/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I've been having these strange dreams where I can feel something following me around my neighborhood but can't run away from it. It feels so creepy because I can recognize these places but they feel slightly off. And then when I wake up my body feels heavy and I don't know what's happening.

>>40050
>strange dreams where I can feel something following me around my neighborhood
>and then when I wake up my body feels heavy and I don't know what's happening
Might I suggest some new bedroom decor? Maybe a titanium door that seals from the outside? Some barred windows? Maybe reinforcing your walls, ceiling, and floor?

i just woke up from a weird ass dream where there was a new seasonal anime about demon hunters in this one high school and the main villain was this sephiroth looking moid

Yesterday morning I dreamed of having my period. I woke up at 4am without any stains and ended up preventing an accident.

I just dreamed I was invited to Eurofurence. Oh dear.

>>37847
Am I the only one who thinks he still looks cute?

>>18056
It's time to become a wine aunt.

>>37883
I think a lot of it is true. A lot of my classmates look like they’re in their 40s at 30. Buuuut like you said, a lot of it is drinking/smoking/partying. Hard to say.

>>30787
>recently mistaken for a 14-year-old
Happens to me in my mid 20s too, but it makes me feel very uncomfortable for some reason

>>40086
Imagine thinking grooming a 13 year old is ok

Where the fuck are you from where they have no problem with this anon

>>40087
Don't respond, it's obvi a pathetic no-life moid trying to get attention.

>>40089
Imagine being ok with a freshman in college fucking a middle schooler

>>40014
>its normal and reasonable to feel distrust towards men now
while this statement is true, you always need to be aware of danger, its important to remember that you're in control now. don't let this fear and paranoia run your life.

>>40095
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>>40092
Thank you girls for the support :( i had less trouble sleeping last night but thats only because i was too exhausted for thinking
I live in south america so even though im 18 it would be really expensive to have a therapist
I dont know if I want a boyfriend right now, or at least one irl. If I already feel bad about having those pictures up irl imagine how i'd feel if I lost my virginity to someone who doesnt want me after that

>>38979
Americans are extremely likely to overreport their non-English ancestry and to ignore English roots. If we were to believe survey results, the average "John Smith" in America is an Irish-German. Americans being of British height rather than German height makes sense.

>>38981
this poster is correct >>38979
There is also something called the 'founder effect' even though your recent ancestry might be mostly german, in the big picture many of the people will be very largely anglo-saxon

>>38984
got the replies the wrong way around, lol

>>38953
Most German-speaking people have no close genetic relation to original Germanic-speakers (Nordics), it depends more on where exactly they're from. Germany was once the Celtic heartland. As for Anglos, it depends on location. Some are practically the same as Southern Swedes and Danes both because of Anglo settlers and later Norse settlers. Like with most Germans, most Brits slowly shifted to Germanic languages/dialects though the languages in Britain remained strong in their areas until modern colonial practices and the damaging effects of mass communication too.

One thing not often mentioned is that many of these Celtic-speakers were already Christian and had heavy intake of Roman culture and their own dialect of Latin. Irish missionaries were instrumental in Christianising Anglos and through that transferring Roman/Christian culture.

>>37762
handsome, tall, deep voice with a gym body
is emotionally intelligent and a very good listener

let me guess hes german ?
when i lived in russia i met there two exchange student from germany that was very much like this.
Thank god germans cant resists slavic women

>>39970
but my only chance is meeting girls online bc i dont go anywhere

>>39953
Shiogami is a pretty cool guy.

>>39969
So if online "dating" is easy for most het girls, hard for most het guys, easy as fuck for gays, does that mean it is really difficult for lesbians?

>>39973
all the benefits of not being with a scrote while inheriting the drawbacks of being one

>>39973
>does that mean it is really difficult for lesbians?
Not if you're up for a LDR.
Had a friend who had several e-gfs from various places online, but she was lowkey the Chad in >>39965 (and joked about being one). For the less charismatic and more timid of us it may pose a challenge.

Not sure about apps though (aside from the usual unicorn hunter complaints), also have never tried either myself.

It does sound like you're family is either ignoring your mental illness or you're doing an exceptional job disguising it. Either way, what do you want to do about it?

Reading your story was like reading my own diary, desu. All the characters and even the narrator are screwed up. I don't know the answer to your problems, other than to keep living. Both the past and the future make you want to die, but the present you can deal with, right? People say you need a lot of things to be happy, but you don't really need anything but the present moment. There are no requirements for happiness, or people who don't deserve it. Allow yourself to feel positive emotion, then you can think about fixing your problems.
>I'm so scared of failing those exams and thus resulting in all those years of going to school and uni being for nothing
All those years, just for a piece of paper? Surely, your life is worth much more than that. You are not the same person as when you started school, surely you have grown, learned to work hard, discovered things about yourself. In this fucking absurd world, you gave it your best shot. Be proud. Stop punishing yourself.

I don't think they're the best of people, your family. Even if they do care about you, they're doing it all wrong. So, stop waiting on other people to save you. This might be just nonsense, however, I have a suspicion, that you already know that they aren't going to do anything. Maybe you don't even really want them to do anything. Being abandoned and other people acting nasty to you - it feels like vindication. It feels good to be proven right. But really, do move on. Try to help them yourself, maybe they will give something back.

And do you really need to be saved in the first place? Anxiety builds everything up in your head, until you can no longer deal with it. But in reality, things are never as hard or tough as you make them out to be. You're probably going to pass your exams. Stop living as if the world is going to end any minute.

There is a point in life were you need to carry on with your choices, mistakes, flaus, and fears in order to be independent. You need to stop blaming your family, even if the fault is mostly theirs, and take responsability for yourself, otherwise you will never be independent enough to solve your own problems. At this point in your life, only you can solve this, and only by your own. Friends cant help, family cant help, a boyfriend cant help, not even a cat. Rather you focus on your studies or you accept the low pay shity job.
Finish college, get a job, get a floor for yourself. Then and only then life opens up for real, and you get real freedom.
expecting something from your parents or your sister wont bring you anything, or being self compassionate for not being social.
If it is to much pain and lonleyness and you start bing eating or getting thiner look for help within yourself first. Love yourself. Protect yourself. Apreciate yourself. Because people wont be doing it if you dont do it first.
With this being said, you are great person, someone that deserves better than this, I hope you overcome this sis!

Sorry anon you had to go through neglect and abuse from your family and peers. Youre parents shouldve been there to support you. Its not your fault.Now your older and time has passed and you got important stuff to focus on, you and your test and etc.

You have to pick yourself up, i know its really hard to do. But you have to. Youre a big girl now and youre the only one who can do it. Someday youll find a friend or few who will be like actual family that will join you on the ride to growing as a person. Just let things fall into place.

Imagine your nearest goal and strive for it. Try your best on the test. Don't be too hard on yourself. Try to find local community support groups? But really try to pick yourself up and then later on when its available get a therapist. Eat right, exercise (walk, dance, run, body weight exercises, anything to move and let anxiety out), drink water, get sunlight, listen to bossa nova perhaps?, watch funny things, look at cute pics, wear your favorite lotion, wear nice perfume (oil based is much lovelier on the nose than alcohol based) Good luck on the test and please try to not be so hard on yourself!

That's a very retarded anime pic.

>>38685
>The only leadership position I have ever gotten in sports/clubs at school were due to there being no other options for people to vote for. I have been selected for many things throughout the years. While I am grateful for it, I was never given these things due to any value of my own, but simply because I was there. Imposters syndrome vibes.
>I have been told both to my face and behind my back in my old job that I’m not as good as the model employee of the hour (who usually would either quit or fuck up in a spectacular fashion a few days later). It was a toxic work environment for sure but it always sucked that someone who remained loyal for as long as I could (mostly because I wasn’t sure I could get another job) was constantly looked over for everything.

Same. I've never gotten any leadership position or job when there has been any remote competition. When I do have these things I put in a lot of work but I've also noticed that when a first choice is stuck in people's minds it's very hard to surpass that, even if the first choice is clearly worse than me.

>Probably the thing the hurts me the most is that I’m usually the second choice for people to hang out with or talk to, including my own mother. Over the years, all of my “best friends” viewed me as little more than a second-class friend and now I have no one because they’ve all left.

I'm the second child and second choice child too. It's part of the reason I cut contact with my parents. My mother would ignore me when my sister was there. I didn't have a best friend until I was 11. I had a few after that but they always ditched me for someone else or it was one sided. I haven't had a close friend in about a decade. I had a few not close friends that used me until recently but I grew a backbone and ditched them all. Now I've just resigned myself to being alone.

>I think it’s just a symptom of being outwardly easygoing. No one is afraid of hurting your feelings by not choosing you for things because you won’t throw a fit. People may not like a petulant toddler but they’ll do whatever they can to keep them from screaming

Very interesting, I had never thought of it this way before. I definitely had a problem with lacking boundaries when I was younPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>38659
maybe you should stop worrying about that
les claypool tried out for metallica as a bass player, they didnt pick him, he went on to be the frontman of Primus and is regarded as one of the best bass players ever
stop trying to join metallica, Imagine being stuck being the bass player for metallica
Primus sucks, metallica is just shit

>>38659
Yeah, at some point you just realize that there is always someone better than you.

>>39906
I understand what you're saying but I feel that it's hard to apply that to the situations I mentioned. Family for example, am I just supposed to forget about my parents and find new parents?

I've gone alone before and attracted a new bf or bbf to me yet I get ditched when they find someone new or the person they really want comes back.

I don't think the issue is trying to fit in but not being good enough for people to stay or attracting the type of people who will never stay.

>>38679
lmfao nice one

>>39672
This seems modern and entirely european in terms, values, and purpose.

>>39533
to live longer than people you hat

>>39908
>you hat
Rude. OP was only asking a question.

>>39914
I think it was a typo and she meant to say
>to live longer than people you hate

>>39665
Are you sure you didn't reply to the wrong post. I admit I'm not lesbian nor bisexual (sadly) but I find her kind of attractive in other pictures. Just not in this one.

>>39663
There are amateur couples that film together, that I think are cute.

https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5e0aade7baa52

>>36663
Just give them an ultimatum. Like, fuck, if they won't change for you then it's not worth it.

>>39685
Nah I've seen her in other pictures and she's not that great. Mia Khalifa is cute but I really don't like her titjob.

>>39368
>200lbs
>looks skinnier than people at 155
is she like six feet tall?

>>39897
As much as FDS would tell you otherwise, masturbation to pornography and multiple sexual partners has the same effect.

sexual attitudes in the US are retarded (among everything else thats ass backwards), I feel like a foreigner visiting half the time, they want purity and sluttiness at the same time, but they fucking hate actual slutty people and especially women who fuck whoever they want and they simultaneously hate people who dont have sex

>>39898
humans are a promiscuous species, so much so we still orgasm past reproductive years, average sex partner couples last 5-7 years, likelyhood of cheating basically grows exponentially after that

>>39899
>different people have different opinions
Damn, that's crazy.