/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I've been self conscious about my unattractive features for years now but recently I've started looking even uglier as im starting to notice my eyebags and forming smile lines and even eyebrow lines, I look so ugly I look older than I am and genuinely look like a moid and I hate being like this and I dont think anyone can convince me otherwise. I just wish I could be beautiful forever and never have to worry about aging. People told me that I would look better by now but I'm only getting uglier. I don't want to die like this, spending my whole life being ugly. What do I do about this? Do I just suck it up?

Let's ignore the trans-identified men for a second… anyone else notices that bi/lesbian women don't really notice you on dating websites, anyway?

Is there a reason behind this??

Or is this really just a "me" issue and something I will just have to accept.

Like, there are women there, but they never reach out to me.

Well, there was ONE but that went nowhere because I was insecure at the time… but that was after my eleventh time on some kind of dating website.

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This happend a week ago I can't stop thinking about it and im so depressed. So after work I asked this guy if he wanted to do something on our day off he just " no sorry I am busy" no problem right!? The next day the manager called me " sorry I am going to let you go because one our workers doesn't feel comfortable around you" this was probably my worst rejection ever I already got over him, but it was my job man my livelihood. Now I am here worrying about money and still job hunting… the job market is so bad. This is probably the most depressing summer yet and it's my birthday tomorrow don't feel like celebrating it. Just hopefully dying in my sleep. I hate being alone.

For yourself, for others, for the world, any way you want to pray.

Disillusioned. Spent a large part of my life being inclusive to people who are "different" because of feeling like an outcast in childhood. Shit just blows up in my face. I don't consider myself GC or anything like that but I am noticing a sickening pattern.

Why is it that nearly every trans woman I've befriended or have to work with has caused absolutely fucking chaos in my life and acted like they were the poor little victim when I called them out on it. I can't talk about this shit anywhere or I'm a bigot apparently.

I remember when I came out as bi to my friends over a decade ago, my family somehow found out, and then it was a total fucking nuclear explosion of issues. I was ostracized in my small town for something I didn't even want to be known publicly. But now it's some bizarre purity test to be some flavor of queer and if I don't mention it I don't deserve respect?… Maybe it's because I'm so past that point, but my orientation is such a small part of my life and has little to do with how I view the substance a person has.

I don't want to dictate how other people live, whatever you want to do go for it. But I've been used, stalked, screamed at, and professionally sabotaged by people like this more often than the rest of the population, totally unprovoked. Ten in a row is insane and a pattern. I rarely get treated this way elsewhere. Even the men I work with are decent and kind in comparison.

My boss will be pretty assertive with anyone except the trans women on our team. I was being creeped on by one of our clients and one of the trans women basically sabotaged my safety. The other sabotaged me at a public event. Boss just shrugs her shoulders when I bring this up and is way too nice to them. Says some shit about second puberty and calls it a day. What's worse is I think her processing is skewed because she has a trans daughter that's financially and emotionally abusive to her. She is an elderly disabled woman, and I feel like they're only getting away with this because she's walking on eggshells. It hurts to watch because I'm also disabled and was abused by my family for it. But her daughter just gets away with it because “she's going thru a hard time.” That's not love.

Weren't we still expected to have accountability while we were going thru puberty?? I'm so sick of this bs without being able to talk about it.

What do I even do? Who do I even talk to?…

how do i tell my boyfriend murdering me is bad for the economy?

There's this guy stalking me around gaming websites such as Pokemon Showdown and Pokeclassic Network. He calls himself "Prozzub" and he hates me for literally no reason. I won against him in a tournament three years ago and he accused me of cheating, leading me to get tournament-banned even though it was not true.

Prozzub said he wants to kill me and he posted my address online. I warned him two years ago I was going to call the police but I never ended up doing it.

Can someone PLEASE help me? This has been going on almost four years and I am afraid Prozzub is actually going to come to my house and kill me.

I feel like I'm so ugly without makeup. Even after being showered in compliments. I get many compliments from unattractive men. I never get any from men that are good looking. Tinder, instagram, real life

How do I cope?

Okay so I basically never had a normal relationship with my family, they are pretty judgy of what I do and who I am and they are kind of haters but I genuinely never liked them.
Every time I get out of room I get so angry seeing them, they totally make me not wanna live the day lmao.
Maybe it’s because of years of never being understood and liked by them but seeing my family genuinely makes me sad and tired, i hate going to the kitchen and they are there, i hate waking up and seeing them. They never really liked me and often make fun of me but the moment i show that it hurts me they think I am being crazy and judgmental.
Should I just let them be bipolar towards me or just get out of this house asap?

I always wanted to be a writer (yeah, I know), but I went into STEM because it seemed the more practical choice. Throughout undergrad, I spent all of my free time writing short stories, random experimental pieces, and fanfiction. Frankly, I took it more seriously than my actual work. Now, due to cognitive dysfunction caused by severe mental illness, I can barely do my real job at all. I'm still able to write, albeit much slower; it's all I've been doing while on medical leave. Now, my leave is about to end. I'm worried that I still won't be able to do my job (I've only just begun to see minor results from treatment), but my main concern is that the extreme stress of my job will keep me from writing (like it did before I went on leave). I hated my job even before I started having health issues, since the work environment is hostile to women and the job itself is at once both stressful and soul-crushingly boring. What should I do? My degree is in mathematics and math is what I'm having the most trouble doing right now, so I don't even know what other job options would be good for me. I was thinking of just going back to being a wagie so I can spend my free time writing. I have no illusions about the likelihood of becoming successful as a writer, but at least I'd be able to do what I enjoy. I am open to other suggestions, though.