in places idk if it's a place of bad things have occurred, unresolved anger or trauma, burial grounds, or even some kind of portal or cursed land.

My great grandmother's old dresser, which was kept in the same room where she died. I inherited it and kept it in my spare room. Whenever I looked into its mirrror, I always felt that I was not truly looking at my reflection, but some distorted perversion of it. Nobody in my house felt comfortable around that thing, especially in the dark when someone slept there. We ultimately got rid of it by selling it off.

I get “bad vibes” from people occasionally and it’s usually proven right: energy vampires, narcissism, cheaters, abusive, etc.

I’ve had a feeling of profound terror/fear for no obvious reason twice in my life. First was driving through a small town. The vibes were, as the kids say, absolutely rancid. Even without getting out of the car once, I was scared just being there and wanted to leave asap, which I did.

The second was when I was working a restaurant. A man, about mids 30s, came in to order food. I felt absolute dread the moment he walked in and was deeply afraid of him. He looked like an average dude, was “pleasant” enough in his interactions (maybe a little too charming), didn’t do anything “wrong”. But even my male coworker agreed with me when I said there was something off about him. Long after he left the restaurant, I was creeped out for the rest of the night.