I was similar to you, I got an ADHD diagnosis and got put on Ritalin
>feel much less urge to binge
>More focus
>Don't constantly doomscroll

I was similar to you but I didn't change until I found someone worth living for.

I think people sometimes underestimate how important close relationships can be.

>>130280
Damn you know a lot about image stuff, did you study that? Work in academia, perhaps?

I mostly got the idea about calculus graph because I sucked at my calculus class in uni. So if I tried to apply it to shaders maybe I'd understand it better. At least that motivates me on an emotional level.

> with bizzare results like there's features at T=2,5,10 for numbers.
what does that mean?

Just randomly remembered something about uni.

My family offered to use my membership card for a grocery store chain so I could spend the points. Then, after English class I lost it and someone used it. It had about 1 to 10$ worth of US dollars I think? I started crying and everyone in the room freaked out, so I hid in the bathroom until I calmed down.
I felt like a disgrace to my family. I panicked and insulted my mom also, saying stop giving me your useless crap, I don't need your help.

orig

Also I used pixie dust attack to hack wifis in my dorm because I couldn’t pay for mine. I explored some private ip’s (or whatever it’s called in English ) and there were some stuff like tv control panel.

Around the same time I also scanned the city's ip range and looked for anything interesting.
The most interesting one was some sort of uhh physics experiment?
There was a graph of an industrial water boiler with information on the temperature, maybe pressure and so on. I guess it was a real machine that sent the information to the server, kinda cool.

I made the GO gopher in Spore one year ago.

Wow didn't know ella freya posted here

like salty bags of coins, milk and sand or something

holy cow the Ai spoke my thoghts !!!

i feel retarded talking to ai but its literally my only cope at this point

>>130260
i'm sure you already know this, but it's literally just summarizing what you already gave to it, all insight comes entirely from you. what is the "holy cow" part, why a surprise?

>>130261
I think it can introduce new ideas you didn’t mention, this is best seen with asking technical questions for instance, though that’s rarer with mock therapy

>>129805
real

its exam period and it's getting too much for me. The past week I have been studying math for 5 hours every day. Taking one past exam which is three hours, correcting it which takes an hour, and doing weak topics or reviewing formulas for the last hour. The problem is I still fucking suck. Tomorrow is my exam. My average is at 52% and I'm really scared I won't pass. All that time spent for nothing. The past exams I did ranged from 51-79%,, but these last days have been horrible. Yesterday I did an exam and got 37% and today I made another one but didn't finish it because it was actually hurting my soul. I don't know what to do. I can't do more. I have another subject tomorrow too in the morning so I am scared my concentration will already be dwindling. Sometimes I get stuff wrong because I don't have the insight and it's so frustrating because then I watch a video explaining and it's so simple I could literally do it. But I have been making LOTS of mistakes on literally just, forgetting to put a minus here or ssometimes misreading my own previous work. It's so frustrating. I need to be extremely precise tomorrow but I am just scared. My heart hurts. I can't do more. My parents know I have been studying hard and think that my efforts will pay off but I doubt it. It will be mediocre at best… if I fail I might genuinely have to kill myself. Want to kill myself right now already. I don't feel like I am getting better. In the beginning I could see improvement between my first few exams and now I've plateaued. I think it's because I understand the material but I keep making fucking stupid careless errors. And my approach may be systematic and flawless but then I see I made a mistake with subtracting two functions from eachother which fucks up the rest and it makes me crash out. I pray tomorrow I will have the clarity to not make such mistakes- but I have been trying every day as if it were a real exam to no avail. Just sucks. My heart breaks. I don't know how to get my grade up and frankly I can't be too bothered anymore. I want it but I just, can't. But I do care actually. Kill me.

I also have another subject in the morning which is very learn heavy. The last few weeks every day I have been revising and revising and revising the material. I know pretty much every detail by heart. I think a 100% is easily in reach for me I just need to work on formulating my answers. I know I should practice by taking past exams but I just can't seem to do anythiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>130142
If you don't share interests, there's just nothing to talk about. A guy can pretend to care about your day sure but how long could that conversation last really? I don't know why people don't bring this up more often but if you don't share interests it's likely just not going to work out long term because you'll only be interacting for sex or you'll be forcing some half-assed interest like you mentioned. The big issue is there isn't really a lot of overlap between what most guys are into vs what most women are into and this is only exacerbated by internet algorithms. I really don't know why women go around assuming as long as there's an initial spark it'll all eventually work out in the end. Relationships take a lot of work from both parties and sometimes you're just not made for each other.

People in general and especially men are increasingly immature. The vast majority of people try their best in romantic relationships and often fail themselves despite their best intentions. Good relationships come with serendipity, it takes patience, persistence, and an openness to be surprised.

>>130142
this checks out all the boxes for a man that wants a gf just to take, never to give. so many men dont even like women or are interested in them in any other way than that they want someone to be nice to them, ask them about stuff and all of that. if they dont even want to know who you are and whats going on with you, they dont really love you, they just want a relationship with pretty much just someone to feel less lonely.

Yo, listen up, here's a story
About a little guy that lives in a reddit world
And all day and all night
And everything he sees is just reddit
Like him inside and outside
Reddit his house
With a reddit little window
And a reddit Corvette
And everything is reddit for him
And himself and everybody around
'Cause he ain't got nobody to listen (to listen)

Rubbbin on her back as I suck on her NIPPLE!
Mane dis gal stacked butt cheeks like a HIPPO!
Jimmy crack corn Im gon bust on her LIPPO!
Jimmy in my cup my nig take a SIPPO!
Down by da benz so her cheese gonna FLIPPO!
Left the hotel with a limp like a CRIPPLE!
Pretty like highs and her smile had a DIMPLE!
Make her twat hot like a bust on a PIMPLE!

If you thinking I'm straight then you better think twice
Say you ain't got no cheese then I'm Jekyll and Hyde
'Bout to click on this bitch 'cause she need to learn me
Beat her with my pistol when I thought she burned me
It's the first of the month, you can call me Sambo
I'ma dick this ho down 'cause I like to gamble
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you will never be a woman

cuz a woman has a womb, not a man

you can never be a woman

that's tough for some folks to understand

you will never be a woman

try as you might you look like cher not snow white

and while they take our rights away

you're up at night deciding if you're queer, bi or gay
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If you're so funny
Then why are you on your own tonight?
And if you're so clever
Then why are you on your own tonight?
If you're so very entertaining
Then why are you on your own tonight?
If you're so very good looking
Why do you sleep alone tonight?
I know
'Cause tonight is just like any other night
That's why you're on your own tonight
With your triumphs and your charms
While they're in each other's arms

If things are gonna get better tell me a 'when' and a 'where'.
Sitting and staring in the mirror, nobody's there,
That I know, feeling so alone and I'm scared that nobody cares.
My nights consist of so many prayers.
I once had so many dreams, I once was going somewhere.

>>128736
Is this little guy dead? I hope so.

>>128738
No he's getting an x-ray under anesthesia. Also rude

Im a neet for like 10months now because i had one too many mental breakdowns working with my dad. I mostly try to help around the house and take care of myself. I cook, clean, talk with friends on discord game, make art, read, but ive been going out on walks to get some exercise and fresh air. I gotta get my resume updated and start applying but im afraid to.

fuck around on the pc, browse my phone, smoke pot, harass my cats. I do occasionally go out for walks at the park and I definitely plan on being more active in the summer

I'm a NEET and I currently larp like I'm attending a uni studying certain subjects. Meaning, I just study something on a schedule for 1.5 hours with breaks inbetween and sometimes I try to plan what I will do. So far it made me feel better because I accomplish something every day.
Really a lot of these "subjects" are just my hobbies, but structured. Structure improves everything A LOT, it's way easier to manage your existing activities and introduce changes into your life this way. Always having planned downtime is good too.
I'll see how long this lasts.

You're not a bad person, its pretty normal to give something a shot to see if you can feel something, but now that you know you don't its time to let it go or you'll pack on the guilt and self hate.

no, because using people is not bad.

Found this about wrong turns and I wanted to share

https://spiritualherbals.com/post.php?title=when-nothing-in-your-life-is-moving-forward-the-spiritual-blockage-many-people-ignore

Love spells
Read about it and found out it was the best option
It worked
https://spiritualherbals.com/post.php?title=why-a-personal-spell-is-different-from-ordinary-rituals