How to psych myself out of this trap??
Eversince I can remember I am bored by most conversation. I don't understand why people talk so incessantly about crap. Because it's mutual..! I know people won't want to hear about whatever I'm doing or thinking or what's happening to me, unless they're a few close friends. I will listen to people if they talk to me, but I get none of the same enthusiasm returned. So i just I don't bother, don't really get fulfillment from it. But my god my god the fucking double standard !
At one point I decided I'd had it.
At work I never want to talk with anybody about myself which is so common among others. People just talk like it's breathing when they get the chance!! Why do they have no filter!? I talk if it's about work or about the other person. Like I'll listen a lot but I developed a huge wall because I'm a niche interst person. My life is very different
I just leave work hardly talking and this satisfies me. I wish sometimes people would stfu when they're in your face or loud ( mostly custmers) (unless they're funny then I love them)
I think it's my upbringing… My parents never talked with me about anything and you can't have chatty conversations with them oh my god they are really negligent in a way. I don't know if it rubbed off onto me but I'm really not up to it. Is anyone else like this or did anyone else learn a trick to get around it.
Yes I know I should fake it but then I feel absolutely ridiculous. I don't even know why I'm doing it. I hate pretending like I want to belong somewhere when I'm not genuinely into it, it feels ludicrous
Anyway it pisses some people off,even though I'm not trying to offend them. It follows me everywhere. Their attitudes are ridiculous. How thin skinned they are is ridiculous! I'm not about to explain it to them either though!!! It's not like i get of to it. It's like get off my case you neurotic, thin skinned, drama queen why the f do you even care what i have to say??? Since when has anybody??? F youPost too long. Click here to view the full text.