>>112321Yeah good luck nona. If you can get that much going, you'll at least be able to go about your days without hating everything about your life including your job. I'll take self-dissatisfaction and a feeling of missed potential any day over constant stress, poverty, and no way to escape.
Of course I only really have myself to blame for said dissatisfaction - and so I do. But it's certainly a starting place.
>>112326You know I always hated schedules too and never did pomodoro but looking back it would probably have been helpful for actually getting things done better. Nothing feels better than the rare days where I finish my obligations so my free time is actually FREE, without being eaten away by constant remorse over things I should have done or even should be doing.
And the idea of just timeblocking some work time, short enough that it's easy to just focus on "getting through it" till the next break without trying to cheat by whiling away the time - that sounds like a fantastic tool to give yourself peace of mind, AND also get things done in the process because you're using that time to ACTUALLY work.
Shit, I should try out doing that nowadays even, it might help me in my job honestly.
Taking a walk and stretching during your break is probably best from a physiological perspective, keep the blood flowing and relax your eyes from staring at the screen. Maybe having something interesting to thinker with (still outside the screen) would be good - a puzzle you want to finish so spend a couple minutes laying out the pieces, some handicraft project you tinker with a bit to make a small bit of progress. Or grab a slice of apple and a glass of water.
Sincerely wish you the best of luck in getting back on track, nona. Sounds like you really need to focus on these next couple of months, maybe even to the detriment of enjoying life (in a way that wouldn't be sustainable long-term), which definitely isn't ideal - but if you pull through then it will be worth it.