Hey there Anonette! It's >>22014>You opened my eyes to the fact that any time I feel strong emotions that aren't just entirely negative, I should appreciate it.
It's awesome you've realized that. I think that, when you're not used to heavy emotions (like I used to be), any emotion kinda makes you panic because it's unknown for you. And hey, even negative emotions can be treasured. I think melancholia is beautiful.
I'll talk about myself here a bit but, maybe you've felt something like this…
I remember watching soap operas or listening to love songs and thinking I couldn't understand how people experience this kind of things, and expecting I'd never feel anything remotely simmilar. Then life started to happen and it was incredibly messy, because I had literally no emotional experience (I think I kinda inherited my mom's coldness) and it was a complete rush of blood to the head. I think that's why silly things that may seem normal for most people wreak chaos in my autistic little world.>I wrote it to the guy I ended up cuddling with, and it pretty much was exactly as I said - Since it happened while I was still panicking I think I may have made it out worse than it was
How exactly? What did you wrote to him? And what did he say? I'm genuinely curious>Do you think I should try messaging him again sometime, maybe just a meme to see what he responds with since when we were together we showed eachother memes?
Maybe, or you could also let him message you first, play a little. I had a friend who helped me a lot to overcome my social anxiety. She taught me it's all like a game, but not like a game where you fool people and toy around with them, but like a dance, or a game between two kids meeting in a park. It's a place without rules where you learn or make up the rules as you go, it's a lot about having fun and letting yourself go.
Also, do you have any girl friends that you're talking to about this? It's always easier if you share.
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