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For ever since prepubescence I have had rape fantasies, at first I tried to repress but when I got into my teens I started to indulge in them.
It startes in a nonsexual manner when I was as young as maybe 7 or 8, I would kidnap women in certain videogames and self insert as the women I was kidnapping in a way, not sexually, I don't understand why.
Then rape fantasies when I was 11 or so.
Now its the main thing I get off to.
Wtf is wrong with me? I get rape fantasies or normal but this shit started when I was SEVEN. No, I was not molested or sexually abused in any way. I wasn't introduced to sexual content t a young age (apart from very crude humor in adult TV programs my parents let me watch, but nothing explicit or graphic)
I also have hypersexual tendencies since puberty. I started masturbating at 11 and would sometimes masturbate 6 hours a day if I had nothing to do. I would watch tv while I did it, I wouldn't even think of anything sexual at the time (I would not masturbate to the rape fantasies and refused to indulge in them and attempted to repress them).
Now its usually 30-120 minutes a day spanning at least a couple sessions, I only miss days if due to yeast infection of some sort.
WTF is wrong with me???

Just like it sounds, I been with my bf for a while but just recently met his brother. They are carbon copy of each other, chinese, 6'2, tanned, somewhat muscular as they used to do a lot of sports; almost twins if it wasn't for their age difference.
My bf is very open about sex, we have had multiple talks about crazy things we've done in the past even fantasies. I never really been interested in a threesome or being with another guy outside of my couple, but this time it's different and gotta admit, I feel a little bit guilty.

The three of us spent some days together to get to know each other. Went out for dinner, went to the beach, all kind of things. His brother was not really good at visual contact but conversation was very easy with him, so I could tell he was not uncomfortable. After a while I notice that he was always discreetly eyeing me up and down. The day at the beach was not the exception, things scalated very quickly, they were teaching me how to swim, they had some distance in between them so I could swim back and forth. In a moment his brother held me close to him to stay afloat. Right there I felt it, hard againts my leg. I couldn't even hide my surprise and he quickly apologized. I went to my bf to tell him about that weird interaction but little did I know he saw everything and hugged me by the waist and started rubbing me under the water. "You liked that, right? I'm sure he liked too".
I WAS IN SHOCK 💀💀💀💀💀 I never had a situation like that happened to me. My bf just kissed me and went outside the water.
The rest of the day both of them acted like nothing happened! I sunbathe the whole day while they're playing paddle and volleyball. Both came from time to time to check on me.
The next day i was looking for my bikini and the bottom part was gonne the whole morning. After a while i found it where i left it to dry the day before… 💀
He left a few days ago, and I don't know if we'll meet again in a while. Not a single word about the beach interaction was said before he left, neither about my bikini; which I told my bf about and he replied with "I wasn't me" while giving me a mischievous look (mind you, this man stole a bikini bottom too when he was a teenager, so it wasn't that strange to him).

I feel like they're were waiting for me to take the first step. I just didn't know how or if it was correct. I'll be a lie if I said that thinking about both Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

I feel degenerate because I love my ass being eaten. My boyfriend originally said he never wanted to get involved near that area, but he knew I once had the experience before and liked it. The thing is, I don't like anal, or at least all my experiences with it in the past which were heavily pressured/rape. Am I trash for liking my ass being eaten? Is it more normal than I think? My boyfriend went from eating me out in the shower to now just doing it out of nowhere because he says he loves my reaction. I am glad he's doing this with me, I'm pleasantly surprised, but also nervous because I feel gross for liking my ass being eaten. I feel like I should return the favor (because I want to), but I don't know how to bring that up.

I mostly only ever hear about it not being the body shattering experience that porn and moids make it out to be and how it's normally pretty lame and how it's just done to please the guy. There's a few nonas here that seem to like it based on their posts, so to those of you that have experienced it, how high would you rate penetrative sex on it feeling good?
Is it a complete waste of time or not? Good enough to finish from it alone?

I don't think it's vaginismus (everyone says it is but it just doesn't seem right). I must be some kind of anomaly. Arousal changes things a little bit, but overall it's just too small to fit anything besides a couple of fingers. Never had sex with a moid partially because I'm honestly concerned about how it'll go. Does anyone else have similar problems?

I hate radfems for the simply fact they act like gross little heterosexual prudes that try to gatekeep how women interact with each other sexually, like I LOVE BDSM and it literally has nothing to do with porn or wanting to "le cause suffering" for the "le male gaze".

Idc if Im "not better than a man".
Give me a latex-wearing baddie who will choke me and step on me. Hit and tease my pussy with that cat o nine tails. Especially if she wants it done to her as well.

If anything, BDSM was made for women only. Men are disgusting fucking goblins and idk how any woman finds them attractive, let alone willing to let them do that to them, men don't care about your pleasure but I sure of hell would. Women who want to be submissive belong with other women, not beta men. Females are superior.

It's full of rape and pedophilia, men and women, straight, faggots or lesbians. They tweet pedophilic things and get thousands of likes, they tweet about wanting to "get raped by daddy" and get even more likes, they have "no morals/no limits" in their bios, they trade CP and keep lusting over underage girls. Fucking both sexes are doing it.

You ever read this?

Does anyone else hate blowjobs?
Both the idea and the actual act just seems so degrading and off-putting to me in a way I can't describe it.
Even with guys I was in love with I didn't like it.
My last ex never asked for one, but always went down on me and it was heaven. I don't like topping either, I still want a guy to take control.
Is there something wrong with me? Anyone here genuinely like blowjobs where you're not just doing it for the guy's sake, but because you like the actual act?

i'm not looking for advice, just want to vent, and I felt this was too nsfw for the regular /feels/ .

ever since I got into escorting and sugaring i've come to find out just how truly depraved and insufferable moids can be. like I always knew they were disgusting and idiotic but holy fuck this was a new low. not only do I have to fight my bodies natural reaction to reject these guys during sex, but I have to feed into their egos at the same time.

you have the forty year old divorced dads with Peter Pan syndrome, the ugly bastard tech bros that are one failed arrangement away from being full fledged incels, the hopeless romantic soy boy that so desperately wants to play mr save a hoe for any freshly turned 18 year old with an ass still tight from varsity volleyball, and of course the "feminist" cool/chill guy that like totally understands the inherent power imbalances in sex work and how he wants to only practice it ethically and blah blah blah.

one time I had a sleazy type of client; some fat ass asian moid with a tacky looking Rolex and Dior savage permeating from his pores. we started off hanging out at a casino he had chosen and he did numerous things to piss me off throughout the night; trying to short my rate, not wanting to wear a condom, trying to go multiple rounds- worst of all was when he asked me if I had any girl friends who would be down to come with me next time we met and I told him no, that none of my friends did stuff like this. he then being the weasel that he is tried playing it off, saying something along the lines of "oh well you can just bring them and we'll have a fun time in the casino and see how the night goes." which to that I said, "my friends don't know I even do this stuff, they'd wonder how we met," what I actually wanted to say was "why the fuck would my friends want to hang out with an old ugly fat fuck like you?" but I held back. he responded something like "just say we met online, we'll all get together and have fun, once the drinks start flowing see where it goes," now my friends have fucked some questionable looking moids, but this moid was delusional off the ass if he thought any girl wouldnt have to be roofied and blacked out to fuck him for free. before I could respond back he added on, "I'll pay you an extra $300, you keep the money for yourself and not tell the others." his audacity truly shocked me. I replied in a very calm and slightly quizzical voice, "so you want me to pimp out my frPost too long. Click here to view the full text.