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>>2192
It wasn't an english language site, it belonged to a european country and is now defunct.

>>2178
in middle school i had met my first "boyfriend" online. we met on an app that was sort of like omegle except you could send pics and you werent able to tag interests. we rarely ever voicecalled and i had only ever seen a few pics of him. he was nice, but as the relationship progressed he kwpt pressuring me into sending naked photos of myself to him. he also would talk about maybe meeting uo for christmas. he would also tell far fetched stories of his past, like that he was born half blind and couldnt see colors and then one day he was just suddenly able to see them. the most id ever sent him was a picture of me in my underwear in the mirror, and he never knew my adress. he told me where he lived and his name. eventually my parents found out and made me stop because they were concerned he was fake.

years later i looked up his name and location and was unable to find a record of him or any of his family other than his "dads"name, who was a registered sex offender. gives me the shudders thinking about what could have happened to me.

i have lots of stories about pedophiles from when i was 12-16. me and my friends often just talked and trusted whoever we met online. ill post some more.

>>2191
Do you post on any other imageboards anon? I swear I've seen this exact same post before. I'm getting massive deja vu lol

>>2197
TBH I posted about it on here years ago, and it fit into this thread as well, so I thought why not. I'm psyched someone remembered that story.

In 2019 I had the admittedly retarded idea to larp as underage to entrap pedos, so I befriended some dudes on particular parts of the anonymous internet and I even got reached out to and befriended by a girl who ended up being murdered (you all know where and who but I'm trying to keep this post from popping up in searches). While talking to these dudes I met this one guy who was actually a really skilled artist with interesting drawings, but he was severely mentally ill. Schizo, hearing voices, seeing people, talking to them for hours not knowing if they were real. He was interesting to talk to because I was genuinely curious about his delusions, but he got obsessive and clingy and would chew me out if I didn't respond quickly enough, so I invented a tragic backstory as an excuse for why I wasn't around often, and he actually started offering me money, he even started working to provide for me. He was on the brink of being homeless and killing himself because his mental state never improved and he had already gone through a few difficult housing situations. I tried to justify taking his money (he thought he was talking to a minor, he was possessive, he was going to kill himself anyway) but I never ended up accepting any. Eventually I came clean to him and stopped using that account. For the record he never tried to be lewd with me or anything like that, we only ever talked about art, music, and his personal history, he was just neurotic about having someone to talk to and mellowed out when he found people to hang out with online, but still he shouldn't have focused his energy on someone who happened to (pretend to) be underage. He was also weirdly obsessed with being ugly as sin but he looked perfectly fine. He doxed himself to me and everything and I found a lot of his old artwork and shit like that. Sometimes I check if he still posts just to see if he's still alive. I'm not trying to defend him talking to me, but it gave me a new perspective for some things.

>>2187
I forget how valid of a fear it is because each time I tell anyone in real life I get told it's not a big deal. I hate this world.

>>2187
ultra based

>>2188
same, even the women who know how it's like say it's "nothing" and it's like they went through brainwashing or idk? (actually they kinda did, but that's a whole other story).
only my mother admitted to being in severe pain while giving birth to me but she's extremely manipulative. i believe her though.

>>2188
>>2189
Read some threads on Mumsnet. They are pretty open there are it being the most terrifying thing that has happened to them, how horrible post natal care is (in a wealthy country), and all the negative effects to their bodies. Weirdly though there are also many women trying to get pregnant there.

>>2189
I read somewhere that the brain will forget how horrible childbirth is because otherwise women would never have more than 1 child.

I get borderline triggered by people telling me I WILL change my mind about not having kids. It comes off as "you will be bred whether you like it or not", and I can't believe how normalized it all is.

bugs. its really bizzarre, its not when i see a bug and i jump and get acared of touching it, i think of them all the time. when im falling asleep at night ill picture them crawling out of my mouth, crunching on them, them coming out of my eyes…
if i walk into a dark room and i need to feel around to find a lightswitch, ill be paranoid that bugs are on the switch and when u reach my hand to turn the light on theyll crawl all over me.
its odd. i dont even live in a place with harmful bugs, almost all of them are totally harmless. once i was cleaning up my sewing stuff and a huge spider crawled put of my sewing box. i couldnt bring myself to touch it for months.

im also afraid of dark corners. once i was telling my brother that i had 2 friends who were invisible, and that they sat in the chairs that were in the corners of the hallway in our house. i was trying to scare him, but eventually i came to feel that there was something sitting in the empty chairs. every time i look at a dark corner i imagine there is someone invisible is sitting there. its been about 5 years since then and im still scared.

There used to be one in some kind of medical lab (pretty sure it's something to do with genetics) in Australia. I fell so in love with one of the guys who worked there that I learned his schedule and would just have it on my second monitor constantly. It got to the point where I collected little scraps of information and figured out what city he was in so I could find him on social media. I realised how unhealthy the obsession was and stopped, but I still have this fantasy where I move there and masterfully insert myself into his life, making him fall in love with me.

>>1922
lol

>>1921
Yes there's some nice scenery out there.

Here's a woman handing out flyers in a Serbian market.

>>1922
haha that's great

pretty cool! gonna start doing this from now on, thank you for sharing :)

Sometimes when I'm out and about I wonder if a camera somewhere is broadcasting me to a stranger, who also looks at these things…

>>2134
>Let me just get out my "how to better their life" itemized list for each and every person on the planet who takes drugs

You don't even have one idea. How pathetic. You're not actually interested in anyone's lives getting better. All you want to do is lecture.

>>2139
I said it would depend from person to person. Only a dumbass would think there is a one size fits all solution for the problems in millions of people’s lives.

>>2140
>you don't understand, I have a REALLY good excuse!

Why is it that xXx_sTraIGhtEdgE_xXx dips sound more like stereotypical drug users than any actual drug user?

>>2006
>I also do shrooms occasionally.
How often? What dose?

i smoked some pot for a few years and did way too much acid for two years, once or twice a week, that really messed me up i constantly hallucinate and sometimes i hear voices or am paranoid but it could just be me being schizo and the acid brought it on early…
i did molly for a bit and almost got hooked it was kind of scary because it feels too damn good, i quit that cold turkey
now the only drug i do is cocaine like once a month or 2 months

>>2015
For me it's an chips that are ketchup flavored.

constantly have thoughts of gore, violence, and sexualizing things.
every day i try to push this crap out of my mind but it always comes back. very troublesome.

>>2157
Sounds like male puberty.

I keep getting thoughts of planning out an intricate alibi, breaking into my exs house and violently killing him for leaving me. yes im mentally ill no i wont fucking act out on it im not a retarded dickmale

>>2161
yeah ik…ive been trying to get better about it. i think part of the problem was id talk to moids whod send me gore (dogs being killed, jews being killed, dick cutting, wrist slitting). im pretty sure thats why my thoughts are so corrupted.

A friend of mine built a theme park, I couldn't stop telling him to build bigger doors because otherwise the monkeys would get in.
Right after that, dozen of pic related (but 2meters tall) were running toward us as we were struggling to close the doo

I don't really have nightmares all that often, but one stands out in my mind. I didn't wake up feeling afraid, it was just more of a "what the fuck?" kind of weird.

The strangest dream I've ever had was the one where I was pregnant with a litter of kittens. While I was giving birth to them they were scratching the inside of my vagina with their little claws. It was so painful, and even recalling the dream makes me cross my legs and clench my stomach.

The kittens were cute, though.

repeatedly have nightmares of aborted fetuses. in one i was pregnant and they took the baby from me against my will. in one i held a child and kissed it goodbye, and it died. i woke up crying from that one. i also had a dream i had pitch black eyes. and everyone ran from me and thought i was possesed.

i dreamt i was reading some true crime book or something. it was horribly defaced, partially unbound even. at one point i turned the page and taped over a short paragraph were three photos of what looked like the night stalker grinning. it was a huge jumpscare for me even if it sounds really mundane. forgot to mention it was a library book. i checked to see who had been loaned the book before me, but only my name was signed on the card and it was dated to sometime when i was around 2 or 3.

>>2176
forgot pic…

>>2167
>there must be A despite no evidence
>but there isn't, i.e. no evidence, why?
>there must be B stopping A, yes that's why
lol

>>2168
So what is your explanation to the Fermi paradox?

>>2169
Simple, the government's hiding aliens from the public eye.
If you've researched this enough, or even just gone outside at night sometimes, you'd know that there's no way aliens don't exist

that we are alone. we somehow won ludicrously compounded lotteries only for such a vile species to be the pinnacle of creation. there has to be something superior to us out there, otherwise reality truly is hell.

The pilot got tired of creeping on egirls after his wife left and decided to take out a place during his suicide:

https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2019/07/mh370-malaysia-airlines/590653/

Who?

>Teal Swan is an American spiritual teacher. Swan's teachings on how to manage mental health issues have often been described as unconventional and potentially hazardous and has received criticism for how she attracts fans. She has been nicknamed "The Suicide Catalyst", a play on her pen name "The Spiritual Catalyst".

Never heard of her before but she seems pretty milky.

my ex started getting into her stuff after he broke up with me and somehow he is still alive. dont know much other than that

lol

>>1874
that's very sweet
best of luck to you both

Once I had a co-worker who never did much of anything right. It used to drive me insane because I was always the one who ended up having to fix it, and as a result my own work was being postponed. One night I was venting to another co-worker about it. "I am sick and tired of doing all this shit for her. What is she, fucking retarded?"

… She was legitimately mentally handicapped. I had no idea and
I felt awful.

>>1981
lmao based

>>2029
That's your work's fault, not yours. They should have told you from the start and balanced your workload better.

i stabbed someone when i was a preteen.
idk other than that. i do a lot of bad shit, nothing super notable.

>>2158
Me too, i stabbed my friend, he was really asking for it though, we still were friends years after that, but recently i started ghosting him, because he went somewhat insane, started building his life around all sorts of esoteric beliefs, started having ridiculous business ideas that would never work, just plane unstable, felt like he could explode at any moment, perhaps he was always like that and i just didn't notice, well, whatever.