>>127882Lately i've been on a similar journey with a friend of mine. I'm not sure if it's the same, because i do experience a certain contentness with ie smoking a cigarette, but I'm not sure if it categorizes as pleasure. But for me it's because I overanalyze things and recognize how they don't truly give me pleasure/happiness, which is why i've stopped finding reasons to bring up any energy for them.
The only friend I do enjoy is the one that has similar views as me and we talk to each other and it always feels very enlightning. Furthermore I only engage in behaviors that actually stimulate the soul, reading meaningful books for example.
My ultimate goal is also independence and peace. I ideally would like to ghost everyone I know.