Ever since I remember i have been dieting, my pediatrician was obsessed with my weight and would put me on diets constantly, and this obsessing also transferred to my mother and uncles (because of course shes my medic, so she is the one who knows the best). And ever since that has been my life, i dont know other thing that excising and cheeking how many calories everything i eat has, and most convos with my family members end up about my weight (it has lessened lots with time, but it was terrible when i was a teen).
I have always been on the chubby side, but lucky never obese or harmful for my health (according to the medical papers at least) and i know i need to stay healthy, but i still think the way my pediatrician treated me was excessive, who makes a 4yo fast??? and even after all the different diets she gave me i never managed to be truly thin anyways, they help to lose weight, but i dont think i will be able to weight less than i do now even if i keep all the effort

And my sister? the only times she has ever moved was on the obligatory PE class when she was little, she eats sweets DAILY and never gains a ounce of weight!! She was and is all thin, she doesnt care about anything, makes no effort and always has a perfect body…..

This is not a hate post directed at her or anything, i'm just jealous. I wish i too could live without caring how fat everything will make me and spending my time on hobbies instead of running; I dont remember the last time i ate without guilt (and i 100% eat just because i still live with my parents, the second i start living alone i know i will stop eating or just eat the bare minimum to stay awake), it must be nice to live without caring about all that…
Even now that I'm at a normal weight I'm still like this because the second i stop measuring everything I eat or stop exercising im sure i will get overweight again, why is my body like this…
I know i need to stay healthy, but i wish i could be free of all that for at least a week and turn all that effort on something that makes me happy (and honestly, i dont even think im healthy now, crying almost every time you have lunch or dinner doesn't seem ideal…)

YWN have two cute boys fight over you so what’s the point

Tfw i have stopped wearing a pad everyday in case my periods come back cause they have been gone for so long. but them being gone for long doesnt actually decrease the probability. its just an illusion. why do humans like to pretend theyre in control like this?

i’ve been in back to back relationships with narcissists (though it was easier for me to subconsciously seek the 2nd one out because i was craving the push/pull already). i left the first one feeling worthless and discarded and craving love. 2 months later i met the second one who i proceeded to fall in love with way too fast, he started talking long term so i felt safe. only for him to wake up one day 3 months later and tell me he feels nothing for me. none of my past relationships were this shit till the first one. now i fear i’m stuck in a loop of seeming desperate for love; attracting people who only wish to take advantage of that

How do I take what people (especially men) say less seriously?

It always feels like when I'm having an argument with someone it wasn't actually an argument, I just get worked up over words easily and i don't know what to say to the person so they'll shut up, when they think I'm being playful

How am I supposed to find a guy who would like staying inside all day and every weekend playing games and watching youtube?
I dont want to have to say "i love you" or go out on dates, ever.

Dont say discord, they either wont believe you are biologically female or they'll all change their personalities to try to get nudes+attention.

How do I cope with disliking most people?

I started uni 4 years ago for a bachelors, but because I changed my minor and general laziness I'll need 2 more years to actually graduate.
I feel so depressed and anxious about my future, I was supposed to be done after 3 years, but while everyone I know is out looking for their first real job or going on vacation before their masters I'm still stuck here.
I feel like a failure and despite them saying otherwise I feel like I'm disappointing my family.
By the time I graduate I'll be years behind my peers and I don't know how to deal with that.

i’ve given my bf large amounts of money in the past and the one time i ask for some money he flips out on me. he says i need to pay him back and snapped at me when i brought it up. i’m never demanding and i never make him pay for anything unless he offers. is he just a broke loser?? or should i just not ask for money.

I feel like my ability to befriend women is damaged because of my experiences being picked on by girls. I had an abusive mother, and was also recognizably autistic at school which as you can imagine made me very popular. I pretty much made my first ever female friend a few months ago, and even this, I'm worried she doesn't like me that much. (I definitely like her a lot so I hope it's mutual but I don't think I could realistically say to her, "Hey, I really like you so much. How much do you enjoy my company? What can I do so you enjoy my company more? Be honest." If I could say that I would and it would be so much more simple.)

Besides her, I've only ever had male friends, and none of those are possible anymore because we're adults now and they just want to date me.

I don't know why I'm always rejected, besides that I still have few social skills and don't really engage well. Men at least have a veneer of treating me nicely, because men will be attracted to anything with tits. Women just seem to dislike me. There was actually recently a problem at my workplace because my female boss (we're the only two women working there right now) singled me out so frequently and viciously that my male coworkers got together to report her to the higher ups. I can obviously tell I'm not likeable but I don't know why. The feeling of dislike is not mutual, I like everybody. I even liked her, tried to please her and figured I was just simply an awful employee and deserved what I got.

When I've talked about this before, people seem to assume that I must be an awful person to be in this position. I promise I'm not a bad person, and if I am, I don't know what I'm doing. I just want to make friends.