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Most of them are scammers so no

Most are scammers but some may be real. I wouldn't doubt if there is some spiritual world that you could tap into it with enough focus

Do not believe anything they tell you. They may be in contact with demons. I used to be a "psychic" and it is not what it is portrayed to be on television. I was overtaken by demons very quickly.

>>1318
Kind of believe in this but I'm wondering how they actually know anything. If they're watching you and taking in the world in a different state of being then I'd their knowledge all still based mainly on witnessing events externally or do they have any greater sense of your internal experience?

Never seeked out a psychic or medium, but i did run into a guy doing free Tarot readings after midnight at a convention i went to. I deeply thought of things that were going on in my life, closed my eyes, started hovering my hand over the cards and when i knew the moment was right, i grabbed a card. It was"10 of cups" inverted and how he described what i got which meant something like lacking in relationships. The way he described everything felt like i got cut deep on the inside and i started tearjng up. I was with my now exgf who is not at all into any of this mystical stuff so to her it was just goofy fun, but to me it was another confirmation that i should break up with her. I thanked the magician, gave him one of the magic related trinkets i received and said goodbye. At the same convention i became super close with another girl in our group and we're besties now, and i have been dating and have landed on a great guy. Normally i used to not believe in the supernatural or the paranormal, but ive had too many coincidences happen where i can't fully not-believe. Thank you random Tarot Magician, for being at the right place at the right time

>>11971
I believe you can change and regulate small things like that over time by thinking about it hard (like in Dune). Do not look in the mirror for extended periods of time. Just do whatever it takes physically (eg wearing headphones for ears) and mentally to change. As for eyesight, avoid computer screens for a few days and especially when you wake up. Go outside and force yourself to read signs and stuff from afar. Put up a sheet of paper with random characters and try to read from as far as possible; then back up as you get better. You can do this at home. I think the body is much more flexible than most think. Over half of people have glasses; logically, shouldn't they have been culled out over thousands of years? I think they started with good eyesight and their eyes simply adjusted quickly and quasi-permanently when they started reading/going on a computer at a young age. If you force your body to another situation you should be able to reverse. Ofc, and this goes in general to anyone, eat well, drink well, run a couple of times a week and do a few pushups; and most importantly, work intellectually and/or read proper stuff. This changes you as a person (and thus your appearance too).

>>11972
I forgot to add that science actually shows people morphing over the years into their significant one; so such (admittedly slow) change is officially possible given the right context. But we also forget faces quickly. Hence my theory that if you don't look at yourself and strongly focus mentally on changing certain aspects you may be able to change yourself.

>>11972
Thank you for the reply

>wearing headphones for ears

Technically this doesn’t cause permanent change. But with miracles and placebo i guess it could

>>11974

I already hate mirrors :(

>>11562
I think it goes deeper than just the lack of emotion or grieving though, towards the disdain or prejudice,(good riddance, etc) which if you had any power over such forum (or be anywhere near suicidals really) would be kinda not good.

Bump for porn

What if Hell is real and most are doomed to eternal torture?

>>11367
Is it like a fear that there's no heaven/afterlife or a fear that we're already in hell or a fear that the apocalypse is what we're living through?

I want to flirt with cute shy nerdy boys, have them fall in love with me, then i want to beat them up, kiss them tenderly(once), knee them in the nuts, hurt them physically, disappear and never contact them again.

>>11896

how old were you then? how old are you now?

i don't believe you actually correlate any of these desires to love. i think you feel like you have to call these, or want to call these violent impulses 'love' to avoid seeing these impulses as what they obviously are: anger, isolation, alienation, and likely a very weak psyche.

it sounds like you don't think many people (if any) love you, including your parents - you probably don't interact with others enough to catch a glimpse of the spectrum of romance/sex/love or whatever - why the correlation to love?

>>11902
>how old were you then?
6-14
>how old are you now?
20s
>i think you feel like you have to call these, or want to call these violent impulses 'love' to avoid seeing these impulses as what they obviously are: anger, isolation, alienation, and likely a very weak psyche.
>why the correlation to love?
i know that those sadistic impulses stem from isolation and abuse and mental illness and whatnot, im not afraid to admit that because its a rather obvious conlusion, i just dont know what else to call them. like sometimes i will feel enamored by a person, i like thinking about them and having them on the backburner of my mind, i like how they look and i find them hot, but instead of wanting to make them happy all i think about is hurting them and i dont have any interest in doing anything else with them, when i stop having a crush on a person i stop wanting to hurt them. thats why i label those experiences as 'love', there just isn't any other catch-all term that describes the type of attachment that i feel

>>11907
NAYRT, but can you give us more insight into your crushes (since you mentioned you don't date)? are you usually friends with the people you've had crushes on? what about fictional/celebrity crushes?

>>11910
>are you usually friends with the people you've had crushes on?
not really. i kind of have a strange relationships with people in general, i dont usually like my friends as people and we talk exclusively about our shared hyperfixations (usually original characters or media) because i dont care about anything else. i talk to them as long as theyre willing to entertain my ideas and so in return i entertain theirs. its transactional to me. with crushes its different, theyre usually the type of person that id never be friends with because theyre usually not the artistic creative types and creating stuff is my only real interest
>what about fictional/celebrity crushes?
i dont get like that about celebs, usually because i dont find them interesting, but i sometimes have those crushes on fictional characters, tho not all of my attractions are fictional

>>11907
You can all but extinguish old/bad memories. That's why in the (((current era))) they keep talking about "opening up" and "embracing emotions" and so on. Because they want you to suffer. Once you've come to terms with what happened and have acknowledged it you can create a new reality; just experience as much as possible (both good books/media and in life) and ignore the old stuff. It'll get suppressed. The human mind is much more flexible and our mental strength more resilient than they'll let you know. It's also nice to have a proper goal in life (ie working towards something concrete and materially relevant).

>>8697
>>11934
Why do you believe that in order to permashift or respawn you first need to die? I never read it was necessary.

>>11944
i see, i'm honestly pretty skeptical when it comes to second-hand accounts like that, anyone could say anything.

>>11949
i would be happiest if there was nothing after death. none of the options given by major religions is satisfying.

>>11964
tbh i don't think it is, however the respawn community i was apart of for years was based on death-based reincarnation. however, it wasn't like you commit suicide then you reincarnate and more like you undergo the spiritual reincarnation first and then your body dies in the way you scripted. either way, i was a depressed teen and thought i wanted to die so i rlly liked the idea.

>>11965
>i would be happiest if there was nothing after death. none of the options given by major religions is satisfying.
I agree that most afterlife ideas have holes in them but non-existence would be the worst. At least if there is something after death there's a way it could all maybe work out even if we can't comprehend it. Nothing after just feels so definitive

To be more in line with the topic of the thread I wonder if some form of quantum immortality is true, there are lots of stories of people who were about to get into head on car collisions yet they walked away completely unharmed with their cars having not even a dent. It's very odd

>>11964
what even is the difference between permashifting and respawning? Arent't they the same (both being shifting with intent to stay in ones desired reality)

>>11969
Respawning is usually coming back to the current timeline as a new person, permashifting is going to a different timeline as the same person

I guess I'm between 3 and 4. I believe aliens exist but not angels and demons. I wouldn't really classify myself as spiritual at all.

im on tier zero but very open to disscusions of conspiracy stuff and esotericism. i feel like everyday im battling with myself bc i have this inner skeptic in me but also the fear of missing out on some really important universal truth

tier 5, witch but still learning. I'm trying to make the world bend to my will little by little

0 & 2. most conspiracies feel like horseshit meant to muddy the waters. these pedophilic tards are not clever, they're sly and banal babyeaters. they cannot fend us off forever, and they do not have supernatural powers.

>>11955
Why do you struggle to believe

>>11962
A lot of conspiracy theorists are, themselves, some sort of sexpest or otherwise unhinged. They claim to "call out" the wrongdoings and unfairness of the world while participating in those same systems that fuel the suffering. The thing is many aren't even wrong but often the call is coming from inside the house

Neoplatonism >>>>>> gnosticism


Matter is actually good because the gods created it and are right here with us. Humans choose to be good or bad. Enjoy your stay.

I arrived to a similar conclusion and worldtheory by myself without having ever heard of gnosticism beforehand, so when I learned about its existence I was quite glad. I

>>11881
Something I've noticed is that most Gnostics these days (at least in the prison planet circles) have a habit of blaming their own poor living situations on God rather than looking around them. My boss is gonna fire me? Must be the demiurge, can't be that my boss chose to do that. I won't say this is the only or best place to be reincarnated into but I will say acting like there's only evil at work is a poor mentality to have. It doesn't help that many are depraved and have a habit of getting off to stuff like rape porn or are some flavor of bigot, you'd think they'd want to avoid contributing to the system that's apparently keeping all this going

It's baby's first step into enlightenment, I was also into Gnosticism but now I am Lutheran.

Saw an experience that lines up very well with the current Gnosticism/Prison Planet stuff. Do take note that this was caused by a half dose of shrooms and according to the OP the hospital said "mushroom toxicity" caused this, don't know if this was actual death though

>>573
Could be potentially easier and cheaper by setting a controlled fire inside your car and locking everything, but dont do it

>>9856
>>6598
Back on this thread 3 years after my initial post. Relationship fell apart after 2 and a half years and I'm living alone in a city with not a single friend or support system. I'm doing uni and even started an antidepressant in hopes of improving my mood but I'm still suffering from the same issues, unable to perform most tasks, can't engage with hobbies and interests etc. I am not really alive, just here.

Suicide is such a beautiful dream to escape into. Dreaming about waking up dead, being hit by a car, dying of disease and finally having some physical manifestation of what's going on inside. I'm craving an end to pain. I'm not fully committed to the idea as I don't think I've hit rock bottom just yet. I still crave love and conncetion though it's extremely far out of reach. Do you guys feel like it was doomed from the start? When I recall my memories it seems there was always a veil of tragedy and quiet alienation over my life. I'm going to keep trying for now but I'm researching methods in the background for when I inevitably give up again.

>>11758
i recommend sasu forum. i hope you find the peace you are looking for.

every now and then I hear about a bunch of dumbasses die because they ran their car in a garage for warmth
makes me wonder is it really that easy to die sometimes

>>11778
>makes me wonder is it really that easy to die sometimes
Yeah it is. I lost my grandma because she got a fucking bug bite while on a vacation and contracted a rare strand of cancer from it. That could've been anyone, you, me, someone we know, literally anyone can die that way and it's horrifying. Makes me feel almost agoraphobic.

I wish I wasn't so scared of death and what happens after so I could just kill myself and get life over with. I feel existential lots of the time because it's likely there's nothing after death which just makes death and loss more difficult. I don't kill myself because I'm scared of everything just ending and also I'm scared of possible repercussions after death

>>11908
I also wouldn't trust men to tripsit, I've seen many men admit that raping someone who's on drugs is their fantasy

>>11876
I had one by accident, I got weed that was laced with it. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. Literal hell dimension.

>>11926
Yeah I've heard lots of stories about people who feel like they visited the afterlife and how hellish trips make them never want to die

My theory based on stuff like near death experiences is that they have some underlying issues that causes their negative emotions to flare up and form into a realm/creatures but that's a complete conspiracy and I have no real proof for it honestly. Maybe it's a prison planet or it's just our brains being weird, who knows

>>11929
For me personally it felt very distinctly (don't ask me how I knew, I just did) that I was being trapped in a "punishment dimension" that was made out of every negative thing I ever did or thought or had happen to me, like a culmination of all the negative energy I ever encountered. I'm not spiritual in the slightest, I think it's interesting how drugs have very specific ways to interact with the human brain and I guess this is just what salvia does. I was trapped all alone in the universe knowing I would never have a human experience again like talking to friends or eating, I was fully isolated and removed from a physical body experience, and at the same time I could look around myself (not in the room I was in but drifting through a landscape) and everything was just covered with a thin veneer of normalcy but underneath I could see flesh pulsing. It was awful because I knew I was tripping and thought I had just smoked a normal joint, which wouldn't even get me super stoned usually, so I thought I had fried my brain the way you sometimes hear it with people who develop a weed psychosis or something. So I was 100% aware of what was going on and my only logical conclusion was that I was experiencing locked-in syndrome and wouldn't come out of it. I was visiting my mom at the time, and she woke up somehow and found me wheezing on the ground, when she found me it exacerbated my panic because I was convinced she would have to call an ambulance and they would put me away in a ward for people who broke their brains irreparably. If I had been alone maybe I would have killed myself from the hopelessness of it all.

>>11932
I think it's been proven psychedelics reduce brain activity (or possibly reroute it) so it's very possible you entered some weird realm of your thoughts. Then again some experiences are super random like people fighting with SoundCloud rappers or hallucinating bags of onions talking to them, some accurately produce near death experience results like tunnels, life reviews and seeing deceased loved ones