I know it's been close to a year, and I know we didn't last long and that what you did to me was fucked up, but it kills me that I'll never feel again the way I felt when I fell in love with you. Sometimes I see you in my dreams and you look at me the way you did when you first said you loved me and I wake up feeling empty. You've probably been through several other girls since then and you probably broke them the same way. I almost wish it never happened and that I just stayed a femcel forever. Getting a taste of how other people live was bad for me. I find myself craving things I know I can't have again. I need to accept that some things aren't meant for me. The worst part is that sometimes I miss you even though I know you're scum. I met your ex before me and you literally dumped us with the same bullshit story. It kills me that you changed my brain forever and I'm just a footnote to you, if that. I hope that my replacement is smarter than i was and that she recognizes what you are and leaves you before she gets hurt. And I hope that I can stop feeling the hollow space where you were. I hope one day barley tea stops tasting like you.

Dear A
I should hate you. You cheated on me despite a year of love and loyalty together. You’re 20. You call me immature but your ex is still wrong you’re not unloveable,I still love you even if it hurts. I hope my Australian underage replacement understands that deep down you’re a monster with the facade of a cute innocent boy and leaves you for another older man. I hope you kill yourself and your last thought is of your broken promises to me. I need you and I hate you and I love you. We can never be together now but I will always remember you and how you made me feel like a princess rather than a smelly useless femcel. I’ll be a femcel forever to remember you by. No one was able to pretend to love me like you did.

>>121956
ruin his reputation

>>121959
I wish I could but I only have his twitter not his full name and due to harassment I’m not supposed to find out more about him.

I don't care if this makes me a bad person. I do not think your childhood trauma from the war even begins to excuse the things you've done. Yes, it's bad that you and your family were forced to flee Palestine when the Israelis came and massacred your city, but that was well over a decade before my mother was born, and I'll never ever forgive you for the way you treated her. I hate smiling and being nice at family dinners when I know you locked her in the house for a year because her brother snitched that she was talking to the man who would be my father. I hate pouring tea for you when I know you beat my mother with a pool stick so hard it snapped. I hate pretending your bland babaghanoush is good when I know you dragged my mother by the hair and threatened to kill her when she said she didn't want to eat red meat one day. I hate so many things you've done and I hate that everyone in the family either pretends it never happened or excuses it because you grew up in a war zone and you're old now. I skip the family gatherings in part because I can't stand playing nice with someone who treated my mother so poorly her whole life. You love to talk about how one day God will give everyone what they deserve but I don't think you understand what that would mean for you

Every morning is a good morning if you don't have a man around

Fit, Makes enough , ambitious

fat and retarded

Tall and blonde British accent. Smart and ambitious
Ideal relationship: he’s dominant and possessive of me I play mommy to him. Lots of handholding and kissing.
Ideal date: lying in a forest together watching the sunrise and making out as we discuss books and baby names.

Just to like me back fr

Tall, dominant

>>121871
sometimes delusion does feel certain and comforting. i get why you’d cling to it.

>>121872
humans and human relations are complex, not easy and boiled down like terminally online people put them

>>121886
ah yes! women who notice harmful patterns are “chronically online” while men who excuse them are just being “nuanced”. funny how nuance becomes a shield the second someone’s comfort gets threatened. i’m not “boiling things down”, i’m just not sugar coating them. thanks for the textbook response.

pros: gives me access to all finances and is trained to be a considerate bf

cons: an emotional RETARD with DOUBLE STANDARDS and inability to EMPATHIZE

>>121979
another pro: built to be dommed btw

>>120918
pretty much the same happend to me
for 2 year we sorta dated but i told him we couldnt be with him because im a lesbian
when he got over me and started seeing another girl i realised im probably just bi and stupid
but the coodependency hit really good while it lasted

op here again bumping this thread!! it's been a while since this all happened, but i talked to him a couple weeks ago and i got some form of closure. he basically told me that we got too close, and that he was telling me things about him that he shouldn't, as well as thinking that we were too dependent on each other.

i'm doing better now! i still feel sad about our friendship not working out (especially since i couldn't do anything about it) but i'm not as worried. i just hope he's doing okay. he's a good guy, even if he doesn't always feel like it. sometimes i come across a tweet or tiktok and i'm like "lol toby would like this" and then i remember. oh yeah. can't send it to him because i have him blocked on instagram and imessage. i'm in therapy now (thank god) and hopefully i'll start changing for the better. :)

>>121963
Proud of you nona. It is very hard to adjust to having someone in your life to not having them there at all. But usually time makes things better and it sounds like it’s helped for you. I’m also adjusting to not speaking to someone who I used to talk to every day. It’s very, very hard and I hope I’m able to be at peace with it soon. Happy to hear you’re doing better and I wish you the best!

>>121967
thanks nona. its always really hard at first. but i think that eventually you just… forget? like, at first i couldn't help but think about him. from the time i woke up til the time i went to bed. but now i don't think about him as much. you slowly forget about them as you spend less time with them.

traitors are to be EXECUTED!!!

>>120944
Some errors here use this in place of number 2.
http://www.nwsnet.or.jp/

>>120945
https://nwsnet.or.jp/
Sorry the 's' was missing

op Here. I let my husband convince me I was the problem again. I convinced myself if I did better he would treat me better. I stopped fighting. I went along with everything. We had more good times, but he would often just turn cruel without warning. And when I didn't give into his baiting he would punish me.

Tonight I agreed to throw out some "contaminated" trash and do extra cleaning. I followed all his instructions. While I was cleaning he was watching tv, eating, and drinking. He kept accusing me of not cleaning and lying. When I finished a task he told me I didn't actually do it. Then he told me I finished too fast. This happened repeatedly until he set a timer and told me I had to spend 2 hours cleaning the entry way ( about a 1meter x 2 meter space including the genkan). All the while calling me a bitch and a liar. He was using headphones so I quietly put on some dirty clothes from the hamper and ran away. I turned off my phone. Bought food because I wasn't allowed to eat until I finished cleaning. Now I'm at a manga cafe. I feel a lot lighter even though I have no plan. tbh the thread of that girl who was groomed and kidnapped who had first made a thread about how to fix herself was running through my head.

>>120944
Sorry for not replying earlier. Thanks for the support. I've spoken with the shelter in my area and they will take me but I have to quit my job which I can't do right now.

I have no plan and I have a medical test and have a big work thing this week but I7ll manage.

>>121922
How often are you going to crawl back to your husband and then come here to cry about how he abused you again.

What's your home country?

>>121950
US. I came back, we alreadh had a huge fight and the police got called. Police were not helpful at all. Earlier that same day I talked to a social worker at the hospital who told me to wait for my paperwork to go through and then she can hook me up with resources to leave and set up a place to live.

go through his phone

>>121970
no i don't like confrontation is there a truth pill? i could drug him

>>121971
nah not even the CIA could find a truth pill. well, thats pretty much how most people find out if their partner cheats. you can do it in sneaky ways, unethical but hey. if your intution tells you that hes cheating perhaps its time to break things off bc youre clearly stressed out, uncomfortable and dont find him trustworthy

>>121405
It did massively well for it's budget and still retains a huge cult following and the ED is one of the most notorious EDs of all time

I hate how true it is. My ex is a lolicon on twitter. I hate him I hate him I hate him. I want to ruin him. I want him to beg for mercy as I stab him.

>>121953
my ex was a lolicon too and I absolutely destroyed him kek. he's still yearning for me

>>121960
how did you do it? cause mine was a hardcore shotacon and nothing I did worked. try and make him miss me, see what he lost for being a pervert? nothing. anonymously tipped his irl female friend who's a mom to a toddler with evidence of his pedo antics so she could protect her child? "fuck off, he's my friend". pray to the goddess of retribution? hasn't seem to done anything. I just want him to suffer for being a fucking degenerate but men like him are pretty much the standard and accepted/coddled nowadays so nothing really will get to him and yes, it makes me seethe. most he's done is post on twitter "when will i ever be enough for someone :c" sandwiched between two posts of drawn porn of women getting brutalized shortly after breaking up but that's it.

>>121966
well perhaps I shouldn't say this but I got physically violent with him. told him he had to atone for his sins by letting me slap him as hard as I could, then after I did that I'd continue to treat him coldly and refuse to touch him. I bullied him for months and would just endlessly try to make him cry, then I broke up knowing he had extreme abandonment issues. he flew down and stalked me and I'd just keep telling him to kill himself, got a restraining order. it's been years but he's still trying to stalk me online. I've moved on to date more conventionally attractive, wealthy guys which I know would make him insanely insecure.
> "fuck off, he's my friend".
thats disgusting, I fucking hate women like that.

take solace in the fact that he's probably depressed and is just going through the motions until he dies.

It feels more self destructing and dangerous than taking drugs of questionable quality.

>>118829
It is also the most sublime drug known to man. Better than an entire drug cocktail

I knew for sure when I realized I only want to marry and have kids with him.

It’s a hunger a need for someone. When I love someone I need them for my life to have any meaning

One side bliss, one side worry.
Every moment with him is wonderful. Laughter, passion, pleasure. I can open up and be myself with no facade.

Without him is anxiety. Did I mess something up? Is he okay? He’s depressed, so will he leave me? Did I hurt him? Is he eating? Did he get drunk? Is he okay at work? It tears at my heart.