i h8 my life Anonymous 128690[Reply]
im a fat 18f girl, ive never had a boyfriend and ive been a fucking loner my whole life, people avoid me girls i know are fake and spread retarded rumours about me for no reason other then they just dont like me. i wanna get so skinny and pretty they regret or i can just die.
who tf would wanna be around and ugly disgusting girl like me, i tried to get better but it never lasts, going to the psych ward twice messed it up i wish theyd just let me die. stupid anti psychotics made me gain weight as soon as i was near my goal weight. atleast im off it now i faked adhd symptoms to get on adderall it suppresses my appetite and i lost 5kg in a week. i dont even take the reccomended dose it does nothing if its under 40mg tbh, its great i never feel hungry. i hope i get skinny enough that these stupid people can see im a person too under all the disgusting fat. if i dont lose the weight this year its over lollll
7 posts omitted. Click reply to view.Anonymous 128757
don't demoralize yourself at all, you can lose weight, get a bf pretty quickly (if you want, you should first love yourself, then get a bf, trust me if you take care of yourself and be happy love will come soon enough) and at 18 you are very young still. It doesn't take that long to revitalize yourself, sometimes even less than a month.
Anonymous 128765
>>128757i second this. i'm 18 too, you're probably either freshly out of hs or about to graduate. get a part-time job that pays well. go to the gym (or do home workouts if you're self-conscious, calisthenics are great) eat in a deficit, and eat well. you spend money on food only for it to be eaten in ten minutes and later digested into shit, so might as well make that food work for you as much as possible. fiber helps. remember that people who make fun of you (either irl or behind a screen) are the same as you and me, they shit, they fart, and if they're hating on you they probably hate themselves too.
find whatever it takes to get you through the day, even if it's retarded, if it keeps you alive and happy that's all that matters.
Anonymous 128823
fasting is good idea but then also eating zero calorie stuff and not stretching your stomach is
Anonymous 128830
I'm with you, I just graduated high school at 18 and I feel so lost and existentially empty. I dealt with some bullying for my weight and thinking I was ugly no matter what, I still get scared if my shirts are too low cut because I'm that self conscious
Anonymous 128845
To be attractive you must first love yourself, then comes looks.
Don't change to please others, change to please yourself.
Build healthy habits that make yourself feel good and lose weight slowly as a bonus, shortcuts like adderall will hurt you long term.
You are 18, Adult life have not even started yet, you have so much time so don't stress about everything.
Focus on the healthy small things that make you feel good and build those habits slowly.
Write down goals that are reasonable and strive to reach them.
Start easy like a little bit of exercise every day to get your body moving, it can literally be just stretching in the beginning to build the routine, a walk outdoors every day and minimum of 3 eggs for breakfast for nutrition and vitamins.
As you read this, improve your body position by just 5%, stretch something that is stiff, just a little. See, feels better.
Continue like that every now and then. Small habits grow with time.