Anonymous 13735[Reply]
at what age did start getting an interest in sex, porn etc.?
Was it embarassing to you at first? or how did you feel about it
14 posts and 1 image reply omitted. Click reply to view.Anonymous 14275
>>14236I don't have DID, so that's not it.
Anonymous 14279
>>14275nta but DID introjects are different, they have sort of own identity/self awarness.
normal introjects don't have that they could just be an idea or a way to think about yourself
Anonymous 14454
I think I accidentally discovered masturbation when I was around the age of 7. I don't remember exactly how, but I remember very clearly that my grandma gave me a severe beating because I kept humping a desk and took my pillow away for like a year for the same reason.
Then when I was around the age of 10 my mom would let me borrow her laptop pretty much every day, so I kept looking for pictures of Card Captor Sakura, Ranma and Sailor Moon. Somehow I ended up in a hentai site and became so infatuated with it that I wanted to look at it 24/7. This was also around the time I was learning about reproduction at school so it was kind of eye opening.
It was extremely embarrassing and something I only shared with my best friend at the time.
Anonymous 14455
I first saw pornography through a gay cam pop up scam when I was 7 or 8 while trying to download Final Fantasy VII on to a PC at my mother's workplace, lulz. I clicked out of it super fast because I knew I'd get in trouble but it sort of stuck with me mentally because it was the first time I had seen a man without clothes. I didn't actively search for it again until I was 10 when I sort of binge-watched across all sorts of categories to see what I would like but found it all weird and off-putting, which I still do. I spent a lot of time on the computer quite young and saw a lot of things very early, I had a fascination with watching gore around age 10/11 as well. I don't say that to be edgy, I feel like it wired my brain quite badly and I wish I hadn't gone down that path. I remember when I was 12 on a Skype call with a friend who was 15, we were going through that 'run the gauntlet' challenge together and I lightheartedly made fun of him for having to look away from the screen and he said something about how most people would and that was the first time I realized my interest in those things was actually pretty abnormal. I also didn't understand that incest and, to a lesser extent, rape were wrong until someone explicitly told me because both seemed normalized to me through the content I consumed. I tried masturbation for the first time when I was 10 but didn't orgasm until I was 12.
Wow it feels weird to confess this, never really had female friends with whom I could just talk normally about things like this.