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What happened to you?

>>11895
my parents yelled at me constantly everyday for every mistake for literal hours. like theyd stand in the doorway blocking it not letting me go anywhere and they would just yell and yell and yell and yell. it didn't matter what i said theyd just shout over my words because in those moments i didn't matter to them as a person i was just a convenient outlet for their anger. this could go on for so long that they would take breaks from yelling at me and slam my door really loudly and then come back 5-10 minutes later to continue yelling at me. ive had no control in those moments there was nothing i could do about their anger, being a really small child and all. by the time they were done screaming my face was always red from crying. i was also bullied heavily but thats a wound that i dont wanna reopen rn.

>>10910
I think aliens are probably real somewhere out there, whether or not they’ve been to Earth is a completely different story. There may be aliens in the water but I saw the Blaire White video about aliens where it was mentioned it could just be that humans aren’t the only evolved species on Earth and I think there’s a good chance of that being the truth. I think NHI/Non Human Intelligence is a better term than aliens

Great thread, interesting topic. The UFO community is basically a fandom anyway.

>>10910
Are you talking about this thread? Underwater alien base?
https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/34629564/
I think it was great and believable.

Yes. Universe is HUGEEEEEEE why would we be alone here?

I've read lots of conspiracies on them, from Starseeds, to Prison Planet stuff, to psychedelic encounters and DMT beings to abduction reports. The Roswell Alien Interview where Matilda o'donnell macelroy claimed to telepathically communicate with an alien named Ailr that was published by Lawrence R Spencer in 1947 is an interesting read. It was popular in Gnostic/Prison Planet circles for mentioning Samsara and Earth being where souls who got extremely bad Karma in past lives are reincarnated, there is some stuff about being infinitely recycled too. Apparently Matilda died shortly after she sent the author this. It may have been faked as the author is rumored to be part of Scientology but it's a chicken or the egg thing where he may have joined Scientology as it seemed to be the closest to truth or he possibly wrote this to help Scientology get its start. It's also suspected to be Scientology propaganda by using terms like "immortal spiritual beings/eternal spiritual beings" to describe humans as beings named IS-BE. This does cause suspicion from some that Scientology does seem to be "the elite" in one way or another. People on Reddit mentioned having similar encounters with gray aliens or mentioning that they were told the name of the book telepathically. There are some other interesting books of a similar nature by people like Karla Turner and there's others like Phil Schneider who was possibly killed for knowing too much. Don't know if I believe it but it does seem possible

Interesting Reddit posts
https://www.reddit.com/r/aliens/comments/14s2zlr/matilda_odonnell_macelroy_1947_roswell_interview/
https://www.reddit.com/r/UFOs/comments/xk4svt/alien_interview_lawrence_r_spencer_anyone_read/
https://www.reddit.com/r/InterdimensionalNHI/comments/1dv7onc/multiple_nonhuman_entities_have_told_humans_that/
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This channel called Area 52 made some interesting videos about it

>>11806
Do not use Ouja boards at all to contact. My mentor is a medium and a lot of demons feed off your attention and have you guessing if you're searching for a family member. I know you want to contact spirits you DON'T know but advise please do not use Ouija!

I've had issues for years dealing with terrible paranormal activity both physically to my body & objects because I was stupid and had a sigil necklace as decoration above my bed. Removed it and although I do not have it often, I've been to a cemetary recently with some friends to kinda troll around and the same spirit that was latched onto me was the same one who was hurting me, I did get a lot of questions answered through those pendents (the ones you dangle from your hand), it was a cool experience though because the spirit attached to me is powerful it managed to fling my vape off my hand which was flat. Made me feel like I had telekinesis lmaooooo. Best advice is to use those pendent things because they are more safe. And probably go to a place that has a lot of spirit activity like abandoned buildings or cemeteries :)

>>11811
To add onto this, if you do go to abandoned buildings make sure you are safe incase of people coming in that have bad intentions. As well also you might find out that you have a passed on family member with you, if you start feeling that theres another energy in the room that isnt just you or others, then it's a family member. If at some point you feel really negative it's a spirit you don't know and potentially a bad one

It could help if you go to a place that was meaningful to them while they were alive

I hope this is relevant I don't know where else to ask… Will ghosts just float through space after the sun engulfs the earth? I mean, if there's life after death in that sense I assume it's eternal right? And ghosts are commonly believed to haunt certain places, so what happens when those places are gone? I mean the sun will engulf the earth eventually so will we all float through space as ghosts or what? Go to another planet? Won't it be far away? I would love answers from people who believe in them

>>11886
Most people who believe in ghosts believe there's a spiritual world they can go to when they want so I guess ghosts just hang there once the planet is fried. Some ghost believers also believe in reincarnation and believe you can go be reborn on other planets if you'd like. Maybe time works differently than we think and the planet isn't ever truly "destroyed" at least in the way we think. Thinking about it gives me anxiety though since it makes me wonder if anything we do on Earth matters since the cycle may just repeat again the exact same way

>>11671
I hate furries and know they groom the shit out of kids, but cub is the furry equivalent of loli/shota. I've not seen furries refer to minors in the fandom as cubs, I think that would be too on-the-nose creepy even for them.

>>11671
>>11673
>often pedophiles
That's any moid group tbh, not exclusive to furries.
I've always found moeblob pedos to be more numerous than anthro cub pedos, but that's probably because I'm in more anime spaces than furry spaces.
Idk about furries who are into actual animal depictions or animal-like pokemon though. I'd imagine those to be worse by default.

>>10117
>>11633
im not gonna lie this is amazing and genuinely the type of art that i aspire to create. the artist is obviously skilled and chooses to create in such a transgressive art style willingly.
>I need to know what happened to this person so they feel compelled to create such genuinely unsettling art
i draw simmilar art and to me it was life-long isolation. people treated me like filth my whole life so i began rejecting societys standarts for whats appropriate, and that included its standarts for what is "good" art. id post a few of my own pieecs but im skittish and dont wanna hijack the thread

>>11726
This is interesting. I made my favorite art back when I was crushingly lonely. I wouldn’t create a lot (depression) but I would have spurts where I couldn’t stop, and I made interesting stuff.
I don’t believe depression can make you a good artist, but it’s naive to say some people don’t find inspiration in it. If you have that uncontrollable drive to create art, it will come out in that. I did AP art with two other people. One of them was obviously mentally struggling (I picked her up when she ran away after a suicide attempt kind of struggling), but she never thought about her pain and so I don’t think she could conceptualize it enough to put it into art. The other just was an uber normie who couldn’t accept she was a normie, so tried to be edgy instead of just being herself. She made her entire portfolio about surface level pinterest stuff (like literally stole the ideas from pinterest). Mine was on isolation. IK I’m biased but the mentally ill girl and I’s portfolios were a lot more interesting … and I believe this is simply because we’d thought & experienced emotions in a different way. Sigh. I don’t want to believe depression makes better art .. but it can absolutely have an influence if you know how to wield it. There’s a reason all the best creative geniuses are crazy.

>>11827
this response is late as fuck so you probbaly wont see it but ill speak my mind anyway
>I would have spurts where I couldn’t stop, and I made interesting stuff.
same. it almost feels like a compulsion. sometimes i have all of those feelings bubbling inside of me and the only thing that helps is making art
>I don’t believe depression can make you a good artist, but it’s naive to say some people don’t find inspiration in it
ngl i think that you can only be a good artist if youre mentally ill. i think that art is always a form of escapism from a shitty life, and most mentally ill people have a shitty life by default, so they (we) are more prone to be the creative types. its not that art brings misety its that art is created out of misery. i genuinely have never met an interesting artist who wasnt mentally ill to some degree
>I don’t want to believe depression makes better art .. but it can absolutely have an influence if you know how to wield it
i agree, tho i dont have depression (i think?) but i suffer from a plethora of other stuff and being like that mentally puts you onto the edges of society and kind of opens your mind in a way. like it makes you find beauty/comfort in unusual things and thats what makes people who are fucked in the head interesting artists.

You feel guilty for giving him courage?

Nona you are cute as fuck. Don't feel guilty. He likes you.

>>11820
teach me your ways

I think ur super cool 4 this tbh…if u believe in that sort of thing it will come true…It's all about manifestation

I don't believe in the Pleroma or the origin story of the demiurge, but I believe that God is a demiurge-like being. The problem of evil is too much for basic Christianity in my eyes. (I don't care that this topic has been debated for centuries, none of the Christian arguments are sufficient for me. I don't hate God though, I don't believe He is evil. But I think He is imperfect just like the rest of us. I agree with a lot of the rules Gnostics follow but a lot of them are too extreme for me. I like that men and women are spiritually equals in Gnosticism. I dislike that Gnosticism became popular on other boards like 4chan, It made it cringe in my eyes because I'd rather not be lumped in with those guys. They call anyone they disagree with a hylic. (I don't even think hylics exist, it's just another excuse to treat others as less than yourself.)

Gnosticism is really a modern invention anyways, groups of people lumped into on e category. It makes sense to sort them together but none of these historical groups would have recognized themselves as "Gnostic".

I also believe in things from other religions, like Holy Guardian Angels. I have no cohesive set of beliefs and it greatly distresses me.

Forgive my ramblings I am schizophrenic.

I don't believe in it but if it is true and there truly is no way out that's horrifying. Reincarnation isn't a bad concept but here it's probably the scariest possibility, at least in Hell you would know you're absolutely hopeless, Gnostic Reincarnation teases you with hope before devastating you endlessly and it genuinely gets me panicking. I agree with >>11571 chances are that God's probably just not perfect and religious people really badly try to convince themselves that it is so they don't have to think too hard

It could be real but it feels more likely that there are just some negative entities out there rather than them all being evil. I highly doubt that only angels or only demons exist. Don't know about risking not going to the light when you die, I've read some stuff about how you could get trapped as a ghost and never escape if you do that which makes me nervous to try it

Neoplatonism >>>>>> gnosticism


Matter is actually good because the gods created it and are right here with us. Humans choose to be good or bad. Enjoy your stay.

I arrived to a similar conclusion and worldtheory by myself without having ever heard of gnosticism beforehand, so when I learned about its existence I was quite glad. I

>>9964
All teachings in the Christian church tradition (circumcision, crucifying the flesh, patience and love for the young) are taught to keep risk-taking and impulsive masculine vocation from reigning supreme– The time wherein the Antichrist will Arise. Paul's hermeneutics on women are the inverse of this, and teach women how to be faithful maintainers & wives in their Earthly dwelling.

>>9964
25 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

26 That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word,

27 That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish.

The Church is made for Man, not Man for the church. The Church maintains Man. The Church is a woman. Christ is her bridegroom.

>>9965
>I don't know if I am justified in saying this, and it might sound a bit goofy, but I think that males are spiritually constipated, if not incapable of it altogether.

I think this sounds entirely plausible to me. Could you elaborate on what you mean by spiritually constipated? I often see an almost irrational, faith-based reluctance to engage seriously in spiritual pursuits (and by that I don't mean mechanistic religious rituals but stuff like meditation, for instance). They also seem to lack a kind of sensitivity to the sorts of experiences that spark curiosity and commitment to these pursuits in the first place - like I've never met a man who took a serious interest in just walking in nature or appreciating beauty for its own sake. I wonder to what extent they spend their time absorbed in their own delusional thoughts, rather than paying attention to the world, relative to women.

>>9977
I'd interpret to mean someone who's spirituality is only a tradition, just repeating whatever authoritative figures tell them to believe without any personal, subjective input.

Moids can feel everything we do, they just aren't likely to express feelings verbally

Same reason as women being expected to cook but men are well-paid chefs

I have a few good ones too
>a dude whos 20 and in 11th grade
>a dude who left italy at 18 with 20€ and was homeless for like 3 years
>a girl whos addicted to ecstasy at 16
All i could think of atm

A fujoshi poly "he/him" who makes zero attempts to try to pass off as a man even a little bit. I think the poly partners might also be girls pretending to be boys but I haven't met them and the photos I've seen of them are too androgynous to really tell.

Honestly I've always been a social butterfly, and had never judged anyone until I started really observing their attitudes to me and realized they were abusing my kindness and wealth. As I've aged I've learnt that people I keep close should be considered sacred and have friends for surface level and my true friends below surface. Overtime I've learnt to remove a lot of people, and it feels easy because I take principles to heart now. Some of the people I've removed from my life which I am VALID to doing was,

- I befriended a girl who bullied me throughout highschool whom deteriorated my mental health, JUST to get her to stop bullying me. I knew my priorities and got rid of her on everything after highschool, she would belittle me even during friendship
- I met a girl from Discord which was in my town, she ended up dating my ex from the same year we broke up, and she still thinks she's in the right! She has even attempted to message my boyfriend calling me egotistical and just downright rude things.
- A guy I was friends with was so obsessed with this girl, he cheated on her with my friend and hid it from her until christmas day, I had to break the news unfortunately as he had all of us thinking he came clean to her and she forgave him. He ended up saying he was sexually assaulted & blamed me for it even though I wasn't even present and warned him not to have sex as he told me he broke up with her the same day for his own peace of mind.
- Befriended this trans guy, they detransitioned and turned completely into a bitch. I made music and when they detransitioned they turned into a massive hater and said really rude remarks to me & my music saying it was going no where, even flat out ignoring me if I wasn't just the only person with her, and making me hold all her things for her because she wanted to walk with nothing on her lmao… She also brought people inside my house which I consider sacred also and warned her NOT to bring people to my house I do not know as I have VERY valuable things there.
- Removed a guy off everything because he threw glass bottles outside my home during a Halloween party I hosted, making me potentially face a fine all just because he got his ego broken as my friend called him out for being a total jerk to myself and other people simply enjoying their time talking…

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weirdest one was this girl i was friends with for a year. i only ever tolerated her weird behavior because i had no friends at the time.

>would tell everybody we were dating (we weren't)
>constantly sexually harassed and groped me
>would force me to read her weird gay smut fanfiction
>used her rose toy at a sleepover when she thought i was asleep, multiple times
>was a peeping tom, looked at me while i was showering
>an overall pervert

aside from that; i had

>kid who tried to pay a chick money for nudes, got rejected, and later sent me a manifesto threatening to blow up his school and kill the girl
>girl who would listen to alpha werewolf smut audiobooks in class
>guy who looked like dylan klebold who showed people gore and the blippy harlem shake in school
>guy who wore a fedora and a full fit of cabaret-esque temu clothes everyday
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>>11850
is it bad i want a friend like the first one. SO bad