>>44204
Writing this from my bf's sofa. I'm living with him. All gucci.
Don't let anyone tell you LDRs aren't real. It's as real as both of you decide. You'll be fine.

>ldr for 4 years
>both isolated shut-ins who find it euphoric to finally connect with another human being (it's so much better than nothing)
>strong trust, no worries about cheating since we both barely talk to people irl anyway
>help each other with confidence
>spend whole months just being comfy together
I blew it earlier this month, blocked now. I have this issue where periodically I have trouble remembering where/who I am and it makes me feel afraid. Sometimes it gets strong and is like a panic attack, and I'll cry frantic nonsense at people because I feel disproportionately endangered. obviously this is highly stressful for others
I know it's wrong to have just one person in your life to support something like this, and I realize that I was overstepping boundaries a lot by being super clingy or aggressive. I can't really make excuses because I honestly was really unreasonable and threatening I just wish I could do better.
I feel pathetic for feeling so crushed by someone I've never met, but this person is still the closest I've ever been to someone and now I have nobody again.

>>50728
And to add to that most insurance doesn't cover anything lol. Just read stories about Americans who make like 12/hr, have insurance through the company that's paying them but will have to end up ditching out $5000> if the deductible is a certain rate or they simply just choose not to pay for whatever. They can also choose not to pay for much needed things as well and practically no insurances cover that 1-6k bill. Most Americans are suffering and it's completely ignorant to assume someone is set just because they have insurance

>>65179
That's horrible, I'm sorry Anonette. Even if you two never met in person, they still meant a lot to you, so don't feel pathetic. There are plenty of others out there looking for something special just like you, so don't give up! Do you take any meds for your outbursts or disorientation?

>>65285
Thanks for the kind words. I don't take meds right now. I was forced to take several meds as a kid and it messed with my body so I have a lot of discomfort with medication now. I'm hoping to do some specialized types of therapy like EMDR first and keep drug-related stuff as a last resort.

>>65009
>What do you do when you crush on someone?
I get nervous when around him and feel like crying when I think I do something stupid while he's watching. I'm too much of a coward to take the first step.

>Is it bad that I sometimes ignore or ghost him?
Not if you don't see yourself in a relationship with him in the future.

>>65009
I also ignore my crush because im nervous and feel like i might say the wrong thing and i care too much about what he thinks of me. I stalk his social medias and every girl he follows. and i become interested in his interests and copy things about him.

>>65009
>What do you do when you crush on someone?
I usually try to suppress it and avoid the person I like. I am getting better though in learning to "sit in it" rather than running away.

>Is it bad that I sometimes ignore or ghost him?
it sounds like you have self esteem/attachment issues anon. I really reccomend you do more research on the topic if you are open to it! Doing so has personally helped me get less nervous around people in general, and I believe that if I keep going, I could eventually try to approach someone I like :)

I no longer crush, i avoid making eye contact with potential lovers as much as possible, another heartbreak would kill.

>What do you do when you crush on someone?
Me, I become a nervous wreck. I feel like everything I say or do is cringe, and want to curl up in my own shell.
>Is it bad that I sometimes ignore or ghost him?
In my case it’s her (am lesbian), and yeah I’d say it’s pretty bad… since she blocked me recently. Can’t blame her, I guess. Idk what I expected. I think I just took too long to reply this time. Maybe I was waiting for her to ask me if everything’s okay, which was stupid of me, but yeah.

>>663
letting my ex keep our kids when we split up.

>>970
I feel that. Did a science degree. Didn't have good enough grades to do anything with it. Now in the final throes of a techie degree, but not sure I like it enough to finish. I finally have a decent job but everything would have been a lot smoother if I had the willpower to do things right the first time.

>>663
Joining the army.

everything

rn i wish that i had friends who were serious about game art or that i went to a better psychiatrist that could have made me admit my retardation and helped me with it and not have fucked me up with zoloft and benzos like literally wtf i dont want to think about how fucked up that was

>>663
I regret not taking the time to spend more time on my hobbies during hs. Im a khv, but i honestly didnt care about that, I just wish I learned and did more of the things I liked. At least I am doing it now, but it would have been helpful back then too..

I wish to stop having ADD. More realistically, I wish my country would legalize Adderall

I want to attend a top tier uni, like Ivy/Oxbridge/etc for a masters.

I used to think these things were impossible, but having met a handful of people who attended these, or went on to attend them, none of them were mega geniuses. In fact, they just seemed to apply themselves well when it came to studying and were sharper than average in their subject (but sometimes dumber than average in other things).

Oh, and all of them were incredibly full of themselves but I guess I can fake that. I suppose you need to have self confidence to apply for these things.

I wish I could stop being dead inside

I want a job that pays well… I want to be able to travel while working, so I can get a taste of life in other places too.
I want to be able to afford the newest fancy tech gadgets, too.

>>1652
I want to hug and kiss a good fellow

>only one person was recommending the pacific northwest
Yes, the southwest has much better weather and it constantly rains in washington and oregon. Oh boy do I wish I could live in Colorado

>>61552
>California
>good

stop moving to California.

>>62284
>>62248
>>62250

Its over

Just my opinion, buuut… California sucks booty, why would you wanna come here, it's hot af, dry, dusty, everything is fucking expensive, it's bright AF too. (Well, this is all depending on where you go. Can't really speak for Norcal. Guess they got trees and shit.) I don't think I need to tell you about the cities.

But definitely don't just jump into anything, Anon. I'm going to leave when I can, personally. Idk where I'll go. Somewhere nice and green and rainy, that experiences something called "snow," maybe. Have a choccy milk and rethink this, think about what you really want. Things might get better. Or they'll get worse, or just stay the same. But don't believe every little thing you hear. Including from me.

>>61781 actually, I was moving my moms couch the day before yesterday, and there was a dead scorpion underneath. I didn't notice it, if it was alive it could've gotten me lmao. Second time we found one in the house

And one time I was just chilling on my bed, and I look down randomly and a brown recluse was right next to my leg, it was a big ass one, too. Creepy.

>>63959
That's 'cause any true resident doesn't want any more out of state people moving to the PNW. The house prices are already out of control.

t. person who rages inside every time she sees a car with out of state plates, especially that one that said 420 FUN.

>>65228
funny thing is hes been posted there before and they dont even know half of what hes done. but i cant do that. he will know its me and then go after me.
and i dont want drama. i just want him to stop. i want to forget it all.

>>65228
NYPA
you have to provide actual milk and receipts of his behaviour else nothing will happen

>>65231
Anon said she has receipts, and the milk is on his public SM.

>>65220
You should just avoid feeding anyones ego anymore you sound like you walked right into it.

>>65229
Youre seriously still calling this guy an influencer? He sounds like a washed up turd =o

>>63751
You're asking for suffering and misery. If you have a good roommate don't fuck it up theyre rare. Don't screw yourself, you might have to vet 80k more people before you find something like that again.

>>64419
She knew him for 3 weeks, I don't think she loves him.

He won't turn you down unless you're very ugly, men don't turn women down.

>>65157
Don't listen to this retard

If you wanna confess, make sure that he likes your back first. If you don't see any signs, don't do it, it would be too risky.

>>65157
Booty call isn't love and my guess is she won't like it if it's like this. Moids won't turn you down, but won't always want a relationship tho
And remember that good looking and tall are quite wanted so this probably means multiple girls are into him just because of that (depending on how much tho).
So don't rush unless you want dick from pretty boi

Yeah this is something some girls do, particularly the really pretty ones with nice hair and clothes, but they only do it in groups. I can never tell what they say but whenever on the tram or subway if I'm in a cart with a couple of them I can feel their eyes on me and know they're saying and gossiping about me. It makes me want to cry.

>>65148
Because they know how easy it is to laugh at teenage girls.

Sometimes idk what to do because everyone’s expectation of me is to either get a job or get married and start a family but the truth is I have an aversion to hard work and am extremely lazy and both of those things require so much investment of energy and time. I honestly just wanna sit around.

>>62819
u aint gonna do shit. just lmao @ ur life and keep waging away

>>62819
blame the system

>>62819
>I expect that soon you will have to become like me or die.

Sounds like a parody of a wagie

you live my dream life. unfortunately i was born stupid and to poor parents. therefore i cant live my neet dream