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feels like both the internet and irl are dead
I cut off tiktok. It was a spur of the moment decision. I haven't been feeling really well. I'm restless. Cognitively, I'm incapable of forming even the most basic processes, or even organizing my thoughts (few as they are). I no longer have dreams, aspirations or goals. My brain is a barren field. So creatively bankcrupt I could no longer even maladaptively daydream.
But all these are symptoms of a bigger problem. Doom-scrolling is just escapism. I've been marinating in all the painfull sadness and misery all afternoon and evening. I broke down thrice. I don't feel good. I'm wasting my life. I have no plans. I have 1.2 friends. I have 1 (ONE) failed situationship and no boyfriend. I'm so delusional I feel physical pain. It hurts. It's always going to be like this.
You know what fucking kills me? Is how crippled and helpless I act. And I'm not nearly sick enough (or even sick at all, I'm just a moody generally unhappy cunt) to warrant a real diagnosis from a real doctor. I'm sad. I want this to end. And I'm supposed to be religious too. Where's God? Where's my faith? Where did my strength go?
>>92227>had to blackmail
It's crazy how moids can only act like decent people when they're actively punished for NOT doing so.
I don't agree with the mentality of women who put down women from other races for being "ugly". That kind of superficial generalization is the black/white thinking I would expect more from a male. Males have made it clear many times that they have less tolerance to anyone outside of their race, just for being outside of their race. Slave trades, genocidal wars, you name it. Not just to men of other races, but also to women of other races. Males always look at just several "ugly" white, asian, or black women and within seconds the males believe that ALL women from that race are ugly. The woman in question doesn't even have to actually be ugly. The male could just find the features of her face unattractive to him personally, but his mind translates this as "she's completely ugly because she's X race". Just by observing male behaviors across history and two this day, racism is definitely more common mindset for males.
However, what do women truly have to gain from putting down women from other races? What is the reason for jumping at the thought of another woman being "uglier" than you? To boost your own self-esteem by distracting yourself of all your personal flaws? To feel more attractive and deserving of male attention? To mentally get kicks from being the "prettier" woman to an entire group of women is rather insane, insecure, and pickme-ish.
I am so stressed about my final today. I have studied so hard and I still feel like I don't know nearly enough. This is my last class I need to graduate. I've been doing okay in the class but if I somehow fail this and don't pass it would be so heart breaking. It would absolutely shatter me. At least I can say I tried.