>>132532
>>132537
You will never be me

>>132570
26, never too late for anyone IMO

Glad I could help someone, for once.

>>132564
For me (also ND and sheltered), it hurts because I'm not like that, but in my experience, some people weirdly project it onto me anyway. I've noticed that there are people who get weirdly irate at my personality in a way they aren't with people who are similar, but of different races. Sometimes, it's like they try to get at me (or "bait" me) with rude comments or behavior. It's almost like they're trying to absolve themselves of something internal, but whatever they're searching for just isn't me. Half the time, I'm too autistic to even know what they're doing, but then I tell a friend (both black and non-black) about it in passing, they're like "That person was a bitch/piece of shit, disregard them" and some have broken down exactly what they were doing in a way that made me a bit depressed, but made sense.
My life is great and I'm extremely lucky in other ways, so it's whatever, but it makes me a little sad that I'm always going to be treated a certain way because a large chunk of the populace only navigate the world in stereotypes, and actually get deeply upset and uncomfortable when they aren't performed. I thought all those stereotypes were bad things and behaviors they hated in the first place, but racists actually seem to love "angry", "loud" and "ghetto" black people and promote them whenever they can. They even try to copy them and obsessively listen to their music. Maybe it's because it makes them feel like society (and therefore, the world) is simple, that only they are "real", varied humans, and that they don't have to worry about how they treat others or move through the world because they already know everything and everyone. Some of them literally admit to fantasizing about things ranging from aggression to literal racial violence being enacted on them, and I just don't understand putting that sort of thing on something as arbitrary as race.
The person who replied to you with racism earlier was probably another example of what I'm talking about, and they're likely fuming that they didn't get the kind of response they wanted. I wish they'd just leave us alone, but that's not the intended function of racism. Sorry for blogging, this thread just reminded me of these feelings.

>>132576
damn, almost a 10 year difference. but thank you for the encouraging words

>>132577
because we don't confirm/affirm their racist biases, and that pisses them off way more than people who do.
look at all the media they push to the forefront about black people in general, always appropriating aave and slangs. they like using it as a mockery and as a corroboration to what they think is true about blk people. absolutely horrendous.

i was always extremely different from that notion as well, i used to even have people accuse me of using a voice changer when i'd tell them im black online because i dont "sound black", which is so foolishly said, but its perceptions many non blk ppl harbor. thats inherently why i hate my existence more, for the fact that before even getting perceived for who i am, i get treated based on what i am. its a tiring, overall suicidebait inducing fate for a society so classist, lookist and neuronormative.

which comment with racism ru talking about though? i havent seen any

yep and it's so goddamn awful. i do not function at all and the thought that i have to live like this forever because those disabilities are incurable really hurts.

Newly diagnosed with ADHD, and was just looking for somewhere to vent as a . Being undiagnosed for my whole life (30f) I want to say has in many ways ruined aspects of my life. I guess I should be happy that Im not saying it ruined my WHOLE life but I'm still grieving what could have been so much earlier. I failed out of university (already starting a new school tho I was at least able to do that in the process of getting diagnosed) and it was due to untreated ADHD symptoms. And then all of the other aspects of my life I have spent so much time feeling life a complete failure, or lazy, or unmotivated, or as though I simply dont have interest in things or hobbies thst I try to start and actually enjoy, but then drop abruptly because I cant make myself do it and nobody ever understood when I said I cant do something. But now… I'm on Adderall that I take almost every day, except I give myself breaks here and there when I plan to rot and relax. But when I tell you its such a rollercoaster of emotions in the difference between how I was and how I am now. Anyone else go through this? I'm so happy and my days are so much better, I even feel like I may someday get off my Celexa even because I'm feeling mentally so much better about myself and life, but that grief and guilt are still so strong. Like why didnt I fight to be tested sooner? Why didnt I do something about my failures sooner? Is it true what they say about women with ADHD masking better and getting diagnosed later because of if? Is that why I never did anything about it? Idk s, I'm just trying to not live qith regret for the past. But its hard. Thanks for reading my vent.

>>132538
That sucks. You've been playing life on hard mode. Do tell more about those improvements when you're on meds.
Perhaps i should get officially diagnosed too, i want to be able to read a page of text in one go, without getting distracted by my own thoughts a hundred times.

>>132539
I'm on i think week 4 of Adderall XR. I started on 15mg and needed a small bump to 20mg which seems to be the sweet spot for me. Honestly? My head has never been so quiet, all of the background noise and racing thoughts and absolute dread is gone. I dont freeze up anymore when I have tasks, I dont feel overwhelmed, emotionally I am more level headed than ever and dont get overstimulated anymore. I have linear trains of thought and I can actually focus on whaf I'm doing. Start a task and see it through to the end without dropping it or going off on another task in the middle of one. And as for reading, I finally picked up my books again and my focus has never been better when I'm reading. I start school again in September and I'm really looking forward to seeing everything i can achieve with the proper tools to do it. If youre thinking about getting diagnosed, do it! I truly, truly wish I did sooner. I spent the first few days on Adderall crying because I cant explain it any other way than I felt SO normal. Not euphoric or hyper or anything like that, but just… capable. I wish you well with your own journey, its so worth it to get treatment.

adhd + bpd with bipolar tendencies. its fucking hell on earth i dont think i could ever experience anything worse living with this. but at least im smart

>>132556
online friends aren't real, retard.

>>132561
exactly hence why i implied your twt clout is not real, pls stop projecting on me

>>132562
I don't use /pol/ adjacent websites like you. Go back stupid handmaiden.

>>132554
wait what? who is she jfc

>>132550
im so fucking sorry my god, this is exactly why im a misanthrope, humans are so fucking disgusting and it's even worse in a patriarchal world ran by evil, sadisticly perverse wicked m*n. i really hope things get better 4 u

>>132464
What's this dichotomy. I prefer relating to the guys who investigate the murder over those two.

>>132463
I think this is understandable, words have meanings and diluting their meaning reduces their utility and can devalue the associated thing the word exists to describe. I think you can distinguish "interpersonal manipulation," which to me seems to be the prior definition I gave and what your image describes from the rhetorical manipulation the video title uses. The root is the same, in the sense that a person is trying to manipulate context and perception to achieve a desired outcome, but one is diffuse and not targeted whereas the other involves direct interference with the victim by the manipulater. Interpersonal manipulation seems to me to be a more significant, damaging, and reprehensible act whereas manipulative rhetoric, while potentially damaging, is not as "personal" or insidious.

I think there are basically common techniques that can be applied across context, medium, and purpose but it's the social distance between victim and perpetrator that seems to be what I'm pulling at.

I do feel I am contradicting myself, however, because you could argue it's not distance but intent. Someone is projecting by accusing someone of doing something they are doing with the intent to truly confound and sow doubt within the victim, whereas a false accusation may simply be to quiet them. Still, both of these FEEL like the end result is manipulation meant to gain some positional leverage over the victim. Is that not manipulation?

The behaviorists liked using rats not just because they were easy to keep and kept the costs and controversies associated with experiments low, but also because they are presumed to be free of contamination by language.

>>132492
>Someone is projecting by accusing someone of doing something they are doing with the intent to truly confound and sow doubt within the victim, whereas a false accusation may simply be to quiet them. Still, both of these FEEL like the end result is manipulation meant to gain some positional leverage over the victim. Is that not manipulation?

I think those specific examples are because they’re instrumental and deceptive on some level. So I do think any action that is used to deceptively gain leverage is manipulative. But the way the picture positions this is stupid. I mean, the manipulative part here is not the projection. If this was darvo I’d agree.

I'm not a fan of how the economy encourages creating retarded shit to make money like selling ass scratchers, labubu shit, protein bar fad, whatever. I can't even find good examples of this right now because they're all so useless they get phased out of the mind immediately
I'm not anticapitalist or anything like this but it is obnoxious.

Yeah, this is something people always say about ecelebs, I know. But I believe the ecelebs actually do have a use, though unethical, as propagandists or something. But imagine working as the guy who comes up with all those useless trinkets. Oh right, and don't get me started on the shit products that barely work so they're borderline useless. And planned obsolence.

And I know there's the obvious objection "but WHO decides what is useful or not". Yeah, a labubu or a protein bar will be be very useful on an individual level for some, no contest here. But most of this stuff will be gathering dust, occupying space and filling a landfill.
The problem isn't really the usefulness or the lack of it, but rather garbage designed purely for profit rather than utility or something. Money is fake, the economy is fake. Oh right, don't even get me started on the speculative debt reselling jobs or something like that, whatever the Wallstreet guys are doing.

>>132442
>join the retards
>take the L
Nice options, reddit.

The black pill is realizing that none of your revenge fantasies will ever come true.
Especially this one that people keep promising you:
>The best revenge is a life lived well and happily.
That's the one least likely to come true of all.

>>132542
You have become one of them!

They don't like what you always liked, they actually do something much more worse and sinister: they normiefy and enshittificate the things you liked, and even the band you used to like has mostly lost its soul and style

Being mad as this is like being mad at mold that ate your bread, yeah, it is upsetting but it's also pointless to be mad at something that doesn't possess a brain or consciousness

>>132542
spoken like a true bully right? it's not even true because my best friend was bullied by her own brother and sister and yet her life now is great and the siblings life is shit so

Join clubs! I went to the board game club and found friends there.
After 3 years I still talk to 0 people in my classes.

>>132499
Go talk to that guy who had a crush on you. It's easy.

>>132504
My college doesnt offer clubs except for singing and dancing, i dont reallly enjoy any of those :(



>>132506
he's a big time retard and wants to fuck me, i donot like him and i can bear his retarded personality he's all about flexing

>>132504
>board game club
Fuuuuuuck no

>>132499
So you expect me to believe there's some conspiracy to hate on you for no reason? I'm not that gullible. There's something you're not telling us

You probably seem harmless and kind, and that type of thug really likes to hit on women. If you dress better, they might think you have more money and want to ask you for more things; the best thing to do is walk around with a serious face, homeless people and drug addicts like to intimidate people who seem excessively kind.

>>131808
No milf for canadians

>>131772
Nod and walk away.

Update: maybe it hasn't been long enough to make a real observation. But it seems like people are ghetto around me and not toward me lmao. I also got a job. Have had zero crackhead encounters or middle aged women try and fight me. My theory is that I look rich enough to sue them.

>>131767
ladies are nice to me because they can tell that i am kind of autistic by my penetrating brown-eyed gaze and don't feel threatened by me. i also have a baby-face.
in general, i think most people are nicer to you when you look better. in my country i have high trust features (i am pale) so that makes people trust me quickly and be nice to me.
i think you should fight those ladies back. show them how a real schizo fights.

>>132452
I feel like that when i run out of weed too.

you can quit, I promise. it took mea really long time to taper down until I finally stopped but I successfully did and I feel like a different person now.

>>132456
i stopped doing weed a while ago
but i am deeply destroyed on the inside there's no recovery
going to delete myself from the earth server eventually too much shit haunting me

>>132452
I used to feel like this a lot of the time when I was younger. I'm not much older now, but somewhere between 22 and 23 my brain finished developing and I decided that suicide wasn't an option. That made me consider how everything else was possible. I had recently survived a suicide attempt around that time, too. I've also struggled with pill addiction, and I still will do most pills I get my hands on… I can tell you that the pain will stop, and not only when you die, but it can stop now while you are still alive. I tell you this because I was once you. I think I also got some slight brain damage from pills and I don't remember a lot of things. It's not too bad. Is your mom supportive of you?

build a decontamination chamber in your house

>>131787
do not worry
there will be no house if this is not dealt with somehow

If they're not spayed and neutered, then doing so should help a lot. If they already are and they stink that much… they are susceptible to human illnesses; you could try to give them the flu.

>>131785
kill yourself bf haver