/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I beared false witnesses, accusing an old friend of sexual assault when I was 15. What provoked me? It was so fucking stupid. Him and I were having a conversation, he said something that made me change my entire perception of him as a person, realizing he was a lot like me. This was not a good thing I hated myself severely and still do to this day. And so I decided to avoid him altogether, this triggered him into insulting me during class. During this time, I had a fragile ego and was easy to humiliate, I would hold grudges as well. And so him insulting me caused me to skip school everyday, when I was caught, the only excuse I could think of was that I was avoiding an old friend because he grabbed my private area unwarranted. But this was not true you see. And I still don't even like this guy, I know he's still this ignorant bitchy fool but what I did was so wrong and unnecessary. His name was Cassius D, he lived in Carson. My initials are M.W. One thing holding me back from telling everyone about what I did, is the fact that I told my family that my brother touched me sexually when I was nine, because he did. God kill me now if I'm lying about this, I'm not. When I confess to everyone that I lied about Cassius, they'll then side with my pedophilic brother, thinking I lied about him too. This might be my punishment from God.

This confession is pushing me to tell my closest friend at least…if I do not confess, I will not change as a person even if I were to avoid doing such thing again. Because I'll continually deny my lies and this will put me in the frequency of tempted sinning and evil actions. My life is unfortunate. I am upset everyday. I have these different disabilities. I'm ugly, stupid and unliked. I will burn in hell.

I am 26. I want to move out out my parent’s place. Before I get “haha loser” comments, I’ve been financially abused and all the money I could have used to move was depleted and I’m currently looking for a second job to make things happen.

Any advice? Is there anything I should be aware of? Is it really that scary to move out in today’s economy or is YouTube full of fear-mongering losers??

So lately Ive had terrible events happen in my life, such as being in huge grief and going through a tough break up and losing my career.
And I have this particular friend in which he offered to comfort me and be there for me when everything is down, but he has been nothing but judgmental of my pain, and telling me how all the pain ive been experiencing is a stupid thing and that I am dumb for feeling this way.

He created a fantasy in our friendship in which he fuels for his own good and it makes me uncomfortable, but If I dare to end it, he will get extremely mad and act like I am in the wrong.
I know he will spread that I’m a bad person once I end it but I honestly need to protect my peace first.
How to deal with such situation nonas :c

>talking about brian kohlberg
>don't believe in the death penalty, don't believe in SA
>bf mad at me
>says i should, mad that if someone did something to him i wouldn't argue for the death penalty
>thinks that means i don't care
>tell him i want the best for him
>says i love everyone/want the best for everyone so it means little
blood just isn't a good way to show love

I have a lot of privilege in my life as a person. It's not fair to tohers and in a non self victimising way I want to walk away from society (not for some kinda pity party or whatever) and do the right thing by those less fortunate than me. I sound like a tool even saying it.I had a plan which was going to be leaving in forests and fishing and stuff, I would like some replieis about privilege that makes people feel lesser or unfortunate or sad that they didn't get or had or have what I do, and stuff and how I can remove that bad impact of my privilege from society somehow? I'm guilty about what I am but I realise that even if I selflessly try to do better, I am still benefitting myself aren't I? Any ideas, I know I sound like a vapid schmuck, this post getting ignored would be some good karma also. I feel really guilty about it all, what are some solutions? moving out into a state forest and camping and fishing to live and ringing my folks every few days but yeah? removing myself from society?

what to do when you should leave but you don't want to leave

I want to have a family, I have wanted it since forever. I met a moid who I loved but despite his radfem single mother upbringing, he turned out to be an abuser.

All I want is a family. I am straight not stupid. I know that I will never get a moid that acts like a woman, like a human but I will be equally miserable with less and with nothing.
>pic unrelated

i broke up with my gf after going through a mental health thing
we are back together but she told me she deleted messages for storage
they take up like 30gbs (crazy but they actually do)
i checked her deleted messages and it was like 800 to her one fellow gay friend
but they are fat
she lied when i asked her about it
she read my journal and later dismissed the idea that they were ever together or cheating or whatever
she also told me she was shit talking me and that's why she deleted it (believable trust)
how do i approach this? i blew my lead when she read my journal
>also did she read it to see if i believed her?
she was upset because i was mean in it, and i didn't apologize
later she was apologetic
how do i ask her about the messages? should i?

what do you think about edating?

i am asking because i met a man online a few months ago and i have conflicting feelings about being in this kind of relationship. i've never dated before, i would if i could but people in my life seem repulsed by me. i like the companionship but also hate myself for engaging in this kind of thing. sometimes i see a couple outside and become nauseated with self-disgust.

he is a couple thousand miles away on the opposite side of the country. i asked if he wanted to meet but he said we haven't known eachother long enough.. maybe i should just be happy to be less alone and not take things so seriously.

have you ever edated before? do you have any advice? thanks nonas

Every moid I've dated that didn't watch porn was very asexual to some degree. The last guy I talked to was demisexual and hearing him say he cared little about my appearance made me feel undesired and unattractive. He made me feel seen, safe and understood everything about me. It often felt like he read my mind, but I couldn't get over that feeling that he wasn't attracted to me physically. I want to feel desired, pretty and hot. Is that wrong of me?