>>288831For me I just slowly forced myself to lose control bit by bit. I let myself orgasm for 0.5 seconds to 1, and went on from there. It took a long while though because orgasming (like good orgasms) involves losing control of your body in pleasure and that subconsciously terrified me. I also do it alone with doors locked and full privacy so that kind of helps.
I'm riddled with anxiety disorders to the bone, it explains everything. Also I thought I looked retarded with eyes rolled back or out of focus. In retrospect this is probably on the same vein as to why I never smiled or showed any emotion as a teenager in school because I believed deep down it was a weakness or that it somehow revealed too much of me. Teachers would ask me to smile or show a little more enthusiasm and I would literally freeze up, I was so odd.
