Anonymous 15825[Reply]
I wish there was a support group for hating someone that groomed you, but (sexually) missing them. I feel so sick and fucked up in the head.
7 posts and 2 image replies omitted. Click reply to view.Anonymous 15857
I hate randomly remembering inappropriate comments he made because it comes with this skin-crawling feeling. I don't know how else to describe it.
Anonymous 15858
>>15837I would feel stupid and gross
Anonymous 15859
>>15858I want to clarify, I wouldn't feel right being around a bunch of women who've faced things 100x worse than me, I'd feel like I'm disrespecting the space. If only there was a more open space? Maybe the only choice really is to start one
Anonymous 15867
I still have that photo of his face on my old external hard drive. I don't know anything about him besides that and the country he lives in. I found an account he ran, years ago, but since I didn't have proof of his actions anymore, I couldn't "expose" him. That account is inactive now. It seems like he deleted everything he could.
I have weird maladaptive daydreams about what it would've been like if I kept talking to him. I know nothing good would've happened. It makes me want to write a story or something, put the whole thing to some kind of use. I could just never admit what the real source of inspiration was. There are probably enough fucked up stories like that, though.
Anonymous 15868
I feel like not all, but a lot the things that happened to me in real life are in a fuzzy enough early stage that I can safely live outside of them, but my brain is wired so that the fact that I had to read the words he sent with my own two eyes and parse them (and that I cared so much about his validation??) constantly follows me even now.
He thought it was funny when people were worse than him, and refused to judge them. I don't really understand how a person can be that way. At least he didn't promise me I'd understand when I'm older. I hope he died, I don't know. He was a worthless blight on the planet.