I have a hard time believing anyone actually cares about this "power imbalance"

>>120427 Find hobby or study clubs etc near where you live

>>120564
Yeah lol, who cares if you run a meme page? It’s not like OP is a major eceleb?

>>120564
Pretty sure op's the one who's bothered by the perceived power imbalance and not the other way around. I think it's gone to her head a bit.

>>120585
Maybe OP is being serious and in a world of "clout-chasing" freaks it might be tough to find a good connection, I got the impression she was trying to avoid saying that. Or, alternative hypothesis, she herself would feel bad as the less successful one, so she might be projecting those feelings without directly asking people of they felt that way. Only OP knows, we can only guess

I'm Korean but lived long enough in Japan and as east asian cultures tbh the men are pretty patriarchal though i heard it was better for young generational japanese men. It is highly conformist and they expect feminine behaviours and roles from you. Just avoid "i was curious about western women never met one before" types and you'll be fine. They shouldn't treat you any less because you're not Japanese and if they do it's his problem

They put many efforts into a girl default though my japanese bfs bought me a lot of expensive stuff even when i refused and that's like the norm among relationships here. Normie men are pretty ok

>>120518
Nope, I actually met him on Twitch

>>120558
Which one of you is the streamer and which one is the fan?

>>120568
He's the streamer

>>118878
She didn’t deserve that. I also did cruel shit to other kids as a child though so I don’t think I’m better than you lol.

>>118548
What a queen, I would feel proud of that for the rest of my life. I wish I had stood up for myself instead of trying to be ‘the better woman’.

>>119136
>I wish I had stood up for myself instead of trying to be ‘the better woman’.
NTA but for me it was partly that and partly because I was quiet and shy back then, way too much, and hated confrontation.

Anyway, there was this one kid in middle school who hanged out with the dumb funny guys. I liked to be around the guys (yes, I was kind of a NLOG sorry) and laugh at the stupid shit they did and said and their banter, although I clearly never participated so the guys wouldn't cross that line with me. However, this fucking manlet would tell me very vulgar dirty jokes and generally annoy me whenever he happened to be around me, even though I clearly didn't find it funny.
But one day when he was doing that during class to the point that I couldn't even focus on the lesson, I kinda snapped and grabbed that annoying little shit by the collar with one hand (I was taller than him kek) and prepared my other fist to punch his face. I still remember the terrified expression he made lol.
However, as I was looking at him, my nature made me immediately realize that everybody was watching so I stopped and sat back down because I'm a coward and also didn't wanna get in trouble. No one said a word. Also he went back to annoying the fuck outta me as soon as that was over.

but god, I felt so powerful at that moment

>>115101

>in middle + highschool
>have given up saying "excuse me" and trying to squeeze by in crowded hallways, especially when a pack of idiots stand in the middle
>grab moids by their backpacks and push them out of my way

I've gotten my fair share of looks and "excuse you?"s but its worth it. gtfo of my way.

>>118878
>>118882
I was about to say she did deserve that but then I realized she said
>be in preschool
That is fucking awful. Her preschool antics didn't warrant bullying until fucking graduation. Imagine being punished for your entire school career for some dumb shit you did as a 4 or 5 year old, she probably didn't even fully comprehend was she was doing.
You probably really traumatized and fucked her up.

>>120491
Isn't dragonfucking technically beastiality? i sort of understand where OP's coming from

>chubby husbando
Based
Don't worry OP I support your autism

>>120493
I feel like dragons are always sentient if not at a higher level of intelligence of humans in most monster fucker media. Probably one of the most sentences I've ever written

>>120497
Intelligence aside because this is irrelevant. We're talking purely physical here. Dragons are animals, right? And if you want to fuck a dragon that would count as beastiality, right?

>>120502
no

>>120313
try teeth whiteners if you can get them, I heard they work. and avoid stuff that stains your teeth like coffee if you can obviously.

>>120248
Lucky cat, this pic makes me want McDonalds fries. Why are they so good, they give me a saltgasm whenever I eat them

I understand you, anon. It sucks because it can be a long and difficult change to make. I hate how most "nerdy" things aren't even harmful yet still make you different and less desirable.

I am no expert because I am just like you, but here is my plan that I want to go through with:

What I will start with is a general physical change. It's personal to me and my own abilities so find things like this that you feel like you need to learn. I am going to learn how to do makeup and try styling myself with trendy clothing brands. I will also try to fix my hair in different ways. I might try to wear jewelry, too. I just feel like people who wear jewelry are elegant and fancy or something like that.

Second of all, I already do this but I want to do it much more often than usual. I am not going to tell people my own interests unless I'm super close with them. I feel like you can get by being very vague about things. I might also try to get more 'normal' hobbies. (Examples: Going to the gym, traveling, gardening, arts and crafts, etc.)

I am not too sure where to go from there though. I am a creature of habit and I probably won't drop my interests for the pursuit of popularity. But if it comes to it, I would at least attempt to for the sake of being normal.

The only other way out of this is finding other geeks like you and surrounding yourself with them. Live and embrace the small bubble of your interests and hobbies. But, I do understand the longing to be like everyone else. It is something I've wished for too.

>>120464
gave up tea and now religiously floss and brush twice a day. as soon as these braces come off im going to get myself some whiten strips and finally be able to smile in pictures

>>120469
agree. maccies fries are why im alive. only good when hot tho

>>120473
hey , glad you understand the desire. the plan sounds good, and im pursuing something similar. can i ask what hobbies and interests that you have that are geeky? i don't think entirely dropping them for the sake of normalcy is a good idea, because you wouldn't enjoy it and people would be able to tell. maybe find things that straddle the line between nerd stuff and normie stuff. although im blanking on things those are.

also, i don't know if normies really have hobbies? not to sound elitist or anything, but i think normal girls go to work/school, hang out with their friends, and go on social media/watch netflix for fun. maybe go to the gym occasionally. i observe girls i perceive as normal (like a creep) and these are the only things i find them doing.

(unrelated, i like to draw and am pretty good at it, but i think art is a nerd hobby. generally young adult (18-25 year old) artists in my experience are weebs, roleplayers, or part of fandoms.)

for me fashion is a mystery, and makeup even moreso. but im going to figure it out. i bought my first piece of jewelry (a tiny chain) and have started wearing it whenever i go out. ive also started going to the gym in order to make my body pretty. ganbare anon and keep me updated

ah i sound like a shallow bitch

>>120482

>can i ask what hobbies and interests that you have that are geeky?

I do digital art (Fan art or my friends OCs, I play video games like World of Warcraft, I watch anime, I am in a few fandoms. Mostly stuff like that. I tend to keep it to myself, for the most part, only people that are very close to me know what my interests are.

>also, i don't know if normies really have hobbies?

I think you are semi-correct about this. If they do, then it's a small part of their social/work/school life.

A lot of things that I'm planning to learn are very foreign to me. I am afraid that I will chicken out and not go through with it. Especially since I have just been in my own little bubble lately. I still think it's possible to change though.

You are not alone in feeling like this. Our thought process is very similar. Best of luck, anon. I hope things get better for you.

I have a server with like 4 girls i made that i met from the friends finder thread here but its not official or anything

shade#0396 Is my tag add me to a server or just as a friend if you want! Im 27/aus

my tag is catveedee#3211. I'm 28/American. Can verify if need be. Add me if you're interested! Been looking for a semi-active female only discord for awhile. I just joined one but it was just recently made.

>>120383
kek too real

>>120383
I love them

>>94581
Cluster A is related, paranoia is related to schizophrenia and schizotypal/schizoid personalities are schizophrenia-like disorders, with schizotypal displaying paranoid behavior. There is a blatent connection.
Cluster C is all anxious behaviors: dependence is related to anxiety, avoidance is related to anxiety, obsessive, compulsive and rigid behaviors are related to anxiety.
You're fucking retarded.

I used to resonate with AvPD highly but as life goes on and I become more detached and lose interest in absolutely everything and feel utterly numb all the time, including relationships, I feel more schizoid.
I'm not diagnosing myself with anything so you can calm the fuck down about that (just using this for comparison), I'm just wondering if anyone else has started to feel this way over time.

>>119983
I've been going through the same thing. I used to be 100% avpd but now I have more schizoid traits.

>>119983
Some people say that AvPD is supposed to get easier to deal with as you age, but I'm starting to think depression, nihilism, or something sets in for a lot of us if we make it far in life. You just kind of learn to accept or cope with all of your negative thoughts about yourself and hopefully find a niche in the world.

internet friend (who’s dead so i can’t ask more) linked this to me a long while ago, so I’m not sure how up-to-date it is, but eh whatever

https://www.elementsofai.com/

does anybody have resources abt history of ancient rome

>>120166 The Fall and the Decline of the Roman Empire by Edward Gibbon

https://openculture.com/
this has a lot of different stuff

>>120166
if you're fine with podcast format than mike duncan history of ancient rome is worth a listen

several

>>120432
https://www.youtube.com/c/animaterrman
do you logpost often?

>>120432
Fucking love fallout, we need a fallout thread

My family calls me "Tita" and I've had a couple of nicknames but none of those lasted too long

>>120106
Read books, lots and lots of programming books. Read the classics (K&R C programming) to understand where programming constructs came from and why the syntax is how it is etc…

Also practice. Practice with examples, practice with your own original programming ideas. It doesn't really matter what you're writing, so long as you finish it.

You can do it sis!

>>120041
Thank you. I think i would fail again if i took an easier major/class with the same mentality, so i'm trying to suck it up and go through it. I don't want to mirror the women i've seen and be dependent on a man so i'm going to force myself to stick through if i want to keep my life free from all men…The thought of meeting one terrifies and disgusts me tbh

>>120094
lol where from?

>>120121
I'll look into the classics, going to browse libgen hopefully some of them are on there
idk where to begin with projects so I'll look up easy coding projects for beginners and start from there, thanks for the encouragement

>What did you want to study as a kid? What are you studying now?
as a kid i wanted to be a marine biologist or a musician, i really, really loved classical music growing up, i was infatuated with the piano and later on the violin, my family couldn't afford either the instruments nor their classes (although a cousin of mine taught me to play some music on the piano and those are some of my happiest childhood memories)
Rn im a freshman medical student and it's killing my will to live as we speak ;'D
>Did you go or plan on going to uni? Why or why not?
I have always planned on going to university seeing as i was a straight A's kid growing up, i don't remember the exact moment i decided studying would be the thing that defines my value in life, because in primary school i was a careless fun kid who averaged C+ at best, but i grew up in an environment that encouraged studying all the time, and the sentiment of "you're more than grades and academic success, love urself!!!" online wasn't as much of a big thing back then, so now whenever i look back, yep- all i did was study, i didn't go out with friends (didn't have friends actually) or have many adventure/stories to tell. (i used to play vidya a lot tho i miss that time [ironic XD])
>Do you find having a degree important or necessary to have a livable wage?
Not necessarily true everywhere, but in my country, it a 100% is, and i had to grow up watching my parents blow their money into divorce settlement and addictions and unecesary stuff at the expense of our families necessities which made me kind of a bitch when it comes to money, aka i suck at spending money on myself/necessities, etc… And i am always hoarding it for no apparent reason, just like to have enough to not think "i can't afford buying that" but to instead think "i can definitely buy that, but i won't it's not worth it" which is arguably better anyway. So yeah, i will do everything in my power not to end up poor as a grownup, because it just sucks it's miserable, the constant feaf that we might have to sell our home to pay taxes (aka homelessness) or that my parents could end up in jail fucked me up