Anyone else here who finds being a good person agonising? I hate morality and whenever someone tells me I need to change or I am doing something bad I want to scream

is it possible as a straight girl to be happy without ever being in a relationship with a man again?
i love women, but as friends only, and so i'd have to give up on dating entirely if i took the route of not dating scrotes.
sure, i had some fun times and it wasn't all bad, but ultimately the most i've gotten from having relationships with men was pain, anger and extreme amounts of stress, and i never want to go through that again, especially not for people that are less good looking, less intelligent and less thoughtful than me so don't even have much to offer except breaking my heart and acting scrotey.
i think that since my sex drive is very low and i'm also not much dependent on others this path might be easier than expected for me, but i think i might really miss a deep connection and the feeling of being in love.
anyone who took a similar decision?

Is anyone here a survivor of overdosing on fatal amounts? I'm 39.2 kilograms and I'm planning on taking 12000 mg of paracetamol, which is around 300mg/kg (fatal amount.) Is this going to fuck me up? I don't care anymore if it's slow and painful. Will I survive?

Are women who fall for pretty boys statistically more likely to be lesbians or bi and just be in denial about it? Or maybe some kind of subconscious reflex to avoid Andrew Tate-looking moids that could send you in the ER without even trying?

Women get told they'll "outgrow" being attracted to pretty boys after they stop being teenagers, but I haven't and it's still one of the only types of guys I can be physically attracted to. Sometimes it's made me wonder if it's not because I must be the world's most closeted lesbian.

Discuss.

I asked my FWB on a date and he rejected me

I need some advice. I recently found out that a friend of mine has been raped by someone close to her and this was not the first time.
Her parents pretend to not know or straight up blame her for it.
I'll be going to the police with her but I have no idea of what to do. Should I ask for a female police officer? Do I need to do something else? It's been some time it happened so I doubt there will be any evidence but I'm hoping that with a police report her parents might realize how serious the situation is and do something about it.

I'm in my mid/late 20s and have never had much luck with dating. I'm finally seeing a guy that seems like he might be interested in me but he only texts me last minute for dates and goes days without texting or responding to my texts. He works in a different state but comes to my state pretty often and he says he's very busy with work. When we are together, he's nice and we have fun (thought I can't tell if he's just nice or attracted to me). And he always contacts me again to go out again (though he's cancelled a few times due to last minute travel).

My friends say that I should let him go. And that men usually shower them with attention and affection and if a man doesn't do that, he doesn't like you. Tbh that doesn't make me feel very good but it does make sense. Guess I already know the answer but it sucks.

I have a small but relatively close group of friends with which I frequently interact with, yet I feel a great disconnect between my investment into said friendships and theirs.
I often feel as though I have to forcefully demand or arrange situations and behaviors I myself consider should come naturally out of them and yet don't. The word I keep coming back to again and again is "reciprocity". I feel as though the amount of emotional energy I put into fostering said friendships is greater than the amount that is reciprocated towards me, and has led throughout the years to a stable growth in resentment and bitterness in my treatment towards them.
Don't get me wrong, they are good people and never done anything to hurt me and in fact think highly of me, but the simple fact is that they have other stuff going on in their lives and I don't factor in that much in them, and I don't really have anyone else in my own life whilst they have. I am self-aware enough to realize that this is mainly an issue of my own emotional immaturity, but I really don't know how to deal with it, and it has led me to unhealthy behaviors which I would very much like to cease to carry on doing, such as: lashing out at them verbally for verily minor and trivial "offenses", making them pay for things despite being in a much better economical situation than them as a petty attempt to obtain a material "reciprocity" for my emotional investment (which is pointless anyway since I have no need for any of it anyway, it is mostly drugs and alcohol to numb myself and have a good enough disposition to interact with them in the first place), as well as simply ignoring them completely for a given amount of time until they show any signs of concern towards my person.
Yes, I am aware that those are indeed very assholeish things to do and I feel truly guilty for them, so my reason for making this thread aside from venting is to ask if anyone here has dealt with a situation similar to mine, and what can I do in order to deal with my emotional issues in a less harmful way?

Why do people accuse women of crying to get sympathy or crying to weaponize their tears? I'm not trying to do that I just have a hard time controlling them. I will just start to cry in front of my family members when they say I'm ungrateful and selfish, and then they accuse me of crying for sympathy. It's just so hard not to cry in front of people. I even cry when I have to talk to professionals like counselors or doctors.i just don't know how to hold it in.

So long story short, a while ago I pooned out, but recently I've been trying to go back to normal. However, since I was stressing a lot over the whole thing, I made the mistake of telling some people and now everyone knows. One of the TiFs I know signed me up for the troon club without my consent and now if I don't go she'll think I'm rude and weird. What do I do nonas? I'm panicking! How do I come back from this? Should I come back from this? Should I just accept it? Sometimes it feels nice when people use my troon name, I never liked my old one.