sigh. I can't tell if I'm just selfish or what, but my mom has been driving me crazy with guilt trips.
This morning we were prepping to go out. She usually takes an hour. I ended up going back to my room to prepare. When I went back out after 30 minutes, dressed, she is still sitting on the couch - she hadn't even gotten up to change - and immediately says "here I am SILENTLY CRYING BECAUSE YOU AREN'T HELPING!! I HAVE BEEN WAITING! THERE IS SO MUCH TO DO BEFORE WE LEAVE!" she hadn't even told me so beforehand!
She has repeated the "silently crying" line 100s of times in the past months.
I'm sorry but…I ended up snapping and for the first time in my life letting slip a cuss word to her "I'm so done with this shit, please goddamned stop." She has said 100xs of more cuss words to me through my entire life. Called me names and stuff. I don't know if I deserve it or something, but it was the breaking point for me.
It turned out the thing she was upset over(she didn't mention it needing to be done before BTW) was something that we got done in 3 minutes. :| And it was something…she could have done herself…in the same amount of time…
Then she FINALLY went and got ready, which took an hour. Yes…it was something irrelevant to that small task.
Then when we went out…while we were at the store she suddenly remembered she forgot 3 other things she never told me about and started getting upset and blaming me, which, well, made me upset.
So. Yes. She actually spent apparently half an hour sitting there in silence getting frustrated with me instead of remembering. Post too long. Click here to view the full text.