>how long have you had it?
i have had it since i could remember
>where/what do you pick?
it all started with my nails, the skin surrounding my nails, cuticles, scabs, scalp, and lip skin. When I entered puberty, I started picking on my face or any other bump that would appear on my body. I also started getting a lot of pimples on my head and I would just repeatedly pick at a pimple before it would heal completely. I am pretty sure if i shaved my head, it would be scarred. I also recently started picking my shoulders a bit, but its all getting better and I dont do it as much as I used to (i would still get episodes though)
>how does it make you feel?
the fixation that comes with it honestly feels good, but afterwards i would feel this heavy feeling of uglyness. When I was little, I would pick at my nails untill they were stubs, and it felt nice because I was so fixated on it, and it just felt good to do it. I welcomed any pain because I associated the pain with the problem going away like it was a cost or something. Even if I bled, I kept going. I would be left with jaggedy nails, and I would feel regretful and ugly afterwards. It was even worse with my lips, because constantly feeling roughness or skin hanging out made me want to "smooth it out". Thats really what I was doing most of the time, just smoothing my imperfections out. I think puberty was the absolute worst, I felt so disgusting and when I tried to not pick my face, I would go back to my nails and scalp and I couldn't stop… I think the worst thing that has happened though was when my face was starting to get an infection, my face was always warm and red. The antibiotics really helped. Thank God though that this was during a time that I was recovering from my habits, so my face is healing very nicely :)
and now for the past 2 years I have been getting way better through recognizing my own patterns, and I just started going to therapy which has been helping too. I can actually let my nails grow out and they are now so long and strong!! It makes me so happy that nails look prettier than before.
>any coping mechanisms/tips?
I have recovered very nicely, for someone who has been doing this for years. I hope that this can help any other miners going through what I am going through :3
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