pic related, a perspective from some dumb VN. I think it shows what I'm trying to say

>>126918
i’m really sorry someone switched up on you suddenly. it is really shocking when you love and trust someone and they completely betray you. for me it felt like someone removing a mask and it frightened me. it also really destroyed my ability to trust i could tell when someone is lying. i think i would rather it have been a complete stranger who hurt me randomly than someone i thought i was safe with.

what he did to me was genuinely evil. i can’t lie and i can’t soften it. i think being in denial of what it was makes sense. it would be hard to accept that you had harmed someone the way that he did. i also made it difficult to apologize. for a while i was radioactive with rage and i don’t think it would have been a good idea to try and talk to me back then. i think i would have taken everything the wrong way and not believed him. to be fair his friend was also deliberately making the situation worse, probably to create the feeling of an us vs them and form some sort of false us against the world type bond. i’m sure she had some sort of reason too but it was scary for me and i thought she was going to hurt me. i guess at the end of the day he didnt/couldnt stop her from screaming at me and he didn’t say he disagreed. but he also didn’t yell at me himself or let her physically harm me. so i reacted pretty negatively to that and rubbed him calling me terrible before in his face while i lashed out and called him terrible names. i started out a perfect victim but i didn’t end up as one. i honestly would rather be a fighter than a martyr who just lays there and takes it.
maybe it’ll be easy to apologize to me now that i have things i should apologize for too. maybe i made it impossible to ever apologize. i don’t know.

i think it was just a situation where everything got out of control and i wasn’t capable of expressing my feelings or standing up for myself until i exploded. and he just wanted to pretend it never happened and bury it down. and that made me lose my shit even more. i don’t think it’s right he gets to move on with his life and be happy while i’m traumatized and struggling because of what he did. at the same time, i really don’t want him relating to songs about his life being already over and not being able to get out of bed or be saved. i also find accepting a relationship solely out of desperation to find someone who wouldn’t ouPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>126938
>i think i would rather it have been a complete stranger who hurt me randomly than someone i thought i was safe with.
yup, same

>i started out a perfect victim but i didn’t end up as one. i honestly would rather be a fighter than a martyr who just lays there and takes it.
once again you're absolutely right

>to be fair his friend was also deliberately making the situation worse, probably to create the feeling of an us vs them and form some sort of false us against the world type bond. i’m sure she had some sort of reason too but it was scary for me and i thought she was going to hurt me.
Yeah that's a fucking horrible ass dynamic and it's similar to one I had, your guy is an immature dependent dumbass I'm sorry, but he was so weak he literally couldn't see the destruction he created by acting like some resource to be fought over. I know a guy like this too lol, literally what happened to my friend recently where she invited him to a group chat and the guy brought along some bitch who attached himself to him and just attacked my friend. While he did nothing lmfao literally unable to take responsibility for his actions because he's so dependent on some psycho.
So yeah he's extremely immature, even more than I assumed. He can't even take responsibility for his emotions to the point where he feels them but won't take action to solve it.

>i guess at the end of the day he didnt/couldnt stop her from screaming at me and he didn’t say he disagreed. but he also didn’t yell at me himself or let her physically harm me. so i reacted pretty negatively to that and rubbed him calling me terrible before in his face while i lashed out and called him terrible names
Seems reasonable. Honestly it is something worth to be mad about, but moreso despite these people being literal pushovers they have a great potential for harm. This happened to me too more or less.

I wouldn't be surprised if your guy lowkey waits for you to take action or someone else to solve his shit cause he's so passive at life. Anyways your reaction is completely justified from what I see I wouldn't even say you need to apologize, but it's up to you.

>>126946
unfortunately with how we left things last, he has to be the one to reach out to me. i don’t even know a way to contact him but i know he can find me if he wanted to.

>>126947
if he actually cares about what he did being wrong and me being okay, he would risk reaching out directly to give us both closure. so it makes me think he doesn’t. the music is confusing.

I'll be your friend! How ya doing today?

>>126844
omg im doing fine what about you ??

>>126847
3 days late… I'm so sorry.

Not bad tbh. Just got out of work and I'm about to get ready for bed. I got another shift tomorrow, then three more shifts next week.

Whatcha going to do for Thanksgiving?

>>126821
this feels like a moid social experiment post

>>126867
It literally is, he really expected women to be like "ohh that's so true sis slay" so he could take a screencap n bitch and moan in /r9k/ lmfao fucking loser

>>126906
there’s like five women here and a bunch of men spamming. why do they care about this place? because it’s not morally evil inherently like lolcow is so they want to punish the women here more for just being nice and chill?

>>126821
i miss u

I'm 5'0" I'll take him

>>126942
This happens like extremely rarely anyway

>>126942
You're right, and you also helped double convince me against even thinking about messing with this guy tonight. I was caught between "is he cute or the only guy dressed well tonight" and that's probably enough of a reason to just not.
I've been on the back end of that scenario, it's not fun. he was a porn sick guy who really didn't care about the woman's looks so long as they had a large cup size. I am small chested and eventually he sprung the "gift" of implants on me. And yeah it would be using the guy in a gross way, even if he technically is interested (but with a presumably excited and willing partner which I guess I'm not). My thoughts for getting with him absolutely are not virtuous though, I am lonely and post bad breakup with the aforementioned asshole lmao. I think some girls with uggos are like me, and some probably have low self esteem too like one of my friends who absolutely could do better than her ogrish Redditor bf

>>126922
This post was also from me >>126531 I liked him once but so many things were revealed during the course of 2 years and I had so many 'hot and cold' treatments from him I got kinda desensitized to him emotionally. I had no positive feelings left, only attachement and the feeling of being helpless without him… I still appreciated his help. Overall I feel numb now but whenever I think more about him I'm just scared that now I'm totally alone with everything and the panic sets in. I'm not saying I'm without guilt here. I should've known better. I just thought I could make this work out but I couldn't

>>126928
>>126531
are you me? I feel like this about my husband but I literally can’t do anything without him either. The honeymoon phase is over for me. I’m scared of being alone because my family disowned me and I have zero friends. Most friends wouldn’t even help you out if they didn’t get something in it for them either. I’d rather have a family over friends tbh but you have to be born into one… one that’s nice and does things for you because you are blood related.
>many things were revealed during the course of 2 years and I had so many 'hot and cold' treatments from him I got kinda desensitized to him emotionally.
Like what?
>>126532
>One of my friends is married and she doesn't like sex or being touched intimately, so she and her husband don't do that.
That’s insane. How is that possible? All men are driven by sex. Free Private pussy access is granted through marriage and that’s why they do it.

>>126264
Girl calm down it's a common meme/reaction pic even among people who aren't fans of mlp lol

i feel like im stuck in this awful neverending loop of wake up go to work be miserable come home and repeat. i've totally lost hope in finding a well paying job in the future i just feel like shit all the time and im exhausted. i have nothing to live for or look forward to like what is the fucking point anymore bruh

>>126940
What do you do for work nona?

>>126937
Yes but not as blackpilled/nihilistic as you probably
voluntarily abstinent/virgin and celibate never had a bf few can relate but it brings me mystical insight

>>126858
why not just leave. this is unbelievably cruel and i’m not going to defend men at all. but theres no way you are not emotionally disabled in some way and are on here. like i have ptsd i’m an emotional cripple. you are probably stunted or broken in some way too. and i think maybe that fear of being unable to be loved because of it is causing you to have these thoughts and post these terrible things. because you secretly feel that way about yourself.

You sound like a cringy tiktard trying it's hardest to larp as a genderbent 4chan moid. Insufferable whiny cunt

>>126883
she literally said he attempted suicide over his ex who treated him like shit he has issues

i think i misphrased it tho i was associating it with moids like the one she likes

its not about disability but many disabled moids will become incels bc their disability makes them undesirable and then they become kinda fucked up

>>126931
maybe you're autistic or something because that doesn't sound like very unreasonable to tell about (1 life event that explains visible life debilitating change) especially if op asked him or if they "hit it off" hard enough

>>126935
im an evil hag spirit

>>126901
sometimes moving on for a bit IS the good timing nona. people usually don’t end up with the first person they’re with now and that’s a good thing. you both probably needed time and more life experiences to grow and that’s why it didn’t work out. if it’s a right person, wrong time thing, you won’t have to lift a finger and worrying could even hold things off longer honestly. but even if they’re held off longer it’s because you needed that time and those additional life lessons. what’s meant for you will always come to you. the only thing you can do wrong in life is try to force anything. it’ll all work out. trust me the impossible just happened for me on a random tuesday evening after ten years. if he moves on it’s because his next partner has something to teach him that he needs. if he’s yours, no one can steal your soulmate. if he’s not your soulmate you’ll be relieved when you find your real one and the lessons he taught you will make that relationship work.

>>126904
i just want to say i’m glad you’re in a good place about this. you would have heard if he died. he’s a freak for leaving it hanging that he might have died and he probably knows it upset you and that was the point. i’m glad you’ve realized that man is toxic. i’m sorry that hes suicidal but that’s a really cruel thing to do to someone and even as i’ve been in the process of attempting to harm myself, i had the wherewithal every time to know to hide it from other people so they wouldn’t be hurt by it. that’s not something you do to someone you love. that’s something you do to someone you’re trying to punish. i hope you find your happiness nona.

>>126904
im sorry I asked Nona. I hope that moving on has been easy, for both of our sakes.

just send me a text saying hi.

i’m not going to write or check here anymore. i don’t want to let someone writing fake shit fuck this up for me. i hope you apologize for real. you’re wrong that it wouldn’t change anything.

I'm totally worthless. Morbidly obese, unemployed, no college degree…nothing. I'm living off the good graces of others but I know this will end soon. I don't have any family that supports me. Once I can't live where I currently am, I'll kill myself. There is no future for me.

I was reading reddit and saw a picture of a gutted bathroom with people saying this is how you fix a black mould problem. Is this really the only way to deal with bad black mould. Christ. I don't want to know.

In the end it really amounted to nothing, not that life was meant to be to my liking. There's something utterly wrong with me. I don't know where to go but am I supposed to go anywhere?

Retarded boiler in my room started leaking so I put a bucket under it and prayed it would go away. 2 days of bedrotting later the bucket has overfilled and the leak has gone down to my living room forming a big bulge on the ceiling. Probably gonna have to call someone to look at it and they’ll have to go into my depression room. Also I have the worst social anxiety ever. Fuck my life.

Not rock bottom yet but I'm getting there, everyone is currently treating me as if I did something horrific just because my performance at work hasn't been the best for the last few months, this is even stretching into my family thinking this