/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I feel like I'm so ugly without makeup. Even after being showered in compliments. I get many compliments from unattractive men. I never get any from men that are good looking. Tinder, instagram, real life

How do I cope?

(Coming from an ex 4chan user so not used to formatting yet sorry D: )

>be me, 11
>have 1 friend
>would force me to do crazy shit
>she is my only friend so i can’t do anything about it
>this continues for years, basically groomed me
>be me, 14, and now new stacy gets in the picture
>friend and stacy go home everyday together from school and hang out without me
>friend now barely talks to me
>gained some self respect and told her i never wanted to speak to her again

its been YEARS (almost 5) since i broke contact and i’ve actually been miserable. i dream about her every 2 weeks. i wake up so guilty. i just miss having actual people who ‘care’ about me but i can’t find any fucking friends. nobody replies to my messages and if i ever get invited somewhere its last minute. I fucking hate being girl because of the complicated psych spheres of everyone else. Its so painful to go through basic interactions that every time i speak i vouch it will be the last. I get such bad social embarrassment when people talk over me because nobody ever cares for what i have to say—but i always ask “what were you saying again? you never finished.” no one puts the same effort i give.

anyways, pic related because whenever i feel lonely i stab needles or pins into my callus because friend taught me about ‘skin sewing’ which is where you embroider designs into your hand with a sewing needle. i cant embroider well so i use old pins she gave me. we used to do this together and it makes me feel like i have a friend to hang out with. i actually talk to myself out loud when doing it to emulate a social situation. what do you guys do when your lonely for the hundredth time! seriously how do i make long lasting connections

Sorry if this is the wrong place for this. I met this chick online on a rp site and we seemed to hit it off well enough at first. I initially felt pity for her because she came off really weird and kind of autistic, oversharing things and treating me like her bff5evr when we really didn't know each other. Next thing I know, she's blowing a fuse over rp plots, constantly misunderstanding me and stressing me out. She'd convince me that it was my fault in those moments and she'd say manipulative shit all the time like, "I can't believe this is happening again! You knew I was worried about this! I thought we were friends. Are you my friend?" And my stupid traumatized ass would apologize for upsetting her. I stuck around thinking that we'd be able to get over her weird emotional outbursts with enough patience. Months later, I became an anxious mess and by the last argument I became embarrassingly hysterical from all the pent up resentment and fear that I said things I regret and ghosted her. She responded by emailing me with a written and audio recorded rant where she chastised me for ghosting her and gaslit me on what happened, then a day later sent me a random meme via email. I thought this was an olive branch, so I let her know that I didn't have her Discord info anymore since I unfriended her but that she was free to email me whenever or add me back if she wanted. She gave me her contact and said it was up to me. Well, my friends and family all told me she was abusive and to forget her so I never responded. Two months later I still feel bad. Has anyone else been through something like this? I can't make sense of this situation at all because on one had she made me gifts for my birthday and seemed really nice but the second something upsets her she goes off and treats me like she's only tolerating me for a while before it's business as usual. Right now she's back on the forum trying to get someone to play my exact character. I'm super confused on how to feel.

So I went to a weekend trip with my good friends I've known for years and I spend a lot of time with.
After a whole day with them I realized, I was fed up being with them. I like being with them with moderate amout of time, but after some point, I became really uncomfortable. They were just babbling, making stupid noise and laughing at idk what all time time. I just wanted to tell them to shut the fuck up for at least a while.
In the middle of night, I was really tired. We had one big bedroom and I'm very light sleeper. Another friend was already sleeping and we agreed to go to sleep, however other 2 stayed awake and keep gigling and talking loud even in the dark. It must've been around 2-3 pm. I was desperate and shouted on them to stop being so thoughtless when other people sleep. They immediately stoped and fell asleep. I've to say that they are good friends and always help when I'm in need. We are young and they want to have fun.

After this experience, I've realized the thing, I've writte above - I can't stand other people for longer period of time. The only one with whom I am comfortable is my bf - I don't know why. But everybody other, all my friends, family, everybody, just become pain in the ass soon or later. I'm a little bit in a shock. I've never had many friends and never knew why. Many of my relationships were quite shallow and I've never made a big group of firends unlike others. I think this is the reason why - I'm intolerant to other people. I always become irritated, tired and bothered of them. And I'm sad about it. Deep down, I've always wanted to be funny and popular, yet I don't even have any plans for summer, because nobody wants to be with me, becuase they probably feel it and I'm not even surprised.

I am SO sick of men. I'm not particularly a feminist or anything but they can be SO selfish. I have my male friends and some of them I care about deeply, but even they can be REALLY insensitive sometimes and all my guys on the internet have some obsession with making anti-woman "jokes" all the time (usually later I find out they're rarely even jokes, cuz they're usually hiding some obvious bitterness towards women) and they won't stop even though they know it hurts my feelings. They're so disrespectful they can't even not make a 'woman beating' joke when I'm trying to relay a story about how some woman in church was telling me about their experience being abused by their husband for 11 years, they think everything is theirs, for example demanding that they can be misogynistic on my discord, with excuses like 'free speech'even though that makes no sense and I just am trying to create a healthy space for me and my female friends.

They're so damn entitled. Can we have a vent thread on times men have been complete dicks to us?

At what age did you understand there was no point trying to date spermbrained sloths and you'd be happier unmarried?

my wife didn't have sex with me last night.
I feel really horny, angry, and depressed.
how can I motivate her to leave work and come home and fuck me. right now.

Im lonely, the only person I have is my mentally unstable long distance boyfriend who i do not love but who blackmails me to be with him. I am 18 and I graduate highschool in 2 months and have no clue what I am going to do
I feel like Im constantly grieving for who I was 3 years ago because even though I was bitterly lonely then, at least I had online friends to help me cope and wasnt trapped in a miserable relationship with a manchild. And at least then, I had some hope. I didnt need to have everything figured out, to have a job and a license. I had so much time
I know people will tell me its not over yet at 18 but it really feels over

He’s a small streamer and really mature for a twitch person. He has a sweet, gentle, deep voice, and plays a lot of old school games that I like. He’s also just really nice and pretty handsome but he rarely does face cam. I don’t know if he likes me back, but he seems to notice me and often plays games I suggest to him. I also opened up in his discord server about bad experiences I’ve had with guys and afterward he coincidentally did a fundraiser stream for a charity that helps abuse survivors, so he clearly pays attention to me and is a kind person. I figured out that he surprisingly lives near me too and is gonna be at a convention this year. I wish I could make a move on him but he’s like, probably a responsible type who wouldn’t date his subscribers. I don’t know what to do, my heart is throbbing for this nerd.

Men are far more satisfied with self-focused and solitary lives. Being unable to socialize hits a woman much harder because we're more socially driven. Yet men get a loneliness epidemic and we don't. Why? Do we not vocalize how we feel enough? What's the board's thoughts?