/feels/ - Advice & Venting

>If you are genuinely good person, calm, kind, considerate, respectful, people view you as a doormat
>Kindness is typically about focusing on others, being considerate, and people often call such people doormats
>Slowly realizing that being a nice girl gets me taken advantage of
>The moment I stop making an effort in the friendship or relationship, everything stops

What do? How can I put myself first and stop being selfless for others with hopes that they might be my friend(s) or boyfriend?

All I can think is about suicide and killing my parents, I haven’t felt like this in a while
I’m not going to kill them, I can’t stop having dreams about it and I have no energy

My room is cold and no one is expecting me, I live with my abusive parents and my sister whom I had to raise and is in a rebellious phase

I just want to die, I feel horrible all the time I don’t know what to do I don’t want to hang myself in that cold messy bedroom but I don’t know how much time I can get myself alive

And how can one be making a mistake for thinking this way? Since they're obviously traitors to the other side and upholding the worst aspects of patriarchy ?

Anyone else here struggle with being extremely limerant/obsessed with certain people? I’d like to hear your stories. Rather not tell mine though.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Limerence

This is my second year after high school, and I switched majors, so I will no longer be with my former "friends." I panicked when they asked me during the summer because I thought they had forgotten about me, so I lied and told them I’d still be with them. We started officially this week, and I’m considering testing something out. I’m planning on pretending to study with them for at least a week, then I’ll find a time to gather them all in one place and tell them that I’m leaving to see their reaction. I even made a speech where I mention how I first met them and something good they did for me or we did together. But on one hand, I don’t think I’ll ever get a chance like this to see what others see in me, and on the other hand, I’m afraid they’ll take it the wrong way.

Talking to his guy online and he's being such a sweetheart to me and idk if I should feel bad Abt the fact all the pics I show him of me are in heavy makeup and a bit of editing it feels so disingenuous and I told him I would never let him see me without makeup (bc I'm insecure Abt my eyesbags and nasolabial folds at the hag age of 22 like I can't help it I was born with chubby cheeks and anemia) and he says he doesn't care and that I'd still be pretty without makeup but I genuinely don't think so and I'll never ever feel comfortable being make-up -less around men

Why do they expect women to protect them from their sexuality?

They force us to live with porn, child porn, child sex trafficking, pedophile sex tourism, nonconsensual ai porn, hidden cameras, stolen publicized sex videos that were supposed to be private, trannies and their hypocrisy, rapists, mass murderers, mass rapists, rapists who only get 7 years in prison. child rape victims now being forced to give birth. denied access to abortion, even to save your life. the taliban, the islamofaggotry.

And I'm offensive because i look at yaoi? They're offended i will skip paying attention to old men? I mean is it any surprise? I hate the degenerates in real life and want nothing to do with them. At this point in my life i want fantasy and lifelong separatism so i can feel free and not have to take the chance of being around the overbearing entitled presence of a man. That's it really. It just comes down to not complicating my life further. I really don't know WHY i am supposed to be attracted to them.

But i increasingly find it shocking and bewildering that we put so much effort into protecting degenerates from our sexuality. Like we actually feel any shame at all? Why exactly? Don't they WANT to live in the jungle? Wasn't that their game from the start?

I don't care how much they're ruled by sex. I'd rather live in a room with an aggressive cat. In the grand scheme of things im supposed to pretend they're all potential nice guys why? Who does that benefit and how much do i miss out? I want to mace all men in the face when subjected to the thought i should protect them from my sexuality because it is so ludicrous and outrageous that my sexuality could ever come close to eclipsing their filthmongering.

Picrel is me as the proud depraved lizard i am

I am SO sick of men. I'm not particularly a feminist or anything but they can be SO selfish. I have my male friends and some of them I care about deeply, but even they can be REALLY insensitive sometimes and all my guys on the internet have some obsession with making anti-woman "jokes" all the time (usually later I find out they're rarely even jokes, cuz they're usually hiding some obvious bitterness towards women) and they won't stop even though they know it hurts my feelings. They're so disrespectful they can't even not make a 'woman beating' joke when I'm trying to relay a story about how some woman in church was telling me about their experience being abused by their husband for 11 years, they think everything is theirs, for example demanding that they can be misogynistic on my discord, with excuses like 'free speech'even though that makes no sense and I just am trying to create a healthy space for me and my female friends.

They're so damn entitled. Can we have a vent thread on times men have been complete dicks to us?

ts not even the fact that were oversexualized. That ive just accepted. Its the fact that a man will almost never ever completely respect you. Because women are supposed to be fucking passive little lambs whos argument doesnt stand a chance against a man. A man will scoff at you if anything you say if he disagrees with, he doesnt even try to understand. He just deems you as silly. And if hes rude to you and your offended, forget about it. Now your an overreactor ruled by your emotions.