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daddy issues Anonymous 121289[Reply]

every day, i feel like i am hollow inside. abusive parents, bad childhood, you know the rest. i want someone to hold me and want to take care of me. i feel like theres some psychological need to have someone want to care for you above anything else. i think thats where we get our will to live. from someone else who feels so strongly about us growing and living well. i feel like i can barely function without someone to validate the effort im putting in, and i just cant do it for myself. i try to be my own mom a bit. when i talk to myself or in my thoughts, it's almost always "let's do this, we can do this, we can make it". like i'm a girl trying to encourage a girl, not just, one person alone. but i can't be my own dad. it's different.

it feels like every other girl dates some older guy to fill the hole. but i don't want to date my father. or father replacement. i want my boyfriend to be boyish and silly and immature and we grow together and learn together. i want my dad to be totally solid. a big rock. a storm shelter i can always run back to. i have nobody, and like, it feels like the world basically has no care for someone who needs a father but doesn't have one the moment i'm not a little kid anymore. so whore out for the luxury of being loved that way or just suck it up? i don't want to. i wish i could be close with a man who cares and wants to protect me and would hold me and encourage me but have no sexual tension, no questions or worries that things could be weird. but nobody would even believe me if i explained that. not that normal people accept the mentally ill clearly defining their desires anyway. i guess i just want to know if anyone feels this way too? am i crazy? are women who date older settling for the next best thing or are my "daddy issues" categorically different from that behavior? am i nuts?
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Anonymous 121389

>>121384
i kinda find it hard to make "bad book" and "best option" play nice together. it feels like that means you know the topic better than the book? which either means theres a better place to learn it or you're like making psych breakthroughs on your own and id rather just hear you explain it

Anonymous 121391

>>121289
>but i can't be my own dad. it's different.
why not? what's different, exactly? encouragement is unisex. being your own parent is stressful and tiring enough, true, but this point in particular i don't quite understand

Anonymous 121393

>>121289
crazy is a spectrum and everybody moves up and down on it all the time. sometimes we all do things that don't make sense to others, often because of we've learned to navigate the world from an unsafe place; that's the struggle of a difficult upbringing. you say "am i crazy?", "am i nuts?"; this is not a binary, and you are not broken. don't be scared of yourself, and try to be less self-critical. the fact that you're trying to reflect and trying to understand is a huge thing. just keep doing your best. love and care from someone else does help; but you really need to get to a place where you can be comfortable in your own mind. this is not easy, but it is possible.

take it slow. it sounds like your heart is tied up in knots, and for good reason, but you can't untangle it by force. you have to let it settle, and gently reflect on your feelings and experiences without being critical and stressing yourself more.

with love; i know you can do it!

Anonymous 121394

>>121391
i dont know. maybe its male validation. maybe im not good at loving myself. maybe idk what a father is really like. a mom to me feels like a being-a-girl-tutorial. im catching up on that. a dad feels like being loved tutorial. dealing with men tutorial. some shit like that. i can't give myself insight on men or external validation. or advice i wouldnt have thought of. or cool stories. its a self worth thing partly. i dont know.

Anonymous 121395

>>121393
this feels like parent level advice. maybe im not really my own mom either. im more like an older sister doing my best. but its still in the mom box. just not filling it very good. i feel at least abit broken but i try not to think that way. i dont know how to be comfy on my own. i have always said if im still alone when i turn 30 ill probably kill myself. living life without anybody else feels impossible and hellish to me. and ive never been good at dealing with knots and problems gently. i chew the knots out of my hair or yank them out. i know its bad for my roots but still. and split ends. but still. i hate the knots.



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Anonymous 121375[Reply]

>be me
>never added to group chats because of off-putting personality
>finally added to a group chat
>message my new friends
>it dies

Anonymous 121377

I dont care

Anonymous 121378

pwnd

Anonymous 121382

relate

Anonymous 121385

Realest post



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Anonymous 119824[Reply]

i was looking at my bfs tablet gallery, and in the rubbish bin i saw a screenshot with a half naked woman and a qr code of an onlyfans link. now i know he would never use onlyfans (even if i didn't trust him, we're both broke and our country's currency is shit so subscribing to a platform using dollars would cost a lot) but it's still so disturbing to me. especially considering that the woman in question is a midget (sorry if this is an offensive term). i am also a very petite woman, but she is blond and resembles one of his ex and i do not. am i reading too much into this? why didn't he just jack off and move on instead of taking a screenshot? should i bring this up?
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Anonymous 119852

>>119839
OP, don't be with a man that would require you to behave like this. Dump him immediately if it's the case.

>>119828
This is good advice.

Anonymous 120437

I used to look at all kinds of weird porn, even though irl I'm very vanilla. My husband foubd some videos in my history and still brings it up. I just like imagining different scenarios. Maybe your bf is the same.

Anonymous 120438

>>120429
are you retarded or just a moid?

Anonymous 121383

>>119828
>>119827
>>119826
If I were your bf, and if you saw a screenshot of a random hot model in my photos gallery on my phone, what would be the correct thing for me to say or do, in order to be forgiven by you? Please answer genuinely…

Anonymous 121526

>>119824
Screenshotting a porno QR code? That's a paddlin'



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I need to choose Anonymous 121368[Reply]

I am so extremely lonely. I am in a LDR and it is absolutely destroying me. We meet from time to time and have lot's of fun, but the periods in-between is chipping away at my soul, without exaggeration. Thoughts of just breaking up have popped up in my mind more and more these past few months, and the fact that my boyfriend's personality has significantly changed also adds onto that. And it hurts to see him wasting his life away playing games and whatever instead of pursuing higher education and doing something he likes. He'd have the smarts for it but has no motivation, and I have talked about this before with him but I know I can't change a person like that.
He is my first love and everything, and he's a very good person: someone special in the sea of shallow people, and I am torn. A logical part of me says I should end it because it bring me great pain and I can't continue a LDR any longer. I crave physical affection, but I will not be able to find anyone like him because I'm a loser. What should I do? Neither is a good choice.
I am sorry for the long post. I feel heartbroken. I can provide a bit more context if anyone wants to.

Anonymous 121380

>>121368
Talk to him about it? Wild idea, I know.



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am I the problem? Anonymous 120256[Reply]

i'm a very anxious/nervous type person. i've been with my bf for about 2 years now and we only talk through messages on discord for the most part cause we live very far away from each other and I get way too scared to call. growing up, I pretty much avoided boys and so i really cant talk to him. we've tried a few times but I just cant. it makes me insanely scared and nervous. he sends me voice messages sometimes though and he sounds really really really cute and I tell him this all the time, how cute he is. problem is the other day I sent him a video of me talking about some random stuff and he was just called me cute a bit. I know this sounds stupid but i guess I was expecting him to be like "awww you sound so so so cute" and stuff but he seems like only mildly interested? I don't know. I don't think he said anything wrong but its just that I feel like I'm so in love with him and enamoured by him and I don't know if he feels the same and its making me depressed.
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Anonymous 120273

i think its important for you to tell him how much you need affirmations and enthusiasm. although, you're better off growing your self esteem in ways other than an online boyfriend. but i have had friends who made the whole online relationship thing work and regularly visit their boyfriend/spend time together in collaborations on projects. you will only get closer if you call. wouldn't it be nice to experience each other live and unscripted?

Anonymous 120281

>>120260
thank you, I hope that's it

>>120273
yeah i've tried lots of times to tell him how I need lots of reassurance and stuff and I think he tries but just when he feels like it. tbf though, I think I do overthink things a lot. like the other day, I mentioned I was wearing slippers and he asked if they were bunny slippers and I felt really upset because they weren't that kind and why would he think I have bunny slippers?

i'm trying to work more on my self confidence though and being more normal. I was really happy to have sent him that video of me but his reaction wasn't what I was expecting ig. i'm gonna try to work up the courage to call him at some point though.

Anonymous 120302

I think if he called you cute then you should probably believe that. Depending on his personality type, he might not be the kind of person to say "you sound so so so cute", and from his perspective, he might be anxious too.
That being said, you should try to see your emotions through the lens of an external observer. Some of the defensiveness and overreactivity to specific phrasing might be new to someone not used to providing this level of support, and taking a step back and thinking "why do I feel this way when he does X", and trying to examine whether it could be from your own past emotional background, can help in developing better coping mechanisms.

Anonymous 120311

>>120256
It is scary, but you really need to just bite the bullet and talk to this stupid moid, preferably with both of you on cam. The more you do that, the easier it'll get. Also, you'll start seeing him as an actual person instead of a 'really really really cute' sounding voice. To answer the titular question, sorta? Idk why he hasn't insisted on this either, though, if you're both serious about this and have been 'official' for 2 years . . .

Anonymous 120320

Yes you are the problem. You sound incredibly narcissistic and insecure and frankly insufferable. I was like you a couple of years ago though, so you'll probably grow out of it if you genuinely desire to do so .



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I miss my grandma so much Anonymous 121345[Reply]

My grandma died recently and I miss her so much, I cry almost every day (I didn't as much the first two months after a panic attack on the day she died) but I think now that it's sinking in more and I realize I never will talk to her again while I'm alive it's gotten more and more difficult to cope. She was my best friend, a second mother. She took care of me when I was severely mentally ill, didn't judge me for not leaving the house, cooked for me, was patient and understanding, gave me my medication. I did bad things when I was younger and she never was unkind to me. She was such a loving and holy person. She had multiple jobs when she was young to support my mom and aunts, kept working to help everyone until she was in her 60s. She built a home room by room for her family, saving to buy bricks and construction material. She didn't even finish primary school and came from a poor, small town. She was the holiest person I have ever known and she died of cancer, although thankfully she didn't suffer much or ling from it and she died at home. I know she had a long, mostly happy life with her family, that she didn't regret anything and that she was ready to go, but I just can't stop missing her every day and it hurts too much. It's the first lent and holy week of my life I spend without her and it's making me so emotional. I wish I could see her again. No one will ever love me the way she did, I don't know how to deal with losing her.

Have you ever lost someone and felt similarly? No guilt, no regrets, just longing for the person that is no longer with you.

Anonymous 121346

sorry for the mistakes in the post, I was crying while typing :(

Anonymous 121348

I miss my grandmas, too.

Anonymous 121353

Me too, me too. Life isn't fair.

Anonymous 121354

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She took good care of you in life, and now that she is gone, you need to take care of yourself and move forward to make the love and care she gave you when she was by your side worthwhile.

Anonymous 121363

>>121345
You probably brought your grandma so much joy at the end of her life. So, this is going to sound mean, but hear me out:
Stop thinking about yourself so much.

By which I mean think more about how happy she was in her final years, how fortunate she was to have a granddaughter like you to spend time with, and less about how sad you are that she's gone. Many people would KILL to have a life like your grandma's, and you should be thankful you got to be a part of it, for some 20-odd years.



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Anonymous 121349[Reply]

I wish I was rich enough to pursue an arts degree or something fun like that …imstead im stuck dojng physics while others have fun this fine Sunday..ughhh its all about money money I dont need your money money …cannot wait for med school and isolation of 10 years …better than poverty and disappointment ig

Anonymous 121350

I live in a beautiful city and all I want to do is stay out all night riding on somebodys bike and playing around but no ….k

Anonymous 121351

If I dont get in im never marrying or having kids fml



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I don't think all people who claim to have autism are autistic Anonymous 121061[Reply]

I know that makes me a bad person, but can't help but feel it. I have autism. I have suffered all kinds of humiliation for being one since I was a child. I can't imagine how they went unnoticed their whole lives, and I really think many just make it up for attention.
I can recognize that I may be speaking from resentment, lack of empathy or envy, but it's something I can't help but feel, as an intuition, and I've always had a wonderful intuition.
Just find it extremely uncomfortable that something that has cost me almost my life, for others is something to make jokes about and be popular, it doesn't sit right with me.

Anonymous 121062

>>121061
I agree, but only because I think autism can be overcome. I think this because I studied social dynamics and body language cues, and now find it fairly easy to tell how others are feeling (and I've realised that people """without""" autism have as much empathy/capacity to read others as people """with""" autism, which is to say that they miss the mark regularly or otherwise don't care [cf. sociopathy] that they've missed the mark).
I'm still not great at one-on-one conversations (unless it's someone I like), but I no longer feel anxious about having to spend 30 to 60 minutes with another person.

Anonymous 121327

>>121061
I have a friend who always seemed to "cringe" a bit when I'd bring up how I have autism, and it felt to me like she looked down on my special interests. Now a few years later, she has had the realization that she may be autistic and won't stop talking about it. She doesn't have a diagnosis yet but is posting all these quotes about being neurodivergent and has even made it a part of her "quirky aesthetic" somehow.
I don't want to dismiss that she might have it but I can't help but be a bit annoyed.

Anonymous 121328

>>121061
Yeah autism has ruined my life, I hate to see how quirky girls with mostly normal lives make autism their whole personality.

Anonymous 121336

>>121061
It's the new bipolarity.
99% of normal people with a yesman psy, 1% of people who should get help but can't because of all the posters in the way.

Anonymous 121341

I can't say it went unnoticed though. Undiagnosed but it affected my life in many ways. The issue is that I live in nordic society where mild autismos is somewhat accepted. It's not seen as weird if the child is kinda stunted emotionally. My mom however is a different pile of issues. She is misanthrope so the fact that I was "weird" meant that I was not like shitty normie, angel incarnate, indigo child etc retarded stuff.



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Who else lives like this? Anonymous 110389[Reply]

This isn't my picture, but it's the way I live.
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Anonymous 111857

>>111854
Cleaning isn't really a 'chore'either unless you start forcing yourself into this elaborate list and schedule. Returning your house to coziness is calming and rewarding. It is like popping bubblewrap or using a zen sand rake.

Anonymous 120305

>>110389
I think living like this my entire life because my parents don't care gave me a complex about feeling cramped and unable to just wander. When I go to normal people's houses, I get the urge to just walk around and stretch in their wide open clean rooms. I do clean up, but every time I do, the space gets full of junk again. And not trash, if it was all trash then it would be easy to get rid of. It's just… stuff. And it annoys me. My parents buy so much shit we never use. I cleared the kitchen counters, 3 bags of stuff, and they've been in my room for months. None of it has been touched or missed. It wasn't necessary. But we have it anyway. Too much to put in cupboards. And I don't want to throw it all away because it feels like a waste.

Anonymous 120326

>>110690
i live in prague. please clean for me too (ㅠ﹏ㅠ)

Anonymous 120333

My apartment is very small and the entryway and kitchen look like this. I hate it. I'm going to clean tonight.

Anonymous 121329




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Pedos Anonymous 120490[Reply]

Is pedophilia that common now? I've seen things saying it's being advocated more, and that pro pedophiles are becoming more prominent. Definitely a result of queer grooming imo. But we can discuss that after the fact of on what scale is it happening. I need numbers pls.
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Anonymous 120505

>>120504
It's not a fallacy if we can literally see it happening right now with our own eyes.

Anonymous 120506

>>120505
Are you talking about that time when pedos came up with the MAP thing and tried to join the LGBT movement and literally everyone told them to fuck off?

Anonymous 120511

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>>120500
The only people that argue online for a lower age of consent also argue for government mandated marriage and repelling the 14th amendment. It's all a thinly veiled attempt at enacting a conservative Sharia law.

Anonymous 120512

>>120490
I think it's natural for men to be pedos. They all just pretend like they're not.

Anonymous 121318

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most authors of pedo novels are femoids: https://www.goodreads.com/list/show/121499



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