Do you all know truly know yourself?
Do you know your personality?

I've been feeling really lost lately, as if I have no personality anymore. Does anybody feel the same? If you don't feel the same, how do you figure yourself out?

I really really hate having ADHD. I know your not suppose to blame your mental illness blah blah. But I feel like if I was just normal my bf would treat me better and not call me annoying all the time. Maybe he wouldn’t belittle everything I say, because I wouldn’t talk so much. He would actually wanna be around me. Maybe I would have friends because I wouldn’t be so anxious about over talking or being weird. It’s not fair because I see these couples on tiktok who have a SO with adhd and their so kind and loving to them. My boyfriend just tells me I need to grow up for just acting like a normally do. If I cry I feel stupid because he tells me I’m just crying for attention and that I don’t cry like a normal person. I feel like everyone sees me this way and I don’t wanna go outside anymore. If I’m not normal soon I’m just gonna kill my self. Sorry for the long post <3

A couple of years ago, at my high school, I was very curious about politics. It was a constant topic of discussion at school. The school itself was composed almost entirely of liberals, so partially out of curiosity and boredom from the constant stream of sameness I decided to look up conservative commentators in an effort to make debates more interesting. But, once I started debating those talking points students, teachers, and my own goddamn parents started horrifically clutching their pearls. My school was supposed to be one of the highest achieving in academics in my state and yet the students and teachers could barely hold their own against Steven Crowder talking points. They resorted to constant dogpiling in order to have any victories, but even then sometimes I won. Eventually this behavior lead to my friends leaving me and the student body and some teachers growing really sour and passive aggressive. After seeing this behavior I decided to research a little about the school only to find its run by a bunch of corporate defense lawyers very rich. But the experience of constantly being dogpiled again and again by the mob has taken its toll on me. For one left-wing politics are hard to get into now because of the association. The only reason that stops me from discarding it entirely is fear. Fear that either the mob will come back or I'll be apart of the mob. I also have a huge fear of talking to other people in general for the same reasons. The experience has left me REALLY pessimistic towards others almost subconsciously. The only upside for me was I got really good at debate. For now I'm just trying to develop more positive associations with people in an effort to quell the fear a little. Funnily enough, whenever I get nervous now I bring up politics although I've been cutting back on that. Anyone else have experiences with the mob? How has it effected you and how do you cope?

Hello I have a little question. It is about gore, and more precisely about liking gore. I do not refer to guro, or drawn gore. I do not refer to ficticious gore or horror movie gore. I refer to real gore. Why do some people enjoy it? I'm not even thinking about the moids that do, because I've come across women that enjoy looking at dead bodies/dead people/rekt threads/real life gore. Why? This isn't even a judgement. I can say I am a little bit guilty since I used to own a gore blog on tumblr 4 years ago when I was depressed and in a very bad mental place. It featured real injuries and surgical pictures and stuff like that. I was going for a fucked up aesthetic and yes you can shame me for being edgy on that one. I don't operate the blog and it has been abandonned a long time ago. One reason I have seen people like gore is because looking at gore images is a form of "overcoming themselves"? The thought goes like "If i can not flinch at gore or not be impacted, it means I am mentally strong". But is this even true? Isn't the disgust we feel while looking at gore there for a reason? Survival reason? Do people who "like gore" simply like it as a form of mental self harm? Could this even be a thing? Or maybe liking gore is just a form of curiosity? I am pretty sure it must depend from person to person. I also notice a lot of people simply liking shock factor gore for the sake of it being shock factor gore and nothing more. Isn't this a bit pointless? Is it good to like gore for the simple fact that it is shock factor? A lot of people also seem to show off how much they can take in gore content to gain edgy points and make themselves look cooler among their peers. In the end, I think it must depend from person to person. But I really do wonder about this phenomenon. Maybe you reading this also like gore? Or hate it? Maybe it has to do with mental illness. Or maybe it is a perfectly normal trait of the human brain. Either way, I do not know where those ramblings of mine will send me but I needed to write that down somewhere.

I'm tired of being around women. It's depressing, boring, heartbreaking. Every female space I go, it's all the same: discussion of abusive relationships, unquestioned heterosexuality, "beauty" tips, self-loathing, gossip, bitterness, and well-accepted hopelessness.

Women talk about how ugly, inappropriate, fat, and revolting they are. It's so, so boring. They talk about fashion and make-up and the moral implications of either. They view the world like a movie where they're both the director and the starting actress, carefully planning every move and choosing every angle in order to create magic. If I'm uglier than she is, she'll look at me with pity and try to "improve". If I'm prettier than she is, she'll look at herself, then at me, then at herself again, and she will compare us, letting me know how my existence is a threat to her sanity.

Most, if not all, the conversations I have with women don't pass the Bechdel test. They talk about their men, and how much they hate these men, and how miserable their lives are by their side. They'll spend hours complaining about male behavior, and will not have the self awareness to realize that they can live without them. I'm tired of seeing them wear themselves out for some being that I see as so below me I don't even waste time considering, let alone allow him to take over my life. He's ugly and a loser, he's boring and stupid. Are they all blind? Am I going crazy? Can we shut up about these men and talk about anything else?

I want to discuss my hobbies and the things I learn and the things that shape my world, and yet all of it gets derailed and frowned upon. I keep getting affected by the venomous conversations most women have. They all make me feel like I'm too much or too little, as if I'm some failed subhuman parody of a woman. They don't listen to me, they just enforce their authority on womanhood to try to correct who I am.

Whenever I talk to another woman, I find my mind filled by self-hatred, vanity, obsession, and resentment. If I ever bring this up, I get shut down as a "NLOG" and "not feminist enough". Well, then I don't want to be a feminist if feminism means uncritical consumption, holding women to impossible standards while praising men over the bare minimum, sexism, male supremacy, shallowness, and hostility. That's not feminism to me, that's just using the "women must support each other" in order to avoid change.

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i have very masculine facial features and ppl often mistake me for a young man. it makes me rlly insecure because my character doesn't correspond to this image of me at all. should i go for plastic surgery or use makeup? i'm kind of a tomboy and i never rlly used makeup before, it feels like 'cheating'

i keep smiling and laughing in a very stupid manner. with friends and family, with strangers. how do i stop laughing all the time? how do i control my emotions? i want to come off serious and be taken serious. it doesnt help that im very short and therefore not intimidating at all. really cant help but laugh or smile pretty much everytime anyone says something to me.

Moids are infiltrating our spaces. I saw this on r9k. Watch out for them, and do not listen to them. They need to be culled.

i feel like a failed human being asking this at my age, but due to circumstances that no one cares abt, i grew up with no friends, neither on school or family (all my family are older ppl, i dont have cousins or anything near my age), was bullied until i was 15 & so i never developed a normal socialization and also ended w social anxiety

since my social anxiety is getting a bit better little by little, i decided to take the plunge and start talking to ppl online to practice my social skills

and it isnt going well. i almost never know what to reply outside 'cool' 'nice'; i try to think something that interested me abt what they said or relate it to something that happened to me, but doing that often feels like im making the convo all about me.
i do have hobbies i could talk abt, but theyre kind of weird and i dont think they would be interested.
i have a common media interest with another person, but i dont want all our convos to be about that, and again i dont know how to start the convo or if they would be interested on a random thing i thought.
there has been a few days i could talk for very long, but 90% of the time i cant last for more than 3 messages…
i also tried group chats, but they overwhelm me and by the time i thought of a reply, the topic has already changed
this girl who messaged me almost daily hasnt talked in a week n half, which makes me kinda relieved because talking takes so much energy, but also i hope she doesnt think i dont care abt her… (i talked to her abt that, but still…)

i kiiind of can talk more naturally irl, but i still cant form friendships and my anxiety still gets in the way; everyone else has friends so i feel like an intruder they hate since im not as interesting…

it also sucks because there are ppl online who ask/want to be my friend and the feeling is mutual, but i dont know how to talk outside writing random ramblings to myself & so i always decline all offers….

i know the most important thing is to practice, so im on the right path, but if anyone has any tip of how to reply, topics to talk about or anything i would appreciate it

>be introvert college nona
>have a crush on a cute guy in my dorm I see sometimes
>smiles and says hi when he sees me, makes me get butterflies in my stomach
>can't stop thinking about him
>go to a party to get him off my mind and become more sociable so he might like me more
>see him there
>watch 5 pretty girls walk up and playfully kiss him on the lips, which he quite happily does
>6th girl gives him a shot of something and takes him upstairs
>watch the door of my dorm through my window all night, he never comes back

That's life, ladies