>>119780
So what? Sorry to be a pickme but being repulsed by a guy is literally how women put up with scrotes. Sexually not attracted but maybe emotionally or intellectually.

>>119784
>being repulsed by a guy
That's the exact opposite of the problem she described.
She said:
>i only rly had sexual attraction to my most recent ex when we argued or when i was just mad at him
Now, imagine someone who has sexual attraction triggered specifically by shitty and abusive behavior. Is that person going to avoid shitty and abusive people and situations that make them mad? Is that person going to take every bit as much care with their personal relationships to select only people who are good for them and heckin wholesome adequate frienderinos? In real life?

>>119799
thank you yes i was not sure how to explain better 2 that nona

I did some work not enough and now I’m tired again. Why do I never get tired from being on the inter web

>>119787
Writing my thesis

>>119788
good job! academic work is way more effort than other things. you should try getting your blood checked. low iron or vitamin d is common in women and could be why you don't have a lot of energy.

>>119791
I do know I have low d (lol no not that)
Iron hmm I love spinach that can’t be it.
Thanks for the encouragement and it is also not academic because it’s college but thanks for thinking I’m a brainy. Really kind of you. TT-TT why are people kind to me this is why I love people after all

>>119795
you seem really sweet. i'm in college too and I think its more work than people give students credit for. i'm glad you seem to be doing better.

i didn’t die i just gained a new dark secret tonight. cool.

your obsession with me makes me uncomfortable. i don’t want to talk to you i want to be left alone.

All you ever did was try to cut me down to your level. You say I was your best friend but you were only nice to me when we were both miserable. I hope you are still watching, because I am going to become better than you in every way. Your jealousy will rot you from the inside out.

>>119781
Sounds like my ex friend but I had two best friends at one point. Sooo I don’t think you are her.

Why am I weird for liking Sex and the City, I put up with your Chinese dramas

I do this to try and get to know people and their social lives a little better. Mostly coworkers by asking them what they like to do on their days off.

I kinda have an issue with that, I fail to 'connect' with someone, but my questions are so good they usually start opening up about very personal stuff with me. I've found stuff about people that they haven't said to their family or long-time friends after just talking to them for a bit.

It's a bit frustrating. At some point I get bored but I just keep asking well-placed questions and they're loving it, completely letting it all out. Like g'damn, shut up lol.

I think its a good strategy but its a lot of work. if you keep asking people about them, eventually someones going to wanna talk to you also.

>>119770
I’m good at this too but bec I hate surface level questions and it feels like ive know someone I met 5 mintues ago my whole life.
Yet they get scared by my power and realise theyve said some personal stuff they don’t even want to talk about well … just life questions not even super deep stuff yk. Just like what do you wanna do for work study etc.
So yah.. idk it’s a super power but you have to control it but on the other hand it’s really boring to just talk about mundane sheit. I also get turned off though bu talking deep stuff with people I have only seen a few times or sometimes only once.

>>118981
I find the walking away part difficult sometimes but it also manifests in ways like they do listen to me but if I wanna hang out they will blow me off or they will hang out with me but have other friends to hang out with me later (I know they aren’t making them up) but it still hurts because I have no one I can just hang out with.
And this one girl I wanted to be her friend. She was one of the I hang out with my friends later after this girls. I already clocked she wasn’t really a friend friend maybe not intentionally she was really friendly though but idk I saw who her friends were. They are the ones who ask her to go clubbing and do activities etc. And they wear makeup style their hair, she in particular has a new hairstyle every week. It’s normal if you have tight curly hair sidenote so nothing wrong with that but I wish I could wear makeup etc etc. But man why do I not look. Stop. I’m incoherent and starting to digress.

My point is I just knowwwwwee that I can’t ve her friend. She has other friends they seem like “popular type” girls. And idk I know they are gonna think I’m weird and I like hanging one on one mostly. And she and her friends hang out weekly, yeah she can hang out with me a bit but like…. It doesn’t feel like she appreciates the friendship enough if she can’t just block out time for us as friends so that if we want to hang out longer, there’s nothing in the way to hang put for hours because we want to yk.

So she did msg me but I didn’t reply back. I don’t think she and I an be friends even though she is kinda nice. Also we have the same major and I don’t want to talk about school stuff at all. It gives me anxiety. It feels like we are comparing ourselves to each other yk, it sucks.

Another reason is I don’t want to invest in the friendship knowing she has enough other friends, only to be left hanging. I’ve had this before happen to me and she didn’t have other friends it was just her cousins she didn’t even hang out with them often but tell me why she hung out with them instead of me … when I really needed to hang out with someone. (Overuse of the word: hang out sorry)
But yeah I don’t want to invest in something knowing that I’m not gonna be important to the other person anyways. Sometimes you just have to take a loss yk, so I didn’t reply back because no I’m not investing in friendship that I won't be hPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>119497

shit nona, seems from what I read we have the same issue. I'm paranoid schizo. I don't have many people because I shut everyone out. When I do allow someone in, I am quick to ruin it because of my paranoid episodes that they are out to get me like everybody else. I was a lonely child growing up, had early diagnoses of conditions that impaired my ability to stabilize and understand my emotions. Nobody enjoys being around me because one wrong word can and will set me off into extreme distrust and make me spiral. Everyone feels as if they are walking on eggshells around me. I'm working on this issue with my partner. Your paranoia is just that, paranoia. Whatever happens, happens and that is what needs to be accepted. It's true that everything happens for a reason. I wish you luck!

I used to have the same issue. Getting a bf cured my loneliness, no joke.

>>119513
I don't want a boyfriend. I don't think I'll even want a friend.

>>119513
Unfortunately thisss but he can be a moid sometimes ugh

>>119513
NTA moids can only take so much.
I lost mine due to my paranoid episodes.
I also lacked confidence completely so we had little to no sex life.
I am my own worst enemy

Oke I was gonna write my heart out but I should just put it in the drafts and start on a novel or on a comic instead. Sooo sorry nona’s no fun story to laugh at my life. I’m gonna write something everytime I feel sad. I know this dumb girl that wrote a bestseller this way.

>>119772
Is it a good idea to write my novel in the form of a fml crying terminally online shitpost? Idk. Is it?

>>119768
I have yet to watch the handmaidens tale is it really depressing? I can’t watch depressing shit rn my life is already shitto

>>119768
What job do you recommend for me I mean her… I’m an almost neet so can relate a bit and if begging that hard is more accessible kek then maybe she can’t work a normie job. So influencer? Artist? What job.

>>119775
she's not a neet, she works at a call center though so you can try that. but she has called in for a month straight and somehow managed to not get fired bc of her "Disability", POTS (symptoms: Dizziness, Fainting, Fast or slow heart rate, Anxiety, Excessive sweating, Fatigue, Headaches, Chest pain, Shakiness, and Brain fog.). so she requested to work from home bc she ultimately refused to go in bc she just hated working (don't blame her but its an easy ass job) and it was approved but even her first week of working from home she's called in.
anyway tldr, call center.

You can't make everyone happy

I would say the next step would to probably go to a therapist to work on managing overwhelming emotions and thoughts. As well as addressing any issues stemming from your trauma. Just try to be open and honest with yourself and be receptive to change.

Good luck, try not to forget about the good people <3 (but still be mindful of the bad ones)

>>118748
Just find a devoted moid paypig
Worked for me, no risk of cheating, he is smitten by me

>>118777
>>118725
I really want to write smut but I don't thik I am going to be good enough. I really don't like some of the books that are out there and think I could do better but I am so embaressed about getting published and people seeing what I write in my spare time.

I wanted to go to school for biochem but i was a bad student kusogaki brat and got to stressed out.
>>118777
Checked, you hit the jackpot sis you scissoring with lady luck. Keep the moid on a short leash for me.

>>118785
Please do write smut follow your dreams nonnita

I work as an admin assistant. Pretty easy work with lots of downtime. I work remotely so I just read & scroll on my phone for the majority of the work day. I also like categorizing my inbox so that is also a perk.

>>119771
Sounds like a dream, I really want a wfh job but no luck so far. I’m considering working in office or even at a supah.

no

Yes

>>119649
lol no