/feels/ - Advice & Venting

Also he has like 5 dogs or something insane and was showing me vids of him horse riding. I wish I could go back in time and just have stayed in bed. Meeting this man was my biggest regret. The amount of emotional distress this man has caused me, let alone the physical. I really hope he dies soon so I can be left alone. Funny you say about the parasite thing I’ve had some wild pain in my lower right had side for the longest time. Think you are right about the police I was thinking more TikTok or Twitter, also because I want to find the other girls this has happened too

>>113496
There's gotta be at least pro-bono lawyer who wants to take on a billionaire.

>>113496
There is no justice in this world.
You are right in thinking these kind of people should be punished for their actions, but if you believe the only way to obtain peace is to see his justice served, you'll NEVER be satisfied. Even if he were to die tomorrow, he will keep haunting you.
I advise you let it go. The only true Justice is in Kindom Come. Otherwise you're only setting you up for a lifetime of unresolved resentment.
If you really want to see things change and protect other women from such abuse, you should join a feminist activist movements. This probably won't solve your problem, but you may protect other potential victims like you.

>>115449
I wish that were the case, but all the expensive lawyers are too busy representing the abuser types

key example Lisa Bloom. She was double teaming between "helping" women and defending Harvey Weinstein. Even female lawyers will bend to rich men's whims for a paycheck.

I'm tired of this fucking world

A lifetime of resentment seems like a rational response to this situation

>It seems everyone already has a best friend
Don't focus too much on labels. You can just make friends with people and then going from there you'll see if the both of you get really close or not. You can't really pick and choose someone who'll then be your best friend, it doesn't work that way. This allows you to be friends with groups of multiple people as well - you don't need to single out a specific one to have a 'higher tier friendship' with.

>>115939
Thanks anon, this really changed my perspective

>>115451
For some relationships a dynamic like this works out, but it's not healthy. You should have hobbies and interests you can keep yourself busy with alone. There's so much you can do in life, you could make great things just by dedicating yourself to a meaningful hobby. But it doesn't even have to be something with a deeper meaning really, just have something that gives you joy outside of the relationship. Also make sure to still spend time with friends and family if you have the possibility.
You don't have to drastically reduce the time you're spending with him for now (or at all if you don't want to), just make sure that whenever you are on your own you'll have something you can do, something that brings you joy. Or maybe you can even pick up a hobby that involves crafting something and you can make stuff for him? Just make sure you're not an empty shell of a human being without him.
Maybe work on why you don't want to be alone too. And be careful, you're giving him a lot of power over you but I assume you already know that and if that's what works out for you I'm not going to tell you to stop. Take care nona.

Same. I don’t think it’s a bad thing though as long as he’s as loyal and committed as you are. Not sure what I would do if my boyfriend left me. Probably fall apart lmao

>>115691
It‘s not bad until things go wrong. But I haven’t found a solution for it either

If he's your first and you feel this way about him, try to keep him. The first one always has the potential to be something special. Just make sure that he truly loves you too and isn't just taking advantage.

Why is this so relatable..
I think I’d just stay alone forever if my moid ever left but he’s not even usually nice to me.

It has been ONE WEEK. Did you think there wouldn't be an adjustment period? Uni is a big shift from highschool, particularly in North American culture (assuming that's where you're from). You are no longer in the top of your class just for remotely paying attention/trying. You have to both self-govern your whole life for the first time (if you had a helicopter parent) AND study harder than you've ever studied before. Make some friends or at least people who will help you study/hold each other accountable. We all get this, those prone to anxiety usually get it worse/more often. Shower, eat, and/or sleep. You'll feel better after doing some combination of those.

>>115834
School doesn't matter
Just pass and then you can do the real stuff which is work
I think you can do it

As long as your passing your classes you're good. Literally everyone cheats in class given the opportunity. Most people forget what they learn, when they get into the actual work field is when you ACTUALLY learn something.

You are definitely good enough for nursing. You can overcome and figure it out. You may want to try and talk to some other nurses and try to see if you can piece together a study group as part of your study schedule. This helps with keeping yourself accountable.

>>115834
In situations like these I always think to myself "If you weren't good enough for this, you wouldn't even be in this position rn."
You got into the uni, now it's up to you to not to throw it away. In technically speaking you can totally make it, just don't depend on the mindset of "It'll all work out somehow" (like I did the first two semesters). You will have to put in some effort. View your mom's expectations as motivation. Idk if that works for you but I somehow always perform better when I know someone thinks I won't make it.
A thing that helped me with studying was going to places outside of my room to study, essentially to not get distracted. Another thing that might help you is to get into learning groups. Try to not overwork yourself tho. Prioritize health > grades > free time. I tried to not prioritize health for the first two semesters and I really messed with my hormones. Not having enough sleep/meals/exercise can really fuck with your body. In my case I had visible signs i couldn't ignore but even if you just have skin breakouts or massive black circles, looking unhealthily pale could be indicators. Your body will take it's revenge sooner or later.
Some might say it's not healthy to put spare time last in your list but tbh I already quite enjoy cooking and exercising + self care is relaxing to me and I usually like getting out of my room to go to some learning area and maybe buy some snacks too. If you're not like super stressed just set a specific time after which you completely stop studying. Like if studying after 7pm doesn't really do anything for you, just stop right there and you have the whole evening to you. By doing this you also kind of have that first work, then reward thing going which many of us sadly didn't properly learn as children.
Anyway as I said it's technically very much doable and as you got into the uni you're obviously qualified, the rest just comes down to time management, so make sure you find something that works for yourself (if you're not using those already methods like time blocking or a pomodoro timer might help).

>get pumped and dumped
>life goes downhill
This is why waiting until marriage is advantageous.

>Day 4
I regret my decision

>>115788
What were you on? I was okay. I was on Depakote, Risperidone, and some other type of drug, I forget what it was.

>>115788
I've done the same thing before. I think "I'm sick of taking these meds I don't want to be dependent on them anymore!!!" then the nightmares start

I haven't been taking my meds for over 2 months, honestly I've never felt a difference even with the higher dosage. But I'll try to get back on them again since I'm going back to uni. But I want a new physiatrist cause she refuses to evaluate me for ADHD.

>>115790
exactly you THINK things are going great but that's just the illusion being off the meds while everyone else in your life severs contact with you cuz you're acting like you're in your amanda bynes britney era

>>115884
Maybe you should try to live more in the present, turn of your computer, and touch some grass? Also, I feel this whole overthinking every Saturday thing isn't working out too well for ya, but you do you. I'm sure that well adjusted people also believe themselves crazy before going to bed. (Kinda sorry for assuming too much and being mean, but I hope the message comes across.)

>>115890
i am facing similar thoughts and i think i need to work on a project

>>115884
Overthinking isn’t great for you, try to remain calm and be proud of yourself. Whatever problems you have, you will get through them

im hungry. i want to take the bus and go to the library tomorrow. or maybe today. the problem is the bus only comes much later in the afternoon. i cant help but feel suffocated in my house. its hot, my parents left, and i dont want to be stinky and gross by being melted to my bed all day.
so maybe i will go to the library, i dunno.

Tired of stifling everything I say.
My voice deserves to be heard.
What I said doesn't deserve to be taken down.
I worked hard.
I wasn't crazy.
My words meant something, they spoke of an ill nobody will speak on, and that's why you hate them.
Whether you tear down my walls of text or not, whether you censor me or not, whether or not you succeed or fail, it won't bring you peace.
And my blood is still proverbially on your hands.

very sad because somehow whenever i have a male friend they manage to act weird, confuse me emotionally and then put me on the backburner when friends are supposed to support eachother not hurt eachother,, sick of being treated as weird by women when all i try to do is make them happy like what happened to girls sticking with girls

>>115862
>>115856
>>115867
Men are just filth plain and simple. It doesn't matter to me that some are nice because they're also just disgusting and oblivious and presume you should want anything to do with them in their easy going obliviousness. It doesn't matter how fucking nice they are i want to stab all of their eyes out with icepicks.

>>115869
true but sometimes we also have to hold accountable the women who are willing to throw other women under the bus protecting abusive moids

I'm very sorry, nona. You deserve so much better than that awful situation. You're very brave for putting up with it all.

Have you tried applying for disability?

well that sucks… hope you manage to turn it around

I understand anon. I wish it would improve. The friends I have barely contact me anymore and I barely hang out with anyone, all I have is my bf I talk to every few days and he's sadly long distance. I've tried to be friendly to people at work but it's clear most of them want to avoid interaction outside of it. I can't find a hobby or interest that'd actually make me new friends and I'm in my mid late 20s so it's embarrassing I'm in this state right now. I live in a midsize city and yet I still feel like a friendless loser junkie freak who cries her eyes out on her days off pretending I'm okay front facing to the world when I secretly am so lonely I wish I'd just die.

I'm sorry you're in this predicament. I hope you can at least find one person to confide in