/feels/ - Advice & Venting

4 years ago my boyfriend killed himself. Looking back at it the relationship was very toxic and absolutely destructive. Of course i am not happy about the fact that he died, he still was a good person even if he was mentally unstable. I want to honor his memory. Of course this subject still makes me sad, i still wish he was alive. It happens that I blame myself sometimes, i was his girlfriend afterall, i could have prevented this from happening. But what is done is done. I wonder if some of you had similar situations…

i just want to be hugged by a biological male

How do you feel about traditionally chivalrous behavior (i.e. opening doors for you, walking you to your door)? Do you like it when guys act this way or does it make you uncomfortable?

Post here if you haven't lost your virginity.

>turn 22 in two weeks
>never had sex
>never had a boyfriend
>only kissed a boy once in high school
>too afraid of rejection to actively seek relationships

I am a caddy for my part time job (best job for an unskilled highschooler or university student btw). There is this cute guy there I have a crush on, but he seems quite shy and just likes to read his book while waiting for a golfer. The few times we’ve talked he seems quite pleasant.

I’ve always known men were stronger than us, but it’s another thing to see it in person. I’ve noticed that when he caddies, he carries the entire golf bag with one arm by the handle up and out to his side, kind of like the pose when flexing your bicep, and he fucking SPRINTS with it. He runs ahead on each hole to see where the ball lands, and he runs significantly faster than the golf carts.

He doesn’t even look like some sort of muscle beast from /fit/. He’s just a tall, thin, toned guy who might lift a few times a week. He could probably kill me with a single punch, and then follow up with 80 more without running out of breath. I would probably have a panic attack if we got in an argument and he got angry and started shouting. I don’t even know how you could have an equal relationship with someone when the difference in power is so immense. They say it’s borderline rape when a CEO fucks an intern due to the difference in power, but what about physical power?

I was already a little afraid of men’s predatory instincts and behavior, but to see it reinforced that whenever I’m around men I’m only alive because they permit it freaks me out. How do you cope with this?

Do you care about how a man dresses? I do and none of my friends do, I’m convinced there isn’t a normal man out there who I can just take shopping with me and actually offer valuable critique and appreciate the same things as me. Am I in the minority for wanting this? My friends don’t care about how guys dress so I feel like some weird outlier

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Most of my friends think I'm a lesbian because they had never seen me with any men and when some guys approach me. How do I show interest in them? How do I behave if when he wants and I want too?

I've always despised it, I hate everything about it: food, language (everybody hates it), customs, the people and even the traditional clothes (look way too slutty).
But the thing I hate them most is the way we look.

Yesterday I came across this by accident and frankly, it hurts me a lot. This is really how the vast majority of german men think.
People unironically use "you are so german!" as an insult when fighting. They are obsessed with foreign women, I can guarantee you, if you were to come here as a foreigner, they'd flock to you like there's no tomorrow. They're very vocal about prefering them too ("women from X are so much better").
And it seems as if nearly everybody shares that opinion - meanwhile the men are seen as very attractive by foreigners: tall, strong jaw line, etc. As an example, everybody was gushing about our soccer team - which of course only adds to their big ego.

The sad thing is, I completely fit the characteristics this guy described: I'm too tall, have a big nose, I'm shy, so I don't dress up, nor can I dance and I'm a very serious, no-fun person. Can't say anything about my dating life, because I never had a bf to begin with.
I actually do find some of the girls around me pretty, but if even they're considered ugly by international standards, then just how low am I?

I'm grateful for living in a safe 1st world country, but other than that, there's nothing nice about it. I'm so jealous of other people's cultures and appearances.
Is there a way to look more exotic, interesting, better?

Here's the link (no idea who asked that, but all replies are negative): https://www.quora.com/Why-are-so-many-German-girls-so-pretty

I'm getting to the point where I don't feel comfortable posting on social media anymore. Reddit, Discord, Twitter, Instagram….the works.

I hate that everything is tied to my identity forever, and it doesn't automatically delete the way imageboards do (unless you're on 4chan with a tripcode, then people can search your trip…I guess…).

I wish social media would automatically delete my history after 1 year. I'm usually a pretty active user, so deleting all my comments is annoying.

I wonder if this is stage 1 cancer from imageboard use. What is stage 2?