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>>10809
I know it's complicated therefore schizo for you, but that's okay somebody might find it useful.

>>10809
The people who think AP is fiction sounds like medieval people who see a light bulb and think it's witchcraft.

>>10806
Your post makes me want to try lucid dreaming again, I've been almost lucid a lot recently. I'd like to try AP someday. What benefits have you gotten from lucid dreaming and AP, I'm curious. And in the astral, can you see small details like words in a book?
>>10809
Benedryl sucks

I've never spoken of this before and I'm sure I'll get made fun of but whatever. A couple of years ago I was in bed asleep and thought maybe I'd kind of halfway woken up but not fully to open my eyes or anything when I suddenly felt myself leaving, rising quickly into the sky. I shot straight up, I could feel the sensation of movement, the speed, at which I was rising. I hadn't had any substances to influence my sleep and I hadn't been drinking or anything. I felt myself shooting up through the clouds and leaving the atmosphere, then I stopped and was just…there…floating I guess, at the edge of space. I wasn't exactly scared, more startled than anything, like what the hell, how did I shoot up out of bed, how did I feel the sense of movement and speed. Idk what it was, but I've never experienced anything like it before or since. I knew my body wasn't "with" me during this time, that I'd left it but could still feel things. I felt myself rush back down to earth and then I woke up and kind of had to take a moment to adjust to my surroundings and see I was indeed in bed.

It's real and there is a technique with the success rate of 90% in 15 days in this book "the phase" and you can find it online, it's free, anyone can do it. Most people do it the first days, me and my friend did it first try and a lot of people experience it and talk about it! And they're not all lying and insane.. I think it's insane to think that.

Garden your soul garden.
Every focus is infinite multiverses.

Keep watering the ideas/plants that make you feel the loveliest love

>>10679
The law of assumption does work if you take it seriously and work on your self concept.
I recomment doing the Ladder Experiment:
1 get into a comfy position and imagine a ladder, as vividly as you can
2 imagine yourself climbing the ladder. Imagine what it feels, smells, sounds, looks like. Don't think about where it came from, just focus on the experience of climbing a ladder
3 do this before you fall asleep every night for 3 days
4 (optional) leave notes saying "I'm NOT going to climb a ladder" around the house, on your phone etc. I didn't do this step
5 after 3 days, stop doing this and forget about it
Usually in less than a week you will end up in a situation where you have to climb a ladder. It will seem to make perfect sense and most people don't even realize immediately that their imagined scene just came true.
If you find it hard to believe with something as simple as a ladder, feel free to come up with a more weird, outlandish situation, but for your first try you need to pick something you don't really care about (so that it doesn't cause anxiety, doubt, frustration etc). Use your 5 senses and focus on the action, not how it came to be.
After it works, you can move on to things that are more important to you. For example, a while ago I imagined getting 500 dollars. I imagined standing in my room and counting the money, focusing on how it feels, smells, looks like, then putting it in my wallet. In 1-2 weeks I got it as a random gift.
But anyways, try the ladder experiment, it works! Subliminals probably don't though or at least not that well

>>10785
Did you imagined it in first person?
>4 (optional) leave notes saying "I'm NOT going to climb a ladder" around the house, on your phone etc.
Whats the purpose of this?

>>10679
I don’t really believe in it but I’ll say I had a weird experience a little over a year ago. I was going through a tough time in late 2023 and decided I wanted to get the year over with as soon as possible so I watched a “speed up time” subliminal. Shortly after I ended up in an existential crisis where it felt like the days were speeding past, and it still feels that way to some extent so I guess be careful what you wish for. I would watch a “slow down time” subliminal but I’m still not doing the best so I’d rather get through what I’m dealing with now before I do that

>>10788
i'm guessing it's because self doubt is a huge part of manifesting anything, if we wish for something we think is too good to be true our minds will naturally lose hope in bad spots and think things like "maybe this is never going to work out" or "there's no point of thinking this could happen." it's like a way of foolproofing the experiment.

>>10788
i assumed it is related to that thing people warn against, like if you use negative affirmations like "i am not XYZ", apparently your brain ignores the "not" part. because it still makes you think of what is negated ig. so maybe this step is just an extra experiment to try

>>10601
Hell yeah u da goat

Yeah me too. Life can be a bitch and folks like us can’t really do anything to get back at people. I wish there was a way to just inconvenience them or just scare them a little. To get back at society as a whole, you know?

>>10599
Relatable. I get why there are vigilante wannabe spergs out there. It would be nice to live out some power fantasy God-Of-The-New-World type shit. Alas, best we can do is type kys, lmao.

SECOND
idk how to start this. I think it's the oldest dream. It happened in HS but it's one of the worst feelings I experienced. I'll keep it short.
In the dream, I was in my hometown at night, sliding very low on the pavement. My body felt like a cloud of gas with two eyes. It was night but I could see everything.Everything was dark but in high contrast so I could perceive everything. I was very close to one of my relative's house and I was looking through the fence at her yard but the objects were strange, like the space was messed up somehow. For example she has an old school water well in her yard but in my dream it was hanging in the air and you had to climb a spiral staircase to reach the fountain and get water. It made no sense, the fountain was disconnected from the ground, how could there be water? I was just standing there, looking at it. And then, two beings came upon me.
First, these dreams are very rare, maybe 3 to 5 years apart or even further. The demons were always male and came in pairs. Once two beautiful blond 17-18? y.o, once two gypsy 5 y.o and once older black men. The two blonde ones actually used glamour to shimmer in the night, but I digress.
The worst ones I encountered were women-like. I don't remember what their features looked like, just the texture of their bodies. I shudder just thinking about it. I don't even know to to express it. It's like they were sculpted from wood, fully dressed, and painted over in color. The cloak of the one in the front was blue, like a sky blue. The one slightly behind her was in darker colors. Thinking back, she must have been lower in the ranking or a follower of some sort. They were dressed like bible people or roman fashion, idk. They moved normally but I knew they were wood because of the cracks in their bodies. Also, i think the paint was chipped here and there and I could see the brown wood underneath. I think the face was chipped also. I can't remember what they were wearing on their head. It must have been a head covering of sort but I think the hair was visible. Sculpted wood hair.
Their faces, as they gazed upon me were so cruel. The smile… not perverted but really corrupt. They weren't taller than average women, but I was looking up at them like they were ski scrapers, that's how big the difference between us were.
There was so much hatred and oppression in their faces, it felt like an entire building fell on my body. I woke up in my studio apartment Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>9595
im sorry i never replied to this and it’s probably too late now. rehab friend improved her energy literally through therapy and quitting drugs and time. all i can say is focus on improving yourself. a lot of this energy stuff, as previously mentioned in this thread, is people picking up on the negative emotions, difficult pasts, and insecurities/hatred you are hiding, usually also hiding from yourself. be honest with yourself and help yourself, and you will become lighter.

When I was little and I'd visit my grandparents in the countryside for the summer, there was this one portion of the road that I always hated to go on. I used to throw fits in the car whenever we drove on that one section. I grew out of it, of course, but years later I learned that when they were constructing that road, they built it over a graveyard and neglected to move any of the bodies, only the headstones. Now when I visit, I try to drive very very slowly over that portion of the road because I don't want to disturb anybody beneath it.

I used to faint at this particular place in the town where my grandma lives anytime I went there. It's like a little square and one one side there's a medieval gate into a pakt where's a castle and on the other side there's a mini zoo for injured wildlife. For couple of years anytime I went there I fainted or got close to fainting. Very strange because I never fainted anytime anywhere. Now that I'm an adult I can go there no problem.
I also sometimes sence when I'm outside that there's a dead animal near. Not my the smell lol it's usually more far away to smell it, but it's like something leads me to the dead animal if I don't focus on where I'm going and just wander.

I've always hated going to the cemetery where my great grandmother is buried, even as a child I hated it. I always felt I was being watched. I haven't been in years and I feel guilty for not visiting her resting place but I don't like the energy there. It feels heavy.
I worked at a school that had this oppressive feel over it. A dark cloud. I hated it there and only worked there a year. It was the worst teaching year as well as personal year of my life. Everything about the place was just off.
I had a neighbor who was an energy vampire. She was too overbearing, too much, had crazy, manic eyes. My first few interactions with her just being friendly trying to welcome her absolutely zapped me, so I stopped contact and mentally put on a suit of armor if I HAD to deal with her. She had bad energy, and as an energy vampire she would attempt to take it from anyone. Smothering, overwhelming, demanding. The frigging yard man banged on my door one morning freaked out about her.
As a child I woke up to see a tall dark figure in my doorway. It was broad, had horns, and was nearly as tall as the door. I threw the covers over my head, then peeked out. It had come closer. So like any child, I yelled for my mom.
The next incident was the worst. Again, as a child, my dad was gone somewhere so I was sleeping in their bed with Mom. In my sleep I remember something whispering in my ear, "Hit her." I resisted and didn't, and the whisper told me to again. So in my sleep or twilight sleep I hit her in the stomach. I've never felt so guilty. Ever.
I hope the shadow figure and the whisper were just weird figments of an overactive child's imagination. In my teenage years my dog stood in my doorway and stared and growled at something in my room when I was home alone and in a different room but could see him. I haven't had anymore experiences like that and as I've gotten older and I've
visited their home when they weren't there I have conducted actions and spoken things for protection although I don't feel anything dark there and never have.
I truly believe there is bad, negative energy in places and in people. When it's in places idk if it's a place of bad things have occurred, unresolved anger or trauma, burial grounds, or even some kind of portal or cursed land.

My mother strongly believes in reincarnation. She's done a whole lot of this spiritual stuff and has always had a knack for it her entire life. She's done past-life regressions and fears reincarnation and tries to live in a way that would give her the best karma for her next go-around

Honestly the idea of reincarnation terrifies me. I don't want to ever do this again. I don't care if I won't remember it, I want this to be my soul's last time as a mortal constantly feeling pain and cold and ill and worry. I just do my best to ignore what my mother says because I know I'm certainly not "enlightened" enough to be allowed to escape the reincarnation cycle if it's true

>>10792
Your mother sounds very Buddhist, does she identify as a Buddhist or something else? I don’t know what to say about your worry though, I have the same one. I guess it could be kinda nice to maybe live as a house cat or something but I mainly get paranoid about living a life of torture and extreme suffering, partially because of what I’ve already gone through in life and what I’ve seen. Anyways Karma’s honestly kinda dumb as a justice system if you think about it. Punish me for shit I can’t even remember doing? It’s also kinda fucked up. Like the idea that “you mocked the homeless so you should go homeless” or “you raped someone so you should be raped” it’s the kind of system no one would be on board with if it was not in a supernatural context and it’s just spiritual bypassing, same with that higher self / oversoul shit that new age preaches about. The only time I get Karma is when it works as a system of cause and effect because then you’re not trying to imply there’s some morality or that they “deserved it” and instead that this is just what happens as a result of something else. I get this is more about reincarnation in general than specifically death and the afterlife like the thread talks about but maybe we should have a reincarnation general thread for stuff like this lol. Also about past life regressions don’t worry about those, they’re known to be caused by leading on questions and there’s good reason to believe that “regressive hypnosis” in general is just the mind being overly imaginative

>>10796
She's not Buddhist. She and my family were Pagan for a long time and she still holds all her beliefs of it, but doesn't practice anymore. Me and my family just got kinda tired of thinking of supernatural things when it ultimately didn't really matter in our practical lives.

Karma truly is horrible though. What system is judging us for our actions? What right do they have to do so? A lot of bad things people do they only did because of their circumstances.
Sometimes I do wonder (and hope) that karma is simply just people having a vain hope that bad people will "get what's coming to them" by some arbitrary set of scales

I hope so. I can't stand this bland loveless existence.

I don’t know what to make of all those near death experiences honestly. The main points in them that I see are either that Earth is a school where we’re supposed to learn lessons (usually about love) and “evolve our souls” or it’s just a playground and we’re here cuz our souls just like going through lord knows what. There’s some others like it’s just an experience for the universe to have or it’s to prove ourselves and teach humanity how to be more loving but I don’t really believe those, they’re pretty uncommon. The most out of the ordinary one I read was where it said the reason souls go here is cuz there needs to be some place darker and without a place like this everything would be in a paradox (like a Yin/Yang situation) and the person who had it said that they never got vibes that we needed to learn any lessons, that karma wasn’t a thing, and that souls didn’t like coming to Earth but understood it had to be done to keep things in balance. Idk what to make of that one since it’s so out of the ordinary and I see many claim there’s no yin/yang paradox and that karma and lessons are a must. There’s also a lot of NDEs where souls are excited to go to Earth, even getting giddy to torment themselves in the next life, I’ve heard some where people say souls are addicted. There’s some pre-birth memories of forced reincarnation as well. And various other things like I read some NDEs where people say ghosts aren’t a thing but I see some people mention their dead relatives popping up in front of them to say bye (that’s a shared death experience) or where they’re told ghosts are a thing. Some mention material attachments make you become a ghost but others say that’s what keeps you in the cycle. Some say there’s no end to the cycle others mention being in their last incarnation, at least on Earth. Some say there’s only one divine being that created everything, others say each universe has their own. Some say Earth is the hardest planet that only advanced and brave souls go to, others say it’s the base level planet and you level yourself up from there. There’s other ones that make me believe these aren’t just hallucinations like I heard one of a Christian woman seeing Buddhist imagery when she literally knew nothing about Buddhism prior. They describe the whole “oneness” thing differently too, some say it’s merging back into the blob, others say it’s more “being individual but still interconnected”. There’s some other strange ones like people being forced back intPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

How fine a fruit your figges be,
growing eight on one small tree.
A michty fig turns ripe from green
when yellow turns his tender skein.

Mortar thy soul,
lay years on years,
for judgement day,
it ever nears.

And wilt thou say, "I have lived well,"
when thund'ring tolls the midnight bell?

just relax and focus on eating healthy. there are many women who can't get pregnant for years, and when they finally stop obsessing over it and go with the flow, they become pregnant. you can look for spells that will bring you peace and minimize your stress

>>10702
if there's nothing wrong with you nona, has your partner been checked & if so are you sure his fertility results are legit? there are lots of cases of men lying about their fertility as an ego thing, and driving their female partners insane thinking something's wrong with them when there isn't. it could also be stress & diet like >>10705 said. making sure you're tracking your cycle accurately could also be beneficial, it's kind of hard to actually tell when you're ovulating from just apps like clue etc so maybe ask your gyno or a sexual health clinic about stuff like that, alongside general pregnancy support. good luck to you, nona!

his sperm is shit, nona, leave him for a better man.

>>10689
The secret ingredient you are missing is sexual intercourse with a member of the other sex

>>10705
Thank you so much I’m actually doing that now

I have a sixth sense that's not always right, but when it's accurate, it's painfully accurate. There are times within my personal life and within the world where tragedies and major events have occurred and I can feel the spiritual buildup in my entire body that something bad is going to happen. Usually the image is not clear as to what will happen, but the premonition is very much there.

I was about to suggest exploding head syndrome, but then you said your cat heard it too.

I saw a meteor too recetly, it was awesome! I was just watching a movie at night and looked out of the window for a second and there it was. Really bright light flew by my window into the forested hills behind my village. I have never seen anything like that before it was so cool because it was VERY close and big.

>>10665
Imo it could have been fireworks or maybe it was a car. I’ve heard what sounds like an explosion and it turns out the person in front of me on the road just has a broken muffler

>>10569
That kinda sounds like anxiety. Have you ever been tested for it and any other disorder? Not trying to be disrespectful or anything but I’m just trying to see if there’s any other explanations here

>>10782
Do you think it could’ve been like…chloroform or some memory erasion thing?

Anyways do you think there’s any possibility this is connected to other CIA conspiracies besides MKUltra? I’ve read up on “The Gateway Process Tapes”, astral projection and other out of body / remote viewing research being done by the CIA. It may have just been psyops and such but I do think it’s very odd still. Also American Dad did an episode about astral projection and some other new age stuff and I gotta say it is one of AD’s most relevant knowing how big the new age stuff is nowadays lol

well i just bingeread most of these links including the /pol/ threads (barf) and im heavily disappointed, it really is just schizo drivel. i feel like project monarch/mkultra conspiracy theories are funny as hell to read but this is just a repaint of that for white incel failmales.
picrel the “high IQ” takes you can expect to see in those threads
the funny thing is for women, burned out gifted kids just turn into tumblrinas, there's a whole genre of post about how gifted classes were ridiculous, mixed with self-pitying “why can’t i live up to my potential” kek i prefer that to this weird aryan mkultra subplot. men are out of touch.
the conspiracy nut in me thinks the few posts mentioning “they drugged GATE kids,” “we astral projected constantly,” “aliens and the CIA are constantly keeping tabs on us” is interesting. can i dream for a moment here? i wish former gifted kid tumblr would post like this i think it’d be funny.
ontopic as well, i meet most of these qualifications and was in GATE from 1st-5th grade. i think all the synchronicities are confirmation bias along with mostly autist NEET traits or overidentification with ESP features due to autist NEETism…

>>10790
GATE is a conspiracy variation of the lazy smart myth some people keep going for themselves to cope that they are mediocre

>>10790
All conspiracy theories tend to attract the type that wants to feel smarter than other people. However, I don't think MKULTRA is over just because we aren't hearing about it anymore. Highly intelligent and influential people are connected to MKULTRA. Think of how insane partaking in those experiments must have been. I don't think it's far-fetched to think GATE could be a continuation of those projects. What if "gate" is a codeword like "Naomi" and "Artichoke"? Has anyone ever tried reaching out to teachers at schools with these programs and asking about them?

>>10790
Honestly I get suckered into this a lot by fear. Just all the unknowns makes stuff like this seem so possible. The astral projection shit is probably a lie. They usually bring back no verifiable information beyond some vague philosophy from the “astral realm” (aka their own imagination). Maybe the out of body experience / remote viewing part of it has something to it but I’m yet to see it be properly tested and people just assume it as real because it’s in some CIA docs. They may very well have been drugged but some people are willing to do whatever they can to make kids stop complaining, plus if this was so infamous on 4Chan and if now that we got a bunch of lolcow users here I think there’s likely many trolls, then again maybe you’re just a psyop who got mind blocked and mind controlled to deny their own experiences because all people who criticize conspiracies are
>>10791
Yeah exactly, it brings in a bunch of people who wanna believe that they discovered some dark secret when really it’s clear they’re trying to make themself feel special for writing fanfics. The Tila Tequilas of the modern world
>>10793
>Highly intelligent and influential people are connected to MKULTRA
Like who? Or is it just an Illuminati/reptilian/NWO thing where every slightly famous person ever is a member?
>Has anyone ever tried reaching out to teachers at schools with these programs and asking about them?
It’s unlikely they’d confirm it, if it was true they’d probably just lie and say no. Even if they’re honest when they say no people will just say they’re lying to save their own asses and keep their seats at the CIA. I wasn’t a gifted kid but I do remember I used to do physical therapy in dimly lit rooms and such where they would my head, I was around elementary-middle school age when this happened so maybe this was similiar?