>♡ How did 2018 treat you? Was it a good, bad, or meh year?
A shit year.
>♡ Is there anything important you still want to do before 2018 ends?
Try to get into a routine again. It feels just as numbing with depression, but at least you are somewhat getting somewhere rather than nowhere as you walk along like a zombie.
I'd also like to pass this one class I'm in. Its final is tomorrow. But let's be honest, I probably won't. I'm going to try my best, though.
I also want to muster up the courage to get my hair professionally dyed.
I'd like to read a lot of books and finish the TV shows I started this year, too.
>♡ Did anything life changing happen? Did you reach any milestones?
I nearly died, my parents found out about my double life, I failed a class every quarter (including the summer quarter), I found out I couldn't switch to Computer Science, I am now trying to switch to another major, I started therapy, I got diagnosed with some mental illnesses but my psychiatrist refuses to test me for ADHD which would help me in school because I "need to deal with my other mental illnesses first" like you can just cure them with a magic wand, I got a job interview and if I get the job I can finally move out of my parents' which would help me immensely for many reasons, I got my driver's license, and I also turned 21 so I can now drink whenever I want instead of needing to use my "boyfriend" for alcohol. I still don't have any female friends like every other year of my life because I'm so limited by my parents and because I'm an ugly, decrepit person inside who takes pretty much anything as an attack on who I am.
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