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I played in a pbp game set in the 1700's with magic, where erp between players was allowed. I played as a budding witch-queen of a little island, keeping the townsfolk in line with fear and drawing passing ships to smash themselves on the rocks so I could grow rich on their cargo. I may have gotten a little too excited and a ship captain turned up with a witch hunter to track me down. I tore open my blouse and made up a story about taking revenge on sailors who'd murdered my mother. He bought it and took me, intending to use me as a weapon, back to his luxury estate. The whole trip I seduced him, but played the virgin when he got me alone. His wife immediately saw right through me and had me sent away to train with wisewomen, which was a really bad call and let me summon her husband back to me repeatedly through his dreams. When the war was at its height, he came again to use me to sink enemy ships and I, after many alluring close-calls, succumbed to his charms and let him have me precisely once. The second we made it back to his home, I faked a pregnancy and he gave me a small manor to keep me a secret. I cursed his wife and she slipped and fell while walking along the cliffs, dashing herself on the rocks below. The growing pregnancy left him with no choice but to marry me as soon as possible. I drugged his two children to keep them compliant and waited until he set to sail, then drew his ship on the rocks of his, my, estate. I secluded myself for a few days, told everyone my grief had resulted in a miscarriage, then sent his children to apprentice as far away as physically possible. With my new estate and fantastic wealth, I needed a way to prolong my youth, so I sought out a mercenary cavalry captain with ancient power in his blood, hired him to defend my home, then seduced him; this time for an actual pregnancy. The plan was to eventually transfer myself into the body of my daughter, but the game ended because of far too many hurt feelings (that I contributed to by being a tease, which absolutely crushed the ego of the sea captain player, who felt entitled to more hot erp because he was so gallant in not raping me when I played coy)

>>11888
I have in the past, which is funny because I don’t enjoy sexual stuff that much irl. Usually it was in video games like world of Warcraft or final fantasy xiv and I had a lot of fun doing it for a period in my life, though it eventually got boring. I enjoyed getting to write in flowery language and slowly build things up and make storylines with other people. A lot of the people I did it with always got really attached though and tried to start relationships with me even though I didn’t have any special feelings for them at all

>>11903
>Usually it was in video games like world of Warcraft
its so shameful to me that my first experience of doing anything sexual was being smuggled into Stormwind to strip and dance at a tavern for a few gold

>>11898
I was an erp slut as a teenager and still do it to this day, but recently I've been kind of monogamous.
>playing a communal World of Darkness game
>have overlapping stories
>playing with some others as a sorority of monster hunters in college
>get into minor witchcraft to help out my sisters
>start buying occult books and looking for rare tomes
>another player runs an antique book store
>know ooc that he's probably some kind of supernatural
>he helps me find and acquire books that let me grow my abilities
>start messing around with oneiromancy
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Yeah I ERP from time to time. I enjoyed regular forum RP when I was a minor and I got groomed into ERP when I was 12 (I lied that I was 22) from a furry MMO my cousin told me about. It was the most thrilling, nerve-wracking thing I ever experienced and even though it was incredibly basic writing, in retrospect.

I would ERP on and off until it became a more regular desire into my late teens and adulthood, but friend drama and family disapproval caused me to quit all roleplaying, up until about 3 years ago when I met my best friend. He got me back into ERP again after years of quitting and is still my most favorite partner to roleplay with, even though other people are also very annoyingly possessive of him.

My main problem with the modern ERP scene is just the sheer amount of trannyshit everywhere, from unapologetic MtFs to futas to yuri that's written where the male-played female basically inexplicably "girlcums" exactly like a man's ejaculation but from her vagina, which is not at how the female orgasm works. Not a lot of people willing to play attractive males, much less write them well. Lots of men will play the nastiest, grossest shit out there and other lame hypermasculine stuff. Fujos and really amazing bi/straight boys are the only people who can play good males. They're scarce. Some good gay males exist but I have grown past the desire to play yaoi/futa content for them.

>>11903
>A lot of the people I did it with always got really attached though and tried to start relationships with me even though I didn’t have any special feelings for them at all
This has happened so, so many times. There is a certain game I used to play that's not very well known, a majority of the playerbase is AMABs but has a good portion of troons. Many of them play lesbian characters and in their OOC notes they often put that they don't want random sex flings without building a relationship first. You would think that's normal because it makes sense from a story perspective, but from experience, 99% of them will cling and form a parasocial crush on you, especially if they find out you're an AFAB IRL. It's disgusting. The characters that are fine with occasional sex flings are usually so much more mature and less clingy in OOC. I now consider it a red flag if people want a serious IC relationship before ERP. Same thing with "find oPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>12017
I wish I had met more partners like you. I liked erp but it always tended to be marred by awful writing, or people either taking their OC way too seriously or wanting to be bestie/lover outside roleplay.

>>11858
I mean… on the one hand it's nice to see the Church be a little less stickinthemuddy about sex, on the other hand, I get people not wanting to be in Mass or a parish retreat with their kids and grandmas and hear Father Soandso give a homily on the wonders of the clitoris. That's just fucking weird.

>>11867
well i want a chaste monk bf to corrupt for reasons like this >>11854

>>11849
My bf did this a couple weeks ago. I was playing SOTC and he was sitting on the couch snickering at YT vids or whatever. Then out of nowhere he just kneels down in front of the couch, yanks my sweats down, and goes for it.
>nona.exe has stopped working
I wasn't sure how to react so I kept trying to play the game, but it was the boss that you fight in the big sand pit where you have to shoot it with arrows while riding the horse and aiming backwards and it was too much to concentrate on after four or five minutes and I died.

How did you go about asking him to do it all the time? What was his reaction? I'm kind of game for him to make it a regular thing if he's up for it, but I'm embarrassed to ask.

>>11870
>How did you go about asking him to do it all the time? What was his reaction? I'm kind of game for him to make it a regular thing if he's up for it, but I'm embarrassed to ask.
Tbh my bf was already trying to distract me when playing video games by rubbing my pussy before so it wasn't much of a leap I just asked jokingly once but now I doubt I'll ever finish a video game ever again

this reads like a copypasta, desperately trying not to burst out in laughter

I have never had any kind of sexual feeling for a friend, but we were buying fish food at a pet store and I jokingly put a dog collar on him. I was suddenly flushed and wanted to touch him. When he knelt down to reach under a shelf, I had this flash of fantasy about him kneeling naked on my bedroom floor, tongue out to service me as I yanked on his leash. What the fuck is happening to me?

>>11926
>What the fuck is happening to me?
Looks like you have a new fetish.

There are loads of guys into this but they're mostly fat/ugly/troons
You can find them in chastity communities (like Chaster) pandering to female dommes (who are usually in their 30s and 40s)

>>11931
Yes but it's hot when they're young or at least handsome, not when they're ugly and troon-like

>>11893
I will, we actually spoke about it, he cried tears of joy but also said that he wants me to propose and arrange our future marriage because he feels if he was the one initiating taking our relationship to a next level, he would feel kinda "patriarchaly" because he doesn't want to make me feel pressured into doing anything.
>>11894
This! How could you read my post and/or my replies and think that I don't love my boyfriend?!
>>11895
You don't understand my post, I like doing this shit and also I feel happy about making my boyfriend happy, I talk about something fucky and irrational that is all in my head.

>>11893
It hurts to love someone

>>11896
>All my friends got BFs this year
Me hurting
>I remember that crystal.cafe exists
>Go there and remember that there is an unlisted nsfw board
That is a good idea to lurk that section, right?
>Stumble upon this thread
>Read it
>Hurt my feelings even further
Why am I like this? Should I just OD on Skittles?

ick ick ick
are you addicted to porn or something? Couldn't even make it halfway through this post before getting the urge to vomit. Seek help.

>>11890
Your instincts are right and you guys are both a bit sick in the head, probably from porn and the way it affects our current culture. I wouldn't continue abusing my boyfriend for sexual pleasure if I were you.

If you're getting unprompted compliments, just wait until you receive one from a cute moid. and when you do, return it with a compliment.
Bam, easy convo starter.
The fact that hes complimenting you is a good sign that he's single. From there getting his number/other contact would be as simple as asking for it. Then just meet him a few places and then fuck.

tinder? I feel like men irl would be harder game, tinder you can just be upfront with what you want.

Posting another. Remember this silly scene? Haha

Chat to an older woman on CC who drives

>>11912
Literally the opposite for me lol

>>11912
why bully

that sounds really painful

>>11901
YWNBAWT

Have you seen a gyno and/or done pelvic floor exercises?

Gonewildaudio

I listen to erotic audiobooks while at work and in public. I don't go in for M/M or high school tier fae lover stuff, as I've found urban fantasy and sci-fi have way better stories that make me more invested in the characters, which makes the sex so much more arousing.

>>11416
You do not need to hang around toxic spaces to feel a sense of belonging and identity. People that make imageboards and internet meme culture their whole personnality are a pain to be around and usually do not end up giving you any meaningful connection in the end. (Because yes, in the end, incels are quite literally just a meme and contributing to that community is deluding yourself into believing this meme alongside people that believe in this meme). Just because the toxicity feels familiar (therefore soothing in a way) doesn't mean it's not actively harming you. I don't want you to go through the harsh realisation that you've been spending all your time around unhappy and abusive people when you could've been focusing on yourself more. Maybe what you're experiencing is a form of self harm. Self harm isn't just the sterotypical cutting your wrist thing, it can also be behavioral such as putting yourself in negative or abusive situations. I don't even want to tell you to go seek therapy because it'll just make me sound condenscending and ignorant of your personal situation; especially since therapy is expensive and a luxury only some can afford. If you can afford therapy, definitely consider it; but if you can't, I wholeheartedly understand. I'll still give you basic advice to hopefully help you regain more control for yourself and your life on a personal level. Pick up a hobby, try something new. The internet is so full of ressources much more interesting and self fulfilling than talking about celibacy and self loathing all day (and considering it as part of your identity/personnality). I draw, I do music even though I'm disabled which makes me not hear everything like normal-hearing people do. It doesn't stop me from trying to enjoy the hobby. I listen to music too, I love discovering new songs. I like reading wikipedia pages, I like gathering information. I like anime and manga too, I read a lot of visual novels. It's silly things, but they're fun. I also enjoy collecting, I enjoy photography. I notice that creative hobbies help with dealing with complicated feelings (of any kind). So it is both fun and therapeutic. Even collage can help, you can do those with free software now.
But please, distance yourself from these harmful people. They do not bring anything meangingful to your life and I truly mean it. I've tried to interact with incels in the past, aPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>11416
how did u grow up in these spaces yet fail to remain anon as if ur a normie or tourist..do u have autism or something :/ these spaces dont require u to create an acc so wtf are u saying and doing thats allowing this guy to so easily find u lol. maybe u should try reddit or something where people love to leave details about their lives all over the place.

>>11439
I'm not poster >>11417 but I can relate.

I'm older now but a few years ago, I started lurking femcel spaces such as r/femcels and then r/trufemcels. When both got taken down when, I moved to r/vindicta. I was obsessed with "looksmaxxing" which means looking better.

I was very unpopular to high school and didn't have any guys who were into me. Looking back, I was so insecure, in addition to being an awkward teen. I also had really high social anxiety and really poor hygiene due to being abused at home, depression and overall self-loathing.The self-loathing never ends. I found crystal cafe the last week of 2023. I love the anonymity it provides me. I also got sucked into a looksmaxx website and I'm now getting addicted to 4chan.

I've had like 2-3 reddit accounts that I've had to bounce from because I ruined my anonymity and became paranoid because of it. I was also part of some femcel discords. I would be mortified to know anyone in real life found me on these spaces. Growing up a lonely, insecure teenager on the internet, these forums/subreddits gave me the connection I craved in real life without having to face the embarrassment of telling anyone in real life that I was struggling. I had really bad social anxiety at the time.

In addition to all of this, I am generally very paranoid so I try to keep a low profile on the internet. I judge people who post all of their business online but I do the same, but just on message boards and online forums. I do. however, have some big regrets about this. I posted some compromising and personal information about myself on a forum that doesn't let people delete their posts, even if they are banned by the site. This means that my very personal posts that I posted at like 16 will remain up. I used to be very depressed about this and even considered taking my own life at one point due to it.

Social media is a trip.

>>11443
Samefag, just adding to say that they should teach internet safety to children. I don't believe social media will get any safer. My children definitely will have limited access to the internet or none at all until they are a certain age. Message boards led to me picking up verbiage that I never used to use and overall becoming they type of person I used to hate.

On the other hand, lurking certain image boards made me less of a femcel, because it helped me realize that men and women do have some things in common.

>>11443
"into a looksmaxx website"
isnt .org a male only site?