>PPPS because I'm stupid and I fix one formating error and forget the other
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>it's been going well be mentally I'm in conflict with myself
but
>I still thought I thought of myself as fat
>and I keep on binging and restricting
bingeing

Luckily I haven't been purging and I hope I don't get to that point again, and that's another reason I'm scared of going back to being skinny.

>inb4 see a therapist
1. I'm broke broke I can barely afford my bills and food.
2. Therapists are enablers and my experience with therapy wasn't good.
>inb4 you have an ED
I don't think I have an eating disorder simply because I lived most of my life leaning to the chubby side and only was skinny for few years.
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1. maybe tone up/weight lift more as it's way better overall tbh, I also like body weight stuff. It's fine if you stop around 23, 24 BMI as it's a healthy weight

2. IMPORTANT: drop any apps and etc. related to other people's bodies, including "landwhales". Make it so annoying and awful to check them that you'd prefer doing other things (yes there's ways of locking sites too). Also limit ways you can look at yourself. You're literally programming yourself into negative behaviors

4. Be realistic. You judge others for having weight issues which in turn reflects on yourself because you're used to picking apart others all the time. I mean, how do you feel if you tell yourself "we're just meat bags. It doesn't matter." each time thoughts of your or people's bodies come up? Or do you think other people look "stupid"? I mean either ways people don't actually care or look

5. I really don't want to argue about this but eating disorders can happen to any size. It's like how an ugly person can still technically have BDD if they have an obsessive fixation and maladaptive set of behaviors related to their looks

6. Start nothing new that's just so stressful and/or distracting or something (idk this worked for me)

I found that after losing weight I didn't really feel much better and the best thing I could do was embrace a set of behaviors acting like my looks don't matter, and also just focusing on being strong while realizing that all along I was really just frustrated with the world for caring so much about looks–that I personally don't…nor do I want to.
And it really helped me to imagine someone kind who suffers from self-image issues and ask myself if I really want them to feel horrible over such things. I don't. So, I'd prefer to act like it doesn't matter.

>>13837
something* not nothing

genetics

>>13700
I think it's also genes and the way she's shaped–she got very lucky.

My chest is naturally shaped like that and I'm pretty muscly, I'm very strong by nature but then I have the tiniest, weakest pigeon wrists.

>>13707
That image is clearly from the 1920s

>>13735
The girl on the right yes, but on the left is Vulcana, who was born in 1874.

>>13456
I'm sure there are some, but I haven't found any so far that i found helpful. I feel like a lot of ED-specific advice/literature is written in a sort of infantilizing, weird way. So I'm just trying to kind of wing it. If you have any resources you would recommend I'd love to hear them though!

Alright, so week 1 has been going okay!
I've still had some overly processed foods here and there, and i ordered pizza with friends yesterday (I only ate until satiation and didn't just keep eating cause it's fun), but for the most part i've been cooking for myself instead of just snacking and have been trying to keep it balanced. Some of the meals/snacks I've hat that i liked the most:

>porridge with blueberries
>lamb's lettuce with homemade vinaigrette
>honey-teriyaki salmon with cauliflower rice
>guacamole on sourdough
>chili con carne (never knew this actually had such good macros lol)

I would say so far I'm more "eating healthy compared to what i ate like before" and less "eating healthy compared to the general public" but idk. Hope everyone is well!

>>13515
I don't know if I could get myself to eat organ meats.. I might try it if I have some specific vitamin needs that I can't get otherwise. But generally I'd like to eat a bit less meat instead of more haha. Gotta read a bit more about supplements too, an omega 3 one would probably be good for me aswell. And yes, thank you for looking out! I don't think I'm a high risk for orthorexia but I will definitely keep an eye on it.

>>13582
Nice!!
I’m >>13456 . Glad to see you’re making progress. As far as resources I’m not sure because I’ve never had an ED, but I think “intuitive eating” may be a useful phrase because whenever I see someone explaining it as a concept I’m like …but that’s just normal eating. I guess they put a bit more thoughtfulness into it.

My meals for the past month
>peanut butter oatmeal with chia seeds with a little bit of cinnamon
>tea with 3 sugars and 2 Maryland cookies or a donut r something from the cafertia
>curry with some sort of chicken in it or just beans, curry and rice

My lunches are in dire need of an upgrade, and I'm considering making myself some seasoned rice with some frozen vegetables and maybe a little bit of chicken. It'll probably not be warm by the time that I eat it, but it's probably better than what I was eating before

>>13455
kind of joining in my own way; wanted to fast but I ended up deciding to try keto instead.

Honestly I've just been feeling terrible and it's just an extremely easy way to eat a basic diet. I remember years ago going a long time without eating and feeling better than I had in my entire life (even other people noticed it). What I didn't realize was that I had been eating high-fat foods solely and no carbs around that time, which I discovered days later upon looking at my food journal. Thought nothing of it back then but I realize that maybe it's worth revisiting.

>>13666
No, henna is permanent and you won't be able to chemically bleach or dye it again (you can dye the new growth of course)

>>13416
>outdated
Does that mean there are improved methods of non-chemical dying that's natural and non-damaging nowadays? That's the only way I could see henna being outdated.

>>13674
Henna isn't a chemical?

>>13675
Henna is plant-derived, it's considered a natural/non-chemical hair dye as opposed to box dye which is chemical dye.

>>13673
Hmm, posting this here bc I don't want to make a similar thread
So if I wanted to dye my hair for a few weeks, what other treatments are there?
I have very muddy dark yellow, muted hair and want to go to a more rich dark brown.

I actually have tried googling this before and getting confused as so many products act like you have to bleach and have nonvirgin hair for everything to deposit right. I.e., there's shampoos and glosses that look promising.

When say "checked" do you mean an ultrasound or just a visit with your obgyn? If the cramp feeling is on your right side it could be gallstones.

>>13388
visit and urine tests, the obygn refused to do more because she said i'm healthy and don't need it, the pain is in the lower abdomen and exactly in the center, happens around ovulation and i get other ovulation symptoms. i don't think it's too painful it's simply annoying.
worth noting that i choose a female obygn because i wanted to be taken seriously but she was very dismissive of me because i'm a virgin and in my 20s so she thinks i can't possibly have anything wrong.

>>13389
i did two urine tests and two blood tests. forgot to mention.

>>13389
Women can be even more dismissive of reproductive-related pain than men because their periods might not be so bad. I'd want an ultrasound for peace of mind–for example, the knowledge that I have a relatively large cyst, even though it's "normal" for women, helps take the edge off the anxiety I get when pain related to it flares.

they say exercise and caffeine can help (as well as OTC pain meds like ibuprofen) but it never helped much with mine.
The only time I was free of cramps was when I went years with only 2 periods a year and I was on depo provera but that also made me gain an insane amount of weight and it was impossible to lose until I got off of depo.
I don't know, fren.

>>13417
I think it's attractive, my 21 bmi ass wishes it looks like that

>>13425
Nta, yes you can, what a bizarre claim.

>>13426
>21 bmi
That's not even fat. (Nta btw)
Maybe I'm imposing my own opinions, but mid-tier bmi on women looks so cute.
Lower bmi is also nice, but I do like soft but healthy looks on women. Just enough for squishy thighs+arms, and soft belly.

>>12060
she is very strange looking and her body type doesn't conform to "conventional beauty standards" so i don't see the problem with her being in the body positivity movement to cope.
there's other ways of looking 'weird' or having a strange body than just being fat y'know

>>13581
>her body type doesn't conform to "conventional beauty standards"
Oh shut up. She literally has the body of a Victoria’s Secret model. Young girls all across instagram are photoshopping themselves to look just like her. Fuck this person for exploiting young girls’ insecurities to stroke her own ego. Disgusting person.
>>13501
Maybe naturally skinny if you have something like Marfan Syndromw, but no one is naturally obese lmao.

>>13433
>>13435
Because your scalps are overcompensating because you're washing too often. Yes, at first, your hair is going to be greasy and disgusting because your scalp is going to produce the same amount of oil it has to keep up with being washed every day or two. But it will get better with time.

>>13436
Isn't your oil production adapting to your washing frequency a myth?

>>13490
No. It's the same reason that using too many drying products on your face can also lead to oil overproduction. When you dry your skin out, your body produces sebum to compensate.

Most people just don't have the patience to wait out the time it takes to see results (6-12 weeks), so they say it doesn't work. And everyone is different, so some people aren't going to ever get down to once a week, but most people wash their hair far too often.

>>13518
I did this for months, much longer than 12 weeks, and I found the the best frequency to wash my hair is definitely 2-3 times a week.

>>13322
This reminds me. One time on a whim I was using a fermented rice toner with some filtered water and a tiny bit of jojoba oil in a spray bottle and spritizing it onto my still drying hair in a very hot car.

Usually I had no routine but for some reason something was telling me my hair needed more so I kept rubbing it in. It was honestly really dumb.

The entire day for the first time in YEARS people were complimenting my hair and wanting to touch it and swarming around me. Including people that had insulted my hair before. Like what?? My hair looked thicker, lusher, shinier. It looked straight out of a Disney cartoon.

And what shocked me is that normally my hair looks dead and greasy 1 hour after showering but it looked absolutely perfect all day long. Tf.

To this day I've tried similar things and etc but never have achieved the same result. Blow outs never really gave the same effect.

>>13564
It happened to me once and the best thing I found was to cut a stretchy skin coloured bandaid to fit the length and width of the cut
It didint make it disappear but it was definitely better than having the cut completely visible or with concealer

Why do you want to cover it up though? Are you emberassed you managed to cut your face? I say just leave it as is. I know from experience when I was younger I was always trying to cover scabs from acne up, it really only made things more ugly and accentuated. No one is going to be grossed out about a simple cut on your cheek.

>>13567
>>13569

Hmm, I could use a bandage that I cut up so it’s small, that’s a good idea!

In an ideal world I wouldn’t care about people seeing it, but I got it in a very stupid embarrassing way and don’t want anyone to ask about that

>>13570
Wouldn't a bandage make it even more noticeable? The texture wouldn't blend in with your skin at all. I'd just make up a lie that isn't embarassing.

First make sure the area is very moisturised to avoid cracking. Then you need a thick creamy concealer like Benefit’s Boing in the round pot or Mac’s Studio Finish concealer in the round pot. Get a lip brush and carefully paint it on in small amounts. Blend the edges into your foundation.

Should mostly heal in about a week, depending on the size and that you don’t pick it.

>>12356
I used to have this and found out I was allergic to fragrances in laundry detergent and fabric softener. I recommend using only fragrance-free products on your skin, hair, and clothing and see if it helps.
It could be some other allergy causing it as well, though, as other anons have said.

>>12356
i have blepharitis apparently but 80% in my right eye so these little fleshy zit things grow on the corners of my eyelid and scrape against my eyeball until i scratch them off with my nail (carefully to not scratch my own cornea) and the medicine doesnt do SHIT and all this fucking with my eye is giving me stabbing pains.\

human bodies are STUPID DISEASED MEAT SACKS fuck this shit i want to be a skeleton

>>12356
are they itchy too? Cerave cream and a paraffin wax ointment for skin conditions fixed this right up for me, though I have to apply these twice a day to stop it from coming back

>>12367
NTA, but as someone who's had eczema and other skin problems before AND seen doctors/derms about my problems, doctors can't always the underlying cause of something in every individual. It is sometimes helpful to ask others with the same condition what caused their problem to help you get to the root of yours, in addition to seeking medical advice.

>>12356
Do you use any kind of facial/acne perscribed medication? I found out that is what did the same to my eyes. I fixed it eventually with hydrocortisone

Good when I can get it. But falling asleep is the hard part.