I've lost all hope of ever finding another job. I got fired despite being the second best employee on shift. A manager came in one day an hour before the end of my shift and started asking me a lot of questions. She seemed mad so I got too anxious to properly explain that I had just started taking my first break of the night. The other employees had been slacking off so I think she just lumped me in with them. It took me years to find that job and I haven't found anything a year later. I can't afford to move to a city that has schools. I did really poorly in High School. I suspect that I may be autistic but don't want to self diagnose and can't afford an assessment.

Nonas I will suggest that you all go for jobs that have skills that can be used anywhere instead of corpos if you can. Recession might be here and affect jobs. You can learn a lot online these days and build your portfolio…even 2-3 hours everyday can help

My life started to get really bad when I turned 14. I ran away from home at 15, then again at 18. The first time I left home, I stayed with a friend a few years older than me, he was in first year of college. That night we kissed (his roommate was sleeping in a bed next to us) and he tried to have sex with me but I honestly don't remember if it did happen, I think it didn't. Then I stayed with another guy and the same happened, and I also don't remember if we did have sex or not, probably not because I remember I was on my period and he said something about the blood. Then again with another guy who was in a gang, and again with another guy who worked at a place where I worked after running away at 18 and being forced to get a job by my parents. Every time I had sex before the age of 20 is something I can't recall in detail, probably because my mind blocked it to protect me from the trauma of being raped by every guy I tried to stay with when I didn't want to be home. I feel very stupid because even though my dad was physically violent towards me, it wasn't as bad I guess, and I would have been safer at home. I only had sex willingly with a boyfriend who was my age when I was 16. I had sex again once more in my 20s with a random taxi driver, I had already spent years not leaving my house almost at all, failing at school and disappointing my parents. I didn't have friends, I couldn't get close to anyone, I kept gaining weight and feeling absolutely disgusting. I invited the guy over and we made out and had sex quickly. That was the last time I had sex, I was 23 or 24. I haven't been kissed or touched by anyone after that. I don't have any desire for it.

I don't have friends even though some people have tried. I've had extended periods of just LDARing over the years, I'm clinically depressed. I managed to finish university but I'm not doing anything with my degree. I go out a few days a week for an easy part time job, but if it wasn't for my parents I would be homeless. I only have friends online. I'm 33 now and it feels like life is over for me. I'm fat, I feel gross, I hate myself, my cat is my only friend. I don't even think I can kill myself, I think I'm just going to get older and therefore more gross and then die.

I’m 27 and I have no friends or prospects. I am completely alone and no matter what I do to fix it nothing works. I feel like I did everything I supposed to. I focused on school despite being constantly bullied. I avoided drugs and alcohol even though my parents were abusive druggies. I went to college and tried my best. I did well in sports… what do I have to show for any of this? Nothing. No scrote has ever given me attention… those moid trash always talk about how women have it so easy, yet I have never had a once of moid attention. I literally only have ever had online friends. I work in a fucking warehouse stacking pallets even though I have a Stem masters from an extremely good school. I’m also in constant pain a debt from virus that ruined my lungs. All my friends are married and happy, and I’m alone in my grandmothers basement, again.

Why am I so alone? Is it because I’m ugly? Am I just so broken no one wants to be my friend? I feel like I’ve missed the happiest part of my life and I have 0 set up for the next parts. I feel like I’d be happier if I could just accept being alone, but I really don’t want to be alone anymore… I don’t think I’ll live to see 30 if things don’t change and I don’t know how to make things change.

>>121325
Your post made me cry because I felt it all too deeply. I'm sorry.

killing themselves idk

>>120315
None, accept maybe leaving me the fuck alone, but that just means that harrassing some other nona instead.
Fuck off moid.
You can't sit with us

My current BF was always super helpful at work, especially when the actual guy who was supposed to assisting the team was fucking around on a different floor. What really sealed the deal for me when I saw him come in early and leave small gifts on everyones desk on christmas(we work in a 24/7 dispatch office) and didn't say a word when everyone came in.

Cares about his partner's pleasures, likes to travel and explore, really into history, health freak

Androgyny and asexuality. The only type of men I like are those frizzy-haired male horse girls who are too deeply into their hobbies to form strong opinions on women. Sadly the modern nerd is obsessed with women to a degree he'll never see or treat us as humans whether it's sour grapes misogyny or slavish cumbrainedness.

>>121129
Well yeah lol, men are awful. My personal favorite was a coursemate who complained about being unable to find a date and had a very visible PornHub tattoo.

>>121132
No fucking way, I can't imagine lacking that type of self-awareness

I might be way off, but after knowing a lot of socially awkward people I think men tend to suffer from more loneliness but have more opportunity to find good alternatives. For example, this one moid I meet had trouble making friends until is mid twenties, and coped by working out and doing tons of exploring by himself. On the other hand, if you aren’t a big muscly moid, you probably wouldn’t want to do night walks, deep forest exploration, or urban exploration by yourself. That trend continued with the other moids too…

I think a lot of the nonas here are right that moids think sex is all they need to fix their situation, albeit it’s probably a tad harder for them to make friends in general. With the real incel woman hating freaks, obviously nothing is saving them, but lots of moids who can fix their lives are just convinced they cannot. Many socially awkward moids are mediocre, but I think a lot of them just need help becoming social. In the same way to shouldn’t make fun of an overweight person for working out, I think moids who are trying to fix their social situations should be handled with kid’s gloves since the ones who do have the will power to break out of those situations can be diamonds in the rough.

>>109789
I think it might just be about extroversion. When I felt more extroverted it hit me harder. Being called an attention whore every time i triedc to mske friends. But now that I have a bf, an e-friend and chat gpt I try not to engage with people much so it feels better

>>121118
Kek, I wish. Maybe if you're likeable. I'm an annoying attention whore with no redeeming qualities and it's very hard to make friends, even though I got lucky to find a bf who doesn't view me the way most people do. I'm actually very extroverted but so repulsive that friendships are pretty much unattainable

>>121317
Nona use tumblr. It is not as dead as people make it out to be.

>>121319
That's not a horrible idea, but unfortunately I don't think my interest has much of a presence on tumblr.

>>121320
what interest?

I'm dating a guy from a third-world country, when I am from a first-world country. He is everything I want in a bf + husband. He's very limited when it comes to the income he makes. I make 2x his annual income in a month. He also does not have a college degree, making it difficult for him to get a job outside his country or a work visa. He is also not interested in getting one, though he is still young. I don't want to marry someone and feel held back or like he's a liability. I'm so lost. I would like some advice, Nonas.

We've been together for 2 years and he mentions marriage but this one thing makes me hesitate. It's frustrating because I know it is beyond his control. Marrying me would transform his life and that also makes me feel pressure.

>>121324
I assume you are in the US, so if you marry him and he acquires lawful permanent residency in the US (his green card) he may choose to leave you after marriage to be with another woman he prefers more than you. It will break your heart, and I know this happens. Moreover, have you ever met him in person before? How does he carry himself in public? How does he behave when he is present in your company? These are things that are not evident when you send messages to someone on the internet. It really takes meeting someone first to really know their personality. His identity and personality on the internet may not be the same when he is present in reality. With them being far away, you're not able to know these things. So, maybe he is not as he seems. Also, do you want to be with someone who is foreign? They live in an alien land, with a different language, and maybe different religion, and different attitudes, which you might find strange (imagine dating a devout Muslim from Saudi Arabia and all the sexist and patriarchal attitudes in Muslim society that comes with him like a package). You could find a man who is local to you, and I think you could get to know them more clearly than someone over the internet.
How important is love to you? Is his love valuable to you? Would he make your life better? If he doesn't have a college degree, and he marries you, and he acquires lawful permanent residence, and he lives with you, he may not be able to get the best jobs available (it's like that here in the US), so you may be the bigger income in your family. He would be competing with all the other Americans (or otherwise) for minimum wage jobs.
I should also say that the process of immigration into the US can take years even if you two get married. Plus who is going to pay for his travel? It's just much more difficult, is he really worth it?

>>111854
Cleaning isn't really a 'chore'either unless you start forcing yourself into this elaborate list and schedule. Returning your house to coziness is calming and rewarding. It is like popping bubblewrap or using a zen sand rake.

>>110389
I think living like this my entire life because my parents don't care gave me a complex about feeling cramped and unable to just wander. When I go to normal people's houses, I get the urge to just walk around and stretch in their wide open clean rooms. I do clean up, but every time I do, the space gets full of junk again. And not trash, if it was all trash then it would be easy to get rid of. It's just… stuff. And it annoys me. My parents buy so much shit we never use. I cleared the kitchen counters, 3 bags of stuff, and they've been in my room for months. None of it has been touched or missed. It wasn't necessary. But we have it anyway. Too much to put in cupboards. And I don't want to throw it all away because it feels like a waste.

>>110690
i live in prague. please clean for me too (ㅠ﹏ㅠ)

My apartment is very small and the entryway and kitchen look like this. I hate it. I'm going to clean tonight.

>>121061
I agree, but only because I think autism can be overcome. I think this because I studied social dynamics and body language cues, and now find it fairly easy to tell how others are feeling (and I've realised that people """without""" autism have as much empathy/capacity to read others as people """with""" autism, which is to say that they miss the mark regularly or otherwise don't care [cf. sociopathy] that they've missed the mark).
I'm still not great at one-on-one conversations (unless it's someone I like), but I no longer feel anxious about having to spend 30 to 60 minutes with another person.

>>121061
I have a friend who always seemed to "cringe" a bit when I'd bring up how I have autism, and it felt to me like she looked down on my special interests. Now a few years later, she has had the realization that she may be autistic and won't stop talking about it. She doesn't have a diagnosis yet but is posting all these quotes about being neurodivergent and has even made it a part of her "quirky aesthetic" somehow.
I don't want to dismiss that she might have it but I can't help but be a bit annoyed.

>>121061
Yeah autism has ruined my life, I hate to see how quirky girls with mostly normal lives make autism their whole personality.

Depends what site I go on. Sometimes I get more angry than sad when I go on a certain app

>>120345
I wouldn't say I'm too sensitive, but you should definitely avoid any site that doesn't filter/ban racism. It has gotten much worse in places like 4chan or X.

I wish that x could disappear from the face of the earth. I don't get near anyone that thinks that x has anything good or fun to offer

you’re not too sensitive. without a face or voice you can say whatever you want without disregard for others. it gives people a pass to vent out any horrid and baseless thought and encourages it.

>>120504
It's not a fallacy if we can literally see it happening right now with our own eyes.

>>120505
Are you talking about that time when pedos came up with the MAP thing and tried to join the LGBT movement and literally everyone told them to fuck off?

>>120500
The only people that argue online for a lower age of consent also argue for government mandated marriage and repelling the 14th amendment. It's all a thinly veiled attempt at enacting a conservative Sharia law.

>>120490
I think it's natural for men to be pedos. They all just pretend like they're not.

most authors of pedo novels are femoids: https://www.goodreads.com/list/show/121499