>>87223
I don't really get it. So if A is doing a negative thing to B then B should do the negative thing too?

Start small and build up trust along the way, with certainpeople that show they are trust-worthy. Trust is not an all-or-nothing concept.

Ehhhhh just enjoy your life and go along with things but expect nothing. Prioritize enjoying your life by yourself anyway and you can't really be let down :D

Yes

>>86947
trust and care for animals. go vegan. don't bother with humans.

My mum completely neglected my emotional needs as a child. She is completely incapable of empathy or any form of genuine positive emotion, and all she really used me for was her own personal therapist and would constantly pour poison into my ear about my dad, who actually loved and cared about me. She would constantly undermine me, scream at me, call me every name under the sun, etc. on a daily basis.

She tried to abandon me interstate with family (that i didn't like at all) and screamed at me and went off her rocker when i didn't want to.

She's hit me, slapped me in the face, threw a cooler at me, and a bottle of vodka, all of that, most of it always over really minuscule shit. I'm not combative, i don't fight people, so it wasn't because of me.

I suffered pretty immensely in school cause of my ADHD and autism, she absolutely refused to accept i had neither, so i wasn't offered any assistance or counseling and she'd just gaslight me into thinking i'm a stupid lazy cunt for almost my entire life.

my mom blamed it on me when my older sister sexually abused me when i was like 6, called me a sinner and "kicked me out" of house (she let me in after shortly a.k.a me crying hysterically which attracted neighbours), also regularly took her anger on me physically whenever her shitty husband shit on her mood. years passing, physical abuse eventually stopped but not emotional. she still defends her husband's abuse on me and others by pulling out "he's still your father" card. when we had that talk on how my sister used to rape me, she cried and told me "why haven't you told me this before". this was the moment i finally gave up on her, and focused on my comfort instead.

she also had a shitty childhood but that doesn't excuse anything. i sometimes feel like i'm somehow still emotionally attached to her to the point that it hurts really bad. aside from those abusive cunt moments, she was also being stereotypically lovely parent so i'm really torn apart between grief and deep hatred, i don't know how much longer i can take it.

>>89677
picture a dearly loved friend of yours. if you do not have one then envision this anyway.

what would you suggest her to do?

>>88601
very happy for you nona

I could never understand the way my mother treated me, she is better now but the damage is done.. And it's extreme lol.

>>82095
went to another doctor in another city i moved to, she didn't try to change my main medication (one of my meds that i was prescribed in the hospital was causing a very unpleasant allergy-like reaction) and redirected me to two mental "daily wards" (like a mental hospital but only for 8 hours a day instead of 24/7) which i wasn't accepted into due to my recent suicide attempt(???, i still don't remember what it was), both of the doctors said i need to be properly hospitalized in order to try different medications and that my mental health could get worse (i'd start to hear commanding voices, etc, i think they were trying to scare me into thinking i need the hospital)
weirdly enough, my main doctor said my full story isn't quite typical for schizophrenia but she couldn't recognise what it was or maybe she didn't want to bother because it was too hard or idk.

>“wronged”
>with quotes around it
Very telling how you phrase this, do schizos and bipolars really think just because they're mentally ill they have no autonomy and can do no wrong, denying responsibility for their actions?

i started lamotrigine again and now i think i am having delusional thinking. all i can think of is how food is so toxic, how disgusting everything is, and how i had a mild cold due to stress but its actually a sinus infection from a cavity which has turned into an infection that is eating my brain. the past week i didn't feel much better from when i started taking it, i felt pretty good initially. but now things have seem to have gotten bad again and i don't really know what to do. can't call the psych since its the weekend AND i don't want to miss work. I asked the psych nurse for antipsychotics just in case and she completely misunderstood me, either that or i did not explain myself well enough. i have some from my previous psych, but i really do not want to take them. quetiapine seems so dreadful and aripiprazole does not seem much better because of the possible side effects.
I am unsure as to how I will get through this next week without seeing the psych, if she does give me antipsychotics I probably will not take them anyway. No hope of any benzos either, they pretty much refuse to give those out despite being so helpful in times like these. This shit is just not fun, even psychiatric hospitals are a bad idea here. If I go to the ER they will just shoot me up with Haloperidol and send me home. Something very far from ideal as it will remove any ability to function and I will just stay in the same situation.

I take Latuda. It's completely given me my life back. Highly recommend. I also don't take birth control and Latuda is considered safe for pregnancy.

>>89973
Sorry, should've specified I'm bipolar.

transition

>>90937
Well sounds like you know how bisluts are like so I guess your only good option is to keep coping until shit hits the fan and then try to walk out of it as painlessly as possible.

>>90212
did she say why she downgraded??

I'm bi, and I hate scrotes so much I refuse to even be platonic friends with them. Is it even worth trying to date women or should I accept being alone?

>>91059
Perhaps only date other bi women.

>I would like to create a way to block all moids on social media and block videos/images/sounds with moids in them.
Like Shinigami Eyes? How would your idea work from a technical perspective?

>>91023
I would pay good money for your extension nona. Something like that old hbomberguy extension that blocked all anti-sjw youtube vids but for moids and the whole internet? godly.

>I'm not too bad at it.

If you were any good at it you would understand why it is impossible.

>>91056
Bruh, I know that it is impossible.
But I WOULD LIKE IT.
And if can create something similar, I would like to do that.

>>8584
NTA but yeah, same… I only ever found 1 girl like this and she ghosted me in the end. Even though it was a very predictable outcome, I missed her so badly I cried.

I really just want someone similar to me to talk to, but they all either ghost me or we end up feeding each others' issues. Guess that's some kind of indicator about the kind of person I am?

>>85904
Ghosting someone you’ve been talking to for a long time (like longer than a few weeks/months) is definitely rude, especially if there wasn’t any falling out or argument. It’s perfectly fine to want to stop talking to someone, but if it’s someone who hasn’t wronged you in any way and who obviously wants to continue speaking with you, you should at least give them a small explanation and assure them it isn’t their fault before you disappear. It’s mean to leave someone wondering if they said or did something wrong when they didn’t.

Yes.

>>86504
It depends on the person. I've had people harrass me before for telling them I want to stop talking and why, I wish I had just ghosted those people. Many people can't handle rejection or that you don't want to be their friend anymore.

i don’t interact with others even on internet i don’t have public social media accounts i just started posting here

>>90215
He wanted you to chase him more to make sure he'd have all the power in the relationship and gave up when he couldn't fool you anymore, most likely.
Classic narcissistic predatory behavior.

>>87880
oh and don't forget this gem: "my guy friends always fall in love with me". KEK

ARE YOU ME?
I feel so depressed and inferior around cute guys. I'm mousy and covered in acne. How painful it is to have something so close to you, but so impossibly far.

>>90551
ahhh young daniel bruhl is so cutee. i wish twink death didnt exist

>>87877
i literally feel like shit whenever i talk to ANYONE because i think “wow im too ugly to even be conversating right now”. its so painful, i compare myself so much and wish i was a fucking model or some shit. yes, my mind is tainted, this is unhealthy and unrealistic. i just cant get rid of this mindset, maybe because i think everyone has insanely high standards and im just so fucking far below that

I can't even hate moids for being attracted to looks, I'm the same.
I'd rather stay a virgin for life than date the fat old men hitting on me.

>don't have much money
>obese and drink too much
anon c'mon I'm not even trying to be mean, if you're worried about health and getting older then you should put some effort to take better care of your body…

You got the money for food you fat fuck

>>91075
Cheap food is fattening, i don’t doubt shes obese for munching on carbs

I do in home care. Pretty sure you don't need a wife depending on your state. they pay me to go grocery shop for this old woman. you can apply to that when you get old and feeble

Op here

Food isn't that expensive. Raising money for retirement is. Just worried about that. I've been through some crazy shit and yes i have addiction problems

what would you do differently now tht you have hindsight.?

I've heard about engineering graduates going into finance or law. If you don't want to work in engineering you don't have to.

>>91060
Not with a <3.0 GPA they don't. Those types of jobs only take top students from top schools. Getting a finance job as an engineer is harder than getting an actual engineering job.