okay so we technically did not meet online since we went to the same high school but there was this boy that was a few grades ahead of me and shit with him got wild pretty fast.

it was the summer of a really bad break up and i was looking through my snapchat when i see he requested to add me. i accepted because i was bored and was just looking to flirt with someone out of boredom. he was alright looking so i figured why not.

conversations start out normal. most of them are pretty boring though so i forget to respond a lot of the time. when i don't respond he starts blowing my notifications up asking "are you okay?" over and over again. like excessively. i decide to block him because he's fucking annoying.

i tell a friend about it and she says that this guy is known for being a fucking weirdo and apparently he used to send women (who did not consent) pictures of his dick and tell him if it looks okay. his line was "i think there's something wrong with it, will you tell me if it looks okay?"

years after this i see a facebook post about this guy. he became a softball coach at our high school and got busted for sending disgusting text messages to underage girls. he ended up going to jail for this and i believe he is still on probation.

>>6280
that's rough, buddy

One immediately comes to mind. I was looking for more friends on Tumblr at one point and messaged a man with a username that had "yandere" in it. He instantly introduced himself as someone who "likes talking to people but kinda awkward", "loves thinking about the world and human interactions", but that has had a "rough and somewhat disturbing past". We started talking about our past and already by our third exchanged messaged, he admitted he had staged a mass murder at his school because of a girl who he felt had used him.

We ended up exchanging contact information outside of Tumblr and I went on to have the most philsophical, existential conversations I have ever had with anyone before. We picked eachother's brains alot about our views on things like the meaning of life, society, kindness, etc. I literally had Plato's Symposium-level of philosophical discussions with him. Was a super interesting guy to talk to.

There was still something glaringly wrong with him though. We had added eachother on Facebook too and he literally had the same exact emotionless/expressionless face in all his photos. He had also indirectly admitted to me that he masturbates to guro, at that point. It turns out he had also lied about his age. His age on Facebook showed over 20, but he had introduced himself as being 17. After a while, he had confessed he had feelings for me but I was still 14 at the time. So, turns out he may have been a pedophile too.

I was really intrigued by him, but he seemed too disturbed to talk to so I stopped. Or he may have just been trolling and baiting, who knows. I doubt that, what with his Facebook photos and some of the things he said though. I wonder how he turned out now. Would not be surprised if he actually committed murder or something.

>>6516
he was definitely a pedo. I met a bunch of guys like that when I was a kid and met people through runescape. they would lie about their age the same way (I lied too, but I said I was 14 when I was 12. they said they were 16 when they were in their 20s..)

>>6516
Oh that is so how pedos operate, a non-pedo would probably have told you you can't talk anymore after you revealed you're younger than you said, not love bomb you.

>>6483
Mind affects the spirit or are you one of those that doesn't think all three are connected somehow?

>>6484
>are you one of those that doesn't think all three are connected somehow
They are connected. Your mind, body, spirit. Especially your mind and body of course. I’m just saying when you cross over, -when you’re not confined to your physical vessel-you’re not that person who struggled with turmoil anymore. I believe in reincarnation and i think to the soul, this body is just a little part of a greater whole. Its like when you fail a test, you’re frustrated and sad sure but you move on to the next one.

>>6485
Maybe you're right, maybe I am, I don't believe in reincarnation and I think that's the difference in our views on this.

>>6487
Get a 9 to 5 job, and be on antidepressants.

>>6494
im a ghost lets GOOOOO

i've been chronically online since childhood and never had anyone to really look up to (shit parents) so went to the internet, fictional characters, and celebrities. most prominently my chemical romance (especially gerard way) since age 11, not in like a stalkery fangirl #cutforbieber type of way but as an inspirational source and appreciation for the music. it's waned out as of recent though it did get a bit too far at times. other than that, i used minorly to obsess over VN characters and otome game boys.

>>2989

Not sure if this is Namjoon-stan from a different thread, but I have been too. Before that, it was fictional characters. I have used it as a way to cope with my single-ness And virginity. I must have masturbated to this idol and the fictional characters I used to imagine myself in a relationship with, over a thousand times by now.

>>2988
aw anon this is cute, i wish i could do the same but i feel too self conscious in my own mind if that makes sense, i used to do it when i was little and a weeb but it waned of with time bc i felt cringe, but it was really nice and comforting. i should try doing it, it was fun

There's a girl I used to me mutuals with before I deleted that social media who was super nice and asked me twice to join her discord because she wanted to befriend me, but my avpd ass rejected her invitation both times. Now I stalk her daily (been doing it for ~6 months so far, since I deleted) and sometimes I have imaginary conversations with her.
I wish I could stop the stalking since all it does is to hurt me and remind me about the lost opportunity for a good friendship (we pretty much were a perfect march, lots of interests and views in common). I have been getting better slowly when it comes to my avpd and Im trying to improve myself, but I still want to kms for not being able to interact with others like a nornal human. I wish therapy were affordable….

unironically

>>6195
I believe so too but it can drive them to madness. Theyre just simply not with us on this plane and i feel sorry for them, only a few can be self aware and mask and function with us while being a schizo at the same time

>>6466
Yep, i’m speaking from personal experience having a schizo older sister. That bitch dreams of things before they happen (i do too but hers are more scary), sees dead people who give her accurate information she doesn’t know (once had a dream of grandma begging her to tell our mom to stop talking shit about her and my mom actually was earlier that day while she was sleeping) hallucinates 24/7 but the cunt is a shit person inherently so she thought she’s invincible because of this and she’s not very smart or empathetic so the info she receives.. well, it’s not received well and mistranslated. So she’s in and out of psych wards right now. I speak about her harshly because she fucked me up growing up but damn she had the chance to turn it into a powerful thing too

>>6470
Nah it wasn’t a case of that. We all were willing to listen and help her but she manipulates and treats us especially the women of the family like trash. Lots of misogyny, lot of stupidity and impaired empathy, and lots of grooming female children and sadistically breaking them down (me included) Don’t take it personally, schizo anon. Its a long story when it comes to my sis thats just a small part of it lol

>>6472
I’m sorry anon, it’s tough and very hard to deal with i’m sure. You sound pretty self aware and grounded so i’m pretty sure new fresh beginnings can be in store and i hope so. I might not be schizophrenic but i have had mental issues that people abandoned and hurt me during episodes so i get it

>>6474
Yeah and I will admit when I get hurt I withdraw and self isolate so sometimes it's harder for people to help but I just, I have tried a ton and really it's just people not getting that I like to debate but I don't hold feelings over losing or winning an argument.
I just have to look in the right places, all due things in time.
I hope you won't get abandoned by anyone you consider important again, usually things seem small with time so I don't hold onto anything other than well, pushing me out of a friend group. That I never forget so I never end up having it happen in the same way. Vigilance is key when the world has so many dark people in it, but most of those that hurt others are hurt themselves.

>>6384
Yes. Exactly like that.

I don't really have much to add except this story. my BIL's dad is a traditional old conservative man who hunts, fishes, eats red meat, etc. He was on a fishing trip and as his boat was going around a bend, he saw Bigfoot for a split second then it disappeared. Ik y'all don't know him, but it was super interesting for someone like him to say

>>5764
What if they're just bears born with deformities

>>6412
Y can they walk upright. is that the deformity?

Wadiyatalkinabeet

>>6357
It was awhile ago when I still had contact with her.

When I say I’m convinced it was a sign, I just mean it was a weird coincidence. Im not a schizo.

But it does sound crazy the way I typed it out.

>>6357
Also sorry about double posting but I didn’t do shit with it after

>>6359
Ignore them, you're ok.

my mom started drinking heavily and became psychotic. she mistook me for her pet a couple times and every time i even sat down next to a man she would walk in acting upset, tell me to put my shirt on, make a disgusted face, yell at me for having sex in front of her, tell me i was pregnant and then tell me i was a bad mother for 'losing the baby' all within the span of a couple minutes.
in the same dream, i explored an abandoned building around sunset. i was ~8ft tall and the bones in my legs were soft. when i went to use the bathroom, i saw that i was covered in bruises and scrapes along my back. i guess i took too long because the last thing i remember before waking up was being found out by the woman who worked at (or maybe owned) the building.

also this is the only time i can remember peeing in a dream without peeing irl

I had dream in which I was in room which lead to a bathroom which then lead to another bathroom and once you entered one you couldn't go back because the other door would lead to a new bathroom, they all looked exactly the same except the layout would differ, it was in orange, white, grey and black in this weird round early 2000s style.
Eventually one of the doors lead me to a secret room with two (cute) guys sitting in front a pc. One of those old, boxy, white ones. The entire room had a 90s hacker movie feel to it. They invited me over to them and one of the guys showed me a song he made. I said (word for word) that it
>sounds jazzy and drum and bass-y
and that the beat reminded me of a vocaloid song I listened to in high school and decided to search for it to show them but it wouldn't show on youtube (I thought it was Phantom F but then when I woke up I checked and it actually sounded more like Crazy Night, anyway).
Then the other guy started talking to me and said that most humans aren't lucid enough and when they die it's all blank and over. Nothingness. However those with stronger wills and more awareness can exist in a dream like state after death and basically create their own little world to 'live' in.
I had this dream last week and have been trying to return to it (I often go back to my old dreams on accident). I think the guy in my dream was basically telling me to become lucid and I've been trying to have a lucid dream for a while now. Ik the techniques. What do you think anons? I hope to dream of them again soon, it felt like I was someone important the way it went down.

>>4730
Now tell what did you do.

>>4718
what
your parents sound horrible and I'm sorry. But also what is this? I have never heard of this being a thing. Thant's wild.

Are you being gangstalked op? It kinda sounds like it.

Are they kind of trashtalking you indirectly through conversations across the room? That sort of thing? In a way that makes it seem they'd have to have been spying on you, to be able to do so? Its real it happened to me. Its a local witch hunt and they're freaks, but they can't really hurt you or do anything to you. Ignore them. take it from me I was stalked like that for years.

>>6341
You're a faggot, and so are your desperate pathetic needy, histrionic obsessive hoards. You can try and paint your "stalking" however you want, it still looks cheap, beneath us all, like the crappiest dollar general off brand try hard garbage.

You embody that degenerate energy. You're this 2 cent hoard, gathering like cows in stupid packs waiting in line at walmart for their daily dollar store trashtalk. Oh im so scared. The Emoji movie is pretty much your hoard anthem, its not surprising seeing how all of you share about 3 fucking braincells.

Fucking trailer park losers

>>6347
Are you still talking faggot

yes, i did it a decent amount when i was younger. when i worked retail i did it too. i only took small things like shirts, makeup, and sometimes drinks that i wanted to have on my lunch. i don't really regret it and i never got caught.

Some of my fondest memories were going out with my friends in middle school and stealing bags full of stuff from the mall. I remember we all had the same justification of it would feel bad to make our parents give us money for retarded merch shit when they work so hard and are already poor. And getting stuff was cool, did get caughtish a few times but never anything official with security or police.

>>4152
it was basically rite of passage at my private university to steal food from the whole foods on campus.
not just because it was expensive tho, but because the line would literally go around the entire store and out the door during peak hours. mostly why i stole from there was bc i didn't want to wait in line

>>5824
this is kinda cute tbh sorry u got caught

>>4152
stole from safeway and trader joes because it's soo easy to steal from those stores

Nuts prison letter from NXIVM cult leader Keith Raniere to his ex-girlfriend Toni Natalie

>>5672
I relate to this, whats the story behind it

>>1251
Old post but wignats shilling for Neanderthals is really weird, Neanderthals were not altruistic lol. They were known for fighting and raping a lot, and some of them even practiced cannibalism.

>>1406
NTA but I found a site that does this: petittube.com

https://web.archive.org/web/19991128051714/http://interactiveunderwear.com:80/
NSFW

>What do you think happens after we die?

Nothing. Everything just returns to what it was like before you were born. I don't really believe in an afterlife since I'm not religious. Well, only as a sense of comfort for my loved ones that have passed and that bad people, who managed to get away being bad their whole lives, actually have somewhere they go to get punished. I guess those are just the reasons most people want to believe in an afterlife, though.

>Have you ever had a near death experience?

I don't think so. Several times I've been almost hit by a car and miracly survived each time but it wasn't any kind of out-of-body death experience. It did convince me there must be some kind of spritiual power / guarding angel-things out there though. That's just happened to me too often to be a coincidence. I should have turned into a vegetable by now, but the cars would stop just inches away from me every single time and I would be completely unscathed. Other than the last time it happened, when the car did manage to slightly hit my leg and I had to limp on my way to school. Still wasn't a serious injury though because I managed to activate some kind of cat-like resources to dodge edge of the fucking car right as it was pulling up.

i believe in reincarnation. it sucks that we’ll probably never truly know what happens. western society puts too much of a negative emphasis on death though. maybe people would be a little less scared if we approached death differently.

>>6116
DMT experiences also differ a lot from NDEs. The only thing they usually have in common is an out of body feeling.

>>6128
Woah mind… blown…

Hopefully nothing, i am sick of this rotten and indifferent existence to the core