I know motherhood is an extremely difficult thing in general but I spoke with her recently and she said somethings that made me question if she would be far better off if I hadn't been born.
a bit of background info her marriage with my father was ok I like to think my father is a nice man he's always protected me and loved my mother not remarrying even 16 years later but after I was born the stress it placed on my family tore them apart she hated having to spend all her time taking care of me and after 2 years she had enough told my father she wanted a divorce and left us she felt awful about this don't get me wrong I know she loves me and cares about me she even paid for me to come visit her but she sacrificed so much to have me she left behind friends her job her dreams of being a musician some of my aunts completely cut her off after she left me with my father and I can't stop feeling so guilty about this.

I'm curious if anyone else has had similar thoughts or feelings though advice or anything else relating to ruining your parents life is welcome
p.s I know its a long stretch I don't know how many parents use CC I cant imagine many but any perspective from the parent side would be appreciated as well

I've been out of work for over a year and a half because of a harassment incident at a previous job made me too terrified to go out in public by myself. I think i'm ready to apply for a new job but i'm unvaccinated because obvious reasons and am scared the interviewer will make a big deal of it. Do people still care about that? Also confrontation advice is apprecited.

I am absolute failure as woman and I don't understand why my boyfriend would want to be with me. I am ugly, don't know latest fashion trends, terms, I barely care about how I look aside from showering everyday and using clean clothes. Makeup feels icky to me. My boyfriend knows more about fashion than I. It's my suspicion that I'm on spectrum (will be getting assessed soon). Its embarassing. He says he loves that I'm awkward and introverted since he's same, but it's not true. I bet people acknowledge is presence and want to talk to him even if he's man of few words. Whereas with me, I'm invisible to everyone. Many times people see right through me.
I just wish my boyfriend takes off his rose tinted goggles and sees what a trainwreck I am

My first boyfriend turned out to be a porn addict. He was also generally a loser. I wish I had the confidence I have now.

>has a foot-fetish and wanted footjobs
>wanted me to watch porn with him, which was one of the most mood-killing experiences I ever had

I broke up with him not soon after he asked me to try anal. I hate how that's a thing now. I hate how so many moids can't enjoy normal sex anymore and demand these weird things from you.

I'm worried my daddy issues are worse than I thought.

I'm starting to be drawn to an older man (almost twice my age, I'm 22). I know I'm just drawn to the interest he's showing and the way he could offer financial security, but that awareness doesn't make the feelings go away. I'm having a lot of fantasies about being taken care of emotionally and financially.

Tell me your stories, good or bad, about being with or hit on by older men. Share red flags and their tactics.

>finally fall in love with a guy
>he’s gay
why? why are all the good ones fags?

My brain is in a constant loop. I met this artist I was a fan of (I won’t reveal her name, she’s not a big celebrity or anything) back in 2020 after knowing her parasocially for a long time and casually looking at her stuff. I knew somewhere in my gut that maybe we might meet someday, and I can’t explain it. Then, we started to interact on discord and stuff (I got in through a link on a stream) and we became friends, maybe not as good as her other friends but friends. Then, the chat started dying around mid fall and I started talking a bunch of shit there to keep it alive so I could keep talking to her (she did not like dms). It wasn’t justified, but it was 2020 so I’m pretty sure a lot of people can relate to not being in the best mood. They seemed like the type of people to like gossip, but this backfired. Understandably, was a major turn off to her and her friends. They tried communicating to me that they didn’t want me there anymore, but my tone deaf ass just couldn’t take the hint. Eventually, they were explicit about their feelings, told me they had another server that wasn’t dead, and kicked me on February 11th, 2021, and drew some terrible pictures of me 4 days later on my birthday.

I was heartbroken. It became a weird relationship. I still viewed her content, but as a parasocial outsider that couldn’t interact, a vow that we made together. I talked about her to my therapist whenever I could. Around fall 2021, I began to become less obsessed, but still sort of obsessed. I eventually did make new friends, never talked about her, and become a better person, but it didn’t help. Internally, I still thought about her to a weird degree. Every two weeks or so, I check up on her. Even though her content is behind a paywall, I still try to make out what her art looks like through blurriness. Half of the notes on my phone are still about her friend group, and it’s usually jokes I use to cope. We haven’t talked at all besides me wishing her happy birthday and one other thing where she basically told me the same thing: saying respectfully that we’re not friends for now and not to talk to her, but that was 10 months ago. It’s been a year and a half since when I was kicked, and I still catch myself thinking about her way too much sometimes, I’m not even a big fan of her anymore, even though I know I don’t have to prove myself to anyone I think I just hate that she met me when I was some bitch. I try to distract myself with other things, but those oftenPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

I know that the general consensus is that someone who cheats doesn’t love their SO but that’s not how I feel. I was in another city, got very drunk, connected with someone and we kissed. Before I left there were instances where I wasn’t feeling loved by my bf but I didn’t speak up bc I felt that I was being unreasonable. When I cheated I wrote to him first thing. We talked a lot and unanimously decided to break up bc we didn’t love each other in the same way anymore, but because we live together and he hadn’t gotten a new place yet, we continued to spend time together and all of a sudden it was like we were falling deeply in love again. Am I being toxic for still wanting to be with him now that I feel like we can love again? When he’s away I miss him so much, and he writes to me like normal but I can’t help but feel that I’m a deeply immoral person that doesn’t deserve him. Do I have to break up with him for his sake even if I love him?

Anyone else fell for all this incelish desperate rhetoric that even the most normie moids on the internet repeat like a mantra every chance they get?

>I would take ANY woman that showed interest in me
>Just dont be a landwhale theory
>Ryan Reynolds sadboi edit with a caption about how women get complimments every day and guys still cherish the random crackhead that complimented their shoes in 6th August 2007
>I wish women made the first move

But somehow I got rejected the most cruel way by a guy. He lost all respect for me (which i understand bc they dont respect themselves, why would they respect someone who fell in love with a malnourished hentai addict borderline-hikikomori?). Everyone is entitled to reject anyone they don't like but the thing is: men are empty vessels, they are soulless beings so once you have inflated his ego by making the huge mistake of being vulnerable, they will ruthlessly ridicule you, treat you like a circus monster and be extremly disgusted by you.

And this is the best case scenario tbh, men lose whatever little interest they had in you when you make the first move, so even if they dont reject you on the spot, they will just use you for sex and make 0 effort into the relationship.

"Maybe he's just shy" no man is shy enough to not approach the woman he likes. "Maybe he doesn't know i like him" he does lol, he doesnt care. "Im tired of waiting for men i like to make the first move so i will get this over myself" then suffer the consequences.

Maybe after all gender roles exist for a reason.

I'm very ugly
I'm so jealous of the way other women are treated I wanna scream
I'm miserable and nobody irl sees me as worthy of a scrap of attention, I'm engaged and I have a career path and all of the things that are supposed to make me happy but being "the ugly one" everywhere makes me feel so worthless and I just can't have the kind of life I want
the better I put myself together the more disappointed I am in the end
I've put so much effort into my appearance my whole life and I've gotten nowhere
I just rolled badly with the shape of my face and body and I'm sick of moping around trying to find tiny things that make me happy and stuffing back the urge to jump into the river
I just wanna be seen as beautiful, desirable, I'm fully convinced nothing else will change how I feel, it's the only thing I really value, I'm never going to get to enjoy my youth, I just missed out
it's unfair, I didn't even get the perks of being ugly because I'm not repulsive I'm just like, a three, I was still raped as a child
the more I try to socialize the bleaker things look
I think I'm probably going to have a pretty misserable rest of my life and I miss being closer to killing myself I felt like I had a goal kinda, for lack of a better word
I would eventually stop feeling like this
but now, I have too many obligations and I just have an unknown number of decades of misery stretched out infront of me, there's nothing for me to overcome, the obstacle is the shape of my fucking skeleton,
I just don't think I can stomach any more of my life idk wut I'm gonna do
I don't have the option of suicide
too many people that I care about would be hurt, so I'm just going to keep sucking it up
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