/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I’m online now please just email me back. -NP

I am sorry and want to talk to you again before I make a post apologizing publicly. Please stop ignoring me. - NP

Please at least tell me you aren’t coming. I still wait for you at our spot multiple times a week. I long to run into you. Please just reply. - NP

I’m online now. Please just let me apologize to you properly. - NP

He plays these mind games with you because he views you as his property. Just FYI. It will never be real. Keep ignoring him.

Yeh, my type is rare where I live. I like tall high IQ autists with soft dark brown hair and cute jew noses specifically but there are no guys like this in my fucked up city. I will probably die alone sadly

my type is eastern european girls or asians but alot of the girls in my area are morbidly obese or lack a good personality
where i am my type is also quite rare, im too busy sleeping to talk to girls though

i don't have a type. finding a decent person is hard though

my type has mainly been fabricated by the amount of japanese media ive consumed my whole life, especially on my late teens. i have a liking for a type that nowadays only dresses up like that to either get girls or get internet famous. most of the moids who wants to replicate that style are hideous, but are somehow treated as a hot anime bishie despite their facial hair being visible…i think theres only one that i know of that manages to pull it off, but he comes off as an obnoxious faggot fuckboy. grim, i should stop fantasizing about this type of guy, cause he only ever existed during japan in the early 00s. and even at that time they were either whores or payed whores. not fair, too bad they look super cute…basically, my appearance type for guys is a tall skinny guy my age, who looks good with either hosuto or gyaruo hairstyles. i am a fan of mj from arashi, so a guy who resembles his looks from before he got old are very good to me as well…im also of course not just a yellow fevered otak, cause i like the skinny tall emo type too…something like shirota yu or those guys you would find in the earlier years of myspace. i mainly like asian or european men tho…however to find one like the ones ive described is pretty much impossible irl. for personality type, i would say i like a guy who would be the opposite of my personality type. like an outgoing guy, who is a extrovert. just being kind and caring is all he needs. a playful personality, just overall teasing is so hot…i have a liking for shy and more reserved guys too. i find a guy who is very emotional, quiet, and dependent just too cute. i like guys who wear glasses too. also school nurses and teachers…id say police men too but i would be afraid of him getting hurt. honestly it all just depends on what otome game im playing or bishie anime im watching to make me more into their tropes kek. my dream guy would be fitting for a yandere type, though irl that would translate badly obviously (yes i am autistic, no i am not underage) and be also a virgin. if he isnt a vigirn, then he is a whore and i obviously dont want that. too bad irl guys are all used up and walled. even their sperm is expired, probably. i want for my boyfriend to be my first in everything, so i will be his first for everything as well. i think both of us being inexperienced could make it even better…maybe thats why im into the childhood friend trope. in the end i know that this is all just a fad, no one is like that irl. also im not that Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>129374
my type has changed with age, but one thing that's remained consistent is how well we get along. I am not attracted to someone i don't get along with, no matter how attractive.

i've had crushes on/dated guys of all varieties; from neckbeards to musicians.

now that i think of it, i somewhat always go for bums .-.

It's my birthday soon and if you don't wish me one I'm blocking you.

Actually, I'm blocking you either way

stop using different numbers to contact me it’s been 2 years i hate you you ugly cunt

if i could go back, i'd put you in prison.

i know all of your accounts so stop thinking you can hide shit from me

Question- does your friend care about how you're feeling? Enough to ask how you're doing? Basic empathy stuff.

Also, if he's just ramming it in without using foreplay or even lube, he hates you and is only using you for your youth. Do yourself a favor and leave before he baby traps you

>>129432
Not OP, but… uh oh… I met him when I was 18 and he was 25…

I relate to this a lot. Where do I even go from here? I don't have the motivation to go out and get a job but I also don't know what else to do other than rot in bed and play games 24/7. Being a NEET is honestly pretty hard

>>128773
OP HERE… so my male friend finished bootcamp and i was able to call and play video games with him recently but hes barely the same person. He seemed uninterested to talk to me and empty? fml. I think im gonna lose him soon as well

>>129469
They broke his spirit. He got what he asked for.

>>129469
maybe he thinks youre not interested so the army is all he really got

>>129165
Part time job as a waitress or cleaner

>>129408
it doesn’t sound like op hates men at all lol.

>>129407
>I decided to try and be normal
I think you did the opposite. You tried conforming to the abnormality in this world. Couldn't handle the loneliness, got swayed by temptations.

>the thought of him looking at another girl makes me physcially sick
same.

I use OF and streamers as a litmus test for men, because it's very telling about their online behaviour and relationship to women. Having multiple favourite streamers he religiously watches full streams of is obviously massively unhealthy, and if it's softcore porn or political slop reaction content, then all the worse. Paying any kind of subscription to a woman media personality is instantly a red flag and can't really be excused in the vast majority of circumstances. It's just admitting he sees sex as a transaction: he pays her money which gives him explicit approval, consent if you will, to use her for his pleasure, and allows him to make a claim to some small part of her body and life. There's a reason he's not just jerking off to free internet porn.

>I decided to try and be normal
You can still date while being weird, but it sounds like you're overcompensating by trying to date "normal" men, who are in fact degenerates that trawl dating apps and will take a shot at any woman, or vaguely woman-shaped thing, that lets them get close enough.

>>129407
there’s absolutely no reason your boyfriend needs to be following girls who stream on twitch for any reason. like ever… loser behavior. most women who stream on twitch are goon farming for simps. & i don’t really blame them cause men are pathetic enough to actually engage in this kinda stuff.. but yeah don’t ever let him try to convince you he’s not just following/engaging with these girls cause he finds them hot. cause that’s exactly what he’s doing.

You're not crazy for not wanting your boyfriend to have a digital harem
They will claim it's just goonslop to have a quick release but in reality they can't even stay hard during real sex because they trained to find a screen with tits in it more arousing than a real woman in front of them
I found that after porn became a global phenomena male sexuality became less distinctive and grounded as hetero/gay/bi, and more about dopamine chasing from increasingly taboo content or increasing amount of porn they expose themselves to.
After knowing that you might have a dissonance why some man who watches juggling black midget clown orgy porn still decides to date a straight woman. It's because they need an emotional pacifier and there's no better emotional pacifier than a straight woman.
Once you realize men are just slaves to quick hits of dopamine and use relationships for status and emotional labor from your part it all clicks and makes it so simple. it's really not because you're not goon material or your tits aren't big enough, it's just that your role in their life is mommying them and pacifying them and making them feel like they're not horrible people.
It doesn't make dating any less depressing though. We all still want to care and be cared for, while all men can offer is trauma

Part time job as a toilet cleaner in offices and you're good to go, until money runs out of course

Would you rather be a tradwife?

>>129234
So because I dont want to be a slave that means I should just be homeless and die? That's sociopathic
>>129398
I am autistic so I can't stand schedules. That's the problem I have with working. I only want to work when have energy to do so. Autistic people are just not meant for this world. It sucks having a brain that's wired the opposite of surviving in normalfag society basically
>>129416
I mean, im ok with being a tradwife as long as I dont have to cook or clean everyday. That's too much work for me tbh

I knew a guy who worked with homeless people.

according to him, there were many homeless moids who owned cars who literally refused to get jobs because they enjoyed homelessness too much. as long as they had a car and some cash for the occasional hotel room, they were happy. I stress "moid" here because they didn't have to worry about getting raped in the streets lol.

these were regular men with no drug addictions or mental illness. they lived like John Candy in Planes, Trains and Automobiles and loved it.

This is understandable but for me it's less the work that sucks and more the not making enough to make ends meet. My goal is to get a degree and rent a small apartment (I don't need much else) but I always told myself that if I reached a point where I truly hated working I'd just become a hardcore crust punk and spend all my life listening to good music and hanging out with alcoholics. I'd probably save up enough to get a trailer/van and live the van life or something. Then I'd do the kind of work that's enjoyable yet not enough pay. With the rising gas prices that's not very realistic but it's probably less than renting an apartment.

>>129237
>do you think porn could be the issue?
It definitely is an issue, especially starting at an early age. And masturbation can re wire the brain to only like masturbation and not enjoy normal sex, masturbating to porn got many people into voyeur/cuckshit

>>129239
This

>>129239
This.

Porn has nothing to do with it; maybe even helped in making you think casual sex is empty and overrated.

Go find real love, OP.

Yesterday I tried Mexican food for the first time. I didn't like it. No big deal.

>>129237
is it just me or is 9 a common age to watch porn for the first time? I probably saw it around 7-8

>>129399
are u comparing trying food for the fist time to having sex for the first time

>>129404
why are you worried about hurting the feelings of some moid who’s acting like a whiny entitled retard. just stop messaging him and befriend a girl. men aren’t your friends

>>128100
Only if you dont assert the female gaze.

>>128276
Exactly

>>128277
Yes, but it is an act of evil he is entitled to inflict on women, therefore it is “good” (when he does it).

>>126444
It is ALL in how you see it. I don't see myself being penetrated; I see myself absorbing and swallowing the man's power within me. I don't see a blowjob as subservient but as using my power over him to make him beg for more. And surely a guy who goes down on you is acknowledging your dominance and practically worshipping you

Sex is YOU conqquering HIM - absorbing, engulfing, stealing his power