i hate being a girl so much im not even trans i just fucking hate myself i just want to mutilate my genitals i don't want to be celibate forever but that's all i know and if i ever did lose my virginity nobody would see me as valuable when the dump me. my only value to people interested is that im dumb and a virgin it feels like and i think if i lose it i will never be wanted again

Ever since I broke up with my 2nd and last boyfriend in highschool a few years ago, I've been pretty sure I'm gay, but recently I'm not so sure. Maybe its just because I've been depressed nowadays so my libido is shot. IDK why but whenever it's nightime and I'm alone I just start trying to think of ways that I could be straight/bisexual and lying to myself somehow even though I"ve never been turned on by a man IDK. Maybe I'm just insecure because I struggle with finding a girlfriend so hard that none of my family believe me-Every person in my family that I've come out to has either told me directly or said to another person later that they think I'm faking it. I wish people would just trust me, then maybe I could trust myself.

If i wanna date a cute intelligent guy who more or less has his life together, will he hate me if im a NEET, even if im otherwise wife material ? I think i can talk to people fine and connect with anyone like that so the issue is not with me being antisocial or smtn, Im just CURRENTLY extremely stuck in life and depressed with no aspiration to serve this fucked society, but im very capable of caring for individuals.

I just want to be a wife and a mother. Why do I have to go through college to get a degree I don't care about and don't want to use? I just want a family. Female liberation was a mistake, now I'm expected to start a career when I just want to be a housewife.

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I never brush my teeth for the full 2 minutes

I got sexually assaulted 1/2 years ago by a man I didn’t know. Maybe the details don’t matter but I guess an important one would be I was only in this circumstance because of my older sister (she KNEW the man)

I’m disappointed that my sister afterwards said “well atleast he found you hot enough to grope”

It’s just shockingly sad that that’s how low her self esteem is, I already know it’s mostly due to her struggling health condition along with weight issues she’s dealt with both her entire life, (I’ve also been obese most of my life and childhood but I hate male attention at all)

It’s just crazy how different we both see it, I see him groping me and forcing kissing me as disrespectful, I mean if anything if I was attractive and worthy enough why would he disrespect me by neglecting my own personal boundaries???

But then my sister thinks him attempting to rape me is a compliment… it’s tragic

I hate my appearance so much i feel like a tranny sometimes when im next to cute girl.
I'm so ugly but having unattractive features isn't my biggest issue, my biggest issue is how asymmetrical my face is, it is very unsymmetrical in every way, I wish I could take a liquefy tool and adjust it a little and even that won't fix everything, my face looks melted on one side, my nose is crooked sideways, I have the darkest, deepest, under eyes which bring it out even more, and my mouth is shaped like a sine function and my jaw itself is crooked also.
I have a raised eyebrow and small round eyes, long face, long nose with added deviated septum, and thin sickly lips.
people always tell me I look sad even when I'm in a good someone would tell me that I look grumpy/tired/sad, and it would ruin my whole day.
If I were to fix my face, I'd have to start with bone surgery for a total reconstruction.
I hate my face so much there is no helping it, makeup only brings out my flaws more, and I'm not keen on losing the extra weight I have because it won't make me attractive.
I'm not 25 yet but I don't see myself getting in a relationship or getting married ever, I will remain a virgin my whole life because not even filters can fix me, no man was ever interested in me and no man will… even girls don't like me because I depress them.
my health isn't great either, I swallow a handful of pills every day and I get sick on monthly basis, I get sick so often I had to change doctors because my doctor doesn't believe I'm actually sick until my symptoms progress too much.
When I go outside by myself or with others and get reminded of what I look like I quickly get so overwhelmed I wish I could be home instantly because even thinking about being preserved by more people on my way back home makes me feel sick.
At this point I'd rather die than to continue suffering because there is no point to my existence, I was never good academically and I excel at nothing, I'm terrible at everything even vidya, I'm just a burden to my parents and the people around me.

Through pretty trust-worthy sources I got to recently learn that a moid in my uni has a literal fetish for eating women. Not vore but like cannibalistic eating. I think there's a subreddit for this shit that he's subbed to. NGL i'm a bit scared to go to uni now. Am I paranoid?

I have a problem. I get off almost every day now. It used to be every other day but now it’s almost every day. I stopped for 3 days to see if I could and the withdrawal was so bad that I was unreasonably angry for like 2 days straight. I got in some horribly heated arguments with ppl. Then I started doing it again and everything was fine and I didn’t feel angry anymore. I think if I hadn’t started again, it would’ve genuinely ruined my life in those few days. I feel like it’s hurting my body though and I feel like it might hurt my ability to have relationships if I’m turned on like this all the time. I don’t even watch anything, I just use my imagination. And I don’t use toys either. I’m constantly thinking about fucking and it’s the only thing keeping me sane. It’s a vicious cycle and I need advice.

Still no bf edition.

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