Sorry OP, if this happens to hijack your thread but I see this as an opportunity to post some thoughts myself. Some which may help you too, you never know.
Anyway, I've been lurking a while and posted the odd comment here and there with no identifiers for obvious reasons. I've never been misogynistic but I think this site helped me relate a lot easier to women. Not in any men from mars, women from venus type of way, but emotionally. I was sensitive as a boy and spent most of my time with girls in school playing with little toy animals etc, on some level I still am sensitive, but quickly realized as a man you have to be emotionally disconnected/repressed or be seen as weak. Which in turn led to me spending all my time with the lads from there on out playing football (soccer) etc.
Identity politics has damaged a lot of people. It's not the sole reason of course but it exacerbates the issues people have in how they perceive others which are further deepened and entrenched by people they associate with who strengthen those views (Feminists, MGTOW etc). The internet is also a massive amplifier of the worst proponents of these ideologies who can easily lure people in and eventually turn them onto their agenda, especially if they were already hurt in some way. There are some misandrists here but they seem very rare, and they also seem to be coming from a place of pain, more so than a place of resentment at being rejected etc. Though without knowing them, I can't say for certain, obviously.
You say your misogyny originated from abuse suffered at the hands of your mother. I empathize with you bro, because I've been raised in a loving family with a happily married mother and father with no real issues to complain about. So that makes me realize how unlucky people have been in life, while I have been lucky. You've recognized a problem and that means things can only improve from here.
>I think all men at the core are obsessed with what women really think, how they think.
I've seen a lot of girls/women post here with very low self esteem which seems to stem, in part, from them having problems with men, or relating to men, or attracting men etc; judging by the threads they make, echoing a lot of what I've seen in male oriented/dominated internet spaces. Which only further demonstrated to me how there is not that much difference, between men and women. A lot of their feelings and hopes for relationshiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.(YOU CAN'T SIT WITH US)